tuesday.

Walk on.

well, today, indeed, is another fruitful day.
things seems pretty bad at first.
but slowly, you'll find the meaning behind it.

okay, again we had rugby for pe today.
team up with dav, jx and martin.
nice combo. the teamwork is quite nice.
however, there's a kind of unhappiness to it.
well, the spectators were waiting for david to score.
but then, i was the one who ran straight and scored the goal.

somehow, again, i felt the honour lyk wad i felt duing 2.4 again.
the kind of achievement, the kind of happy.
to many, perhaps scoring a goal in rugby isnt nothing pretty much.
but sport games aint my forte;
somemore, i manage to kind of suprise some ppl by scoring a goal.
cuz they didnt expect me to do it, and they maybe did not wan me to do it.

well, ltr some kind of perception towards some things,
and some incidents cause me to be in a low mood. not bad mood.
then, ltr during lit, an irony occured,
as we're doing an unseen prose abt an outcast and some sort of things lyk this.
this, immediately, led me to think of myself.
'aint i being outcasted by much of the class?'

and then during the last ten mins of lit,
i went on telling mdm ng abt how life screwed me badly,
inner and outer; physical, emotional, metal.
then mdm ng went on to explain abt some hadicap guy who ran a marathon,
and her own life story.

somehow, i began to think,
why has such things been proven as a problems to me?
being stereotyped, being outcasted, being despise...
the cue towards thinking is,
these are not problems that ordinary ppl can handle.

all these months in impel down lvl 6...
well, facing all the same boos and stereotypes,
and then receiving comments of 'tyco' or 'sheer luck' when u tried ur best to score goals.
no one shared your joy, no one shared your woes.
through these months, i've walked alone,
enduring all of it, hoping for a miracle to happen, as i created it myself.
but nothing seem to change.
still outcasted, still stereotyped, still despised.

On our journey across the islands, all of us became stronger without even noticing.

-Part of Zoro's speech to Nami and Chopper.

somehow, today's chain of incidents relate me to this quote.
through all these months, i've become stronger day by day,
without realising it. only when i turn bk then i realise.

i've grown to be mentally, emotionally, physically strong.
now, wad i lack is the outer appearance to give good first impression.
so, i'll start vigourous trng,
of 200 sit ups, 120 wide arm push ups, and 7 pull ups per day.
if i have time i would run 3.6km per day also.

ooh, btw, i suddenly thought of something quite funny.
for anime fans out there, you all might noe who is Rob Lucci from One Piece.
yea, qhan reminds me of lucci.
you all can search lucci up in google, so u'll noe wad i mean.

well, anw, i think i shall make a personal committment,
of defeating all obstacles, growing stronger and stronger day by day;
and to quickly complete stage 3 of the Operation.
this includes:
- 54-55kg,
- chest muscles,
- six pack abs,
- facelift and a new face and hairstyle.

well, i nid to complete all this b4 the start of next yr.

Its not a fight between me and others; its one between myself. Its all about throwing away all the stereotypes and detest. Its all personal effort.