280th Post: The First Day Of Life Outside Impel Down.
today, is the first day that i spent outside impel down;
early in the morning, went around reading blog post by all frens of zhss,
which all were dedicated to their classmates, for this ending of the two yrs.
compared to mine, theirs are much much more emotional,
whereas mine is just talking abt a release, a huge sign of relief.
yesterday, she visited me, as she promised.
i've never seen her for two yrs;
things never change much, just that she grew to be prettier.
still as quiet as ever, still as before.
she didnt have much time to spare,
so all i could do is to bring her around pasir ris west =.=
and so, what really touches me is,
she went all the way from the west to the east,
just to see someone she had not seen for two yrs.
a special kinda relationship that i dun wanna explain.
thats the first great thing that came to me after the release from impel down.
seeing someone that you've not seen for a long time..
its great to noe that she's alrite,
its great to noe that she's doiung fine,
its great to noe that she's leading a good life.
I promise, the next time, its not just walking on the streets and shopping malls. I'll bring you all over the island, and do everything we can.
today's gonna be a normal day,
spending time away on the com,
ltr might go to the temple.
well, there's still more for me next week;
looks lyk life's gonna be as hectic as ever.
oh btw, some un-named left a tag on my board.
okay. lets address that person as 'fren'.
Dear Fren,
I'm Fushicho Yitian, thats my epitet. I think, you should noe the direct translation of Fushicho, which means Phoenix in english, and the direct kanji translation means 'the bird who wun die'. i guess, that epitet should let you noe that i've been through so much that no one, have ever beaten me. and pls, i've given respect to all those who deserved, as well as you. i respect you as a welcomed visitor, if not, i'll be screaming my lungs away.
well, days are still long.
there are much more activities coming up for me.
i just hope all the best for myself,
as well as all my classmates,
wish you guys have a happy holidays!
enjoy urselfs, and i'll see you ppl at coasta sands!
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Friday, October 30, 2009
friday.
and today,
everything...finally came to an end.
an end. a very very very heartfelt end.
i spent my last day in the jail cell fruitfully;
played mahjong in the morning,
then listen to some stuff abt holiday wk and streaming,
then pack up the class a bit,
then listen to evaluation of post leadership evaluation;
and then, got the report bk,
some papers,
which included exam papers,
some forms and letters, and a poem by mdm ng.
i walked out of the classrm with a march;
somehow, i didnt have any yearning for this classroom.
it was a kind of happiness;
happy that finally all the nightmare is over,
happy that finally im release from all this torment,
happy that its going to be a new start.
but yet, sadness lies in me;
sad that im leaving all my cellmates,
sad that im leaving my dear teachers,
sad that all the good times with my cellmates, have to end.
it has been a tiring period.
too tiring, too tiring.
finally, i can settle down, and relax.
the days of harsh torment are over.
the days of stereotyping are over.
the days of walking alone are over.
the days of struggling for survival...are all over.
im happy, yet sad.
happy that an obstacle is finised,
yet sad that i couldnt really put everything down.
yet im also worry,
worry that i would enter an even harsher hell next yr.
two yrs...its enough.
i didnt wan all these anymore, no more pls.
i wouldnt forget all the tortures i received,
i wouldnt forget all the good times i shared with my mates;
i wouldnt forget all the advise im given,
i wouldnt forget all the lessons i learnt.
two yrs ago, i enter impel down,
as a young immature kid, wild and rash,
who didnt thought of consequences who only seeks for fun;
two yrs ltr, i left impel down,
as a matured sensible teenage, strong-willed and intelligence,
who understand all situations and gd at analysing,
leaving with big aspirations and great leadership...
two yrs.
i suffer too much,
i leanr a lot,
i matured a lot.
really, ppl, i think, all these things,
made me a great man.
and then, now, is a time for me to thank all my frens.
those who help me and those who appreciate my talents:
heartfelt thanks to:
felicia, kelly, ziying, qianhui, ken, david, RAR, ECMT, jx-kun, dongyi, martin from class 2e3;
whole of ZHNCC, cadets, specialist and officers;
teachers of 1e3 '08 and 2e3 '09, esp mdm zhang hong and mdm ng;
frens from various classes ranging from 2e1 to 2t1;
seniors outside cca, such as samuel;
and all those frens outside ZHSS that help me a lot;
tution classmates, christine, xavier, clarence and the others;
last but not least, my family.
alrite, here is whr im ending.
i wish everyone a brand gd new yr ahead!
everything...finally came to an end.
an end. a very very very heartfelt end.
i spent my last day in the jail cell fruitfully;
played mahjong in the morning,
then listen to some stuff abt holiday wk and streaming,
then pack up the class a bit,
then listen to evaluation of post leadership evaluation;
and then, got the report bk,
some papers,
which included exam papers,
some forms and letters, and a poem by mdm ng.
i walked out of the classrm with a march;
somehow, i didnt have any yearning for this classroom.
it was a kind of happiness;
happy that finally all the nightmare is over,
happy that finally im release from all this torment,
happy that its going to be a new start.
but yet, sadness lies in me;
sad that im leaving all my cellmates,
sad that im leaving my dear teachers,
sad that all the good times with my cellmates, have to end.
it has been a tiring period.
too tiring, too tiring.
finally, i can settle down, and relax.
the days of harsh torment are over.
the days of stereotyping are over.
the days of walking alone are over.
the days of struggling for survival...are all over.
im happy, yet sad.
happy that an obstacle is finised,
yet sad that i couldnt really put everything down.
yet im also worry,
worry that i would enter an even harsher hell next yr.
two yrs...its enough.
i didnt wan all these anymore, no more pls.
i wouldnt forget all the tortures i received,
i wouldnt forget all the good times i shared with my mates;
i wouldnt forget all the advise im given,
i wouldnt forget all the lessons i learnt.
two yrs ago, i enter impel down,
as a young immature kid, wild and rash,
who didnt thought of consequences who only seeks for fun;
two yrs ltr, i left impel down,
as a matured sensible teenage, strong-willed and intelligence,
who understand all situations and gd at analysing,
leaving with big aspirations and great leadership...
two yrs.
i suffer too much,
i leanr a lot,
i matured a lot.
really, ppl, i think, all these things,
made me a great man.
and then, now, is a time for me to thank all my frens.
those who help me and those who appreciate my talents:
heartfelt thanks to:
felicia, kelly, ziying, qianhui, ken, david, RAR, ECMT, jx-kun, dongyi, martin from class 2e3;
whole of ZHNCC, cadets, specialist and officers;
teachers of 1e3 '08 and 2e3 '09, esp mdm zhang hong and mdm ng;
frens from various classes ranging from 2e1 to 2t1;
seniors outside cca, such as samuel;
and all those frens outside ZHSS that help me a lot;
tution classmates, christine, xavier, clarence and the others;
last but not least, my family.
alrite, here is whr im ending.
i wish everyone a brand gd new yr ahead!
Thursday, October 29, 2009
thursday.
荣耀的一天.
wad an honour!
the day filled me with surprises to the utmost,
27th lvl position, 5th class position, champion for lit fiesta..
and AI for freestyle, god, im way too happy!
its long since i received so much honours in a day,
so, lets celebrate ppl!
though the tiring day worn me out,
but mentioning of the honours refresh me within a second.
and then, when i return home,
my mother shocked me again.
okasan really, went to track vice guard down,
and then, mention details of her family,
and then told me how to deal with them.
looks like those experience gain while serving the force,
okasan had not forgotten them.
and then, just wanna mention something of my bro.
ytd nite, he received a wrong number call.
well, ur study for o lvl a maths,
and came a wrong number, how irritating.
but he did not blew his top,
but yet talked nicely to the person,
and even saying its alrite and bye bye, gd nites to the person.
a wrong number during o lvl sutdying period.
yet, so damn polite and respectful.
Thats the kind of leadership qualities i want to master: high courteous.
today has really been a nice day.
well, tmr is passing out ceremony for impel down.
i just hope, for more gd days ahead.
If you think you're gonna cause trouble for me, I told you before, watch out. You'll never know what to expect from my clan; a team full of experience ppl, great leaders, and ppl with ultimate fitness and intelligence of the nation. I dunno wad else could okasan suprise me further, but be glad that sch's ending tmr.
wad an honour!
the day filled me with surprises to the utmost,
27th lvl position, 5th class position, champion for lit fiesta..
and AI for freestyle, god, im way too happy!
its long since i received so much honours in a day,
so, lets celebrate ppl!
though the tiring day worn me out,
but mentioning of the honours refresh me within a second.
and then, when i return home,
my mother shocked me again.
okasan really, went to track vice guard down,
and then, mention details of her family,
and then told me how to deal with them.
looks like those experience gain while serving the force,
okasan had not forgotten them.
and then, just wanna mention something of my bro.
ytd nite, he received a wrong number call.
well, ur study for o lvl a maths,
and came a wrong number, how irritating.
but he did not blew his top,
but yet talked nicely to the person,
and even saying its alrite and bye bye, gd nites to the person.
a wrong number during o lvl sutdying period.
yet, so damn polite and respectful.
Thats the kind of leadership qualities i want to master: high courteous.
today has really been a nice day.
well, tmr is passing out ceremony for impel down.
i just hope, for more gd days ahead.
If you think you're gonna cause trouble for me, I told you before, watch out. You'll never know what to expect from my clan; a team full of experience ppl, great leaders, and ppl with ultimate fitness and intelligence of the nation. I dunno wad else could okasan suprise me further, but be glad that sch's ending tmr.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
wednesday.
its a day that i have no lessons,
but have to return to sch for lit rehearsal.
sah, things didnt went as well as expected.
well, i think just only the main ppl turn up,
and then the acting wasnt so that good.
my performance aint as good as the one at audition.
and then was receiving the faces from all the classmates;
but luckily ppl lyk kelly and RAR are there.
and we went to the auditorium to share the stage with 1e5.
and the crew screw me badly that i left with much anger.
c'mon, i did not turn up for NCC trng,
just to come here for a last shot of rehearsal.
and then u guys are just plainly giving such attitudes,
esp the vice guard.
just because i have to turn up for this rehearsal,
i almost lost a chance to go freestyle course.
it doesnt matter if i nvr go freestyle course,
but i took a day off ncc and all the chances just to come here.
and look at wad kind of shit attitude u all have been giving me.
i dun mind cuz i noe abt all the prejudice,
but look at xinkai. hey, vice guard,
u're too much. too much this time round.
and then, i left the auditorium with despair,
and then met junli outside,
which he announced that brandon and eric will be going for freestyle.
sah, 赔了夫人又折兵.
i dun mind much actually, but then,
2e3, i gave up a chance for the selection, the trng, just to turn up for this rehearsal.
and ltr something actually happen that touched me a lot..
eric actually gave his position for me,
and the part b help to persuade the specs and officers to let me attend.
well, thanks a lot eric, and the specs.
and thanks a lot my dear brothers.
somehow, today, i've seen the utmost of human hearts.
i really, really, found whr i belong to.
even if next time NCC doesnt give me a post and rank for all that hard work,
it doesnt matter. i still have tons of brothers there,
sharing joy and sadness with me.
looks lyk i really have to celebrate when i leave 2e3.
sometimes, i think;
maybe, not having a thing to be proud of,
not having something that u can feel a sense of achievement..
might be a good thing after all.
till this age,
i didnt achieve much in cca, and for sure nth in class;
and i knew is, i just have to give passion for the things i like.
and mdm ng:
things screwed up quite a lot somehow,
sorry, but it aint totally my fault.
but still, we manage to do sth. be assured.
well, gonna spend the rest of today slacking.
life...nid some fun.
but have to return to sch for lit rehearsal.
sah, things didnt went as well as expected.
well, i think just only the main ppl turn up,
and then the acting wasnt so that good.
my performance aint as good as the one at audition.
and then was receiving the faces from all the classmates;
but luckily ppl lyk kelly and RAR are there.
and we went to the auditorium to share the stage with 1e5.
and the crew screw me badly that i left with much anger.
c'mon, i did not turn up for NCC trng,
just to come here for a last shot of rehearsal.
and then u guys are just plainly giving such attitudes,
esp the vice guard.
just because i have to turn up for this rehearsal,
i almost lost a chance to go freestyle course.
it doesnt matter if i nvr go freestyle course,
but i took a day off ncc and all the chances just to come here.
and look at wad kind of shit attitude u all have been giving me.
i dun mind cuz i noe abt all the prejudice,
but look at xinkai. hey, vice guard,
u're too much. too much this time round.
and then, i left the auditorium with despair,
and then met junli outside,
which he announced that brandon and eric will be going for freestyle.
sah, 赔了夫人又折兵.
i dun mind much actually, but then,
2e3, i gave up a chance for the selection, the trng, just to turn up for this rehearsal.
and ltr something actually happen that touched me a lot..
eric actually gave his position for me,
and the part b help to persuade the specs and officers to let me attend.
well, thanks a lot eric, and the specs.
and thanks a lot my dear brothers.
somehow, today, i've seen the utmost of human hearts.
i really, really, found whr i belong to.
even if next time NCC doesnt give me a post and rank for all that hard work,
it doesnt matter. i still have tons of brothers there,
sharing joy and sadness with me.
looks lyk i really have to celebrate when i leave 2e3.
sometimes, i think;
maybe, not having a thing to be proud of,
not having something that u can feel a sense of achievement..
might be a good thing after all.
till this age,
i didnt achieve much in cca, and for sure nth in class;
and i knew is, i just have to give passion for the things i like.
and mdm ng:
things screwed up quite a lot somehow,
sorry, but it aint totally my fault.
but still, we manage to do sth. be assured.
well, gonna spend the rest of today slacking.
life...nid some fun.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
tuesday.
NC NC ALL THE WAY!!!!
well, gonna give a short brief.
cuz today's too busy and hectic lerhs.
okay, got something, haha. just made a new fren,
called felicia c. hmm, too much things in common with me.
and she's a real nice person! lol, talked a lot with her since ytd.
haha, its so good to make a new fren.
lol, perhaps just wanna get to know more abt her.
and *SHHHHH*, dun tell her that she's a nice person.
she will know thats she's nice.
okay, CQ today.
didnt win, or lose alot.
though we did Sir down as we did not win top 5,
but we vow to train hard to get the challenge shield next yr.
sir, we shall not let you down again,
me, koh chin and weihan will do our best to get the top.
oh, here's a climax.
okay, my mother did something,
which she track down my blog and those links here,
so she noes wad is exactly happening in my sch.
she didnt scold or hit me for the kicking incident ytd,
but told me,
'bad ppl will be bad ppl.'
and she track down all my classmates stuff.
lol, okasan is always okasan!
my mother is still as pro as ever.
its still the old ginger thats spicy. lol.
oh btw, okasan told me that wad that gal is doing in sch,
is all taught by her family. to handle strong hakis lyk me.
well, still the same move,
'diplomacy before blood.'
well, somehow, im happy that my families actually cared abt me so much,
that my mother actually cared and track down wad happen for me in sch.
i didnt blame her for invading my pivacy; cuz i noe she means well.
she knew that vice guard has been giving me a lot of troubles all the yrs.
and she's always the one that supports me silently behind,
despites all the suan-nage and sacarsm abt my ambitions.
thanks mom.
told ying kang that i'll chiong and hiong for annual camp.
told mdm ng i'll try hard to win best actor.
told my bro i wun let him down.
and i told myself,
'be the biggest dreamer; get a fire power!'
i think these days i really gain too much.
i gained vigour, i gained a fren, i gained a lot more.
perhaps, fate has it this way,
to make me the champion.
and...tmr the lit practise.
i have to skip ncc cuz of this;
2e3, dun let me down.
well, gonna give a short brief.
cuz today's too busy and hectic lerhs.
okay, got something, haha. just made a new fren,
called felicia c. hmm, too much things in common with me.
and she's a real nice person! lol, talked a lot with her since ytd.
haha, its so good to make a new fren.
lol, perhaps just wanna get to know more abt her.
and *SHHHHH*, dun tell her that she's a nice person.
she will know thats she's nice.
okay, CQ today.
didnt win, or lose alot.
though we did Sir down as we did not win top 5,
but we vow to train hard to get the challenge shield next yr.
sir, we shall not let you down again,
me, koh chin and weihan will do our best to get the top.
oh, here's a climax.
okay, my mother did something,
which she track down my blog and those links here,
so she noes wad is exactly happening in my sch.
she didnt scold or hit me for the kicking incident ytd,
but told me,
'bad ppl will be bad ppl.'
and she track down all my classmates stuff.
lol, okasan is always okasan!
my mother is still as pro as ever.
its still the old ginger thats spicy. lol.
oh btw, okasan told me that wad that gal is doing in sch,
is all taught by her family. to handle strong hakis lyk me.
well, still the same move,
'diplomacy before blood.'
well, somehow, im happy that my families actually cared abt me so much,
that my mother actually cared and track down wad happen for me in sch.
i didnt blame her for invading my pivacy; cuz i noe she means well.
she knew that vice guard has been giving me a lot of troubles all the yrs.
and she's always the one that supports me silently behind,
despites all the suan-nage and sacarsm abt my ambitions.
thanks mom.
told ying kang that i'll chiong and hiong for annual camp.
told mdm ng i'll try hard to win best actor.
told my bro i wun let him down.
and i told myself,
'be the biggest dreamer; get a fire power!'
i think these days i really gain too much.
i gained vigour, i gained a fren, i gained a lot more.
perhaps, fate has it this way,
to make me the champion.
and...tmr the lit practise.
i have to skip ncc cuz of this;
2e3, dun let me down.
Monday, October 26, 2009
monday.
its the start of a brand new week,
and the start of many busy busy stuff.
sch today is more abt slacking off at jumble sale,
and the only thing i did is just to get customers.
and the spent the time away playing, talking. lol.
had a grooming talk today, and the whole cohord is so noisy.
wanted to listen, but everyone's not paying attention.
and the very very chio instructor help brandon wash face =.=
and then talk abt skincare...blah blah blah.
then went bk for rehearsal for lit play.
sah, i kicked a chair and it almost hit someone =.=
cuz the person really nvr giv face and piss me off.
sah, dun try to explain. explain no cure. this one how many times liao?
and while i got very piss of and kick a chair,
i ltr got a hirameki to create a new skill,
after my sharks on darts and jyumaigawara senkei.
am kicking skill. hmm. next time elaborate more.
and went to see Mr Ng for NCC CQ.
mah, weihan is a bit sickly, and koh chin back out.
if this continues, i've gotta die tmr.
wish me good luck. and lotsa red bull.
must bathe and feast and prepare, if any big things happen.
gonna spent the rest of today relaxing,
to cultivate enough haki for tmr.
JIAYOUS ZHNCC CQ 2009!!!!
and the start of many busy busy stuff.
sch today is more abt slacking off at jumble sale,
and the only thing i did is just to get customers.
and the spent the time away playing, talking. lol.
had a grooming talk today, and the whole cohord is so noisy.
wanted to listen, but everyone's not paying attention.
and the very very chio instructor help brandon wash face =.=
and then talk abt skincare...blah blah blah.
then went bk for rehearsal for lit play.
sah, i kicked a chair and it almost hit someone =.=
cuz the person really nvr giv face and piss me off.
sah, dun try to explain. explain no cure. this one how many times liao?
and while i got very piss of and kick a chair,
i ltr got a hirameki to create a new skill,
after my sharks on darts and jyumaigawara senkei.
am kicking skill. hmm. next time elaborate more.
and went to see Mr Ng for NCC CQ.
mah, weihan is a bit sickly, and koh chin back out.
if this continues, i've gotta die tmr.
wish me good luck. and lotsa red bull.
must bathe and feast and prepare, if any big things happen.
gonna spent the rest of today relaxing,
to cultivate enough haki for tmr.
JIAYOUS ZHNCC CQ 2009!!!!
Sunday, October 25, 2009
sunday.
much of yesterday was spent playing with the gang,
and now, i've got to settle down and start preparing for business.
gonna get the whole lit script into my mind,
and then start to prepare for annual camp.
perhaps should start reading my bro's mutual,
and then try to catch some balls from the manual.
so, today gonna be a day that isnt too fun,
yet isnt too busy.
okay, its a normal day larh.
just nid to complete those stuff on the ageda list,
plus do wad im suppose to do for sch and cca.
began to wonder abt a lot of stuff suddenly.
wonder abt the literature play.
and the things going on in NCC.
i didnt have much heart to put in the lit play,
and even did not memorise the whole script by the audition.
but so much ppl put effort in the props,
and even mdm ng went to troubles to make us pratise...
i dunno whether i should do it well,
but, acting is one of my talents, and i couldn't let those ppl down.
but thinking of how the crew and female lead dishonour me,
anger just boils high.
and NCC.
i rmb ever since getting the PTE rank,
i wanted to regain the past honour and discipline of the unit,
and vow to be the USM,
reshuffle the manpower then,
introduce new rules, and make the unit better than ever.
but now, it seems that the orient team, whose all leadership lost to me,
have the highest chance of promotion in annual camp.
and even now, the chance of being USM is slim for me;
those ppl that was branded coward and useless by the sec 2 cohord seems to beaten me.
sometimes, it seems that 'the Boss luck as a cadet has run out',
but looking back, looking back at those seniors...
leonard, dao song, yi seng, wayne, jinchun...
and all others that put high hopes on me...
and for now, all i knew is, i must fight on,
fight until only when SSC results are out next yr.
i believe in myself.
i've the most leadership potential(which is pretty obvious),
and then...i couldn't let my seniors, and the honour i promise to the unit, down!
even though one yr of hard work seems to be wasted last yr when i got triumphed,
but, the way's still long. i still got more to fight.
well, thinking back again,
of the times:
how ken betrayed me and others countless times,
left the class and mates to die on their own;
how chong kai betrayed me during the summit,
and how he betrayed 2e4 for the Ponteng Art Incident;
how news of eric came that he scolded mdm zhang hong till she cried,
and his f*cking attitude towards platoon mates;
and how chang jun has no high hopes for himself;
and then, how much koh chin got more than others,
just by keeping quiet and doing not much,
how much i wanna break his luck streak.
GET UP AND GO!!!
i'll for once more, the last time,
set the small fire burning in my heart,
into a fire that engulfs the world!!!!
and now, i've got to settle down and start preparing for business.
gonna get the whole lit script into my mind,
and then start to prepare for annual camp.
perhaps should start reading my bro's mutual,
and then try to catch some balls from the manual.
so, today gonna be a day that isnt too fun,
yet isnt too busy.
okay, its a normal day larh.
just nid to complete those stuff on the ageda list,
plus do wad im suppose to do for sch and cca.
began to wonder abt a lot of stuff suddenly.
wonder abt the literature play.
and the things going on in NCC.
i didnt have much heart to put in the lit play,
and even did not memorise the whole script by the audition.
but so much ppl put effort in the props,
and even mdm ng went to troubles to make us pratise...
i dunno whether i should do it well,
but, acting is one of my talents, and i couldn't let those ppl down.
but thinking of how the crew and female lead dishonour me,
anger just boils high.
and NCC.
i rmb ever since getting the PTE rank,
i wanted to regain the past honour and discipline of the unit,
and vow to be the USM,
reshuffle the manpower then,
introduce new rules, and make the unit better than ever.
but now, it seems that the orient team, whose all leadership lost to me,
have the highest chance of promotion in annual camp.
and even now, the chance of being USM is slim for me;
those ppl that was branded coward and useless by the sec 2 cohord seems to beaten me.
sometimes, it seems that 'the Boss luck as a cadet has run out',
but looking back, looking back at those seniors...
leonard, dao song, yi seng, wayne, jinchun...
and all others that put high hopes on me...
and for now, all i knew is, i must fight on,
fight until only when SSC results are out next yr.
i believe in myself.
i've the most leadership potential(which is pretty obvious),
and then...i couldn't let my seniors, and the honour i promise to the unit, down!
even though one yr of hard work seems to be wasted last yr when i got triumphed,
but, the way's still long. i still got more to fight.
well, thinking back again,
of the times:
how ken betrayed me and others countless times,
left the class and mates to die on their own;
how chong kai betrayed me during the summit,
and how he betrayed 2e4 for the Ponteng Art Incident;
how news of eric came that he scolded mdm zhang hong till she cried,
and his f*cking attitude towards platoon mates;
and how chang jun has no high hopes for himself;
and then, how much koh chin got more than others,
just by keeping quiet and doing not much,
how much i wanna break his luck streak.
GET UP AND GO!!!
i'll for once more, the last time,
set the small fire burning in my heart,
into a fire that engulfs the world!!!!
Saturday, October 24, 2009
saturday.
yay, its saturday!!!!
and this means im gonna stuff myself with proteins for trng,
and prepare for lit,
and then a lot of some other busy stuff.
currently is getting quite upset with the crew abt the lit play,
and is being torment of the feeling of leaving class for CQ.
cuz, i have to skip lit rehearsal.
sent a letter to mdm ng for advise.
next wk gonna be a rush.
and then, this means i nid more coffee.
oh btw, im here to share some stupid stuff.
abt my very stupid dream :D
last nite have this very funny dream.
im sitting down on the floor and there's some ppl around me.
suddenly got ppl shout,
'got cocroach(sp?)!!!' and started moving away from me.
then, i also move bk, wondering whrs the cocroach.
and then, as i moved along with the ppl,
they kept moving away from me.
suddenly got this chio bu come towards me,
reach her hands towards my crotch,
and picked up a cocroach,
and threw it in the bin.
oh. so the cocroach was at my crotch. zzz.
and my face went white. eww.
then this chio bu started to catch the bugs in the room,
and started to scare me with those bodies of the dead bugs.
lol.
then i knew that we talked a lot of crap together,
then, i woke up. zzz.
alrite, that's all for today morning.
perhaps might have a better post ltr.
and this means im gonna stuff myself with proteins for trng,
and prepare for lit,
and then a lot of some other busy stuff.
currently is getting quite upset with the crew abt the lit play,
and is being torment of the feeling of leaving class for CQ.
cuz, i have to skip lit rehearsal.
sent a letter to mdm ng for advise.
next wk gonna be a rush.
and then, this means i nid more coffee.
oh btw, im here to share some stupid stuff.
abt my very stupid dream :D
last nite have this very funny dream.
im sitting down on the floor and there's some ppl around me.
suddenly got ppl shout,
'got cocroach(sp?)!!!' and started moving away from me.
then, i also move bk, wondering whrs the cocroach.
and then, as i moved along with the ppl,
they kept moving away from me.
suddenly got this chio bu come towards me,
reach her hands towards my crotch,
and picked up a cocroach,
and threw it in the bin.
oh. so the cocroach was at my crotch. zzz.
and my face went white. eww.
then this chio bu started to catch the bugs in the room,
and started to scare me with those bodies of the dead bugs.
lol.
then i knew that we talked a lot of crap together,
then, i woke up. zzz.
alrite, that's all for today morning.
perhaps might have a better post ltr.
Friday, October 23, 2009
friday.
huat arh. today is busy like hell like that.
okay, so the first few hrs of sch is spent slacking away.
got this ne star thing, then movie screening.
so damn sian.
then ltr ken say got this class chalet.
wah lan, impel down mates not enthu derh.
but go costa sands not bad.
near my hse, morning can go home bathe.
then also got lit fiesta thingy.
pls, gimme best actor award.
i dun wan best speaker.
then, is NCC.
yay, long time bo trng,
all our body flabby flabby, except mine.
normal days got jog, everyday pump.
okay, first few hrs got drill by leo.
then brandon screw him,
so he screwed us.
tio a lot KID. hehehs..
and then came soif and junli.
ask who wan go for 2nd substitute for challenge quest.
then got me and brandon.
sah, the results is obvious.
so, sorry crew, i cant go for a rehearsal on tues.
have it on monday barh.
then got some other stuff going on,
and then got screw here and there a bit,
then got the part b prof badge. lol.
nid to start some real serious trng liao.
annual camp coming. thinks of fighting for rank. muahahahas.
and now, finally reach home.
trying to get into the estreaming page,
but the server screw me. sian.
then nid to prepare stuff for lit fiesta and NCC.
days gonna get real busy.
well, saw lotsa things in NCC that set me into deep thoughts.
chongkai's stupid laugh/smile:
sometimes, i wonder whether he could see things clearly.
and the recent art ponteng incident from e4 yet gave me bad impression of him.
perhaps should try to help him.
and eric's temper at oliver:
have a bad tone asking oliver to get his beret off his head.
obviously, eric still nid more trng(in the brain form),
and really learn to appreciate the platoon.
well, suddenly i feel a kind of deep, deep bond for the platoon.
regardless of the mates, i felt a deep bond for them.
suddenly feels that, all these bonds have overtaken the wild ambition of getting post and rank,
but yet gave me the ego to work hard for the company.
dunno why, i started to play along with joel;
perhaps, thats the kind of friendly antagonist bond.
enjoyed finding trouble together,
enjoyed pumping as one,
enjoyed the lan sessions.
however, eric's actions yet set me into thinking;
whether if this kind of bond existed, or even going to last.
sometimes, its kind of confusing to talk abt human relationships;
but yet, you find them wonderful.
somehow, gained the kind of passion that triggered me to be enthu from the start.
the kind of passion,
i have at January last yr,
yet lost it after seniors were impressed by my passion.
rank and so, it doesnt seems to matters already;
but yet, i treasure the bonds even more,
that last time i could forsake them for ranks.
power and fame,
that heart is gone.
now, i got this feeling, that feels that i can do all i can for my mates;
somehow, i joined the challenge quest as a reserved,
not because i wanted to win fame and chances out of it,
but, i wanted to do my best for the company.
looking at my platoon,
it doesnt matter whether if there's strong individuals or slackers,
it doesnt matter if we have a lot in different.
wads important is,
we are one. we are together.
well, i saw how one paticular sgt actually let two of his platoon mates get away from trng.
i knew it isnt right lawfully to do this,
but yet, in deep feelings,
he have a kind of bond for his platoon;
a kind of bond, that allows him to be at risk of punishment,
and scoldings, and even being pinpointed for doing the wrong thing.
for once, i detested this specialist to the core;
but yet today, he earned my respect.
my respect to the utmost.
sometimes, things can be seen by many point of views;
how they matter and weighs,
depends on how you view them.
okay, so the first few hrs of sch is spent slacking away.
got this ne star thing, then movie screening.
so damn sian.
then ltr ken say got this class chalet.
wah lan, impel down mates not enthu derh.
but go costa sands not bad.
near my hse, morning can go home bathe.
then also got lit fiesta thingy.
pls, gimme best actor award.
i dun wan best speaker.
then, is NCC.
yay, long time bo trng,
all our body flabby flabby, except mine.
normal days got jog, everyday pump.
okay, first few hrs got drill by leo.
then brandon screw him,
so he screwed us.
tio a lot KID. hehehs..
and then came soif and junli.
ask who wan go for 2nd substitute for challenge quest.
then got me and brandon.
sah, the results is obvious.
so, sorry crew, i cant go for a rehearsal on tues.
have it on monday barh.
then got some other stuff going on,
and then got screw here and there a bit,
then got the part b prof badge. lol.
nid to start some real serious trng liao.
annual camp coming. thinks of fighting for rank. muahahahas.
and now, finally reach home.
trying to get into the estreaming page,
but the server screw me. sian.
then nid to prepare stuff for lit fiesta and NCC.
days gonna get real busy.
well, saw lotsa things in NCC that set me into deep thoughts.
chongkai's stupid laugh/smile:
sometimes, i wonder whether he could see things clearly.
and the recent art ponteng incident from e4 yet gave me bad impression of him.
perhaps should try to help him.
and eric's temper at oliver:
have a bad tone asking oliver to get his beret off his head.
obviously, eric still nid more trng(in the brain form),
and really learn to appreciate the platoon.
well, suddenly i feel a kind of deep, deep bond for the platoon.
regardless of the mates, i felt a deep bond for them.
suddenly feels that, all these bonds have overtaken the wild ambition of getting post and rank,
but yet gave me the ego to work hard for the company.
dunno why, i started to play along with joel;
perhaps, thats the kind of friendly antagonist bond.
enjoyed finding trouble together,
enjoyed pumping as one,
enjoyed the lan sessions.
however, eric's actions yet set me into thinking;
whether if this kind of bond existed, or even going to last.
sometimes, its kind of confusing to talk abt human relationships;
but yet, you find them wonderful.
somehow, gained the kind of passion that triggered me to be enthu from the start.
the kind of passion,
i have at January last yr,
yet lost it after seniors were impressed by my passion.
rank and so, it doesnt seems to matters already;
but yet, i treasure the bonds even more,
that last time i could forsake them for ranks.
power and fame,
that heart is gone.
now, i got this feeling, that feels that i can do all i can for my mates;
somehow, i joined the challenge quest as a reserved,
not because i wanted to win fame and chances out of it,
but, i wanted to do my best for the company.
looking at my platoon,
it doesnt matter whether if there's strong individuals or slackers,
it doesnt matter if we have a lot in different.
wads important is,
we are one. we are together.
well, i saw how one paticular sgt actually let two of his platoon mates get away from trng.
i knew it isnt right lawfully to do this,
but yet, in deep feelings,
he have a kind of bond for his platoon;
a kind of bond, that allows him to be at risk of punishment,
and scoldings, and even being pinpointed for doing the wrong thing.
for once, i detested this specialist to the core;
but yet today, he earned my respect.
my respect to the utmost.
sometimes, things can be seen by many point of views;
how they matter and weighs,
depends on how you view them.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
thursday,
chibi smoker!!! lol!
well, today's been quite a tiring day after all.
well, we went to sch to slack for every lessons,
like listening to mr tham talking abt his life story,
then some videos and such,
and also some other slacking.
the whole of today's lesson time,
can only be represent by two words: slack.
and soon, its afternoon.
muahahaha, promised to help out for jumble sale.
but in the end, ended up screwing the dance moves,
and then rushing home to do NCC stuff.
there's first parade tmr, and S4 said that he expect full strength(which all superiors wanted).
im left to do the job by spreading news,
but gonna leave this thing to brandon,
as he's the one holding the acc to call.
im just the supervisor cum the receiver and spreader,
for special cases. busy busy busy.
well, i tot i wasted one afternoon screwing myself in the dance studio.
but not.
i spent some time teaching cassandra how to play badminton,
and then patiently coaching her how to aim and such.
wow, cant believe that im so enthu into teaching ppl.
well, feels like teaching her somemore if she wants,
or if there's time.
and jeremy.
wad a nice guy.
spent some time having men talk and discussion.
and he's a sportsman too.
well, just kinda feels that cassandra, nigel, jeremy are nice folks.
at least i did something noble today,
teaching ppl. lol.
and NCC tmr.
first parade somemore.
plus all the things tmr.
i guess im gonna tio meh or tio kan by vice guard of impel down tmr,
just because i left early from the dance studio.
and here's something to jx-kun and gang:
dun talk abt wad happen in the dance studio today,
cuz i just merely did nth much,
except playing badminton,
and then screwed up a bit,
and rushed home.
im guess i might be into bigger trouble,
but at least i managhe to improve a certain amount of classmate-ship with some ppl.
and tot of putting santouryu into badminton.
i manage to modify some katana moves into badminton.
well, three rackets sounds ridiculous.
but those katana moves does works. hmm.
eager for NCC tmr.
though it might be harsh and tiring,
but after all,
im ready for it.
The battle is still on.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
harhar, this is my digi art logo design.
'the eagle that overtake the sun',
symbolising how one can fly to as high as the sun,
and using its blocking on the sun to cause a massive shadow on earth.
showing how one can cover up the nature,
and reach the highest order.
and most importantly, it shows one very important motto of my life:
Will triumphs destiny.
if we can actually fly up high like the eagle,
to cover up the radiance of the sun,
it just means that achieving our dreams is possible,
no matter how hard it is.
the obstacles might be hard:
the low oxygen supply above sea lvl, the hotness of the sun, the energy to fly high.
well, if one can overcome obstacles,
like how this eagle overcome to fly as high as the sun,
then achieving dreams would be nothing but peanuts.
okay, back to today.
so today is more or less a slack day,
cuz we only returned to sch for digi art.
and then the rest of the day is spent slacking at home.
well, heard that the orient comp is tmr.
wish the team all the best.
and the bball inter class is on friday,
also wish team 2e3 all the best.
and soon, on next thurs, it'll be lit fiesta.
that's like less than one wk if we cut away the time for various events.
well, kindly urge the crew to get ready for this.
kept thinking of 30 october,
and kept thinking of NCC.
thinking of 30 octover cuz,
on that day it'll be the release and completion of the 2 yrs sentence in impel down,
and also a fresh start for me, perhaps.
really wanna get into a good class with good and uber enthu ppl. lol.
yeah, im sick of those baptising and torture in the cell,
i just hope that the sch wun transfer me to another prison.
im a real nice person,
so its logical that i enter a real nice class.
and the brothers-in-arms such as RAR and jx...
well, perhaps we're gonna have another adventure tgt.
and NCC.
well, how can one born-to-be-leader have no ambition at all?
its another decisive battle against your own mates;
its like that everytime, when ppl can see through.
yeah, im tired of those fighting and snatching,
but i cant let myself being trampled on,
by those that are inferior than me, right?
so, im gonna work my best, all the time in NCC.
well, if in the end my talents and hard work is not yet recognised...
then perhaps i shall just slack all the way.
well, just hope that no more biased and prejudice,
as well as power hunger.
well, really looked forward to the end of all this.
a mistake made that caused me so much,
and now it's going to end soon.
its gonna be a new start,
a fresh beginning for me.
no more stereotypes, no more arseholes, no more immatured ppl.
one last week, bear with it;
impel down will collaspe like it'd never been,
and shall me be the one triumphing.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
tuesday.
Killing spree has finally ended only when the game has ended.
okay, so, today received back all the results.
continue the killing spree by onwing all the guys,
and successfully broke the record of 3 A1.
achieve 4 A1 and 2 B4 =.=
and owned the class in hcl.
manage not to fail science,
and got an A1 in literature.
so, a bit of guide to perfect literature is,
blog more.
haha, feel so good, after so long.
manage to keep record of being top of all guys,
and wad is so suprising is,
i didnt study much or hard for my EOY. in fact, i put in less than half of mid yr.
so, of course, all the results made me so happy, but no swollen head.
wads the ownage is hcl and lit; im able to use the haki used in my featured post,
to write a 21 mark essay for macbeth.
yea, i might sound a bit boasting here.
but its a fact that im born to be extraordinary,
since young.
wads more is that im sure that i've beaten much, much more opponents.
its another sense of achievement,
not in somewhere where you have never expect or never do well,
but in somewhere where you did so normal that nobody would praise you of that.
so, study's done, now its time for NCC.
a bit sad, that i might have to start thinking of triumphing opponents and competitors.
its always like that, when you know that youput in your fullest,
but yet invite gossips and doubting of some ppl.
so, gonna get fit,
start reading the manual,
and then, get into tip top condition.
and suprisingly david manage to get second among the guys.
finally he did study this time.
of course, the target of getting into a preferred class might seem clearer now.
with that, im off for some slack time.
Take everything that comes your way; don't worry, in the end you're the one who triumphs.
okay, so, today received back all the results.
continue the killing spree by onwing all the guys,
and successfully broke the record of 3 A1.
achieve 4 A1 and 2 B4 =.=
and owned the class in hcl.
manage not to fail science,
and got an A1 in literature.
so, a bit of guide to perfect literature is,
blog more.
haha, feel so good, after so long.
manage to keep record of being top of all guys,
and wad is so suprising is,
i didnt study much or hard for my EOY. in fact, i put in less than half of mid yr.
so, of course, all the results made me so happy, but no swollen head.
wads the ownage is hcl and lit; im able to use the haki used in my featured post,
to write a 21 mark essay for macbeth.
yea, i might sound a bit boasting here.
but its a fact that im born to be extraordinary,
since young.
wads more is that im sure that i've beaten much, much more opponents.
its another sense of achievement,
not in somewhere where you have never expect or never do well,
but in somewhere where you did so normal that nobody would praise you of that.
so, study's done, now its time for NCC.
a bit sad, that i might have to start thinking of triumphing opponents and competitors.
its always like that, when you know that youput in your fullest,
but yet invite gossips and doubting of some ppl.
so, gonna get fit,
start reading the manual,
and then, get into tip top condition.
and suprisingly david manage to get second among the guys.
finally he did study this time.
of course, the target of getting into a preferred class might seem clearer now.
with that, im off for some slack time.
Take everything that comes your way; don't worry, in the end you're the one who triumphs.
Monday, October 19, 2009
You Are the "I" Block |
 You are dominant and a bit aggressive. You tend to assert yourself into situations and just take over. If people expect you, they are grateful for your presence. If you show up unannounced though, you tend to throw a bit of a wrench in things. You are brilliant and competent. You always have your facts straight, and you are very persuasive. Some people find you a bit intimidating at first, but once they get used to you, they can't imagine life without you. |
yay, its another monday.
and so, gonna slack for the rest of the days.
and so, went to blogthings and did a quiz that was new on list.
and then do do, get the results...(above)
i got that chia lat not?!
intimidating....sounds a bit like...
okay, so today gonna be another boring day.
really dunno wad i can do.
cuz is lyk, nobody to jio out,
and no ppl wan jio me.
even got also go lan =.=
and i look forward to tmr.
cuz its another sch day.
and it'll not be boring.
there will be laughter, tears, achievement, and regret.
cuz tmr is paper checking day.
god bless me.
well,
gonna live a small quote before i go:
It doesn't matter whether if you have lose out in the natural traits, or you are starting from negative instead of zero. What matters is whether if you're pesistence enough- if you are, all obstacles will surely surrender to you.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
sunday.
a nice sunday morning in which u will wonder wad to do,
and then decides to slack the whole day.
so, today is a day without a plan,
and its just aimless.
i dunno wad to do today,
and also, i dunno wad i can do.
running out of cash,
and then no ppl to jio out.
sian larh. wanna wait for sch to reopen.
well, i rmb when i came outta the toliet just now,
my dad ask me,
'since holidays are coming, why not go learn swimming?'
and i answer,
'the NS instructors will do their jobs.'
and he said,
'then wad u wan learn? dancing? or wad?'
and i simply answer,
'kenjitsu. im looking for a dojo now.'
so, anyone who noes of any dojo,
pls contact me asap.
Part II
i admit, im writing this part II out of mere boredom.
mere boredom with a bit of thoughts.
did nothing much for today,
except for the fact that im slakcing around in the morning,
then did some jogging ltr,
which i realise i have to start trng alot.
if not im gonna get a 4WD spare tyre =.=
and then watch one piece.
and there's no one piece manga this week.
so, one day is spent lyk this, aimlessly.
sah, the sky's getting darker and darker.
and now, im still here, aimlessly staring at the PC,
and wondering wad i should do to kill boredom.
start to think back of my memory lane.
all the way from yesterday, down down down,
down till those primary school days,
down till when im able to rmb as much as i can.
rmb those days i spent as a child,
rmb a lot of stuff.
sah, memories, a real thing that stays with you always.
there are both fun and sad parts,
those broken ones, those happy ones...
mah, my life is more about a tragedy.
spend days mugging in lower pri,
then as you get older,
you get more and mroe despise by gals. zzz.
and then after a aimless upper sec.
u get into impel down,
being boiled in hot water and then tortured by many forms.
soon, the sentence's gonna finish,
and we'll have a report card and some post exams activities.
i rmb those days back.
sometimes, i really regret.
regret that im so immature and cause so much troubles back in pri sch days.
rmb how rotten i am to blow away a true true, frenship,
that until now i've came to cherish, but its gone.
regret about how had i spent 2008 as a real rotten person,
regret about how i let many ppl down.
but still, thinking back,
and yet there are parts that makes me happy;
those recognition by everyone as the top mandarin in pri sch,
those good old days i spend playing soccer,
those good times i spent in NCC,
and the later part that causes me to meet leo and ervin,
and then had me go on this survival course,
that i met a good crew, and make good frens.
too much to think.
too much to feel.
for now, i only noe,
wad im doing today, is gonna be part of tmr's memories.
so, try to spend everyday happily,
fruitfully, and also without worries;
so that you'll have more beautiful memories tmr.
and then decides to slack the whole day.
so, today is a day without a plan,
and its just aimless.
i dunno wad to do today,
and also, i dunno wad i can do.
running out of cash,
and then no ppl to jio out.
sian larh. wanna wait for sch to reopen.
well, i rmb when i came outta the toliet just now,
my dad ask me,
'since holidays are coming, why not go learn swimming?'
and i answer,
'the NS instructors will do their jobs.'
and he said,
'then wad u wan learn? dancing? or wad?'
and i simply answer,
'kenjitsu. im looking for a dojo now.'
so, anyone who noes of any dojo,
pls contact me asap.
Part II
i admit, im writing this part II out of mere boredom.
mere boredom with a bit of thoughts.
did nothing much for today,
except for the fact that im slakcing around in the morning,
then did some jogging ltr,
which i realise i have to start trng alot.
if not im gonna get a 4WD spare tyre =.=
and then watch one piece.
and there's no one piece manga this week.
so, one day is spent lyk this, aimlessly.
sah, the sky's getting darker and darker.
and now, im still here, aimlessly staring at the PC,
and wondering wad i should do to kill boredom.
start to think back of my memory lane.
all the way from yesterday, down down down,
down till those primary school days,
down till when im able to rmb as much as i can.
rmb those days i spent as a child,
rmb a lot of stuff.
sah, memories, a real thing that stays with you always.
there are both fun and sad parts,
those broken ones, those happy ones...
mah, my life is more about a tragedy.
spend days mugging in lower pri,
then as you get older,
you get more and mroe despise by gals. zzz.
and then after a aimless upper sec.
u get into impel down,
being boiled in hot water and then tortured by many forms.
soon, the sentence's gonna finish,
and we'll have a report card and some post exams activities.
i rmb those days back.
sometimes, i really regret.
regret that im so immature and cause so much troubles back in pri sch days.
rmb how rotten i am to blow away a true true, frenship,
that until now i've came to cherish, but its gone.
regret about how had i spent 2008 as a real rotten person,
regret about how i let many ppl down.
but still, thinking back,
and yet there are parts that makes me happy;
those recognition by everyone as the top mandarin in pri sch,
those good old days i spend playing soccer,
those good times i spent in NCC,
and the later part that causes me to meet leo and ervin,
and then had me go on this survival course,
that i met a good crew, and make good frens.
too much to think.
too much to feel.
for now, i only noe,
wad im doing today, is gonna be part of tmr's memories.
so, try to spend everyday happily,
fruitfully, and also without worries;
so that you'll have more beautiful memories tmr.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
saturday.
and, i just returned home after a long, tiring day.
so, everything today is all about playing.
met RAR at circle line platform,
and then went to j8 for movie.
the reason for j8? cuz dongyi work thr.
but sadly cant kope any food outta him.
'we will make sure we kope sumthing next time, dong yi!'
and then watch this korean tsunami film.
oh, and then the part the tsunami came,
reminds me of how zoro and luffy defeated the aqua laguna,
water seven's annual tsunami strike.
a combo attack from both of them opened a hole in the tsunami,
allowing their seatrain to pass through it.
well, will triumphs over nature and destiny;
the winner, after all, is will power.
and then after some lunch,
went for lan at kovan.
met up with ervin and leo,
and had some time for CS, L4D, dota.
and niida exercise my fingers more-
my cs skills are lacking,
and decide to pick up a bit of dota. lol.
cs skills are deteorating as i've nvr play during the exam periods.
well, tmr and monday gonna be two more boring days.
i just wonder wad else can i do to make it more lively.
sah, too tired to lecture on any topic or moral.
gonna leave the quote of the day:
Be the biggest dreamer of your life, because everything starts from dreaming. Don't ever lose a dream of yours, because when you lose it, you lose the guiding light of your life. Men, clear all obstacles, and go towards your dreams!
so, everything today is all about playing.
met RAR at circle line platform,
and then went to j8 for movie.
the reason for j8? cuz dongyi work thr.
but sadly cant kope any food outta him.
'we will make sure we kope sumthing next time, dong yi!'
and then watch this korean tsunami film.
oh, and then the part the tsunami came,
reminds me of how zoro and luffy defeated the aqua laguna,
water seven's annual tsunami strike.
a combo attack from both of them opened a hole in the tsunami,
allowing their seatrain to pass through it.
well, will triumphs over nature and destiny;
the winner, after all, is will power.
and then after some lunch,
went for lan at kovan.
met up with ervin and leo,
and had some time for CS, L4D, dota.
and niida exercise my fingers more-
my cs skills are lacking,
and decide to pick up a bit of dota. lol.
cs skills are deteorating as i've nvr play during the exam periods.
well, tmr and monday gonna be two more boring days.
i just wonder wad else can i do to make it more lively.
sah, too tired to lecture on any topic or moral.
gonna leave the quote of the day:
Be the biggest dreamer of your life, because everything starts from dreaming. Don't ever lose a dream of yours, because when you lose it, you lose the guiding light of your life. Men, clear all obstacles, and go towards your dreams!
Friday, October 16, 2009
friday.
yay, its friday, and have no school today!
listening to the digimon theme songs now.
yeah, it might sound a bit of childish,
but they're one of those beautiful childhood memories.
really miss those digimon on the tv.
well, im a guy grew up watching digimon, shaman king and one piece.
and fruit basket!
those tai, luffy, sometimes really amaze me a lot.
i like watching anime.
i like them, cuz most of them always pass the same message around: be strong.
only when you're strong, in either way,
then you can defeat ur opponents,
and triumph over everything.
rmb, will triumphs destiny.
today gonna be a long boring day...
and perhaps the same for the other days.
looking for lobang to do after exams,
as well as play time.
nidda keep myself occupied somehow,
if not i'll die of boredom.
'BE THE BIGGEST BIGGEST DREAMER'.
listening to digimon's the biggest dreamer now.
let me ask you.
wad is the childhood dream of yours?
has it change since then?
have you forgotten it?
have you ever tried chasing after it?
men, set sail, and steer towards your dreams!
listening to the digimon theme songs now.
yeah, it might sound a bit of childish,
but they're one of those beautiful childhood memories.
really miss those digimon on the tv.
well, im a guy grew up watching digimon, shaman king and one piece.
and fruit basket!
those tai, luffy, sometimes really amaze me a lot.
i like watching anime.
i like them, cuz most of them always pass the same message around: be strong.
only when you're strong, in either way,
then you can defeat ur opponents,
and triumph over everything.
rmb, will triumphs destiny.
today gonna be a long boring day...
and perhaps the same for the other days.
looking for lobang to do after exams,
as well as play time.
nidda keep myself occupied somehow,
if not i'll die of boredom.
'BE THE BIGGEST BIGGEST DREAMER'.
listening to digimon's the biggest dreamer now.
let me ask you.
wad is the childhood dream of yours?
has it change since then?
have you forgotten it?
have you ever tried chasing after it?
men, set sail, and steer towards your dreams!
Thursday, October 15, 2009
thursday.
End of campaign: Last Stand II.
okay, thats the end of all the damn shitty exam.
and science paper is the only killer among all the papers.
well, just hope that i wun fail.
so, after exam, i return home,
then stare at my com while drinking some mocha flavoured milo.
yea, cant expect to party all day long.
after all, its just the end of exams.
i dun see much diff with any other nornal days =.=
must go start jogging.
and then train abs.
practise efficient dodging and stealth attacks.
and most importantly,
go shine my boots.
the end of exams means the start of NCC again.
so this means i must start getting ready,
and then prepare myself for everything,
aiming for the promotion this yr.
yea, of course have to start racking my brains how to sabo those saboteurs.
and, after all these hardwork,
soon, we are gonna get split up into other classes.
well, things are still not going fine;
perhaps, the class shall always remain a sort of regret in my memories.
sah, enough of sad stuff,
now, must get ready for NCC.
to prove that im fit, im proficient, im smart,
and obviously, im a leader.
okay, thats the end of all the damn shitty exam.
and science paper is the only killer among all the papers.
well, just hope that i wun fail.
so, after exam, i return home,
then stare at my com while drinking some mocha flavoured milo.
yea, cant expect to party all day long.
after all, its just the end of exams.
i dun see much diff with any other nornal days =.=
must go start jogging.
and then train abs.
practise efficient dodging and stealth attacks.
and most importantly,
go shine my boots.
the end of exams means the start of NCC again.
so this means i must start getting ready,
and then prepare myself for everything,
aiming for the promotion this yr.
yea, of course have to start racking my brains how to sabo those saboteurs.
and, after all these hardwork,
soon, we are gonna get split up into other classes.
well, things are still not going fine;
perhaps, the class shall always remain a sort of regret in my memories.
sah, enough of sad stuff,
now, must get ready for NCC.
to prove that im fit, im proficient, im smart,
and obviously, im a leader.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
wednesday.
yeah, im in for the mood of blogging.
okay, so basically i slack the whole of ytd doing nth,
cuz its hcl paper today.
its more lyk a 50-50 gamble: you win or you lose.
the hcl paper depends on ur standard,
and there's nth much u can do by studying or reading notes.
so, suprisingly the paper came out to be quite okay;
and the passages in the paper are lyk so damn meaningful.
on was on the art of success, another on the 'savings' of life,
such as friendships and kinships.
yea, perhaps its gonna be the open ended that kill or saves me.
and gonna spend the rest of today mugging chem and physics,
and after tmr...its party time!
well, just dunno wad else can i do after the exams,
perhaps i should go back to the hardcore trng i neglected due to the exams.
start jogging, abs trng, strength and endurance trng. they nid a lot of time.
just hope for the best tmr;
hope verything will turnh out well.
and jiayou everyone!
its just one last paper!
okay, so basically i slack the whole of ytd doing nth,
cuz its hcl paper today.
its more lyk a 50-50 gamble: you win or you lose.
the hcl paper depends on ur standard,
and there's nth much u can do by studying or reading notes.
so, suprisingly the paper came out to be quite okay;
and the passages in the paper are lyk so damn meaningful.
on was on the art of success, another on the 'savings' of life,
such as friendships and kinships.
yea, perhaps its gonna be the open ended that kill or saves me.
and gonna spend the rest of today mugging chem and physics,
and after tmr...its party time!
well, just dunno wad else can i do after the exams,
perhaps i should go back to the hardcore trng i neglected due to the exams.
start jogging, abs trng, strength and endurance trng. they nid a lot of time.
just hope for the best tmr;
hope verything will turnh out well.
and jiayou everyone!
its just one last paper!
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
tuesday.
A problem shall always never be a problem; it'll only be a problem only when you view it as one.
ooh, joanne ur rite.
damn me and my time.
yeah i can post everyday,
cuz i got super good time management =.=
jkjk. i just happen to be free to post only.
okay, so maths paper went by lyk another breeze.
not to mention that i have not much confidence for it,
but wad's over is over liao.
and sci is on thurs,
and tmr's hcl.
so can slow down a bit go lim kopi.
everyday is lyk the same these few days,
study, then slack a bit;
not much play time and interaction with any frens.
somehow exams is always something that i didnt lyk in my life;
i dun study for it, and i score a or b.
anw, who in this earth lyks exams?
its just a procedure of life to go through barh.
anw these few days cant blog any good or inspiration post.
just cant do that when ur mind is full of exam notes and sort of stuff.
maybe after exams those post exam activites will make life better for me.
When you're grumbling that life is too harsh or bad for you, just turn back; you'll see tons of ppl worse than you. You feel that life is tough because you think and feel so; if hardships and toughness are definite as daily procedure to you, life isnt any tougher.
well, use to grumble a lot of life.
used to compare myself with other ppl.
life is nvr perfect; its all the imperfect that always makes this lfie journey perfect.
u feel that you're worse off because you compared yourself to someone thats better than you.
take it and go through it; u'll find all these hardships, a training for situations tmr.
i've been through, experience through; life, has nvr been anymore sad and tough,
because all these hardships, are customise to make me stronger day by day.
Run run run! Chase chase chase! People, run towards your ambitions, chase after those dreams! Though tears are still rolling down your cheeks, but soon they will not show anymore!
ooh, joanne ur rite.
damn me and my time.
yeah i can post everyday,
cuz i got super good time management =.=
jkjk. i just happen to be free to post only.
okay, so maths paper went by lyk another breeze.
not to mention that i have not much confidence for it,
but wad's over is over liao.
and sci is on thurs,
and tmr's hcl.
so can slow down a bit go lim kopi.
everyday is lyk the same these few days,
study, then slack a bit;
not much play time and interaction with any frens.
somehow exams is always something that i didnt lyk in my life;
i dun study for it, and i score a or b.
anw, who in this earth lyks exams?
its just a procedure of life to go through barh.
anw these few days cant blog any good or inspiration post.
just cant do that when ur mind is full of exam notes and sort of stuff.
maybe after exams those post exam activites will make life better for me.
When you're grumbling that life is too harsh or bad for you, just turn back; you'll see tons of ppl worse than you. You feel that life is tough because you think and feel so; if hardships and toughness are definite as daily procedure to you, life isnt any tougher.
well, use to grumble a lot of life.
used to compare myself with other ppl.
life is nvr perfect; its all the imperfect that always makes this lfie journey perfect.
u feel that you're worse off because you compared yourself to someone thats better than you.
take it and go through it; u'll find all these hardships, a training for situations tmr.
i've been through, experience through; life, has nvr been anymore sad and tough,
because all these hardships, are customise to make me stronger day by day.
Run run run! Chase chase chase! People, run towards your ambitions, chase after those dreams! Though tears are still rolling down your cheeks, but soon they will not show anymore!
Monday, October 12, 2009
monday.
The art of punches don't lie in the amount of strength; the lie in the amount of willpower.
finally i manage to clear lit exam.
and tmr is maths, not to mention that i've not been doing much revision.
somehow got a bit of enrage.
haha, long time nvr got into a rage that i got the feel to ask for a fight.
oh, its considering the pic i pose with mt katana.
haha, there's a long convo over it ytd,
and then today u meet one dickhead trying to tell u,
'u think u look hot arh?'
obviously that pic isnt out up thr to look hot.
and obviously im not flaunting off that i've got a katana.
i got a daisho pair at home, less not a katana.
and then someone is trying to give you shit stuff.
obviously wad wad my frens said for the earlier comments for the foto came quite true,
'lol O.O they blind lah'.
ppl always view things from wad they want to see.
all thanks to some fkers,
i pretty screw my life in zhss.
wonder if thats going to affect anything next yr.
for once fel told me that violence wouldnt solve anything.
how abt giving that dickhead a sanjyu roku pondo hou,
teaching him not to blabber anyhow for the rest of his life?
im not here to protest or wad,
but here to give an example.
after all, i look tons better than that dickhead(thats only to ppl not in zhss),
and i dun feel the need to get real fed up.
its a kind of rage-
i have subdue it,
and here to teach you all one thing:
祸从口出，病从口入.
troubles come by blabbering anyhow,
and sickness come by unhealthy diets.
today im giving him, as a classmate, his last face;
if it were the past i've not only brought the katana to sch,
but along with a wakistari and a nodachi.
to do wad? hack ppl!
always to rmb,
when giving comments, not to give from the point of ur own-
u nvr noe how much ur bias views are going to land you in trouble.
view things from a clear situation, taking into assumption that ur not part of it-
only then, u'll solve things fairly.
because that there's too much bias view in this world,
that's wad that makes many resent and hatred;
and yet, give willpower to those,
that are view with bias and stereotype,
to climb to the highest and conquer all.
finally i manage to clear lit exam.
and tmr is maths, not to mention that i've not been doing much revision.
somehow got a bit of enrage.
haha, long time nvr got into a rage that i got the feel to ask for a fight.
oh, its considering the pic i pose with mt katana.
haha, there's a long convo over it ytd,
and then today u meet one dickhead trying to tell u,
'u think u look hot arh?'
obviously that pic isnt out up thr to look hot.
and obviously im not flaunting off that i've got a katana.
i got a daisho pair at home, less not a katana.
and then someone is trying to give you shit stuff.
obviously wad wad my frens said for the earlier comments for the foto came quite true,
'lol O.O they blind lah'.
ppl always view things from wad they want to see.
all thanks to some fkers,
i pretty screw my life in zhss.
wonder if thats going to affect anything next yr.
for once fel told me that violence wouldnt solve anything.
how abt giving that dickhead a sanjyu roku pondo hou,
teaching him not to blabber anyhow for the rest of his life?
im not here to protest or wad,
but here to give an example.
after all, i look tons better than that dickhead(thats only to ppl not in zhss),
and i dun feel the need to get real fed up.
its a kind of rage-
i have subdue it,
and here to teach you all one thing:
祸从口出，病从口入.
troubles come by blabbering anyhow,
and sickness come by unhealthy diets.
today im giving him, as a classmate, his last face;
if it were the past i've not only brought the katana to sch,
but along with a wakistari and a nodachi.
to do wad? hack ppl!
always to rmb,
when giving comments, not to give from the point of ur own-
u nvr noe how much ur bias views are going to land you in trouble.
view things from a clear situation, taking into assumption that ur not part of it-
only then, u'll solve things fairly.
because that there's too much bias view in this world,
that's wad that makes many resent and hatred;
and yet, give willpower to those,
that are view with bias and stereotype,
to climb to the highest and conquer all.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
sunday.
The day before the last stand: part II
much of ytd was spent mugging away.
i think it's the same old thing for today.
its lit tmr, and i still dun feel the intense feeling.
somemore, im not into the exam mood.
hope everything will go real well.
had been thinking a lot.
thinking through so much stuff from friday to ytd nite.
well, wad else can i think abt?
so u guys who read my blog often noe wad im thinking abt.
sometimes, i feel so stupid.
lingering over something that isnt meant to be.
and yet, sometimes, i feel so foolish.
yearning over someone who might have already forgotten me,
who might deleted me in her memory space.
i've always told myself to put it down, forget it.
but i cant bear to do it, much less deceive myself of my own feelings.
but this time, i guess i really have to put everything down.
for this is something, that has no results;
after all, im the only one suffering.
till today,
perhaps it isnt a slight hatred in her anymore;
its much of a detest, a much of a dun-come-to-me.
but yet, why am i still yearning for her,
for someone that seems not meant to be,
for something that seems not to be?
i really dun wan everything to end.
i really dun wan.
maybe life without u isnt a torture to me anymore,
loving someone who just treat me as a passerby with a bad umpression.
well, i just cant put it down.
anw, enough of this emo stuff.
okay, tmr's the big thing liao,
so we're gonna make a big killing.
four more days and we shall own them.
chiong arh!
much of ytd was spent mugging away.
i think it's the same old thing for today.
its lit tmr, and i still dun feel the intense feeling.
somemore, im not into the exam mood.
hope everything will go real well.
had been thinking a lot.
thinking through so much stuff from friday to ytd nite.
well, wad else can i think abt?
so u guys who read my blog often noe wad im thinking abt.
sometimes, i feel so stupid.
lingering over something that isnt meant to be.
and yet, sometimes, i feel so foolish.
yearning over someone who might have already forgotten me,
who might deleted me in her memory space.
i've always told myself to put it down, forget it.
but i cant bear to do it, much less deceive myself of my own feelings.
but this time, i guess i really have to put everything down.
for this is something, that has no results;
after all, im the only one suffering.
till today,
perhaps it isnt a slight hatred in her anymore;
its much of a detest, a much of a dun-come-to-me.
but yet, why am i still yearning for her,
for someone that seems not meant to be,
for something that seems not to be?
i really dun wan everything to end.
i really dun wan.
maybe life without u isnt a torture to me anymore,
loving someone who just treat me as a passerby with a bad umpression.
well, i just cant put it down.
anw, enough of this emo stuff.
okay, tmr's the big thing liao,
so we're gonna make a big killing.
four more days and we shall own them.
chiong arh!
Saturday, October 10, 2009
saturday.
Will triumphs destiny.
okay, today's saturday.
and lit exam is on mon.
wwhich means im left with less than 46 hrs to finish the mugging.
well, gonna give myself a boost and chiong all the way froma fternoon to night.
haha, saw my uncle on news ytd.
he's the guy who donated a kidney to hsi wife.
and this news is reported cuz,
the medical team finds it an achievement,
to make a kidney transplant between two ppl of diff blood grps.
despite the fact of the antibiotics and sort of stuff,
NUH did it. a new chpt in Singapore's medical history.
im here not to praise how zai the medical team is.
nor how advance the medical technology is.
im here to comment on my uncle.
somehow since the day he took the operation for the transplant,
i found him to be extraordinary.
he did not mind living the next 30-40 yrs of his life with one kidney.
think abt wad else you can only do with one kidney.
you cant do much things, neither sports.
somemore donating to his wife,
a person of a diff blood grp.
if the transplant fails means a waste of his effort, and kidney.
he must have extraordinary courage to do such thing.
another thing that somehow makes him extraordinary,
is also due to the fact that he donated a kidney to his wife.
haha, being a close relative of theirs,
i've seen the couple trying to overcome difficult times together.
its reported that my aunt has been on dialysis for 7 yrs.
well, my uncle has nvr ever abandon her,
and even went to the far extent to donate his kidney,
in order for her to live.
all along i see how he gave time and money to my aunt.
he dedicated his life to look after my aunt.
and now he donated a kidney to his closest partner.
he now live life with one kidney,
somehow as the sole breadwinner of his family,
he didnt earn much.
one kidney means a huge advantage for him.
but, he did not mind all the hardships and troubles after the transplant.
he did not mind the risk of the operation.
he went on for it. for my aunt.
我现在不是要你为爱而亡，而是为爱生不如死。你肯吗？
he made such a big sacrifice for something that many did not value,
or many that violate, or many that mis-uses.
he did it, not for the survival of his mate,
but for the love of them.
thinking back,
asking me to eat a bullet and die for her is too easy.
perhaps, love for one person,
is to the extent that u're willing to give anything to her,
not for the love u have for her,
but just you want her to lead life happily.
It's not the talents or abilities one has that makes one extraordinary; its the deeds that one person has done to make a difference in him or her.
a price that seems so big to pay,
but my uncle did it, for love.
are you even willing to live life the harshest way,
just for the one you love to be happy?
thinking back,
if you ask me to not jut lose a kidney,
but to lose everything, physical and material in this world, just for her,
i'll gladly agree to that.
EXTRAORDINARY. because he did something extraordinary, not that he is extraordinary.
okay, today's saturday.
and lit exam is on mon.
wwhich means im left with less than 46 hrs to finish the mugging.
well, gonna give myself a boost and chiong all the way froma fternoon to night.
haha, saw my uncle on news ytd.
he's the guy who donated a kidney to hsi wife.
and this news is reported cuz,
the medical team finds it an achievement,
to make a kidney transplant between two ppl of diff blood grps.
despite the fact of the antibiotics and sort of stuff,
NUH did it. a new chpt in Singapore's medical history.
im here not to praise how zai the medical team is.
nor how advance the medical technology is.
im here to comment on my uncle.
somehow since the day he took the operation for the transplant,
i found him to be extraordinary.
he did not mind living the next 30-40 yrs of his life with one kidney.
think abt wad else you can only do with one kidney.
you cant do much things, neither sports.
somemore donating to his wife,
a person of a diff blood grp.
if the transplant fails means a waste of his effort, and kidney.
he must have extraordinary courage to do such thing.
another thing that somehow makes him extraordinary,
is also due to the fact that he donated a kidney to his wife.
haha, being a close relative of theirs,
i've seen the couple trying to overcome difficult times together.
its reported that my aunt has been on dialysis for 7 yrs.
well, my uncle has nvr ever abandon her,
and even went to the far extent to donate his kidney,
in order for her to live.
all along i see how he gave time and money to my aunt.
he dedicated his life to look after my aunt.
and now he donated a kidney to his closest partner.
he now live life with one kidney,
somehow as the sole breadwinner of his family,
he didnt earn much.
one kidney means a huge advantage for him.
but, he did not mind all the hardships and troubles after the transplant.
he did not mind the risk of the operation.
he went on for it. for my aunt.
我现在不是要你为爱而亡，而是为爱生不如死。你肯吗？
he made such a big sacrifice for something that many did not value,
or many that violate, or many that mis-uses.
he did it, not for the survival of his mate,
but for the love of them.
thinking back,
asking me to eat a bullet and die for her is too easy.
perhaps, love for one person,
is to the extent that u're willing to give anything to her,
not for the love u have for her,
but just you want her to lead life happily.
It's not the talents or abilities one has that makes one extraordinary; its the deeds that one person has done to make a difference in him or her.
a price that seems so big to pay,
but my uncle did it, for love.
are you even willing to live life the harshest way,
just for the one you love to be happy?
thinking back,
if you ask me to not jut lose a kidney,
but to lose everything, physical and material in this world, just for her,
i'll gladly agree to that.
EXTRAORDINARY. because he did something extraordinary, not that he is extraordinary.
Friday, October 9, 2009
friday.
well, how time flies. very soon its all my main papers.
and must thank the support of readers for patronising my blog.
and feels happy that the unique reader counters increase day by day.
and today is another kind of slack day in sch.
first is hcl lesson.
wad is so important this time is,
wad mdm zhang said sounds lyk arrows piercing my heart.
well, not gonna elaborate,
e3 peeps go recall wad she said in class;
maybe u'll noe why.
and soon after recess is the discussion for the jumble sale.
wow to think that the idea of busking that i tell ms suba actually works.
lol and i feel so good *three claps for oyabun* .
and obviously im in the logistics crew,
so i think things are pretty much simple for me.
and maths lesson all the way till last period,
and we had geog.
gonna try creating a fb page for mrs kok.
ppl u must support me arh!
每次看到你与其他男生谈天时，
心里总有一种酸酸的感觉。
算是因为十分吃醋，十分嫉妒。
但是，也有一种快乐的感觉；
看到你与他们谈天时露出那快乐的笑容，笑得合不拢嘴；
看到你能快快乐乐的自己心里也自然快乐起来。
你快乐，所以我快乐。
过不久后，将分班了。
知道你不可能记得我，想念我；
但知道自己一定会惦记你。
以后的日子，
记得要快快乐乐的度过。
因为。。。
你快乐，所以我快乐。
and must thank the support of readers for patronising my blog.
and feels happy that the unique reader counters increase day by day.
and today is another kind of slack day in sch.
first is hcl lesson.
wad is so important this time is,
wad mdm zhang said sounds lyk arrows piercing my heart.
well, not gonna elaborate,
e3 peeps go recall wad she said in class;
maybe u'll noe why.
and soon after recess is the discussion for the jumble sale.
wow to think that the idea of busking that i tell ms suba actually works.
lol and i feel so good *three claps for oyabun* .
and obviously im in the logistics crew,
so i think things are pretty much simple for me.
and maths lesson all the way till last period,
and we had geog.
gonna try creating a fb page for mrs kok.
ppl u must support me arh!
每次看到你与其他男生谈天时，
心里总有一种酸酸的感觉。
算是因为十分吃醋，十分嫉妒。
但是，也有一种快乐的感觉；
看到你与他们谈天时露出那快乐的笑容，笑得合不拢嘴；
看到你能快快乐乐的自己心里也自然快乐起来。
你快乐，所以我快乐。
过不久后，将分班了。
知道你不可能记得我，想念我；
但知道自己一定会惦记你。
以后的日子，
记得要快快乐乐的度过。
因为。。。
你快乐，所以我快乐。
Thursday, October 8, 2009
thursday.
and overall, today has been another peaceful day. lol.
and things were lyk going much much smoothly than before today,
and art lesson aint as tiring as before,
cuz we are doing theory for art. lol.
and today is lyk..erm, fun larh.
trying to disiao mrs kok,
by squeezing the kiwi(who gives out a sound).
and she just dao me and continue,
but i can see ppl take fun in this process. zzz.
and so, as time flies,
the main exams are around the corner.
and things are gonna get real busy soon.
and really, sometimes i get sian of the sch timetable.
luckily, not before long, it'll come to an end.
ooh, btw ms suba mention of this junble sale after eoy,
for the sec 2 to raise money for old folks home.
maybe should suggest something lyk singing and playing musical instruments for the cash to come in.
well, as today is just as normal as it can go,
so not much things are in for today.
and perhaps this gonna be one of the sian sian post that run-the-road have.
你快乐，所以我快乐。
恨我也好，厌我也好，
我只要做那远远看护的月光。
对不起，我忘不了你。
and things were lyk going much much smoothly than before today,
and art lesson aint as tiring as before,
cuz we are doing theory for art. lol.
and today is lyk..erm, fun larh.
trying to disiao mrs kok,
by squeezing the kiwi(who gives out a sound).
and she just dao me and continue,
but i can see ppl take fun in this process. zzz.
and so, as time flies,
the main exams are around the corner.
and things are gonna get real busy soon.
and really, sometimes i get sian of the sch timetable.
luckily, not before long, it'll come to an end.
ooh, btw ms suba mention of this junble sale after eoy,
for the sec 2 to raise money for old folks home.
maybe should suggest something lyk singing and playing musical instruments for the cash to come in.
well, as today is just as normal as it can go,
so not much things are in for today.
and perhaps this gonna be one of the sian sian post that run-the-road have.
你快乐，所以我快乐。
恨我也好，厌我也好，
我只要做那远远看护的月光。
对不起，我忘不了你。
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
wednesday.
well, its another day...of suprise.
everything went on with the kinda good mood.
and then the 1 hr geog wasnt so tiring today.
aiya, wad else u wan do after geog exam?
and then mrs kok went around the classrm trying to rmb all our name.
and there's xiao man. a very nice name.
and then during phy mr tang lost his voice.
oh dear, he better not take mc tmr.
cant afford to fail phy..zzz.
and everything was going on so normal.
until the last minutes before the bell goes,
mr ivan(the sch counsellor) came to look for me.
okay, dun think wrong,
im not a problematic kid or wad,
but im facing human rights problems with the impel down peeps.
so, had a chat for abt 1 hr,
and found out that he came to me due to a tcher's request.
and told him to tell the tcher abt everything in the convo.
after all, its better this way; tcher will understand the situation better.
one of mr ivan's quote was on good terms with me.
forget how it goes lyk,
but it says that we go through problems to become stronger,
and life's somehow a challenge.
well, i've thought of it;
destiny made me to go through two tiring yrs,
to prepare myself to create a destiny for this world.
through all these days in impel down,
all these incidents, stereotypes, biased thoughts...
refine me into a person of exception high EQ,
and strong in all ways.
perhaps, all these are a stage that i've to go through,
in order to have a better tmr.
well, discuss abt one problem with mr ivan.
talk abt how i wanted recognition from the class.
well, they are hard sure that i'll fail in my life.
but then...
i'll make myself...KING.
perhaps, life's greatest regret,
and life greatest lesson,
is getting into impel down for all this shyt;
life's prolouge to succession,
resides in all of 2e3.
i dun care whether they've seen that i have change,
i dun care how they view me;
all i noe is,
for those who supported me and trusted me,
i wun let them down;
for those who despise me and have biased looks on me,
i'll prove them wrong.
Let's not talk about the hardships and obstacles in this road, let's not talk about the failure or success of this journey. All I know is that, I'm gonna do it, and destiny stalls a page for it to be complete.
everything went on with the kinda good mood.
and then the 1 hr geog wasnt so tiring today.
aiya, wad else u wan do after geog exam?
and then mrs kok went around the classrm trying to rmb all our name.
and there's xiao man. a very nice name.
and then during phy mr tang lost his voice.
oh dear, he better not take mc tmr.
cant afford to fail phy..zzz.
and everything was going on so normal.
until the last minutes before the bell goes,
mr ivan(the sch counsellor) came to look for me.
okay, dun think wrong,
im not a problematic kid or wad,
but im facing human rights problems with the impel down peeps.
so, had a chat for abt 1 hr,
and found out that he came to me due to a tcher's request.
and told him to tell the tcher abt everything in the convo.
after all, its better this way; tcher will understand the situation better.
one of mr ivan's quote was on good terms with me.
forget how it goes lyk,
but it says that we go through problems to become stronger,
and life's somehow a challenge.
well, i've thought of it;
destiny made me to go through two tiring yrs,
to prepare myself to create a destiny for this world.
through all these days in impel down,
all these incidents, stereotypes, biased thoughts...
refine me into a person of exception high EQ,
and strong in all ways.
perhaps, all these are a stage that i've to go through,
in order to have a better tmr.
well, discuss abt one problem with mr ivan.
talk abt how i wanted recognition from the class.
well, they are hard sure that i'll fail in my life.
but then...
i'll make myself...KING.
perhaps, life's greatest regret,
and life greatest lesson,
is getting into impel down for all this shyt;
life's prolouge to succession,
resides in all of 2e3.
i dun care whether they've seen that i have change,
i dun care how they view me;
all i noe is,
for those who supported me and trusted me,
i wun let them down;
for those who despise me and have biased looks on me,
i'll prove them wrong.
Let's not talk about the hardships and obstacles in this road, let's not talk about the failure or success of this journey. All I know is that, I'm gonna do it, and destiny stalls a page for it to be complete.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
tuesday.
Walk on.
well, today, indeed, is another fruitful day.
things seems pretty bad at first.
but slowly, you'll find the meaning behind it.
okay, again we had rugby for pe today.
team up with dav, jx and martin.
nice combo. the teamwork is quite nice.
however, there's a kind of unhappiness to it.
well, the spectators were waiting for david to score.
but then, i was the one who ran straight and scored the goal.
somehow, again, i felt the honour lyk wad i felt duing 2.4 again.
the kind of achievement, the kind of happy.
to many, perhaps scoring a goal in rugby isnt nothing pretty much.
but sport games aint my forte;
somemore, i manage to kind of suprise some ppl by scoring a goal.
cuz they didnt expect me to do it, and they maybe did not wan me to do it.
well, ltr some kind of perception towards some things,
and some incidents cause me to be in a low mood. not bad mood.
then, ltr during lit, an irony occured,
as we're doing an unseen prose abt an outcast and some sort of things lyk this.
this, immediately, led me to think of myself.
'aint i being outcasted by much of the class?'
and then during the last ten mins of lit,
i went on telling mdm ng abt how life screwed me badly,
inner and outer; physical, emotional, metal.
then mdm ng went on to explain abt some hadicap guy who ran a marathon,
and her own life story.
somehow, i began to think,
why has such things been proven as a problems to me?
being stereotyped, being outcasted, being despise...
the cue towards thinking is,
these are not problems that ordinary ppl can handle.
all these months in impel down lvl 6...
well, facing all the same boos and stereotypes,
and then receiving comments of 'tyco' or 'sheer luck' when u tried ur best to score goals.
no one shared your joy, no one shared your woes.
through these months, i've walked alone,
enduring all of it, hoping for a miracle to happen, as i created it myself.
but nothing seem to change.
still outcasted, still stereotyped, still despised.
On our journey across the islands, all of us became stronger without even noticing.
-Part of Zoro's speech to Nami and Chopper.
somehow, today's chain of incidents relate me to this quote.
through all these months, i've become stronger day by day,
without realising it. only when i turn bk then i realise.
i've grown to be mentally, emotionally, physically strong.
now, wad i lack is the outer appearance to give good first impression.
so, i'll start vigourous trng,
of 200 sit ups, 120 wide arm push ups, and 7 pull ups per day.
if i have time i would run 3.6km per day also.
ooh, btw, i suddenly thought of something quite funny.
for anime fans out there, you all might noe who is Rob Lucci from One Piece.
yea, qhan reminds me of lucci.
you all can search lucci up in google, so u'll noe wad i mean.
well, anw, i think i shall make a personal committment,
of defeating all obstacles, growing stronger and stronger day by day;
and to quickly complete stage 3 of the Operation.
this includes:
- 54-55kg,
- chest muscles,
- six pack abs,
- facelift and a new face and hairstyle.
well, i nid to complete all this b4 the start of next yr.
Its not a fight between me and others; its one between myself. Its all about throwing away all the stereotypes and detest. Its all personal effort.
well, today, indeed, is another fruitful day.
things seems pretty bad at first.
but slowly, you'll find the meaning behind it.
okay, again we had rugby for pe today.
team up with dav, jx and martin.
nice combo. the teamwork is quite nice.
however, there's a kind of unhappiness to it.
well, the spectators were waiting for david to score.
but then, i was the one who ran straight and scored the goal.
somehow, again, i felt the honour lyk wad i felt duing 2.4 again.
the kind of achievement, the kind of happy.
to many, perhaps scoring a goal in rugby isnt nothing pretty much.
but sport games aint my forte;
somemore, i manage to kind of suprise some ppl by scoring a goal.
cuz they didnt expect me to do it, and they maybe did not wan me to do it.
well, ltr some kind of perception towards some things,
and some incidents cause me to be in a low mood. not bad mood.
then, ltr during lit, an irony occured,
as we're doing an unseen prose abt an outcast and some sort of things lyk this.
this, immediately, led me to think of myself.
'aint i being outcasted by much of the class?'
and then during the last ten mins of lit,
i went on telling mdm ng abt how life screwed me badly,
inner and outer; physical, emotional, metal.
then mdm ng went on to explain abt some hadicap guy who ran a marathon,
and her own life story.
somehow, i began to think,
why has such things been proven as a problems to me?
being stereotyped, being outcasted, being despise...
the cue towards thinking is,
these are not problems that ordinary ppl can handle.
all these months in impel down lvl 6...
well, facing all the same boos and stereotypes,
and then receiving comments of 'tyco' or 'sheer luck' when u tried ur best to score goals.
no one shared your joy, no one shared your woes.
through these months, i've walked alone,
enduring all of it, hoping for a miracle to happen, as i created it myself.
but nothing seem to change.
still outcasted, still stereotyped, still despised.
On our journey across the islands, all of us became stronger without even noticing.
-Part of Zoro's speech to Nami and Chopper.
somehow, today's chain of incidents relate me to this quote.
through all these months, i've become stronger day by day,
without realising it. only when i turn bk then i realise.
i've grown to be mentally, emotionally, physically strong.
now, wad i lack is the outer appearance to give good first impression.
so, i'll start vigourous trng,
of 200 sit ups, 120 wide arm push ups, and 7 pull ups per day.
if i have time i would run 3.6km per day also.
ooh, btw, i suddenly thought of something quite funny.
for anime fans out there, you all might noe who is Rob Lucci from One Piece.
yea, qhan reminds me of lucci.
you all can search lucci up in google, so u'll noe wad i mean.
well, anw, i think i shall make a personal committment,
of defeating all obstacles, growing stronger and stronger day by day;
and to quickly complete stage 3 of the Operation.
this includes:
- 54-55kg,
- chest muscles,
- six pack abs,
- facelift and a new face and hairstyle.
well, i nid to complete all this b4 the start of next yr.
Its not a fight between me and others; its one between myself. Its all about throwing away all the stereotypes and detest. Its all personal effort.
Monday, October 5, 2009
monday.
wow, i still got time to blog. *claps*
today is another peaceful yet fun day.
well, its the usual stuff you get every monday,
and things were, thankfully, nice today.
the highlight for the day is home econs lesson.
well, we're suppose to make some kind of rice pancake,
but i turn out to be preparing fried rice.
the quality of the rice sucks,
and then using cooked rice straight away isnt too good.
ce was another talk cock session.
instead of spending time revising,
we spent time talking nonsensical stuff away.
had been thinking of something,
over and over again.
well, not abt the self,
and yet not abt any stereotyping.
its more abt myself.
'why do i have to still be lyk that despite i dun wan to be anymore?'
once you gets into a role too deep,
sometimes you might just lose urself.
RAR read my taodeching today.
he said that it has some kind of 'holy feeling',
or even 'hirameki'.
try reading the book;
it can answer to all ur qn.
having tuition today.
well, the last few sessions liao.
will surely miss them the next yr.
perhaps should really chiong all the studies this week.
things are getting more and more serious.
Ever wonder why has the sea allows all rivers to flow into it? This is due to the reason that it resides in a lower region than the rivers, allowing the rivers to flow into it. Human should learn from the sea; to put other's interest before one's, to be humble and respectful to everyone.
today is another peaceful yet fun day.
well, its the usual stuff you get every monday,
and things were, thankfully, nice today.
the highlight for the day is home econs lesson.
well, we're suppose to make some kind of rice pancake,
but i turn out to be preparing fried rice.
the quality of the rice sucks,
and then using cooked rice straight away isnt too good.
ce was another talk cock session.
instead of spending time revising,
we spent time talking nonsensical stuff away.
had been thinking of something,
over and over again.
well, not abt the self,
and yet not abt any stereotyping.
its more abt myself.
'why do i have to still be lyk that despite i dun wan to be anymore?'
once you gets into a role too deep,
sometimes you might just lose urself.
RAR read my taodeching today.
he said that it has some kind of 'holy feeling',
or even 'hirameki'.
try reading the book;
it can answer to all ur qn.
having tuition today.
well, the last few sessions liao.
will surely miss them the next yr.
perhaps should really chiong all the studies this week.
things are getting more and more serious.
Ever wonder why has the sea allows all rivers to flow into it? This is due to the reason that it resides in a lower region than the rivers, allowing the rivers to flow into it. Human should learn from the sea; to put other's interest before one's, to be humble and respectful to everyone.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
sunday.
Dai Enkai: Entei!
one of Portgas D. Ace best attacks,
or perhaps is his strongest attack ever seen.
okay, sunday is yet another slack day,
but a prolouge to all monday blues.
tmr, i guess the tchers will start to chiong us with last revisions,
and then slowly kill us b4 the main papers arrives.
just slack the whole morning with the com,
and the just visited the class blog.
its the exam period, and hardly anyone blogs;
much less for the class blog that has been pretty dead always.
and finally today i saw post by joanne and huiwen.
well, some colors for the dull blog.
and was thinking over the class.
'is the two yrs of fate ending lyk this?'
seriously, all along the class has been a disappointment.
okay, lets not take the stereotype case and tuesday incident into it;
but for the others, the class have been such disappointment.
not being able to work with one another is not much a trouble,
but not able to understand and accept one another,
and then just all the misunderstands and hatred...
this play is a tragedy,
and unfortunately, i play the tragic hero.
perhaps its the worst of human nature i ever seen in 2e3,
and yet the best of human nature.
the selfishness, the prejudice, the detest;
and yet enternal brotherhood, selflessness, understanding.
among i met ppl i respected with valour and honour;
and yet i met ppl i despise on their ill personality.
all soon, as wad i keep saying in the previous post,
everything's gonna end. the show's gonna end.
ending with immature ppl, prejudice, and even more hatred.
sometimes, why just can u guys sit down and talk all out nicely?
i saw all of the worst of society in 2e3.
but, this was wad makes me an even more enlightened person.
i rmb once i had a convo with one of my classmates abt the class.
well, the only feeling she has is sadness.
on one hand, i saw the bad pts of human nature that bounds me tightly;
yet on another, i saw the best virtues and morals that release me again.
I used to be like you, thinking that I'm correct and others are wrong. You have some potential. But don't let this kind of ill personality destroys your only little potential left.
some ppl thought im the worst of all, bound to fail.
some ppl yet view me as a rising phoenix, the successor of this world.
but i view myself, as one unique and extraordinary person.
Things varies in many ways, on how you decipher and sees it. But for once, the qualities of a leader never change, and this truth can never be deny.
one of Portgas D. Ace best attacks,
or perhaps is his strongest attack ever seen.
okay, sunday is yet another slack day,
but a prolouge to all monday blues.
tmr, i guess the tchers will start to chiong us with last revisions,
and then slowly kill us b4 the main papers arrives.
just slack the whole morning with the com,
and the just visited the class blog.
its the exam period, and hardly anyone blogs;
much less for the class blog that has been pretty dead always.
and finally today i saw post by joanne and huiwen.
well, some colors for the dull blog.
and was thinking over the class.
'is the two yrs of fate ending lyk this?'
seriously, all along the class has been a disappointment.
okay, lets not take the stereotype case and tuesday incident into it;
but for the others, the class have been such disappointment.
not being able to work with one another is not much a trouble,
but not able to understand and accept one another,
and then just all the misunderstands and hatred...
this play is a tragedy,
and unfortunately, i play the tragic hero.
perhaps its the worst of human nature i ever seen in 2e3,
and yet the best of human nature.
the selfishness, the prejudice, the detest;
and yet enternal brotherhood, selflessness, understanding.
among i met ppl i respected with valour and honour;
and yet i met ppl i despise on their ill personality.
all soon, as wad i keep saying in the previous post,
everything's gonna end. the show's gonna end.
ending with immature ppl, prejudice, and even more hatred.
sometimes, why just can u guys sit down and talk all out nicely?
i saw all of the worst of society in 2e3.
but, this was wad makes me an even more enlightened person.
i rmb once i had a convo with one of my classmates abt the class.
well, the only feeling she has is sadness.
on one hand, i saw the bad pts of human nature that bounds me tightly;
yet on another, i saw the best virtues and morals that release me again.
I used to be like you, thinking that I'm correct and others are wrong. You have some potential. But don't let this kind of ill personality destroys your only little potential left.
some ppl thought im the worst of all, bound to fail.
some ppl yet view me as a rising phoenix, the successor of this world.
but i view myself, as one unique and extraordinary person.
Things varies in many ways, on how you decipher and sees it. But for once, the qualities of a leader never change, and this truth can never be deny.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
saturday.
Never to judge a book by its cover.
Just thinking abt judging ppl by the appearance.
how much would we stereotype, how much would we misunderstand.
sometimes, judging ppl by the appearance,
will make you lose things or even chances that coundn't come bk anymore.
judge ppl by their appearance,
you'll find out that you cant discover one's good pts;
on the other hand, you cant discover an evil person's true mindset.
bad stuff always comes in good packaging in the market,
to attract buyers.
good stuff always are hidden in rags and cloths,
to hide its real worth.
long ago, i've realise, it wad that is in the inner is important;
till now, have how many realise that?
beauty is an illusion,
but only the inner self is the truth.
the appearance of a human body won't last long;
but their spirits live forever.
~
okay, enough of lecturing.
have been thinking of this thing the past night.
i wonder how many ppl have miss certain thing sjust by judging by the cover.
A shallow person, no matter how charming, is still a shallow person.
attaining such thinkings through only self-thinking process,
i guess that my brain is a god's gift.
saturday.
maybe i'll start revision on my humanities or sciences,
and if the weather is gd i'll go for a jog.
time is flying away bit by bit...
hmm. for now i only wonder wad the future has for me.
well, today's mid autumn.
only till now this festival has not much meaning for me anymore.
last time its enjoyable due to laterns, fire and mooncakes.
but now, its just another simple day; with a reason behind.
moon shines brightly than ever on this day.
a family will then sit down and gaze at the moon,
admiring its beauty over a cup of tea.
but have you ever thought of, wad makes it shine so brightly?
the sun.
the sun rules the day, the moon rules the night.
even if the sun cant be seen at night,
its rays are still with us: the moonlight.
the moon reflects off light from the sun,
and then glows to its highest on full moon nights.
one would actually praise and admire the moon on full moon nights,
but who have ever thought of,
who is the contributor to prevail the beauty of the moon?
the sun.
wad im trying to portray here,
is the eternal existence of brightness and truth, and justice.
using the sun as an example.
even if darkness and deception are to take place after some time,
justice and truth still prevails, through the very main object of darkness!
who has ever thought of all this?
only then, during thr darkness period,
one would only praise and admire the efforts of the main object of darkness?
but who has thought of, it was the existence of brightness that led to the shining of darkness?
and yet brightness has no grudge or complain.
it just simply let darkness borrow its rays,
and shine to the utmost. why?
because darkness will eventually fade and brightness will prevail,
just like how a new day starts everyday.
The comparison, the complains and compliment of an object, is due to the fact that another object exist at the same time.
Just thinking abt judging ppl by the appearance.
how much would we stereotype, how much would we misunderstand.
sometimes, judging ppl by the appearance,
will make you lose things or even chances that coundn't come bk anymore.
judge ppl by their appearance,
you'll find out that you cant discover one's good pts;
on the other hand, you cant discover an evil person's true mindset.
bad stuff always comes in good packaging in the market,
to attract buyers.
good stuff always are hidden in rags and cloths,
to hide its real worth.
long ago, i've realise, it wad that is in the inner is important;
till now, have how many realise that?
beauty is an illusion,
but only the inner self is the truth.
the appearance of a human body won't last long;
but their spirits live forever.
~
okay, enough of lecturing.
have been thinking of this thing the past night.
i wonder how many ppl have miss certain thing sjust by judging by the cover.
A shallow person, no matter how charming, is still a shallow person.
attaining such thinkings through only self-thinking process,
i guess that my brain is a god's gift.
saturday.
maybe i'll start revision on my humanities or sciences,
and if the weather is gd i'll go for a jog.
time is flying away bit by bit...
hmm. for now i only wonder wad the future has for me.
well, today's mid autumn.
only till now this festival has not much meaning for me anymore.
last time its enjoyable due to laterns, fire and mooncakes.
but now, its just another simple day; with a reason behind.
moon shines brightly than ever on this day.
a family will then sit down and gaze at the moon,
admiring its beauty over a cup of tea.
but have you ever thought of, wad makes it shine so brightly?
the sun.
the sun rules the day, the moon rules the night.
even if the sun cant be seen at night,
its rays are still with us: the moonlight.
the moon reflects off light from the sun,
and then glows to its highest on full moon nights.
one would actually praise and admire the moon on full moon nights,
but who have ever thought of,
who is the contributor to prevail the beauty of the moon?
the sun.
wad im trying to portray here,
is the eternal existence of brightness and truth, and justice.
using the sun as an example.
even if darkness and deception are to take place after some time,
justice and truth still prevails, through the very main object of darkness!
who has ever thought of all this?
only then, during thr darkness period,
one would only praise and admire the efforts of the main object of darkness?
but who has thought of, it was the existence of brightness that led to the shining of darkness?
and yet brightness has no grudge or complain.
it just simply let darkness borrow its rays,
and shine to the utmost. why?
because darkness will eventually fade and brightness will prevail,
just like how a new day starts everyday.
The comparison, the complains and compliment of an object, is due to the fact that another object exist at the same time.
Friday, October 2, 2009
friday.
There's no way something can be absolute, or something can be eternal. Everything were born of nothing, and nothing shall always be the start and end of everything. Things matter in a way not totally how you feel and view them, but how are you going to decipher the true meaning behind it. All feelings are just the temptations of the mundane world, all knowledge are the dust of this earth. To gain knowledge and strength, one has to guarantee an increase everyday. To gain inner cultivation, one has to guarantee negative gaining everyday, till one has nothing left and return to the stage of the very beginning. True enlightenment is not to see through, but to go through all temptations and feelings from the starting point of nothingness, then return to the point after seeing all temptations, able to withstand them and gain cultivation as one go through.
i gained something lyk this enlightenment while reading a taosit scripture.
TaoDeChing, a book of merely less than 80 chpts,
but contain the answer and question to all of this world.
well, suddenly a thought strike me when i'm reading a particular chpt.
that's enlightenment, from all illusions.
suddenly i feel that i can give up everything now.
suddenly i feel the preciousness of life.
suddenly i feel how the value of life stands over the value of the mundane world.
~
today has been a nice day, really.
dunno wad force has been helping me,
i dun feel the nervous for this papers,
and yet dun feel the ego as well.
somehow, i manage to finish both papers with a normal mood,
without too much confidence, and without too much despair.
this is the very first time that it really felt so normal.
not a breeze. not a challenge. it was lyk any normal assignment.
and now the weekends arrives.
well, have to go jogging to burn the excessive calories i gain this wk.
look, im health conscious; without health there isnt much things u can do.
~
i suddenly feel a release from all the feelings.
all the love, all the anger, all the hatred.
i dunno whether i have seen through them,
but for once i noe,
i've gone through, been through, and now,
i have thought through.
i thought of a 5 Gs to follow in my life:
- Good Adventure
- Good Food
- Good Physical Exercise
- Good Books
- Good Job
taste life; in a way that everything seem so non existing. then you'll find the best of life.
i gained something lyk this enlightenment while reading a taosit scripture.
TaoDeChing, a book of merely less than 80 chpts,
but contain the answer and question to all of this world.
well, suddenly a thought strike me when i'm reading a particular chpt.
that's enlightenment, from all illusions.
suddenly i feel that i can give up everything now.
suddenly i feel the preciousness of life.
suddenly i feel how the value of life stands over the value of the mundane world.
~
today has been a nice day, really.
dunno wad force has been helping me,
i dun feel the nervous for this papers,
and yet dun feel the ego as well.
somehow, i manage to finish both papers with a normal mood,
without too much confidence, and without too much despair.
this is the very first time that it really felt so normal.
not a breeze. not a challenge. it was lyk any normal assignment.
and now the weekends arrives.
well, have to go jogging to burn the excessive calories i gain this wk.
look, im health conscious; without health there isnt much things u can do.
~
i suddenly feel a release from all the feelings.
all the love, all the anger, all the hatred.
i dunno whether i have seen through them,
but for once i noe,
i've gone through, been through, and now,
i have thought through.
i thought of a 5 Gs to follow in my life:
- Good Adventure
- Good Food
- Good Physical Exercise
- Good Books
- Good Job
taste life; in a way that everything seem so non existing. then you'll find the best of life.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
thursday.
The 250th post.
well, im still postiung during exam period;
tons of spare time to relax before hardcore mugging ltr.
the papers today were half-screwed,
but i manage to grit my teeth and go through them.
counting and counting,
there aint much time left to the end cof eoy;
its just a fortnight away.
so this means that the end of sch will be around one mth away,
then i have to say bye bye to 2e3'09 and start preparing for ncc.
these days gonna be real bored,
and sometimes might skip using com.
but then, i'll try to strike a balance in life,
and not overwork myself.
i seriously lack a lot of energy nowadays;
feel very tired and doesnt want to continue with all this.
but no choice. its eoy and then last moments with 2e3'09.
dun really wish for much;
just wanna get into pure hist and complete one stage for the Operation.
i guess i'll have to really perk myself up,
and complete this last stand.
good game, tmr is geog + el paper 2.
start chionging barhs~
well, im still postiung during exam period;
tons of spare time to relax before hardcore mugging ltr.
the papers today were half-screwed,
but i manage to grit my teeth and go through them.
counting and counting,
there aint much time left to the end cof eoy;
its just a fortnight away.
so this means that the end of sch will be around one mth away,
then i have to say bye bye to 2e3'09 and start preparing for ncc.
these days gonna be real bored,
and sometimes might skip using com.
but then, i'll try to strike a balance in life,
and not overwork myself.
i seriously lack a lot of energy nowadays;
feel very tired and doesnt want to continue with all this.
but no choice. its eoy and then last moments with 2e3'09.
dun really wish for much;
just wanna get into pure hist and complete one stage for the Operation.
i guess i'll have to really perk myself up,
and complete this last stand.
good game, tmr is geog + el paper 2.
start chionging barhs~
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