parody.

SSG leo 'receiving' the 'Trim and Fit Award (Gold)' from SSG junli.
the epic guailan of the day.
'leo receiving the trim and fit award (gold) from junli.'
and look at their 'happy faces' when lro 'receive' the award from junli.

best parody and ironical guai lan incident of the day.

monday.

and then, its another slack day before my plan for december arrives.
call this the eve of Operation 'rush the mountain'.

have been spending a lot of time listening to k-pop these days.
a lot of time i mean lyk i can on com for 8-10 hrs and blast k-pop all the way.
yar lorh, actually i'm just looking for k-pop and j-pop for my FSD.
then i went to 'consult' this gal cuz she lyk very the k-pop fan mah.
then she feed me with so much k-pop then i kena influence ._.
and now keep listening to k-pop and a bit of eurodance.
and then got this song call wasurenaide.
sang by the same bunch of ppl who sang share the world.
haha, quite nice. can try listening, ppl!

and perhaps there's a high possibility that im gonna go bk to sch ltr.
to renovate the ncc ops room ._.
actually junli says it aint compulsory,
but joel make it sound lyk its compulsory for me.
and he told koh chin he can dun come. wtf ._.
but since leo jio me to go, give face larh, i go.

and i nid more songs to feed my k-pop addiction.
who got some songs that can recommend to me?

sunday,

have been searching hard for korean hits ytd.
and thanks a lot to tuesday and ck ng who helped me with it.
and also, after being enlighten by my bro,
who taught me how to actually really modify dance steps into freestyle drills.
there's this sorry sorry, i'm coming, and then some steps from wedding dress.
okay, the idea is getting clearer and clearer.

really, i have my reasons for not using techno.
basically,
-techno has been used repeatedly by everyone after the success of anglican and hwa chung.
-techno, though provide the beat for drills steps, but the old soppy songs nid precise movements and exact timing to go with the beat. i doubt we novice can really do so sharp.
-SM is getting sick of techno after going through 2 competition and 3 courses.
-techno is wad everyone is using, in order to gain attention and stand out, we have to try something everyone wanna try but dun dare to.

and,
-kpop/jpop is widely accepted by the public, yet hardly seen in FSD,
-the unexact beats allows more movements.
-this will surely wins pts from the female judges.
-and 101 more reasons that u can get from me.

and just found out that actually techno, kpop/jpop and dance/party hits have a common thing:
they share a kind of beat, and that is the beat for ppl to dance with the song.
techno was out for dancing by the start,
so does dance hits. if they can be introduce into PDS and FSD, i believe so does kpop!

things will never be proven wrong unless they are done wrongly.
gimme a stage to act this idea out,
i'll get u guys the champion medals!

LOL, more pics from FSD.
im the first(middle) guy in the first two pics.
haha, thanks audi for his lanyard.

and this is another boring weekend to pass by,
and i think perhaps i should start on my work.
okay, thats it, im starting on my HCL ltr.
well, i dunno why sch stills gives us hmwk during holidays.
i nid the time to attend courses and go to work. LOL.

well, have been discussing with leonard and joel over the ZHNCC FSD issues these days.
suddenly a though came to my mind: are we able to work as well as Sparkz has done in 3rd FSD?

i rmb abt my pulau ubin survival course.
though we were cadets of diff rank from diff district and backgrounds,
but yet, we were able to work well with each other,
helping one another through various obstacles.
and the 3rd FSD.
same, ppl of diff rank from diff districts and backgrounds.
but yet, we were able to work together in the end,
and perform well to graduated from the course.

both courses were the much more HQ related courses i attended this yr,
esp the survival course, which i went for the first batch.
even though we had little bonding time together,
we were yet able to work well and coordinate well.
these two courses shows me the 'nakama spirit' within each other.

but yet, many times, struggles, conflicts in ZHNCC,
nvr fails to upset many of us,
or hurt some of us.
i rmb once encik JM said to me abt something of working towards one goal.
well, are we working towards a same goal,
or just our own targets,
of holding military power and authority over diff areas?

towards winning, talents or heroism has nvr played a part.
wad matters, has always been teamwork.

It doesn't just mean giving way and enduring each other; it also sumbolize mutual trust and understand. If you wanna kill your own nakama for your own selfish ambitions, then you can **** from this world.

my 3rd FSD grp foto, Sparkz.
haha, im the one wearing the beret, beside audi.

suddenly life feels weird when there's no more FSD.
its like i've been going to HQ NCC as if im going to work,
and then, all it ended suddenly.
kinda miss the four days back there.

FSD left me with quite some stuff.
it left me with new knowledge,
it left me with a cert and badge,
and most importantly,
tanned skin that i look so much lyk a malay.
dun be shocked when u dun recognise me.

currently im looking for those japanese and korean dance hits,
to use them in the FDC next yr.
just wanna try something lyk ' Sorry Sorry ' with freestyle,
and it turns out to be quite some great ideas.
but i bet my sidekick will disagree of using korean dance hits in FSD.
but seriously, it sounds lyk a great idea.
im gonna learn how to remix korean dance hits for FSD!!!
then next yr we wun have some stupid techno that doesnt fits our movements,
but FSD with korean dance hits.
and perhaps soon with this idea,
ZHNCC FSD Team will be hotter than any boy bands.
haha, im too imaginative.

i rmb when i went for the FSD course,
i promise some ppl some stuff,
lyk i promised benjamin to meet him during next yr's FSD comp,
and i promised to meet jonathan at senior spec course or CLT course.
i promise some of my team members that we'll meet again.
so, im gonna work hard,
so that i can live to these promises!

Idea of remixing Korean/Japanese Dance Hits for FSD: Copyrighted.

well, and from today onwards,
im gonna start trng myself.
to beat my old NAPFA timing,
and also to become stronger and fitter.
and perhaps i should start doing my homework. LOL.

One day, when we guys can meet again at HQ NCC, it'll be the time that all of us have become stronger than before.

Graduation!

YAY! Sparkz, we graduated! YAY!!!

so, today finally we had our performance,
and then, graduated.
even though we didnt make it 100% real nice,
but we did it, and graduated! yay!

finally, everything ended with a happy ending.
and now, back to slack days at home,
jogging, training, playing com.
must start trng the company for next yr's competition,
and then, honed everyone till zai zai. harhar.

so now, im dedicating something to Sparkz:

My dear fellow team mates,

Though this course has been a four day course, but everything seem to move so fast. From the registration on day 1 till now, graduation, it seem lyk its just only a blinking of the eye. Though the time we're together was short, but yet, its wonderful, that ppl from different districts could actually get together and work towards a common goal. Its been nice being with you guys, all the drills under the hot sun, all the jokes we shared, and joking with benjamin's b-boxing, all were wonderful memories. And thanks a lot to Sir (or should i call him staff now) Audi, for guiding us and helping us throughout the course. Even though we did bickered at some times, but its good to see that we did everything nicely in the end and graduated together. Though we didnt get into finals, but in my heart, we, Sparkz, are already the champions!

All the best, for your Specialist Course, NCC life, and everything ahead!

day 3 FDC.

so, basically this is the day that everything starts getting more serious.

and it was all drilling and rehearsing all day long.
under the hot sun, but the jockey cap keep the sun out,
my face nvr kena worser.
and then, the course is really getting more and more tiring.
ytd we SPARKZ are so zai.
today rehearse kena lan sai lyk that.
we must buck up, ppl!
at least must pass the course in glory,
go back sch maybe can yaya a bit(lol).
no larh, just wanna start the selection soon,
to better prepare for next yr FSD comp.

and today is much more of a joking day.
me, zi hua and joel kept singing 对面的女孩看过来 to jio this very very uber chio ma'am.
eh, nvr kena ooc heng liao arh!
and we had real fun doing our ripple line and formations.
haha, really wanna perform well tmr.

suddenly fantasize of using 'sorry sorry' or 'nobody' for my FSD.
lol, pass the course first barh!
SPARKZ, jiayous!

day 2 FDC.

wah, this time, it went harder, but more fun.

finally we had a grp name today.
SPARK. nice name rite? i noe its nice. harhar.
and we started drilling in the morning,
and then marching, and marching.
and then the sun came out and all of us got sunburn.
ltr got choosen to be IC and norimah got AIC.
argh, nid memorise the reporting in and out.

and today we did a great job in the routine, SPARK!
harhar, we must keep up our good work, and march towards the best!
and today became closer with more team mates,
and started chatting a lot.
the benjamin from Gan Eng Seng kept doing b-boxing,
and we even joke abt having his b-box as our performance music.

and then, while there's time to slack a bit,
we'll suddenly start to joke abt the RGS gals. hmm.
and then some ppl went to the extent to insult them face to face.
yeah, next time dun be so harsh, ltr they cry ._.

gonna work double the effort of today when tmr arrives,
must make the best outta it!

back from FDC day 1.

tagbacks =D

Jackson: haha, welcome and i enjoyed the food =D
samantha: haha, i miss you peeps too. really hope can have another BBQ.
Leo: fun larh, but criteria strict. and my team no chio bu!!! and has onyl one gal!!! and thanks you part C for the bbq and pizza. haha.

okay, so im back from FDC day 1.
muahaha, its real fun.

met a random person from NCC air attending FDc,
so made quick frens with him.
and then met up with joel and proceed to fall in.

waited for 1 hr plus for SM NCC to settle admin stuff.
and ltr we had ice breaking with my team!
haha, though they were quiet ppl, but most of them were real fun.
and we could really get along well, like how it does when im back in survival course.

basically today is much more on eating and listening,
and we had a bit of drills at the end.
looking at the standard, nidda really improve my team's coordination,
and add more fancy styles.
oh btw, there's this gal who's real enthu in my team.
haha, got potential be senior spec.

ltr went back home with my bro and his fren,
ex-asm of ahsncc.

these few days are going to be real busy,
so pardon me if i didnt reply any sms u sent me.

looking forward to day 2 FDC. haha.

saturday,

woke up in the morning,
and found out that i just wasted one night's time.
must have been real shag from annual camp.

i began to think back of something i gained from the camp.
a series of words from the martial arts instructor, dave.
"People always said not to judge a book by its cover,
but everyone judge a BOOK by ITS COVER.
you see, this is life, the way it is.

well, this words have hard impressions in my mind.
perhaps, judging a book by its cover was what that given me,
a real hard life in sec 1.
being stereotyped, those hardcore days were hard to get by.

people always judge others wearing tinted glasses.
giving others harsh stereotypes, and having a bad impression.
well, this is the real reason that cause to the lost of talents.
many talented ones are buried along with their bad impressions.

then, i began to think of life next yr.
is it real possible for impossibilities to happen in life?
like the part B achieving a best unit award again,
and i push myself to triumph the chinese scholars,
all these, can it happen?

i always believe anything can happen.
as long as the tinted glasses, good or bad impressions are removed,
one then can see the real potential of others,
and witness the rise of impossibilities.

often, life sets many obstacles for us to clear.
it is onto our own will,
whether we want to cross it and absorb its experience,
or skip it and not learn something new?

we only get stronger and more experienced,
only when we can get pass life's obstacles.

the Corporal is back.

and finally, annual camp ended,
surprisingly in a joyous mood.
well, should i call it a camp or chalet..look..

Day 1
and we met in the canteen, fall in,
check bag, check hair.
CPT LYK came down and kan the whole company during bagcheck,
and he got lotsa brothers to go for haircut.

ltr on we had games, which is more of humping one another,
and screwing around. and some time after lunch, is games again.
and some time after games, is dinner, and we had field cooking at the amphitheatre,
and ltr on, bathe and all the self stuff, and had nightwalk.
hell yeah, and we had a not-so-scary horror film to boost the morale.
and nightwalk disappoint me cuz its aint scary.

Day 2
and we woke up so damn early in the morning,
because we are going to HQ NCC.
go HQ, paintball, archery, and food.
play play the whole morning at HQ NCC, and then,
we went back to sch to have drills.

after some time we started BBQ,
and we have a joint dinner with the council,
and we shared our BBQ and buffet. hmm.
was getting hot on the otah, and screws around for dinner.
and after some time we went back to sleep,
to find myself being recruited into the combo section.
4am fall in, no nid slp.

Day 3
fall in at around 4am for drills,
C&C, and some marching.
part B took turns to drill the section,
and i finally see the big loophole in part B.
we have some zai kia in C&C, and some other novices. take time to train barh.

drill drill until 6 plus,
and then had PT.
after an average PT, we had breakfast,
and not soon ltr, we had our martial art trng with the council.
and hell, we did spank a few asses.

after a pizza lunch,
wasted some time for waiting for an interview which,
in the end, my seniors cut it. cancel.
so went for POP, and came back here with a memento from camp: CPL insignia.
this yr sir lyk a bit generous arh, BBQ, then paintball, then promotion.
and my dear corporals, we play and slack well. give urself a round of applause.

Debrief
yeah, this time round, its more lyk a chalet than a camp.
wah, fun sia. but now, i have to rush to prepare for FDC.
wah, cant play yet. maintain maintain.

wednesday.

suddenly got hirameki to write,
and i decided to delete the last post,
cuz i wanna have my 300th post for annual camp.

have been watching the 《学警》 series on tv and internet nowadays,
from series one to three, just to kill a bit of time,
and then, it simply reminds me of the days in NCC.
or i can say, the much, much earlier days.

until i have come into contact with it,
i think, i've long forgotten wad discipline is,
wad order is, and wad teamwork is.
i just simply forgotten them in NCC.
its not that i've been skipping trng,
but look, the struggle between one another,
the slack sessions, and noncooperation of each other results in today.

looking at how my platoon mates, having the ambition to fight for power,
and yet, forgetting wad discipline, order and teamwork is abt.
it just saddens me a lot, when we wanted to go for somewhere higher,
we forget all abt the basics.
soon, we'll lose our original self.

gonna chiong mutual today, and pack up.
there's Freestyle Drill Course coming up soon,
and i really look forward to it.

the scar's still there,
the incident that happen at this time last yr.
ask me, if rank and post decides a leader,
i would say no.
a leader, is one that can teach, lead and help.

i missed the days back during the earlier time we entered NCC,
the time of pure gold and goodness.
all i noe is, for us part B, we cant revive those real good days,
so all i want is, to maintain it in our juniors.
to teach them the best goodness of NCC,
to let them understand the importance of teamwork and discipline.

oh, and brandon and chongkai,
i suggest you all watching the 《学警》 series.
maybe after that, u'll understand wad im trying to say.

tuesday.

and so, days are drawing closer and closer towards annual camp.
and so, this means days for the holidays are going real fast.

i just, perhaps should say, finally,
ound out the purpose of ncc life.
adventure, like wad i said, adventure.
perhaps all along all i wanted,
is the good memories of the good times,
instead of harsh memories of the bad times,
fighting one another, containing hatred for each other.

have a kind of yearning feeling for my class.
dunno why. start to miss their nonsense a lot.
start to miss all their fun and troubles.
start to miss all the good times and bad times we had together.
perhaps, only when things are gone,
then we feel the importance of it,
and how influencial it could be.

start to miss the quarrels.
start to miss the laughters.

many ppl nvr understand,
there are always more important things then wealth, fame, power in life.
things that are held for a certain amount of time-
it isnt yours.
only deeds that you've done for the society goodwill,
or the spirit of adventure, courage or any other virtues-
these, are things that are eternal.

our bodies do die, but our spirit are eternal.
the spirit that motivates the later generations towards their dreams,
the spirit that upholds the values towards the next era.

likewise, even since 2e3 has parted,
the spirit and bond, is still there.
maybe one day, all these feelings and bonds are wiped out by time,
but we cannot deny the fact that we are 2e3, eternal 2e3 09.
looking at my class, and looking at my cca,
i really felt that my class' spirit is much, much more lively.

A: ' Just punch in a hole in the soil and root the plant back! '
B: ' ... '
A: ' no balls. '
B: * im just givng you face in front of everyone, not to shout out, since you know how to do it, why not punch that damned hole in the soil yourself? *

monday.

had a fun day out at aloysius' hse,
and had real fun with my ncc clique.
had lunch at compass pt kfc,
then went to aloysius' hse to slack and play soccer.

so, just wanna share something abt wad happen before i went to aloysius' hse.
a few part b called me and sms me,
complaining abt no training and sort of things.
and i manage to stall a few that were setting off.
and really thanks to jonathan for his reminder to other part b.

over here, im trying to say two things.
firstly, is abt our mutual trust and teamwork.
this time, it is very sure that the communication between us went down,
causing so much trouble for some cadets.
i hope next time we can improve the bond and trust between us,
to have better communication.

second, and most important thing,
is abt the jobs dedicated.
the telephone ic, all along is a committed and to an extent, tedious job,
which many didnt want to take up,
or lose interest at the middle.
lookingat how part b struggle for powerful jobs and authority some time back,
and looking at how actually the main telephone ic didnt manage to get things done properly,
or never even seeking help from other fellwo cadets,
it leads me to thinking of how harsh is the reality in everyone.
all i can see today is,
the main ic trying to push the 'blame',
and yet someone not involve,
jonathan tay, actually went to remind some ppl out of care and good will.
here, i want to commend jonathan on his selfless deed,
being able to fork out time and effort to help the company,
despite being not involve in the telephone calling grp.

and also, i wan to ask everyone,
is joining a cca at the start,
just for the ranks and post,
or is it out of passion and goodwill,
to give the best to something u like?

from what happen today,
i could actually see two kinds of ppl:
those that 'skive' and go for the easier and higher authority jobs;
and those that silently contribute to everyone,
doing their part, or helping to the utmost,
for the goodwill of everyone, selflessly.

once again, i want to commend jonathan again,
i hope that everyone can learn from this incident,
learn to be like jonathan:

This is not just about who is doing the job, who is responsible, who is the guy that should be answering all these problems! This is about calling your platoon mate, because you care for them, because you show concern to them! This is call Guan Xin! -- Jonathan.

sunday.

today's sunday, and freestyle briefing is on tuesday.
annual camp's not more than a weeek to come,
and im not yet prepared for it.
plus all this rumours spread by those ppl,
and these incidents stirred up,
i doubt the days to come will be good.
nevertheless, i still have to fight on.

today's sunday, and there's nothing much for me.
hardly anyone's online when im online,
and there's nothing much for me to do at home.
doesnt have the mood for holiday assignments,
and also have no other mood to do much of anything else.
might make a trip to army market ltr,
and get things settled.

these few days have been much much boring,
and there's nothing much happening.
perhaps i just want to get off from this busy world,
to somewhere quiet for a vacation.
the problem is, i dun have the money.

really really miss the days back in school,
with 2e3 and the others.
and i miss the days back in tuition,
joking around with everyone.
sick and tired of wads happening in the cca:
power struggle, angkat-ing officers and specialist, grudges, dishonourable men.
things, do have a good and bad side to itself,
but the problem is,
the bad side is always towards me.

have been lacking of a lot of things nowadays.
lack of energy, lack of willpower.
and also, lack of romance and care?
sometimes, when i fall down,
i've always wanted someone to help,
but there's no one.
and this, is the reason that made me stronger.

An awl only shows its pointed tip in a cloth shack. Put me, this awl in a cloth shack, and I'll show my pointed tip. - Spring and Autumn Records.

Critics.

朱门酒肉臭，街边冻骨头。

its my second time blogging today,
and this time, i purposely came to the com,
because i dun wanna to lose my inspirations.
inspirations, for that above sentence.

it sparked me when i really have nothing to do in afternoon.
now, my concern here is not about whether there are still poor folks dying by the streets.
wad concerns me now is,
is birth status and family status going to affect a person drastically?

all i noe is, a person born of poor origins,
always strive to achieve the best of his life and time,
wanting to release himself or herself from the poor status.
compared to a person born with a silver spoon in his mouth,
a person of poor origins have lesser conditions to achieve something high,
but he or her has been given a good headstart:
a bad circumstances to train for the better.
for a person of rich origins,
being pampered and fed at home,
certainly cannot endure the hardships and critics of the outside world.

life examples around me has given me all the warning and advice i need;
those rich kids being pampered and spoilt,
always have an air of elegant around them.
an air of a wastrel, an air of someone proud.
but those of poor origins around me,
holds their head low and modest,
yet with their eyes high forward,
waiting for a good opportunity to strike a chance.

certainly, not used to the harshness of the outside world,
rich, spoilt kids always falls down hard in failure,
unable to suit themselves to the circumstances,
unable to tolerate every bit of event that doesnt meet eye to eye with them.

and yet for those kids of poorer origins,
being used to harsh circumstances they are in,
they certainly are able to adjust and customize their actions according to the situation.

wealth, something that many ppl wanted and seek after for a life,
is always the first thing that separates mankind into different levels.
ppl are so shallow that many of them actually view ppl by their wealth, looks and fame.

im not here to critic the rich,
neither am i here to arouse trouble.

all i want to say is:

My Dear Fellow Singaporeans:

Born in a time of peace, many of you have already took the peace and harmony that we all have for granted. Many of you took our social status in this world for granted. Many of you, born with guidance and care, have not prepare yourself to face the many challenges of the outside world.

When PM told us that he is confident that we can face all the challenges, I doubt not his words, but our qualities. Are we really prepared to face the many challenges in this growing society?

Many of us are born pampered and spoilt, many of us are born relaxing. With our current circumstances, can we really face the many challenges?

wealth, is always a peak of something,
and the starting downfall of another.
in this way, it is the peak of the hardships of our forefathers,
but is it really the start of the downfall of our next generation?

saturday.

days are drawing closer and closer,
and wad im doing, is looking at the situation,
helplessly sitting down thr.

a new skin! and also a new tagboard!
thanks to joanne who help me look for the skin,
and intro me to this tagboard.
but the counterr is a failure,
after so many changes, i have to admit to the fact that ppl visit my blog often.

since its a saturday, let me tell a story.

when i was around 3-6 yrs old, i've always wanted to join the police force;
protecting the citizens from all crimes, upholding justice and law.
i've wanted to protect my home and everything from all sorts of crimes,
and making the cit a safer place to live in.

when i turn 11-13, i've wanted to be a soldier.
i've wanted to protect my homeland, protect our freedom.
to let our flag fly high and free in the vast seas,
to make our freedom eternal.
to protect my citizens from all invaders,
living in peace, and enjoying the moment of it.

but when i turn 14, i've realise that what i wanted to be,
is to become a writer, and an actor.
i want to write, write to spread the ideas,
the ideas of world peace, the ideas of humanity, he ideas of unity;
acting to preserve our culture, passed down for many generations,
to depicts all scene of life, to war the world of all evil doings.
to write and to act, to preserve our culture,
to preserve our ideas, to preserve humanity and peace.

to spread the ideas of justice so more crimes will cease,
to spread the idea of world peace so there's more harmony;
to preserve the culture that is losing in the urban life,
to preserve the words of the past, that taughyt many morals.

perhaps im kind of fickle minded, having y aspirations changed too much.
or yet i have no patience or will, to carry out these dreams.

but what i know is,
for every dream i have, i wanted to protect something;
and every dream i change, the value and amount of what im protecting,
grows bigger.

friday.

hectic schedules coming up,
and my life aint getting any better.

i went out with a senior and junior ytd to catch 2012.
it was a show abt the end of the world,
but it focus more abt the human spiritn and unity.
there are scenes lyk how a selfish rich man sacrifice himself for his son,
and then how a lady actually save her dog and died in place.
nah, go watch it, i dun wanna be spoiler by saying any further.

and of course, going out with two ppl of diff age,
you'll get some info that u nvr get.
my junior told me that i was backstabbed hardly by my first mate.
and my senior told me that he got into trouble too.
terribly angered, i think this time i wanna plan for revenge.

and i feel so upset.
that BRANDON CHOO actually dragged the juniors into part B's power struggle.
look, we are fighting for something worthless,
and then u are polluting my juniors' mind, teaching them the wrong thing,
leading them into our paths next time?
ur selfishness brought along the casualities of many.

and this bastard got me into much trouble with so many ppl,
just by saying things and rumors that nvr happen.
i noe that its human nature to talk abt tabliods,
but to blow up something that's not real,
you guys have been too much.

anw, time is getting lesser and lesser,
i just realise i've not done any of my hmwk.
just wanna leave them to december,
so that i rush all my activities in november.

life is getting more and more boring for me,
and things in life aint getting better.
perhaps this is another obstacle for me,
lyk those i met in sec 1.
i rmb that i could pass them,
and im sure that i could pass this too.

When deaths smiles at you, all you could do is to smile back. Remember, I'm Fushicho Yitian, phoenix that rises from death.

thursday.

okay, so these few days i keep changing blogskins,
and finally found one that i really like.
one fren on fb tell me that my blog's kinda plain,
so from today onwards,
im improving the quality of post and use a blogskin that readers will focus and attract to my post.
the current skin's background kinda plain,
but i hope that it'll be my words that attract readers,
not my skin.
and i realise that my old blogskin really suits me better,
so i change back to the old one.

somehow, i find that ppl and blogs have so much in common.
blogs, always used an attractive blogskin to attract readers and visitors.
and only through the skins, readers are then willing to have a go at reading the post.
only then, they will find out that whether the blog is a worthy one or not,
whether they should spend time reading the blog.

same lyk blogs, human beings always used an attractive outer shell to make frens and noe ppl.
however, when ppl finally see through these shell,
they get to noe abt how the person is actually like.
and those ppl who didnt have an attractive outer shell,
continue to be ignore by everyone, hiding their talents or faults.

if it always take ppl to look at the outer shell before the inner feelings,
then, we are too shallow.
however, this is human nature, something that we are born with.
so all we can do is,
to give ppl a good first impression,
so that they will take less effort and time to realise our talents,
and instead of finding faults with us.

wednesday.

When the world's besiege you, and you are left all there alone to fend for yourself, thats when you started to fight on and gained new achievements.

had been putting my hands on mahjong these few days.
cuz i really got nth to do at home, but to slack.
and things aint seem to get any better for me.

ltr might be going out for cycling with pri sch frens.
and today i start to think wide.
started to think abt my class.

not that kind of memories of bonding, all sort of stuff.
im thinking of- wad makes me able to subdue the whole class,
and get along well with them.

i rmb for one yr,
all of them had been hard on me.
and that time things in NCC aint getting better,
so it seems lyk sch's too harsh and im having prison sentence.
my CE tcher for the first term, ms lisa wah,
told me sth,
'i hope that u can tell me that ur alrite with ur class at the end of this yr.'

and that came true.
many asked me,
did i change for the masses to accept me,
or the masses forced themselves to accept me.
all i could say is,
i had a little bit more restrain on my actions and words,
and did nth else. nth else.
to put it in this way,
they gradually accepted me,
not for a reason for class bonding or wad,
but for something we nvr thought of: time.

yes, time is men's best mirror.
time will gradually show who's nice and who's not.
time will gradually peel of the masks of all deception.
time, will come to prove justice.

now i knew why my platoon mates stabbed me in the back.
all because that they didnt got enough time to know me.
after all, wad they are seeing is my outer shell.
all the god dammned stereotype and confirm i got from them, are just stereotype.

however, till today,
they didnt cherish the time to noe me.
all they wanted is,
to view me as a hongster,
to view me as a chiongster.

time, plays a very important roles sometimes.
for now, i want to be the Part B PC next yr,
to teach the leaders under training one thing,
one sentence that my brother left me from his glorious retirement:
One for All, All for One.

tuesday.

well, first thing in the morning i wanna do,
is to apologise to part B abt wad happen ytd.
yeah, i might be a bit too intensive and strict,
and im here to explain that im not snatching it from ken and ck ng;
ken shared with me.
so, i hope that you guys will view brotherhood as the first place of NCC.
yeah, dudes, im sorry.

and now, let me depict all abt today.
its basically a slack day,
im not doing my homework,
and nothing else.

all i could say is,
for now, im sure that im stronger.
and more experience than before.
well, we learn from our mistakes right?

anw, saw my class attachment.
3e2, 29 ppl.
but got david and ecmt. and now, harhar, ziying u are dead.

so now, gonna get busy with the other stuff.
sayonara.

part II of monday.

well, i came back.
i dun really wanna talk much,
and all i could say is,
im washing my hands outta all these things.
you guys wan fight, fight urself.
if you think im a threat, im leaving now.

to think that power, could rule over brotherhood.
u guys worry abt my actions rite? good, im washing my hands out.

he told me that things will get better, and i should go on.
by that time, i'll be an attached spec and no further promotion.
the end.

enough of all these frustrating stuff.
now i nid is,
a call from someone to console me,
and perhaps a glass of wine.

my passion didnt just turned into nth,
they used it to bite me.

i just wan some...console.
sah, ppl do feel weak sometime.
ever knew why i got strong?
cuz all these kinda situations, im facing it alone.

who can give me a bit of console now?
who can call me, and tellme to walk on?
i doubt anyone.

7 or more against one: gg arh.

going to spent my time on something more frituful,
thats all.
sayonara.

monday.

2e3, i miss you guys~~

and today, is the day,
which conceals many storms and lightnings;
but yet, conceals the potentials of many ppl.

trng ltr at 1120.
everything of the pre-trng went nicely,
and i even got BC to elaborate my words in the plan.
so, BC's the vetter.
but ytd late at nite dog face called and kp me.
i quickly open a meeting with my first mate BC.

analysed the status of the company with BC,
which the process is so confidential that i cannot reveal.
all i could say is,
if you can understand that our 14 yrs gold unit foundation is on the brink of collapse,
then pls, pick a capable and competent successor.

i had enough of the power struggle.
i had enough of fights.
wealth, fame and power...
2e3 turned them into nth more than dust.
i once vowed that,
if im offered the best post, i would do my best to revive history of 1st in s'pore;
if im put under a incompetent guy and offered nth,
i might as well wash my hands out of everything.

ltr, might be a hard fight.
but then, its a good time to show them,
wad a coaliation i got-
something lyk luffy + crocodile + jinbei + buggy + ivanov.
and okay, in this situation, im luffy.

sunday.

as i started to pack my no 4 uniform,
many thoughts rushed into my mind.

out of mere boredom,
i prepared my uniform early this morning,
started to iron, pin the badges, and surprisingly,
polish my boots.
this habit died out some time earlier this yr,
which i gradually run out of 'gek' for NCC,
and just wanna take a break,
concentrate on class and studies.

suddenly, i feel a kind of feeling,
a thought controlling me.
the kind of feeling i felt at the same period last yr,
the thought i thought abt the same period last yr.
all of it came back, devouring me slowly.
wealth, fame and power.
the lust and hunger, is back again.

however, this kind of feeling is soon gone.
gone, lyk a small fire extinguish by a tsunami.
ask me why. because, after all these days,
they gradually fade out. faded out.
the temptation might still be there,
but after some time, you'll understand that there are things more valuable,
or perhaps, sentimental than rank and power.

tmr part B are taking the trng.
i deliberately ask leo to come.
why? because i dun wan anymore power struggle,
i dun wan separatist, i dun wan anymore fights.

all i wan now,
is a full promotion for part b at annual camp,
and for us to work as one,
towards the biggest dream ever:
Overall Best Unit 2010.

saturday.

LOL im shag from the class chalet.
but its fun. hahaha.

thursday:

so, set off to meet nigel first at white sands.
then ate some stuff and went over to meet the rest of class at ehub.
then checked in after ken arrived.
and we went to slack around the area.
went pasir ris park but ltr had rain.
then, split and went for dinner.

after that my clique ran to collect something for someone. lol.
its a cake, and we had to rush back to the chalet to prepare for the surprise,
and meanwhile trying not to meet with the target.
so took a lot of alternative route,
and i ended up running lyk mad,
which caused my shoe to spoil.
heyy u should feel so fortunate that we planned all this surprise for you, okay?
and so, we surprise her, and then ate the cake ._.
and my clique stay up the whole night,
slack a bit, watched gladiator, and had true or dare.
david...muahaha. im glad that i noe how you think.

friday:

and early in the morning i had something at mac,
and then head off to see the damn sunrise.
somehow pasir ris park is a god damn failure area to see sunrise,
and i ended up running towards to area which the light is.
and then, i ended up lost ._.
so, found the way back to the chalet,
and then i brought my clique home to play mahjong.

ltr returned to the chalet,
and slack a bit until its time to go cycling.
and afterwards, we had the bbq.
which is lyk quite memorable cuz perhaps its my first and last bbq with 2e3.
and maybe the last time we spent as a class.
took a class foto, at the staircase.
i rmb our first class foto was taken at the staircase too.
and after that, i went back home along with dav, RAR and ecmt.
sry ppl, that i didnt bade goodbye.
cuz i didnt want to cry.

~

and so, everything ended in a joyous mood.
while you find urself enjoying the moment,
u also find that time flies so fast.
it seems lyk only ytd we're planning for the chalet.
and now its over.

the last moments together,
i really enjoy it much.
missed a lot of chance to say a lot of things to many ppl,
so perhaps i should do it over here.
hmm.

To my dear 2e3:

and so, everything officially ended when ken checked out today morning.
2e3 '09 has come to the end of our journey together as a class,
39(or u might wan to phrase it as 40 or 41) ppl, one spirit.
maybe you guys would cry(some ppl) or celebrate(david) over this end,
but, rmb, even though two yrs has ended, we are still a class.

i truly enjoyed all these moments i spent with you all,
those tears, those laughter.
i once mentioned i met true frens and foes,
but after ytd nite,
i could only said, i met a true good class.
even though not the whole class was thr,
but i feel the strong presence,
the strong presence of our class spirit.

two yrs, not to mention those normal days we had together.
we had a real good finale ytd, a real nice one.
rmb wad i say?
"we might be studying in diff class, having diff course,
but this will not deny the fact that we are 2e3 '09, that we are one!"

a lot of unspoken words, i didnt say,
cuz i really mind the fact that i will broke free when i say.

after ytd nite,
no more sarcasm from some ppl,
no more suanning and jeering,
no more hyper ppl dancing in the middle of classes,
no more monitors trying to keep the class quiet,
no more two ppl quarreling from two end of the class,
no more trying to dao the tcher together,
no more making noises together.

no more quarrels,
no more tears,
no more joy.

these things, might have all come to an end,
but we cannot deny the fact that they happened.
we might part for diff routes and journeys,
but rmb, for two yrs, we've walked together as one.

mdm zhang hong once said,
"there's no banquet that has no ending. even though one day everything might come to an end, but you all have to rmb the good times you've spent together as one. its fate that you ppl come together, cherish it."

fate might put a stop here to everything.

rmb the first time we had a class blog?
we had a song called 'hei tang xiu'.
well, i just wanna quote something from that song:
"假如以后我们全都各奔西东
要永远记住最初的梦"

i hope that you all will rmb the days that we had together,
i hope that you all will rmb the joy we celebrated over winning,
i hope that you all will rmb the moments we spent laughing together.

we parted, but we are still one.
ten yrs down the road,
we might be working in diff industries,
but rmb the fact that we are 2e3 '09.

we had a good curtain draw on 30 oct,
and today, we finally locked up the show stage.

when for once you felt down,
just think of the good times we had together.
rmb, we are always behind each other.
2e3, we've done well as a class!

thank you, 2e3.

敞开心胸去追寻快乐的出口
别怕寂寞因为有我们在背后
假如以后我们全都各奔西东
要永远记住最初的梦...

thursday.

so, today is the start of class chalet barh.
so, gonna be away for some time,
and then today will meet nigel at pasir ris mrt.
lol, this time,
its more like a survival camp,
just that im not wearing no 4, and its camping in sub urban areas.
activites are much urban,
and i can guarantee the amount of fun will be the same or higher. haha.

gonna miss out a lot of freaking things when im away.
my tv, my com, my psp..argh.

still haven really pack my bag.
and then, somehow im thinking of something.
lyk erm, wad func an i really have at the chalet.
hmm, its another adventure.

will be away from today till saturday afternoon.
anything pls sms me or call me.

i just wan to say before i go,
i cant wait to pin up my survivor badge and part B proficiency badge on my no 4!

wednesday.

SUPERRRRRRRR!!!

i feel so good today, oh my.
lotsa things happen that really got me jumping.

well, another day of lessons in sch,
which we had a chem experiment after history.
dongyi dropped the litmus paper into the hydrochloric acid -.-
and after all the crapping in the chem lab,
we decided to head for pasir ris.
meet ken at the entrance,
and he passed me my survivor badge.
OH YEAH. HOT.
the badge got two parangs and a big dipper.

then went with some ppl to white sands to settle things for class chalet.
and then, after lunch,
went to my hse.
for mahjong -.-
i just found out that xinkai is such a pro at mahjong.
wow. then nigel started learning as a rookie.

tmr is class chalet.
well, gonna camp in the chalet for two days,
follow by some activities,
and some fun.
harhar. sounds so fun and exciting.
and is lyk leaving hse not for camp or wad,
but going to get crazy. hehes.

well, nidda start packing,
then get a good rest to energise myself for the fun.
hope everything turns out well.

tuesday.

alrite, no sch today, so i have the whole day to slack.
but cant make any much noise when my bro's back;
he's having his o lvls.

i just got a devastating news ytd evening;
that because brandon has to go for PTI course,
he can go for freestyle with me. boohoo.
and wads the bad thing is,
joel's replacing brandon.
a dishonourable weakling who wreck havoc in NCC for two yrs,
going to spoil our reputation again.
and im lyk 'wtf',
his drills no good, he pon trng, still can go course?
someone must have been backing him up.
giving him a chance, is also giving a chance for NCC to crumble.
joel: 以小人之心，度君子之腹.
not as if lyk we have no ppl lyk that...
i rather have mingkang going with me...

well, seems lyk u guys must have notice that i do critisize others on my blog.
the prob that i do this is,
firstly, they made a mistake that might be morally or lawfully wrong,
and i hope that bringing their cases out will serve as an advise to all ppl,
that we should not do something that is wrong.
lyk joel, he might have been yaking all abt the platoon's bond,
but god noes that he is always scheming to push anyone down the stage.
being once routed by him,
i've somehow, i think arh, might have 'downgrade' myself in the officers' eyes.
damn joel, and now he got a chance to go freestyle.
pls, he pon trng, he sow discord, he sabotage.
whr is justice, and whr is eyesight?

well, after all the yaking on joel tan,
its time that i should bring back my operation,
'Emperor of the Black Winged Steeds'.
first few stages have been completed,
and now im gonna break down the rest into a much much more complicated manner.

section of achievements:
Top 25% of level
Freestyle Drill Badge
Corporal Rank
Combination A for streaming

section of self-improvement:
55 kg body mass
lift 15 kg on one hand
higher level of fitness

well, plans are still going on.
holidays might be a chance for me to enregise myself.
WHOOZ .

monday.

god, its extra lessons. zzz.

got up early to go to sch,
and then sat thr and chat until we're needed at the audi.
mr hazry gave us a lecture on humanities,
how to do inference qns.
and then i had a funny convo with him,
which u ppl can ask the e1-e3 peeps abt it.
i like his teaching style, haha.

and we ltr had geog and chem,
which are just merely slack lessons.
and thats the end of a boring holiday in school.
dunno wad im gonna do for tmr,
and then wed have sch again.
thurs to sat is class chalet,
wonders if my turning up means any unhappiness. not so barh, im a nice guy!!!
gonna show them all the lobang in pasir ris, hehes.
and tot of opening hotel service in my hse for those who wan beds.

okay, so, first weekdays of holidays started.
well, now im gonna have a light chat on sth: recognition.

i guess recognition is something that perhaps, motivates a person most,
for everything he does.
being recognise for a certain potential or talent,
is a trust and a will given by others to you,
and also something to reflect on urself.
today, im here speaking to all ppl,
just wanna say, nth beats recognition.
a recognition is a trust, and a sure.

even though i might not gain recognition from my frens,
but i cant doubt that there are no ppl that recognise my talents.
leo, is one of them,
who all along realise my potentials and talents.
i really want to thank him for all the chances and oppotunities he has given me,
as well as the great bond we shared together.
i once said,
if there are ppl who appreciate my talents and skills in the company,
it doesnt matter whether if i became a top cadet or wad;
because to those ppl, i've already portrayed myself as a top cadet.
and, thanks a lot leo for all the recognition.

so from today onwards,
praise ppl more on their skills and efforts-
it gives them recognition,
a power to move even further.

sunday.

life's been somehow, too much of enjoyment these 2 days.
had been feasting and playing to celebrate over my good results.
well, should start jogging real soon. i mean lyk today or tmr.

i spend much of ytd slacking away,
with the com or with the psp.
it rained heavily ytd.
raining, reminds me of many many memories.
those days back in mps,
where we start to grumble that the rain spoil a gd soccer match.
and those days on pulau ubin,
where we ran towards the toilet, just to escape from the rain.

somehow, life suddenly became much, much more slow paced.
i dunno whats the aim for me this holiday,
well, just wanna do something productive.

oh btw, let me reveal sth a bit.
see those tags, by ck on the board?
yeah, i had a debate with my platoon mate ytd.
somehow, till the end, i only see one conclusion:
NCC needs more reforms, and our platoon's bond isnt strong enough.
not strong enough, that he is not able to understand my feelings,
reforms, to make NCC a better place.

all along, chances and hopes have been given to those who are real potential,
and those that won honour for NCC.
i really agree with wad junli does;
he always give chances to those who have never outshone others,
lest show their onw potential.
i always wonder, whether is winning a gold unit award,
with only a few potential ppl and much misunderstanding;
or is it that we dun win so much awards, our ranking drop a bit,
but yet, we are a bunch of united ppl, on par with each other,
an indomitable spirit that outshone the whole of singapore;
which, is a better choice?
to me, i say the second.

after all, what we need is not one or two person being pontentially good,
we nid everyone. NCC is a cca that requires a lot of teamwork,
its not something that one person can handle alone.

slowly, i began to see the true thing of NCC;
it leds me to understand, why many potential cadets,
kept quiet and went on when they are treated unfairly.
this is because that, no matter at the end,
who's staff or not, who's usm or not,
we, are still one, as ZHNCC.
when we walked on the streets, its the school tag that others recognise,
not the rank insignia.
and what's the point of being a leader of a unit that didnt have much teamwork?

supernovas: a start that shines so bright, but yet, it will never outshone the sun.
eric, you are one,
but rmb, no matter how much u outshone others,
its still part b that u needs to rely on.
sometimes, be a bit more fair and gentle on your words,
after all, we are one family, and it isnt good to shout at ur onw family.

and also to all the other cadets,
we, ZHNCC are one.
what matters is not who's the boss or not,
its that how are we able to team together to fight the other units.
i dun wish to see anymore quarrels, anymore sabotage;
joel, pls stop all sabotaging, not only to me, but the whole platoon.
the others, i shall not name;
we, after all, are one platoon.
save some face for ur mates, dun do things overboard.
if we dun work together,
next yr, we will really crumble.

alright, maybe i should end here.
readers, i look forward to ur feedback.