sunday.

its another fresh sunday morning.

i'm sitting in front of the com,
facebooking, scrolling my msn contact list, staring at ppl's blog.
some were my classmates, some my frens,
and this made me think bk of the past.

sometimes,
i just like to think bk of the past.
comparing of the days of how gangster i was,
how fast we were able to draw knifes so fast,
how sometimes we played truant,
how strong we were in close combat.
in another perspective,
all this made me think how matured i hav become.

and those days,
let me thought of,
how all of us were so close,
recess was nth than a game of soccer,
how we compare skills with the malays;
northeast ppl were a bunch of easy ppl,
we are just simply easy going,
when a quarrel just happen,
we can forget it in 1 second time.
our pack had real talents,
those real sportsman, real scholars.
we also had real scums, real gangster.

in a blink of eye, six yrs passed.
i brought my easy come easy go attitude to the south.
but it was a wrong choice.
those ppl aint as easy going as us the north easterners,
some can hold a grudge for as long as a yr.
they are not so generous as the north easterners.

somehow, perhaps i cant really get along with them,
is the big difference of personality between us.
and yet, because of this reason,
i tend to mature more.

another two more yrs,
maybe i'll leave the south for gd,
returning to the northeast,
where i was born, bred, grew up as a man of the streets.

till this day,
i still miss the northeast.
you might say im weird,
but, those guys at zhss does not hav anything to let me praise of,
except for a few lyk koh chin, leo.

saturday.

okay, holidays started.

ytd was such a busy, yet fun day.
well, was called to do the dnt lego thingy,
but turn out that dongyi and zhengda has to settle my shit.
anw, who ask them dun wan do whenh i ask them to!

then was ncc foto taking.
keep screwing around with chee keong.
nxt yr sure screw him. lol.

ok, after lunch,
was live range lerhs.
go safti there,
then still have to help encik low set up things first
but quite fun.
then the specs there quite interactive.
encik low also very joker.

ok,
shooting live rounds is a fun thing.
as you shoot,
you feel the impact as well as smell the gunpowder.
then i go thr lyk suka suka shoot.
cuz a bit lyk pasar malam game.
then sergeant khairul(a real specialist) and a NCC sir say i shoot very good.
my asisstant say i tio all target.
aiya, can pass can liao.

then in the end bcuz of the pasar malam game,
part b got 15 marksman.
and abt 7 full marks.
im one of them. lol.

all of a sudden,
at least with this ability,
i feel more secure walking my roads of ambition,
which all along,
i have been walking along.
at last,
i knew i have something i was gd in,
that i could brag abt.
hashiridase! dare yori mo sono saki e!

i believe,
as long as i perservere,
im gonna make those who once look down on me,
kowtow to me!

thursday.

ok, im so sian till i hav to cm here.

life is seriously damn busy these days.
but, after tmr, i can take a small break.
and things aint going damn well this time.
just feel like slping.
but, just cant afford to.

ytd after the wkshop,
we went bk to training.
ok, it was already dismissal time(wtf?),
and part a were going hm.
then, part b had a private conversation.

seriously, our team chemistry needs a lot of improvement.
after all, we're all working as one nxt time.
just dunno why ppl like power struggle so much.
actually, i do enjoy it sometimes.
but the results aint a ncie scene.

just gonna spent the whole day rotting in sch,
and ltr going hm preparing my no 4.
tmr is live range liao.
well,
now is a crucial period.
i cant afford to slacken down.

tuesday.

wah piang eh, need more fuel liao.

ytd had 2.4km run....and it wasnt so gd larhs.
gonna re-run again.
and today had soccer and some others for PE...
and orient trng.
near to 5km run....
and even koh chin is dried out somehow.
and we went off only after KID 70.

okay.
nowadays gonna be quite hectic,
gonna pack the files,
and NCC stuff,
lit proj...blah blah.
class isnt getting any better,
nah, i can see the reason iman's not talking so much here.
"e4 more lively, and they more cooperate larh. very bond larh."

oh,
as life gets more hectic and busy,
you'll really wish you have someone fighting with you.
but for me,
i had to deal with all this myself.
after all,
its just a skill that i mastered over the yrs.
somehow, you'll fight even tougher and stronger,
becasue you're walking along.

btw,
today when i was sitting down beside the court,
i saw how the gals cheered for eugene and weibin.
i went wondering-
where would my talent be? parade sq, shooting range? nah.
somehow, i think im too pathetic,
"i have no talents to showcase."
"i dun really have abilities, and im not academically strong."
"i dun look gd, i have bad attitude."

being a negative person,
in terms of abilities and inner/outer self,
i have to fight double the effort.
that's why,
so far, im still here, nvr emo, nvr angered.
i can only afford to fight, counter attack over failures.
that's why i keep retaking my 2.4km run.
because, i cannot afford to emo, much less lose.
that's why, i have nvr fall bk.
once i did so, it will take me decades to respawn.

as i have always believe,
one day,
i'll make those who have despise me,
kneel down, and kowtow to me,
acknowledging my power and authority.
while other teens are after love and relationship,
i'm after wealth, fame, power.
BANZAI!

sunday

this is one of the epic moment of One Piece.
if you may ask me, wad is the reason for me to watch this anime,
it is the virtues and charactheristics potrayed in it.

take a look at the first mate.
the only one that address the captain as "Captain",
unlike the many other crew that called him "idiot", "baka", etc.

the utmost loyalty given to the captain,
as well as to the extend of sacrificing your life,
is a hard-to-see scene in this society now.
nowadays,
who would really serve their ultimate loyalty to only one master?

again,
the first mate potrayed the principles of Bushido.
"a samurai that dedicates his life and serves his loyalty only to one master.
when the master is gone, he is not a samurai but a ronin, a wandering man."

compared to many other anime,
the theme of friendship, loyalty, righteousness is potrayed strongly in One Piece.
and yet, these are the qualities we're lacking today.

perhaps MOE can introduce anime studying into literature.
somehow, study a modern film will keep us close to the modern world.
why the hell study something 400 yrs ago(shakey's macbeth)?
i bet we dun wanna revive feudalism rite?

once again,
i salute to the first mate,
as well as the cook,
and last but not least,
the creator of One Piece.

saturday.

getting a bit of tired,
just for finding information of shakespeare.

wad a bastard.
just because a damn trader wrote some stories,
we have to study it lyk hell today.
seriosuly,
macbeth ain't as gd as luo guanzhong's Romance of the Three Kingdoms,
that romeo shit ain't as gd as tang xianzu's The Peony Pavillion.

and oh,
there's some doubt to shakey's plays.
it was believe that he "copy" other playwrights of that era,
esp Chirstoper Marlowe, the great spy and top notch writer.

can you believe that a trader during the 16 century can write plays?
a illiterate trader, who style seems so much lyk christoper, can be a writer?

maybe he went on lyk guangxu of qing.
a puppet of history,
to continue and figurehead for someone's authority and work.
after all,
i believe shakey is either helping those playwrights for money,
or just making a pact with them.

there's too much mysteries in history,
waiting for us to solve.

friday.

music: One Piece Best Album
and wearing encik's no 4 pants.

ok, sports day was a waste of time.
go thr, do nth, then play floorball.
wah my keeping skills so noob that they tio 2 scores.
then lost. wtf.
class sure suan me liao.
but if anyone dares, they'll face my katana!

ok. ltr have to go bk to sch.
got the saluting contingent.
yeah, hopes it goes real well.
things are pretty fast paced today,
and maybe for the nxt few days barhs.

mah, damn sick of too much things in sch.
just wanna change, change, change.
and yeah,
i jogged all the way frm NYJC to the bus interchange just now.

ok, now,
i just nid to make sure things goes right(in my way larh!),
and they dun screw up badly.
just another wk,
i can take a break lerhs.

thursday.

another day that was pretty much busy.

tio meh a bit in the morning for those ppl who ponteng training.
haiz, nxt time must take good care of them. make training fun fun.

then,
lessons went on pretty usual,
and it was all the common noisy scene.
yeah, life is pretty much simple today,
just that have to pack stuffs for contingent tmr.
and the bio file, wtf!

well,
life's might be going pretty screwed nowadays.
seriously, it needs some changing.
the class screwed, the company's a bit chaotic, and so on...
life sometimes doesnt go so gd for you.

i rmb one of sir churchill's quote,
"history will be kind for you if you intend to change it."
that's the same with life,
life will be good for you if you intend to change it, rite?
from now onwards, i must destroy my competitors and foes,
no matter in wadsoever situations,
and change things as much as i can change.
after all,
life's only fun when it turns another way.

soon, a new era is going to be brought about.

wednesday.

mah, back to sch.

it was all checking of scripts in the morning.
and basically do not bad after all.

contingent in the afternoon.
just a full dress rehearsal,
and we went for a break.
yeah, an hour long break.
slack larhs, go watch performance.

then have to join bk for training.
go play play first with leonard,
then serious stuff with yiseng.
seriously, our standard is "not really that upstairs",
which is the cause that makes me determine for something-
to get the USM post and reform ZHNCC into wad is was lyk b4.

yea, and after a few drills,
was dismissal. slack arh?

and was so damn fking buay song with joel tan.
nvr go training, nvr get schedule, blame me?
gosh. aiya, not as if nvr tio sabo by him...
now, i just wanna concentrate on my studies,
and NCC, aiya of course must train larhs. worker harder ppl.

monday.

okay, went to sch for listening com today.

some kind of time killing anw.
and then ms suba ask me for the compo,
which was suppose to be in at term 1.
kao, david they all sabo me to do.
with a tyrant like this,
you can only sabo him back!

and then.
brought martin to my hse for com b4 we go for contingent.
then introduce him to my hometown;
the famous Pasir Ris West- Hoods and JDs district and the town of beauties.
seriously,
i feel honour to introduce someone to the twon of beauties.
afterall, it was the place that ground me from a man to a hero.

there's still contingent ltr,
wonder wads in for me.
and tuition at nite,
mah, heng heng tmr no sch.

Life's a slow moving movie; an action movie for me.

sunday.

spend much time watching anime these days, esp One Piece.

wad impress me all along for ten years in the character of the anime.
even though they're like only halfway through in ten years,
their fighting spirits seems to reach heaven.

"I'm gonna be the Pirate King."
the very slogan for the show, and,
the slogan that help me seeks my aspirations.

when you say "i will",
u mean that you have a clear target of whr you wanna be;
when you say "i gonna be",
its just sooner or later you gonna be wad you wan.

the friendship, fighting spirit, loyalty,
all along have manage to impress me everytime this ten years,
esp the first mate's absolute loyalty to his captain,
the strong will of the captain that has not been broken, yet getting stronger;
the will to fight for a friend that has so much different like you.

it might have been a different stereotype of pirates,
but all along these anime pirates and those in somali have one thing in common:
"from everywhere we came from, we fight as one, with one target."

those who have lost the definition in life,
try watching One Piece.
it's a great anime,
not the storyline or the graphics,
but the definition behind.

thursday.

mah, i thank mr yang bin for the easy HCL paper.

again, there's commotion at my tagboard.
mah, at least i can ans to our dear gal that she's been frame.
looks like its not an action of internal strife;
its personal hatred.

mah, i dun even noe that person, maybe.
anw i offended too much ppl;
at the same time, make too much frens.
should say that i have the same amount of frens and foes.

after all,
this just potray that the tagger is a coward.
haiz, wads becoming of this society;
see, even dogs are barking at mortals, calling them dogs.

i dun intend to clear those tags,
just wanna you guys to judge this matter yourself.
maybe you can get a lesson learn out of it.

i learn something from this,
negatively:
i must get even much more stronger to destroy my foes and those who block my way. ASURA!

wednesday.

finally can have a half day off.
the exams these few days are quite choking.
well, this doesnt seems too bad nor too nice.
easy come easy go.

of course,
i bet there's commotion at my taboard again.
well,
of course i believe that our dear gal would not use that short form here.
"dun wan leh".
only zhonghua ncc and some seniors use this.
i suspect there's internal strife again.

anw,
gonna prepare myself for the last few papers,
then workout to keep myself fit for holiday training.
after all,
a new chpt is beginning.

sunday.

gonna spend the time from 1300hrs onwards for lit.
and oral,
but i do not nid to worry much abt oral exams.
you see, im the khengster, in class or NCC.
its my tongue that gets me out of trouble.

somehow, life's been peaceful a few days ago.
mah, and i feel so glad that things are returning to normal.
mas selamat has been caught,
and i believe our internal affairs dept. will stop him from another shitty plan.
and the swine flu too!
things are now calming down,
and i believe it will be better before june ends.

well,
in fact while im writing this post,
my hands are feeling cold.
cold as steel.
that always happens when some bellicosity start a spark in me.
look at my tagboard.
another sucky tag.
wonder how would my cousins respond when they sees it.

mah,
she wants a war, so i'll start one.
wrath and bellicosity,
the passion for honour.

the reasons for us to fight,
is the wrath of our feelings,
the bellicosity triggered by others.

friday,

another pretty normal day in sch,
but was already pissed off in the morning.
luckily, that mood manage to be gone during maths.
mr tham always put in his best concerns and care for all his students,
which is something i admire alot: his passion for teaching.

well,
after MYEs will straight away be trainings.
they are all scheduled properly,
and including the contingent for me,
life's gonna be busy.
i guess im not going to take a break during the holidays.

no matter wad,
i believe in getting both good grades and high ranks in academics and CCA.
just ten times the effort, after all.

i just hope that i have three heads and six arms.

friday.

mah, labour day was spend mugging away.
there goes a public holiday.

well,
looks like im still not so motivated for MYE.
engines are starting, but not warming up.
maybe i still need a real test to get into the real situation.
hope it wun be too late then.

well,
i find myself class-sick.
sick of class, cant really stand some ppl liao.
you nid to quarrel over small issues to keep your honour,
and sometimes there's so much sparks that tension is so high.

different ppl do have different views.
different opinions, different character.
but only one thing stays the same throughout.
his name is TRUTH.