sunday.

much of yesterday was spent playing with the gang,
and now, i've got to settle down and start preparing for business.
gonna get the whole lit script into my mind,
and then start to prepare for annual camp.
perhaps should start reading my bro's mutual,
and then try to catch some balls from the manual.

so, today gonna be a day that isnt too fun,
yet isnt too busy.
okay, its a normal day larh.
just nid to complete those stuff on the ageda list,
plus do wad im suppose to do for sch and cca.

began to wonder abt a lot of stuff suddenly.
wonder abt the literature play.
and the things going on in NCC.
i didnt have much heart to put in the lit play,
and even did not memorise the whole script by the audition.
but so much ppl put effort in the props,
and even mdm ng went to troubles to make us pratise...
i dunno whether i should do it well,
but, acting is one of my talents, and i couldn't let those ppl down.
but thinking of how the crew and female lead dishonour me,
anger just boils high.

and NCC.
i rmb ever since getting the PTE rank,
i wanted to regain the past honour and discipline of the unit,
and vow to be the USM,
reshuffle the manpower then,
introduce new rules, and make the unit better than ever.
but now, it seems that the orient team, whose all leadership lost to me,
have the highest chance of promotion in annual camp.
and even now, the chance of being USM is slim for me;
those ppl that was branded coward and useless by the sec 2 cohord seems to beaten me.
sometimes, it seems that 'the Boss luck as a cadet has run out',
but looking back, looking back at those seniors...
leonard, dao song, yi seng, wayne, jinchun...
and all others that put high hopes on me...
and for now, all i knew is, i must fight on,
fight until only when SSC results are out next yr.
i believe in myself.
i've the most leadership potential(which is pretty obvious),
and then...i couldn't let my seniors, and the honour i promise to the unit, down!
even though one yr of hard work seems to be wasted last yr when i got triumphed,
but, the way's still long. i still got more to fight.

well, thinking back again,
of the times:
how ken betrayed me and others countless times,
left the class and mates to die on their own;
how chong kai betrayed me during the summit,
and how he betrayed 2e4 for the Ponteng Art Incident;
how news of eric came that he scolded mdm zhang hong till she cried,
and his f*cking attitude towards platoon mates;
and how chang jun has no high hopes for himself;
and then, how much koh chin got more than others,
just by keeping quiet and doing not much,
how much i wanna break his luck streak.

GET UP AND GO!!!
i'll for once more, the last time,
set the small fire burning in my heart,
into a fire that engulfs the world!!!!