saturday.

sianz.
wad u wanna expect for sats?
stay hm to study, play com...
lol.

life is seriously sian stime.
quite buay tahan stime one larhs.
and i feel this blog lyk nobody visit.
cuz no one tagging.
lol.

and den.
kept thinking of wad mingkang said ytd...
"eh i tell u arh, XXX say that u and XXXX got potential to be XXX..."

whoa.
erm...
lyk giv me a boost to work harder larhs.
but maybe expect joel to work even harder.
let's see.
the capable takes all.

well,
i calculated my life using my own simulator..

- study study study from pri sch to sec sch.
- go into some poly or JC taking some stupid course...lyk engineering.
- seve ns.
- go U....waste 4-5 years...
- work...or even join army...
- until i got my family...i work evne worse..
- retire...
- and i died.

sometimes life repeat in some patterns.
which i dun really hope to see so.
but seriously there's nth to spice up life.
well,
tell me wad suprise can i find everday i go to sch?
any competitions in ncc that makes me go enthu?
well,
i wanna be somebody.

friday.

oh yeah.
went to sch early to chiong hist.
one last pak.
then morning parade..
PE.
hmm..
u run, and u play frisbee.
nth special.
and wonder whether the tcher frm OCS.
so fit.

bio.
kinda okay.
and EL.
okay,
dude i nvr learn my spelling.

after recess was lit.
sianz.
some ppl lost my script.
but not pek chek at all.
write new one.
then go perform.
act as cherry valance.
whoo hoo.
dunno i got so many supporters one.
and have to apologize to kenny for letting the class decides on the roles.

hist,
then CE,
and had HCL.
sian sian sian.

hmm...
after sitting in that seat for one whole day..
gotta say i admire the person sitting in front of me.
i 敬佩 her, dun think in the wrong direction.
well,
she just have nice personality and nice attitude.
that's all.

and then.
eat,
change into no 4,
test.
no kick man.
and went down for training,
wow,
so many part a.
and was ask to change into PT kit,
and have IFC.
gotta have the test soon.

and then,
change back to no 4,
which we take a long time to do so and got owned.
and ltr we have drills,
drill drill drill...
learn the homad kekenan thing...
last time bro teach b4 but forgot timing...
lol.

and then.
dismiss and went hm.

hmm.
life is a bit of tiring today,
but i simply lyk it.
lol.

thursday.

the day started off normally.
with maths lessons.
then have PW.
so shiok.
it was a memorable time.

and then.
after recess was slacking CE.
followed by literature,
which giv me headaches about the skit.
u see,
i nid to act as dally winston,
but david and eugene left my grp.
and came huiwen and yanhau.
and if u gonna have huiwen as cherry valance...
no no no,
i nid a woman with charm.
so decide to act as marcia(wtf).
den wanna act as cherry or dally with kenneth.
but he seems toi be reculant.
well,
u have to sacrifice sometimes.
same for me,
but not now.
things will be better if joanne, david or eugene nvr left the grp.

and so.
have HCL.
okay okay,
plain plain.
the was physics,
and then.
home.

have cca + hist test tmr.
still got pe.
a bit tiring sia.
haiz.
must prepare a lot of things today.
must chiong.

lol.

normal sch day.
sian sian one.
den went to sch.
and talk a bit.
then morning parade.
el lessons.
sianz.
maths,
and we had recess.

had a three period DT today.
mr ng says my work must elaborate more.
maybe u not happy with my work.
den he super happy with kenneth work,
draw nice nice,
everything ho say,
but bcuz of that i nid help him find conveyor belts and motor.
lol.
den the mr tan say my work very gd.
go potential do mechanic stuff.
lol.

and then.
hist.
then cl.
damn sian.
den chat until tcher ask me to read the PM report.
lol.
haiz.
sian day.
some more 15 ppl go ssp tmr.
maths.
damn suai.

a sian day went by.
tmr got PW.
all boys think of playing ba-lak at crystal ling lesson.
but hu will bring the pak-gau?
lol.

i await for a better tmr.
but then.
fri got test.
plus cca.
this week not so gd.
nxt wk more worse.
more test.

whoa.
life is stressful.
some more got 6 more pics to draw for DT.
maybe all use kenneth idea.
no, is HIS and MINE idea.
our ling gan.
lol.

so.
that's all.

2nd day of the first lunar month.

and so.
u slp 1 plus ytd.
and woke up at 9.
and expect to go to somne places today.

well,
i would rather slack at home.
this yr CNY not fun..
only two days.
den u return to sch.
and CTs and spelling.
still haven do my el work.
lol.

sch is very very sian.
imagine some of ur classmates are such ppl.
den u go to sch lyk want to die stimes.
den CNY break is a waste of time.
u can lose up to 100 bucks on the gambling table.
well.
life is dull sometimes.

sch reopening tmr.
i dun look forward larhs.
as u noe i dun have much frens in sch.
return to sch onli study.
den my bro sch tmr can wear casuals and starts at 8.
wtf zhss got larhs?
celebration day still full day.
haiz.

i await for better adventure.
but life is nice sometimes if i can ba-lak the whole day,
plus i keep winning.

first day of first lunar mth.

and u expect that u slp at 4 ytd.
den u wake up at nine.
well,
partying and going temples ytd nite.

and the first thing to do after waking up is com.
your usual msn, blogger, facebook and tribal wars.
a sad thing is that they dun give CNY privillege.
lol.

and today many relatives came over to my hse.
wad a big crowd!
den u can blackjack dai di the whole morning.
lol.

and den.
this yr's CNY holidays are too short.
our dear fortune teller says it is no gd to return to work or sch on 28/1(third day).
why not have another day of holiday?
does the garmen wants to see us doing so bad this yr?
lol.

yes and u celebrate CNY with ur families.
not much difference every yr.
somehow i believe in the years ahead.
i will not look forward to CNY.
cuz u get the same things every yr,
and not much diff.
its justa two days holiday for us to take a break.
and then u expect common tests after the holidays.

well,
not much wishes for this year of ox.
may ZHSS NCC(LAND) prosper the years ahead,
securing more awards and one more best unit award.

the day b4 CNY

30th day of the 12th lunar month.

today's marks an end to the yr of the rat.
awaiting a new lunar year,
many people expects better coming this yr.

of course,
i do have some new yr wishes,
none other than "good results", "good life", "good health".

and so.
notmuch to write today,
i still have to get my work settle.
den,
relax for 2 days,
and then expect a lot of CTs to come.

dun wanna wish u guys happy new yr,
as unhappy things always happen,
so no use saying "HAPPY new yr".

maybe this could be a better lunar yr.
a better starting?

" not bending my back for five dou of rice "
Tao Yuanming.

to stay upright, uncorrupted, selfless, righteous. is the most appreciated way.

but then, is everyone able to do so?

friday.

yeah.
today's friday.
lessons are quite nice.
pe.
get to exercise.
den got bio.
el.

recess.
sianzzz.
den is lit.
den history.
den CNY celebration.

NCC.
much more on drilling today.
and we have much room for improvements.
so,
we drill and drill.
and have higher expectations on ourselves.
target to achieve the best we can.

and then.
it ended quite early,
around five.
sat down for a leisure talk with mates.
lol.
talk on one of my classmate.
"the wall".
and how the hell brandon got her number?
hope she wun get harass.
lol.

CNY's coming.
not much new year wishes.
just wish that ZHSS NCC can take a further step ahead,
and life can be much much more better.

thursday.

and so.
the day is the same.
just that PW is a bit of fun.
ms ling always go easy on us,
but this makes me think she sometimes does not have the tcher's strictness.
lol.

bored lessons today,
after recess.
the time went by,
and,
is it there lyk...just studying.

well.
have been used to the days of being alone.
somehow lone ranger experience makes me more stronger.
u noe, when lyk not they h8 u,
but they dislyk u and thinks wad u do is wrong for much of the times,
and then does not change perspective of u,
well,
im been used to it,
since the bad start.
and i just got pissed off in the morning by some freaks.

perhaps life is going this way,
well,
the more i experience,
the more i understand.

there's NCC tmr,
so nt going back to meridian.
well,
i do miss those carefree days.

wednesday.

okays.
lessons.
only dnt i found it fun.
lol.
but got lotsa hw today.
gonna chiong it.

and so.
i look forward to friday only.
lol.
CNY celeb.
then still got NCC...

not gonna say so much.
just wanna say the new class blog design quite nice.
and and.
let me do my work first.

tuesday.

alrite.
another day lyk the others.
u go to sch,
mug mug mug,
den u talk talk talk,
then u go home.
dun wanna put into details.

and den.
today's erm...same larhs.
except that tests are pulling nearer.
so is CNY.

and so.
that's all.

monday.

and so.
life started off.
and sch started.

morning stuff,
new sitting arrangement might pissed th gals in front and bk of me.
and then,
we went off for morning assembly.

lessons.
physics,
then hav el.
then recess.
eat eat play play.

then.
we hav ceramics.
not first time doing,
done once when was in art club(pri).
den slab slab.
roll roll.

cl.
some kind of sian lessons.
then hav maths.
ooh.
not bad.
then hist.
then sch ended.

was ask to see ms suba after sch.
den.
talk bout me and the class.
commented on weibin's effort.
(dun say i nvr help u horhs).
and she arrange for me to see mr ivan lee.

have a light chat with him till 3 plus.
and i went hm.
saw my bro slping on bed.
oh, he came bk frm exercise thunder warrior.
lol.

~~~

well,
heard that some ppl say im gd at making ppl disliking me.
well,
sort of shyt larhs,
we wan to be dislyk.

and,
life seems to be as dull as usual.
i rmb one very nice gal said to me:
"live life ur way."

i still cant wonder why i am changing myself for the sake of my class.
maybe they accpet me cuz they pity me,
they wan a full 40 ppl register,
they dun wan me to "make trouble".

life harsh.
only when things turn out this way.

shared this kind of things with mr lee.
i am just wondering.
is it worth it?

second part.

second part of the day.

and so.
came back frm shopping.
brought a new bag and wallet.
and erm...
currently waiting for martin(2e3) to return hm.
so i can call him for the CL words.

and then.
tmr my bro's returning frm ex. thunder warrior.
he gonna stress up wif com and hw.
so maybe i cant use com that often liao.
lol.

well.
life today is relaxing.
and now.
im waiting for a brand new day to come,
to challenge it.

~~~

sunday.

its a sunday morning again.
maybe i must get all my things settled and buy a bag ltr.
and then...
do my work?

have been chatting to TW tribesmen a couple of minutes ago.
he said it was 2am in england, so i let him slp.

well,
i look forward to experience the new sitting arrangement tmr,
and then...
dunno whether those ppl will complain not...
about me sitting beside them..

and then.
that's all.

saturday.

today suppose to be parent's forum.
but i choose to not attend.
for some special reasons.

and so.
life today might be a bit of bored.
and aimless.
well.
that are how weekends goes about.
might want to study in the afternoon.

ytd nite chat with an old classmate.
from, pri sch, yea, pri sch.
told her how i feel.
feel bad in the class.
and erm...
i finally understand how christine felt than.
morever is my class h8 me nia.
last time the WHOLE COHORD h8 her. lol.
but she manage to survive for 5-6 yrs.
maybe we were to rash and childish last time.
but wad about now?

let life be nice and simple.
that's all i want.

friday.

and so.
came to sch today.
and then...
usual stuff larhs.

then.
got cohord run.
hiong hiong run 11 rounds around the sports hall and field.
then got pe.
hiong run also.
then got height and weight, frisbee.

bio.
quite okay.
followe by eng.
which i received bad news.
was put into sai place(my last yr position).
knn i cant study.
began to du lan.

after recess.
i so du lan till tell the monitor.
then.
when go talk to martin.
qhan also keep du lan-ing me.
wtf.

lessons ended pretty easy.
and change into no 4.
then got lecture.
waste my time.

NCC.
nice larhs.
today got part a come.
then very fun.
learn IFC under sir suffian.
whooz.
so shuang.
den got company jog.
also very shuang.
sir daryl teach us songs.
also very shuang.
then after that last parade.
and we went home.

~~~

still rmb today ms lisa scolded me.
"why u keep going to him and talk non-stop?"
i replied:
"he's my only gd fren in this class. the others hate me."
and she said:
"well, by the end of this term, maybe u will make them lyk u?"

well.
seriously after being pissed today.
ms lisa words brought me into thoughts.
"well will the class accept me once again if i change? or still lyk the same?"
i can guess wad qhan said to huixin today:
"he bu shuang maybe cuz he nvr be monitor."
lol. saikang warrior.

anw.
i seems to be against the class.
someone must always play bad guy.
but why me?
juz because i used to shout?
and i do drills in class?
that was history last yr.

anw.
i must confess.
i dun really have much frens in the class.
maybe more enemies.
till today, maybe i myself is left alone standing.
but then.
when will they understand, lyk wad mr tham said?

孤军作战，
逆境求生；
惟有一律，
永不退缩！

thursday.

erm.
well.
kinda bored day today.
climax in the morning is when we went for PW.
okay.
ms ling just simply rocks.
lol.

those sian sian lessons today.
then tmr have cohort run.
lol.
is no kick one lorhs.

and den.
heard that ms suba might tell the gasl bout me liaos.
will there be more vengeance to come?
just hope for the best.
and and heard ms suba wans to arrange seating arrangement.
lol.
gonna be separated...and maybe put beside some bitch.
lol.

read the duty roster today.
one ans: it wun work.
serious.

and so.
today was spent aimlessly.
training and lecture tmr.
will there be any part a?
wanna see some part a...

wednesday.

and so.
the day is lyk the same.
lessons and stuff.
except that e3 was kept for recess detention.
to sing national anthem.
den iman tio pump.
chair zha bo was called to solo.
lol.

at least today got more spare time.
but then.
the waiting at the clinic in the afternoon burn the whole afternoon away.
haiz.
reach home at 4 plus.
quite sian.
maybe ltr go prepare ncc stuff first.
so tmr can slack.

~~~

well.
today go talk to ms suba.
my mother called ms suba too.
just talking bout the class.
every simple reason.
"WHY U GUYS TREAT ME LYK SHIT, JUST BECAUSE I WAS A LEGALIST MONITOR LAST YR?"

and den.
just hope the boys can be more matured.
lyk david.
and some others.
then have more fashion sense.
then not so weird.
the gals can understand things better.

till now.
i am still being isolated.
worse than martin.
den u guys siam me.
gals think i am irrespondsible and unreasonable.
boys think i am hao lian and idiotic.
i guess.
i might be far more better if i were in other classes.
haiz.

talked to ms sube liao.
but will work?
to have some ppl,
no, all ppl,
against u as they misunderstand it.
have no communiciation.
u can DIE.

a great fine day.

and so.
tuition ytd.
was a nice one
the first time ever that me and christine can sit down and talk calmly.
well.
in fact she's much more matured, that's why.
since then.
i understand the meaning of "matured".

and then.
today some disatrous thing happen.
gee tat frm 4n1 polished my seat with saliva.
and yet the guys only tell me after recess.
oh my.
kenny chang saw it and nvr even bother.
at least nigel told me.
u guys nxt time dun play such a prank.

after sch.
mr otto tham talked to me and gee tat.
nigel, afraid of gee tat's authority in CO,
told mr tham gee tat sapit "accidentally".
but at least the case gets settled.
better than nth.

just wanna thanks and condemm a few ppl:

thanks to samantha, for helping me to talk with gee tat. even though u nvr did, but still, thnks a bunch. and thnks to mr tham, helping me to settle the shit, although ui nvr get all the facts rite. and thnks to nigel for telling me that thing.

david and gang: awful prank. no more nxt time. or else watch out.

nigel: damn u for telling me so late. but still, thnks a lot.

(sensored): wah lan..noe my chair got saliva still make me sit there one morning. damn cb leh u. make sure im pay back.

qhan: just nid u to change ur perspective of thoughts towards me. we only left not more than a year.

monday!

and so.
reach sch quite late today.
then today bring another bag to sch.
20% hot pink + 80% black.
den go in class.
everyone amazed then cheer lyk fk.
lols, one bunch of conservative ppl, is it?
not all larhs, but quite a number.
nvr see guy use pink. LOL.

den.
BB day.
see how they cock up.
lol.
maybe NCC can do better.
make sure we trash SJAB at 7/1.

and den.
go do the physics thingy,
in com lab.
den boring el,
recess.
haiz.
quite sian.

cl and maths,
some better stuff,
den history,
then home.
harhs, mr iswaran wan us to do essay tmr.
...

currently clearing all my work.
...
must work hard for CT1 after CNY!

sian sunday.

one very sian day.
got nth to do.
den.
tmr got sch.
well,
at least im occupied with sch tmr.

juz nw play mahjong on viwawa with ervin.
then we help each other to game.
lol.

expected the whole day to be sian today.
and then.
tmr got tuition.
haiz.
wonder wad's in for me.

saturday.

early early go sch.
den.
wait to have CIP.
go canteen, den audi.
den after briefing.
go start CIP.

and so.
went out in the streets.
go to the flats.
collect newspaper and stuff.
quite tedious.

and den.
had some jokes.
den.
take some fotos.
and had dismissal.
go play foosball in zhss.
den.
lunch with bros.
den soccer with bb and npcc CI.
den went home with ervin.
he cusrrently trying to play my deleted GTA VC.

and so.
today's still okay.
and den.
can someone tell me wad's missing frm my life?

friday.

okays.
simple life started in sch.
went to sch.
go parade sq.
den PE.
followed by sci and el.

recess.
not much to say.
and then,
lit,
followed by hist and ce.
then had hcl, which i spent slacking away.

fall in at 1350.
den.
went for PT.
duckwalk.
QUACKQUACKQUACK.
and also some other conditioning.

den.
break, followed by drills.
after which we went to amphi for a short briefing,
den went home.

CIP tmr.
nid go sch.
...

simple life.
but yet interesting.
at least better than last yr.
however.
i do find sth missing frm my life.
can anyone tell me wad it is?

wednesday.

another day of sch life,
which u feels normal.
at least now going to sch is much more better.
more things to do.
more interesting lessons.

life is repeating of the same pattern every week,
maybe until the days whr tests comes.
just wonder wad's in for me,
and wants something nice.

there's lit and PW tmr,
argh,
nid bring the project to sch.
den,
ms vanita is our PW tcher.
-.-lll

seriously,
i dun lyk wanna stay in today and wants tmr desperately those moods.
wad i just do everyday is,
"spend my time fufilling. do wad i shall do."

there's much hw today,
not gonna crap so much.
maybe nxt time.

tuesday.

and so.
life sarted off pretty good today.
i reach sch.
den chat with classmates.
den went to hall.

those ppl have some talks thr.
and den.
talk talk talk.
very long.
and after assembly.
nid to listen for CIP thing on sat.
den afternoon nid go give out flyers.

and den.
went back to class with kenny for lessons.
the bio tcher not bad larhs, quite nice person.
just her classes are a bit quiet.
and den.
el had the self intro thingy.
to do with nouns and verbs.
hahas.
quite funny.

recess.
and den.
lessons.
had history first.
then had music.
music was nice today.
hahas.

then.
was chinese.
and then maths.
which ended the day.

then.
went for lunch.
and then go give out flyers.
with kah chee, jenny, jon, weihan.
quite tiring.
then.
met martin and jun li they all on the way.
talk a bit.
then we call it a day.

went to 7-11 b4 going off.
then me and jon took bus home.
the end.

argh,
why this yr newspaper collection dun hav part a?
maybe nxt yr will have.

life's getting sort of better.
lessons are fun.
hope it at least keep this way.

monday.

well.
lessons start officialy today.
so.
went to sch.
sit down.
joke in the morning.

and then.
after morning parade.
met all those tchers as the time goes.
new physics tcher, new el tcher, new art tcher, new math and hist tcher...

quite interesting ppl, they are.
lyk mr iswaran and mr tham.
nice ppl.
den had the same cl tcher as last yr.
oh god.

tmr the class wanna sabo kenny and jiannan to be monitor.
lol.
gd luck for them.
well is actually the boys saboing jiannan and kenny.
lol.

tuition ltr,
wanna see wad's in for me.
life,
is at least,
better today.

and so, he leaves his footsteps here.

simple.

Demi-Gods and Semi-Demons : All just a way to potray the characteristics of human beings. As holy as a Deva, as unholy as an Asura; they just lies in the heart of humanity.

another day.

another boring weekend,
which life's just revolves around slacking.

not much things on today,
and life is just com, tv, slp, and some other slack stuff.

maybe the next week will be a better one.
more stuff to come?

just hope that life would be better somehow.
its tiring to have a boring life.

maybe can face better outcomes.
maybe i should do it myself.

argh,
let life change.
we need reforms.

first day.

a great day today, which i had learn something new.
not really something new, but this helps me to realise some stuffs.

well.
ity started off in the toliet, taking lectures by seniors.
not really lectures, but they're advising me on my actions, words, point of view.
and perspection thoughts.
thye help me realise many things, help me understand.
after all, they're people who might gone through the same stuff again.

i must really thank them for accpeting me once again,
and for giving me a chance.
even though sometimes during training they might give us misunderstanding,
but i realise they were good seniors.

helping me to understand my mistakes.
helping me to get the right perspection.
they explain to me.
and understand me.
even though they gave me misunderstandings,
but today,
they showed me that they were people of real qualifications.

well.
i promise not to repeat the same mistakes again,
and also to be a better person.
just hope that after accepting me once more,
you seniors can gfive me chances to soar again.

to have a right perspectivew of thinking,
is not to think from the side of both parties,
but to think it by a view of a passer by, who can understand the matter.

thanks to senior sheng xun for your chance given,
and also to senior clement, that i realise that you are a real nice person.
and once again, i apologize to senior winston, for the crap last time,
and also thank you to senior jinchun, for giving me some chances.

not cherishing the chances givcen last time,
i take for granted too much,
i missed out too much,
and i had lost too much.

perhaps its not too late to repent, i hope so,
but the acceptance you're willing to give me,
will be the best chance given.

maybe me and some other people use to misunderstood you seniors,
but today,
or even before,
i had already understand you seniors are actually 用心良苦 all the time.

senior sheng xun and senior clement hasd pointed out my bad points today, and made me understand.
i will repay your efforts,
by doubling the enthu and hard work,
and also showing better attitude, and the right thinking perspective.
after all,
i did all for recognition,
not totally for rank.

thank you, senior sheng xun, senior clement, senior winston,
you seniors had been our wonderful, friend, mentor, senior.
also thank you to senior winston for your kindness and big hearted,
i understand the hard work you give us, the platoon.

i understand that maybe some cadets think your ranks are just authority and power,
but for me,
i always treat it as a recognition and a fruit of labour.

for the most that has taught me, change me,
was the company, and the seniors.
not only they teach us about things used in the military,
but also stuff that can be used outside the military,
not only survival skills and so,
but morals, perspection, understanding.

it must be counted as a blessing for me to get to know you seniors.
a great thank you, for everything you have given me.

知错能改，善莫大焉。
this was a thing that senior sheng xun and senior clement taught me today.
it is always never to late to change, to repent, to understand.

i know don't fully respect the five staff sergeants for their ranks and capabilities,
but for the right stuff they given us,
the morals they taught us,
and most importantly,
the experience and understanding they given us in all fields.

once again,
thank you.
you seniors made me understand a lot.

first day.

today's 1 Jan 2009.
and then.
nt much really happen today.
life is still quite sian.

anyway.
sch's reopening tmr.
gonna have many stuffs going on.
and NCC training!
and iman(zhss iljimae) coming to our class!
think so, as the timetable got "ML".

well.
not much wishes for new yr.
just wish for a better life.
more friends.
more fun.
and results and ncc.
that's all.

well.
maybe again tmr those ppl will give me cold shoulder.
but nvm.
my fighting spirit is not dead yet.
just wanna see martin, ncc cadets, and all my bros tmr.
hope thye're fine.

This is not an end, not a new beginning, but a sequel.