wednesday.

its a day that i have no lessons,
but have to return to sch for lit rehearsal.

sah, things didnt went as well as expected.
well, i think just only the main ppl turn up,
and then the acting wasnt so that good.
my performance aint as good as the one at audition.
and then was receiving the faces from all the classmates;
but luckily ppl lyk kelly and RAR are there.
and we went to the auditorium to share the stage with 1e5.
and the crew screw me badly that i left with much anger.

c'mon, i did not turn up for NCC trng,
just to come here for a last shot of rehearsal.
and then u guys are just plainly giving such attitudes,
esp the vice guard.
just because i have to turn up for this rehearsal,
i almost lost a chance to go freestyle course.
it doesnt matter if i nvr go freestyle course,
but i took a day off ncc and all the chances just to come here.
and look at wad kind of shit attitude u all have been giving me.
i dun mind cuz i noe abt all the prejudice,
but look at xinkai. hey, vice guard,
u're too much. too much this time round.

and then, i left the auditorium with despair,
and then met junli outside,
which he announced that brandon and eric will be going for freestyle.
sah, 赔了夫人又折兵.
i dun mind much actually, but then,
2e3, i gave up a chance for the selection, the trng, just to turn up for this rehearsal.
and ltr something actually happen that touched me a lot..
eric actually gave his position for me,
and the part b help to persuade the specs and officers to let me attend.
well, thanks a lot eric, and the specs.
and thanks a lot my dear brothers.

somehow, today, i've seen the utmost of human hearts.
i really, really, found whr i belong to.
even if next time NCC doesnt give me a post and rank for all that hard work,
it doesnt matter. i still have tons of brothers there,
sharing joy and sadness with me.
looks lyk i really have to celebrate when i leave 2e3.

sometimes, i think;
maybe, not having a thing to be proud of,
not having something that u can feel a sense of achievement..
might be a good thing after all.
till this age,
i didnt achieve much in cca, and for sure nth in class;
and i knew is, i just have to give passion for the things i like.

and mdm ng:
things screwed up quite a lot somehow,
sorry, but it aint totally my fault.
but still, we manage to do sth. be assured.

well, gonna spend the rest of today slacking.
life...nid some fun.