thursday.

well,
got nth much to do,
and tmr's labour day.
nidda chiong studying liaos.
MYE is super super near!

well,
these few days had been into much turmoil.
and the class.
i cant forget those scenes that they stamp hard on me.
aw, why am i such a war lover?

had been browsing the mrbrownshow.com
well,
i believe that he's one rare talents that voices the ppl's true feelings,
are those ppl who commented there are REAL INSIGHTFUL PPL,
unlike those in my class,
who always tell you to shaddup at the wrong moment,
and talk on bo liao topics that has nth to do with the society.

and a happy labour day to all those baglas(excluding those who cant be seen at the night, those who imposed threats to our morally upright society, those who bring their troubles all the way from south asia to s'pore).
tell them to do a better job in painting our flats!

tuesday.

wad a boring day,
and lessons were so bored somehow.
did some 5 items and floorball during pe.

and then.
afternoon was the NAPFA test.
well, at least i manage to get some good results.
erm...something like:
40 inclined pull ups(quite lousy liao)
shuttle run 10.5s(i noe its slow)
46 sit ups(still average)
standing broad jump 210cm(quite shitty)
sit and reach 44cm(okay lurhs)

well,
just got 2.4km run to go,
and i'll get my gold.
finally.

after all,
its determination that determines you.

sunday.

忍一时，风平浪静； 退一步，海阔天空。

可能有的时候， 当自己已无法前进时，
那就忍一忍， 退一退；
省下不要的麻烦。
虎落平阳， 等待他日，
在东山再起。

老师， 你教了我一年的名言警句，
我唯一只有上面那句，
记得最深， 记得最好。

saturday.

it seems like im truly awaken.
i truly found wad i want.

well,
having dreams is a good thing.
they motivate you forward,
and when you fail,
your greed for fame, wealth, power increase.

i found out one big difference btwn me and the class.
we all have dreams-
theirs the happy dreamy to be dreamt;
mine is the hardcore serious that change my life.
maybe because of this,
we feel and react differently.
perhaps of this,
i matured mentally faster than all of them,
which might be the rise to communication problems.

im a person who's not very content wiht my life.
you go to sch everyday and do wad you're suppose to do.
of course, when i reach 21,
im not going to lead this kind of ordinary life anymore.
i want to shine; i want to soar.
i want WEALTH, FAME, POWER.

adorning the flag high up in the sky;
lets chase it!

friday.

well,
its a whole tiring day after all.
too much things going on at the same time.
lessons are too carefree today larhs.
nth much up.

spent the whole afternoon having orienteering prelimary selections.
well,
after lunch with leonard and daosong,
was orienteering warm up lerhs.
warm up consist of,
a 3.6 KM RUN,
30 STANDARD PUMPINGS,
20 WIDE ARMS,
10 DIAMONDS,
1 CLOSE ARM,
60 SIT UPS.
followed by RUNNING UP AND DOWN the FIRST to THIRD storey 10 TIMES.
is that a warm up?

of course larh,
after which is quite hell.
we have a ACROSS THE FIELD shuttle run(10 comes and backs),
ACROSS the CARPARK 5 times,
the clockwise-anticlockwise nakama run.
the had a tresure hunt,
which is to find a berry.
then tingwei join us,
1 more round of nakama run.
and it turns out that all of us passed;
surprisingly?

well,
i expect more to come.
nakama,
brothers in arms,
for the honour and glory of Zhonghua NCC.

in sch.

well,
feels that life is going much on a slower pace.

MYE are coming soon,
but it doesnt seems to put any effect on me.
compared to the common tests,
i think those CTs had put a larger stress on me.
well,
numbed by my lifestyle?

going on and on with a same routine everyday.
is like listening to the same song over and over.
you'll get sick of it.
life is getting a bit of dry these days.
cant expect much when exams are coming.

sick of those sarcasm from the class.
sick of idling after hw in the evening.

yea,
there's orienteering selection.
but do you agree by giving first pirioty(sp?) to those who enter the orienteering.
in terms of posts, ranks, future.
i just hope that tmr those selected for orienteering are good leaders.
and i hope im selected.
cuz i just wanna do good to the company.

well,
have a nice day.

wednesday.

wednesday, seems to be a long day after all.
two days passed, and two more to go.
to saturday, of course.

well,
today in sch,
mdm ng called me and david out.
we two wonder wad was happening.
and it turn out that she saw us laughing during national anthem,
when mdm lau walked past us to make sure we sing.

and during maths,
when i nvr say anything,
mr tham told me to SHUT UP if not i'll be out of the class.
i wasnt doing anything, and this angered me.
then those bitches at the back was cheering for it.
and when i ask mr tham questions,
he replied me with words hidden with sacarsm.

i went on to reflect abt these events.
first one.
u guys noe that the govt ask us to sing national anthem everyday,
just to keep as as "loyal subjects" to the "republic".
however,
instead of nuturing patriot feelings,
we were numbed by this activity of singing the national anthem.
and us singaporeans treat it like nth.

second event.
just to make sure his lessons goes well,
he scold me before anything happen.
and targeted those who once made mistakes in his class.

PS:
is the standard of singaporean dropping so low nowadays?
us, as citizens,
see the national anthem as nothing.
him, a teacher,
using a not-so-common way to treat his student;
they, classmates not supporting their own classmate.
the patriot feeling,
common and mutual respect;
things so basic and common overseas,
and yet singaporeans does not have?

how are we going to settle these problems?
we are improving our "standards":
lifestyle, fashion, health.
and we are also dropping back on our standards:
culture appreciation, respect, patriotism.

well,
is the country progressing,
or are we looking at the right target,
yet walking in the wrong direction?

tuesday.

well,
its a disgrace.
dishonour.
shame.

the 2.4 run didnt went as expected.
well,
i thought at least i could keep up with my standard.
and i was screwed.
i de-prove by about 2.30 minutes.
and morever,
my position drop frm 1st to 9th.
i lost.
losing isnt a matter.
but wad is unexpected;
i lost to those who were once under me.

brandon, nigel, jun hao;
weaklings from different areas.
i even lost to a gal, 3 positions back.

well,
at least i ran the last 100m swinging my number tag to cheer those ppl,
out of the boring mood,
and also for the tense.
13+mins,
C, no, a D.

wad a dishonour,
losing to unworthy opponents,
letting down the high hopes of my seniors.
while when i met my sec 4 seniors at the bus stop,
and they asked me abt my run..
i was simply dumbfolded.

losing 8 positions back.
losing to unworthy ooponents,
losing to a weak female,
losing to brandon choo.

i vow to regain this honour;
by beating my score last yr;
at least 1 min ahead.

i expected wad from qhan they all,
none other than sarcasm.
i expected those expressions of my senior,
"why? why u get such a timing?"

SSG winston said i would not have the mood to take a retest.
from tmr onwards,
5km per day,
1 hr per day.
i'll make sure i improve my stamina 5 times,
i'll make sure i lessen down by 8kg,
i'll make sure i'll pass the restest with a 10.30.
and staff,
i'll make you see my perseverance.

its not to late tpo repent,
i still have some time left.
taking away much of my slack time,
i will do it.

monday.

well,
there's something that i would like to share,
abt today's life.

it starts in sch,
during el lessons.
when tcher ask for volunteers to read on oral passage,
the class first sabo david.
after him,
they tried to sabo me,
and tcher said "she wanted a gal."
the guys, then joke saying "he's one."

now, the climax comes in.
qhan then keeps on laughing loudly,
until i shouted at her.
this, is wad really pissed me off.

somehow,
to a man,
he can lose his pride, dignity, but not for one thing,
Honour.

a forgotten value by many,
which they shamelessly throws away they honour for materials.
by betraying themselves or frens,
just to keep on surviving.

in a particular class like mine,
there's many chances to be shamed by those immature ppl.
sometimes,
its just a joke, but they dont think before they do.

thats wad i wanna emphasize on.
ppl dont think before they do, and tend to regret.
like the guys, a ridiculous joke asks for a quarrel,
and a scornful laughter invites a beating.

qhan tends to say that we dun show respect for ppl;
well, before she made that statement,
she should ask herself whether has she done so.

ppl tend to get memory loss and brain diseases,
not because we dun use our brains;
it just that we use it to think in a wrong perspective.

is not that we cant think from our perspective;
try to think from many perspective,
and think before you do.

saturday.

“风声雨声读书声，声声入耳；家事国事天下事，事事关心。”

well,
as the statement above stated,
"all mankind are always concern abt their homes and country" literally.
to put this in a figurative meaning,
it means that we must be concern abt our country,
take good care of the world's well being,
have a strong commitment as a citizen.

well,
if the statement above is potrayed well,
our newspaper headlines will be like:
"Indonesian Elections: Singapore's concern"
"Thailand protests are to be stop as soon as possible"
instead of:
"Andy Lau calls off wedding"

it just seems like nowadays,
ppl dun care for the society and the world anymore.
its a kind of feeling like:
"worldly affairs, society problems; as long as it doesn't troubles me, none of my business."

well,
the no concern for this world,
has been potrayed most of the times by ppl around me.
somewhow singaporeans doesn't care much abt all this wordly affairs;
they just care for themselves.
and also indulging in meaningless topics on the entertainment industry,
follow up on a murder case victim's life,
why Andy Lau wanna calls off his wedding and so on.

it really dissappoint me when i see ppl indulging in useless topics,
and not concerning at the world's and the country' well being.
and the newspaper having crap for headlines most of the times,
and push articles on obama and so on to the very last pages.

清谈误国，
not caring for this society, this world,
indulging in useless talks that do no good to our country;
instead of not affecting you,
you will be affected indirectly.
after all, we are part of this world.

for now,
be alert of wad is happening around you;
and figure how can it affect you,
and you are going to do sth to it.

friday.

well, u might look forward to a little weekend,
but it doesn't seems like one to me today.

okay,
we started off with HCL slacking all the way...
till physics at the end of the day,
which we get to burn dried leaves with a magnifying glass.
and surprisingly i got full marks for physics test,
so mr tang made me his runner of the day.

and had maths test,
which i desperately screwed.
then,
tingwei chased kenny around the canteen,
then the whole sch.
join in, just to train my physical fitness, which's weird.
the streaming talk waste one and a half hr of my time,
and ltr dine with eugene and mates at mac.

life's quite tiring this week.
still having projects tmr.
well,
the mid yrs are coming.
triple the effort, i guess.

tuesday.

and you dun expect that much after you've seen the timetable.

assembly was wasted away talking abt foreign students.
oh, there's a skit too, talking abt foreign students.
seriously, i dun see anything wrong of them coming here,
nor do i see anything good.
extra problems for the govt, lesser jobs for the locals.
and you are expecting going to Dubai or Brunei for jobs,
and then going to Luxemborg or Toronto for retirement.
foreigners in exchange for locals? i dun hope so.

and lessons comes and goes,
and the only interest today is PE.
well,
again the dull timetable causes the students to fall aslp,
i guess our tchers just have to put in more effort in our timetables.
there's a lit test today,
and sci tmr.
oh, thr's also DT tmr. woodwork again.

have been thinking of life currently.
how should life be,
how im planning it,
how should changes be made.
maybe simplicity is the best after all,
so i do hope that things can be kept simple nowadays.
hope so, yeah.

monday.

you dun expect that much,
except monday blues.

i can see that most ppl are out of the long weekend mood;
maybe its the cause of the common tests.
school life today is nth special,
except that you spend time rotting away in boring lessons,
or maybe gets fascinated with those tales.

its quite a busy schedule today,
with test, tuition, and revision at the same time.
fortunately there's nth to study for lit passage based,
so i can spend some time blogging here.

i can notice that ppl around me changes overtime.
wait;
some changes, some does not.
maybe its due to the circumstances,
which most ppl have to adapt themselves to.
been to a fren's blog,
and notice that her ideology and thinking change quite a lot.
and yet,
i still can notice,
how those slums in my class continue their destruction,
nvr changing a single bit.

so far, so gd.
as for me,
im moving forward,
yet frequently looking back at timeless values.

friday.

a normal friday morning.
which many look forward to as the "little weekend".
the 6 or 8% at work is expected.

it just turn out that today's good friday.
but not so good for jesus.
and my family took the chance to sweep tombs.

well,
we went off at around 3,
then reach thr abt 4.
its a cemetery, open air;
and it started to rain.
you'll curse the damn s'pore weather when you dun wan it.
and all those activities last till 7,
reach home at 8 plus.

finish reading Romance of the Three Kingdoms for my dunno how many times.
still have the same kind of impress for the characters mentioned.
well,
it seems heroes only appear in chaos, huh?
heroes in wartime,
panda in peacetime?

gonna spent the next two days mugging, maybe.
after all,
test are coming,
and this yr i cant afford to lose.

later!

tuesday.

yeah,
it was another day.

and had a lots of boring boring stuffs in sch,
and PE was extremely exciting.
we had our 5 items,
and i still nid improvements.
standing broad jump and shuttle run.
i'll run more and get the better technique,
possible i will aim for gold.

boring lessons kills the time away.
yeah,
nth but sitting thr and rotting.

npcc cadets left early for cca excursion;
thaty excuse them frm the home visits.
well,
the visit is sucky larhs,
sth lyk:

we went there.
sing some stupid songs to cheer those old folks.
then sing somemore.
then sing somemore again.
then went laming around with the old folks.
i didnt want to;
so i stand near the counter,
whr ms tay's laptop is.
(you see, i nid the music.)

then kelly reprimand me for doing no shyt.
its lyk wtf.
"i didnt want to go thr in the first place?"

okay.
at least going hm is better.
on the way bk i was laming all the way with ppl around me.
yeah,
then try to "flirt" joyce.
okay larhs,
i like her style.
then had some gd laugh all the way bk.
lollol.

yeah,
and btw ms tay kena convert.
one lady try to convert her.
still tell her to giv flyers to us.
"im a ver very super devout taoist."

somehow,
its the finale that cheers me up.
maybe,
life's ups and downs are just some small tremors.
get a life.

your style is wad that caught me; get me to laugh.

sunday.

yeah,
life's getting a bit of bored.

MY exams are cming soon, so does the common test.
training's suspended till the end of it.
and life's going to be fast paced,
well,
i wonder how would i end up.

im not really into the mood of studying right now,
simply because im a bit bored of sch life.
currently,
i think im into some trouble,
probably im going to stand trial tmr.

im sick of the same routines,
and studying so much for the test.
and i dun see the outcome of stress education in our country.

well,
life needs some reforms and revolution,
don't we?

friday.

okay, some pretty normal day,
cohort run,
then some HCL and math.

after recess was art,
which was still fine,
and then had el.
yeah,
i guess im into some trouble soon.
sorry, sorry, i didn't mean to shout at you. sorry.

then,
we had physics in the com lab,
which last for an hr.

then, lunch opp sch with leonard, dao song and chong kai.
and we went back to the sch to don our no 4.
ad wait wait,
till training start.

the part a had their affirmation ceremory.
some sort of enjoyment with air con.
"we are ready, we are ready, to be the best that we can be..."
and took the NCC pledge and sang "We Are Ready".

then,
it was some tekaning.
part d gonna pass out today,
so had our very last moments.
maybe the nxt time we see them is SAF/NCC Day.

had a tekaning and drilling session,
followed by a company march.
"kiri, kiri, kiri kenan kiri..."
and went back to canteen to crap.

then,
last parade.
had our last "kenan banana" with SSG winston.
quite sucky, but still gd.
then,
last parade,
followed by mr ng's debrief.

today was a fruitful day.
i gain new experiences,
i saw the upcoming of new circumstances,
i saw a new sequel.

bear the conviction of the flag,
seek the light you've never seen!

thursday

well,
feel quite down today,
plus the unbearable hot weather,
it makes life slow paced.

two of the class troublemakers ain't here today,
which explains the long lost peace.
i always thought it would be quiet only when im away,
but after all,
im just a joker.

well,
dunno why,
i began to think of this good fren,
who i lost contact with over some time.
talked to her ytd,
and she said im always in her memory.
"i dun wanna be part of ur memory, i wanna be part of ur life."

well,
there's training tmr,
so im expecting a bon time.

life's normal,
today.

"eh eh,
come come,
since we hav nth to do,
lets take a pic!"

well,
beautiful memories are unforgetable,
like this,
my p6 days.

two yrs have passed,
and most of us became diff ppl frm before.
before that,
let me introduce you guys the ppl frm above:

(left to right)
class clown daryl pang, cohort don yitian, class disiao kia costner, gamer guo fong, "odd one" daniel, badminton pro lionel, gamer homan, "silence" daniel desker, cohort prank king jing zhi, cohort "feminine" tori, and cohort hunk justin. the one taking the pic is soccer fan shan herng.

well,
it was those days we make trouble in the class for mr tay,
blabber and joke around,
play soccer with the hardcore feeling,
and keep pranking one another.
and a childish act,
trying to guess each other's gf.

those days,
while i was still the sch Don,
i used to settle things with violence.
nvrtheless,
it was this pack of frens,
that brought fun into each other's life.

there was an unspeakable team chemistry upon the soccer field.
also,
we had such a bond that we understand each other so well.

those long and happy days,
were always in my memory.
also to mention,
we do have some gals,
a fat bitch, some pretty lass, and some others,
which the class really bond like one.

time pass,
we grew up.
me, costner and homan entered NCC,
and the others went like sparrows.
we still kept in contact,
and we have change so much.
its hard to believe the cohort don who always mean business is now a joker,
and the cohort hunk entered maris stella.

ppl changes,
the esplanade (the setting) changes,
and even our frenship might change.
but,
we could nvr forget,
those memories,
and,
"a true and passioniate frenship,
swore upon our hearts."

6B '07,
nakama for life.