friday.

huat arh. today is busy like hell like that.

okay, so the first few hrs of sch is spent slacking away.
got this ne star thing, then movie screening.
so damn sian.
then ltr ken say got this class chalet.
wah lan, impel down mates not enthu derh.
but go costa sands not bad.
near my hse, morning can go home bathe.
then also got lit fiesta thingy.
pls, gimme best actor award.
i dun wan best speaker.

then, is NCC.
yay, long time bo trng,
all our body flabby flabby, except mine.
normal days got jog, everyday pump.
okay, first few hrs got drill by leo.
then brandon screw him,
so he screwed us.
tio a lot KID. hehehs..
and then came soif and junli.
ask who wan go for 2nd substitute for challenge quest.
then got me and brandon.
sah, the results is obvious.
so, sorry crew, i cant go for a rehearsal on tues.
have it on monday barh.

then got some other stuff going on,
and then got screw here and there a bit,
then got the part b prof badge. lol.
nid to start some real serious trng liao.
annual camp coming. thinks of fighting for rank. muahahahas.

and now, finally reach home.
trying to get into the estreaming page,
but the server screw me. sian.
then nid to prepare stuff for lit fiesta and NCC.
days gonna get real busy.

well, saw lotsa things in NCC that set me into deep thoughts.
chongkai's stupid laugh/smile:
sometimes, i wonder whether he could see things clearly.
and the recent art ponteng incident from e4 yet gave me bad impression of him.
perhaps should try to help him.
and eric's temper at oliver:
have a bad tone asking oliver to get his beret off his head.
obviously, eric still nid more trng(in the brain form),
and really learn to appreciate the platoon.

well, suddenly i feel a kind of deep, deep bond for the platoon.
regardless of the mates, i felt a deep bond for them.
suddenly feels that, all these bonds have overtaken the wild ambition of getting post and rank,
but yet gave me the ego to work hard for the company.
dunno why, i started to play along with joel;
perhaps, thats the kind of friendly antagonist bond.
enjoyed finding trouble together,
enjoyed pumping as one,
enjoyed the lan sessions.
however, eric's actions yet set me into thinking;
whether if this kind of bond existed, or even going to last.
sometimes, its kind of confusing to talk abt human relationships;
but yet, you find them wonderful.

somehow, gained the kind of passion that triggered me to be enthu from the start.
the kind of passion,
i have at January last yr,
yet lost it after seniors were impressed by my passion.
rank and so, it doesnt seems to matters already;
but yet, i treasure the bonds even more,
that last time i could forsake them for ranks.
power and fame,
that heart is gone.
now, i got this feeling, that feels that i can do all i can for my mates;
somehow, i joined the challenge quest as a reserved,
not because i wanted to win fame and chances out of it,
but, i wanted to do my best for the company.

looking at my platoon,
it doesnt matter whether if there's strong individuals or slackers,
it doesnt matter if we have a lot in different.
wads important is,
we are one. we are together.

well, i saw how one paticular sgt actually let two of his platoon mates get away from trng.
i knew it isnt right lawfully to do this,
but yet, in deep feelings,
he have a kind of bond for his platoon;
a kind of bond, that allows him to be at risk of punishment,
and scoldings, and even being pinpointed for doing the wrong thing.
for once, i detested this specialist to the core;
but yet today, he earned my respect.
my respect to the utmost.

sometimes, things can be seen by many point of views;
how they matter and weighs,
depends on how you view them.