friday.

There's no way something can be absolute, or something can be eternal. Everything were born of nothing, and nothing shall always be the start and end of everything. Things matter in a way not totally how you feel and view them, but how are you going to decipher the true meaning behind it. All feelings are just the temptations of the mundane world, all knowledge are the dust of this earth. To gain knowledge and strength, one has to guarantee an increase everyday. To gain inner cultivation, one has to guarantee negative gaining everyday, till one has nothing left and return to the stage of the very beginning. True enlightenment is not to see through, but to go through all temptations and feelings from the starting point of nothingness, then return to the point after seeing all temptations, able to withstand them and gain cultivation as one go through.

i gained something lyk this enlightenment while reading a taosit scripture.
TaoDeChing, a book of merely less than 80 chpts,
but contain the answer and question to all of this world.
well, suddenly a thought strike me when i'm reading a particular chpt.
that's enlightenment, from all illusions.

suddenly i feel that i can give up everything now.
suddenly i feel the preciousness of life.
suddenly i feel how the value of life stands over the value of the mundane world.

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today has been a nice day, really.
dunno wad force has been helping me,
i dun feel the nervous for this papers,
and yet dun feel the ego as well.
somehow, i manage to finish both papers with a normal mood,
without too much confidence, and without too much despair.
this is the very first time that it really felt so normal.
not a breeze. not a challenge. it was lyk any normal assignment.

and now the weekends arrives.
well, have to go jogging to burn the excessive calories i gain this wk.
look, im health conscious; without health there isnt much things u can do.

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i suddenly feel a release from all the feelings.
all the love, all the anger, all the hatred.
i dunno whether i have seen through them,
but for once i noe,
i've gone through, been through, and now,
i have thought through.

i thought of a 5 Gs to follow in my life:
- Good Adventure
- Good Food
- Good Physical Exercise
- Good Books
- Good Job

taste life; in a way that everything seem so non existing. then you'll find the best of life.