friday.

its a day, tht came out to be so meaningful.

drone drone lessons,
sian times. cant stop my head from turning to the right.
and, somehow the class isnht so bad to me today. lol.

and NCC.
ndp was sort of the same stuff,
and we agree tht we doesnt lyk it so much.
there's this guy who keeps shouting at us.
not ncc derh larh.

and ltr was a whole sort of serious stuff.
our dear alan was discussing with us over the issues of things unfair.
and it didnt really went tht well,
and somehow i believe things should be voice out.

and ltr was some small session with the USM and part B PS.
the convo included on topics such as sense of belonging,
brotherhood, enthusiaism, targets, welfare and so.
and this talk really change wad i used to think.
i use to think tht chasing after the best is always wad i wanted.
but now i noe, the importance of my nakama.

i cant deny tht im a chiongster,
and excel in most things such as drills.
however, i believe tht i could not stand alone,
we nid to be united for the unit to progress.
internal strife and rivalries, they're too much a problem.
not only the problems lies with the specs, the problem lies with us.

seriously,
for now, whether i becomes the USM or not,
isnt any question already.
now wad i want to question myself is,
whether i could get all of us together, as one.

mr ng said tht we're little, but a gd lot.
but, i believe, we're not a gd lot when we have little ppl alone.
alone, we cant do much. together, there's so much difference i can make.
many are angry at how the specs treated us, how the time schedule screws up.
but nth has ever upset me, except for the fact tht we are not together.

to the platoon, as well as 2e3'09,
perhaps there might be rivalry, or wadsoever betwn many of us.
in NCC, i experience how tht one person couldnt do things alone.
i use to thought tht with me and chin and ck ng,
we could change the company from a spent force to a rising phoenix.
but now, it does not include just us;
it includes the whole of part b, the 21 of us.

there might be misunderstanding,
there might be objections.
but no matter wad,
if we can stay together during the stormy nights,
it is the bright red sun greeting us at dawn tmr.

the specs left me a learning point and experience,
my nakama left me self reflection,
and she left me a bit of sweetness, a bit of self awareness.

its really, really meaningful today.
not only i learn, but i matured much.

and dear USM,
i must say,
the fire alone in our hearts, at most can only cause a forest fire.
but together, we can brighten the world.

share the good times, share the world. daijoubu minna, warena nakama!

wednesday.

将相本无种，男儿当自强。

its another really peaceful day,
and lessons is as usual, dry.
cock up the chem test,
and watched power rangers during ce to learn abt teamwork.
i think one piece is a better idea, esp the enies lobby saga.

and went for lunch at j8 pizzahut with some ncc ppl,
and a scout, samuel. and was lyk joking all the way bk,
and me, leo and kenneth(not the 2e3 one) keep making samuel laugh,
and he cant control it, until tht he has to keep on laughing all the way bk,
from j8 to zhss, for at least 15 mins. samuel's the hyena.

and ndp was some kind of,
not say interesting, but meaningful stuff.
and it just went on and on, till the end.

and we had a 50 for some kind of errors after the rehearsal.
wad i didnt lyk abt this part is,
they're still joking around went we're being punished;
and many laugh along.
i always treat punishment asa seriouss tuff for the leader and followers to reflect on,
on their mistakes, and how it can be improve.
but yet, they treat it as 'something to ensure it wun happen again'.
and this leads to the result of tht we wun understand the meaning behind it after all.
and, this just shows tht we're a spent force.

somehow this incident alone left me thinking hard.
i asked the opinions of ck ng and jon,
and it went lyk 'wads the fail pts of ncc u see in this?'
and it went lyk 'we nvr pump tgt'.
punishment is a serious stuff; i dun think we should play and laugh with it.

and somehow i began to gain bk the spirit tht i lost over the june holidays.
the serious spirit for life.
understanding tht i must differentiate play and wk.
and because of tht, my nose tends to grow sharper.
its weird to see ur nose growing sharper when u're more serious.

and, she didnt come again.
maybe the mc is lyk one wk long.
and the class is really quiet.
yeah, and it just seems to hav something missing.
for the class; and perhaps me. dun ask me why.

i feel so damn serious now.
and i understand wad it takes to make a leader.
'do wad u have say.'

tuesday.

its another really, very quiet day.

so, things started off with another extra two periods,
which is "in order to make up for the two periods lost for O lvls exams"..
pls lah, i dun see AHS, CHS doing all these.
zhonghua needs to step out of tradition tht will barricade progress.

and had a kinda survey for quality school experience.
"quality" of zhss makes everyone feels tht we should nt get another QSE award again.
and went to parade sq to meet mr ron.
and doomsday arrives.
mr ron and mr desmond ran after me literally,
and it's lyk "cut ur tail becuz Qing Dynasty is over"..
and my mohawk kena downgrade to armani. sobs.

and, ms tuesday nid not come again.
so did another "class joker"...
well, anw im the authenic class clown cum joker.
and there's another day of silence...
juz cuz ms tuesday nvr come.
she nvr come for days liao.
and she miss to see my mohawk hair. lolz.
and seriously,
i just wanna say,
i miss her.
but dun think in the wrong direction. dun.

and there's chem test and ndp tmr.
well, gonna play around again.
before ndp starts larh..ndp whr can play?

and...
its really quite a peaceful day,
and u can feel it esp when mdm ng isnt around...
i mean during the free periods, there's isnt any hyper gal liao...
okay u do feel happy without the extra one...
but sth just seems lacking frm the pic without ms tuesday. dunno why.

and had been thinking of one piece.
esp mr 2 bon kurei, who has the ability to turn into any ppl he had physical contact with...punch, touch...
well it might seems nice if i could turn into david in a moment,
then ms tueday, or even some bigshots. sounds fun.

monday.

and it seems to be awfully peaceful today.

okay, life started off with joking around w dav they all in class.
and ltr, there's an announcement made to gather all part b,
and the USM and Part B PS came personally to get us.
predicted tht it wasnt some gd news,
it was thirty straight. some warm up in the morning.

and the tele ic were having a chat over how could we get ppl to trng.
but as i believe, is either tht they lost the sense of belonging,
lost their enthusiaism, or they really dun belong to us.
nevertheless, we're all nakama, and we stand by one another.
and its really time for a big reform and revolution,
lead by me, chin and ck ng.

and she didnt turn up today.
erm, tht somehow cuts down the noise in the class,
but it seems tht something is missing.
there's lesser or even no insults at me,
but, its just something missing...i cant describe.
and the guys gave her a nick, initiated by me, ms tuesday.
and tht sounds weird enough.

well, im worrying abt the company,
the oncoming events, and many others.
somehow i believe tht maybe a change will lead to a better solution.
and this might lead liang sheng to be a 2SG at spec course?
well, better at calling them all along.
its time to change how we work.

and, i can come to the conclusion tht many ppl in my class is horny.
well who does not get attracted to the opp sex?
but, i shall rather focus more on important stuffs,
rather than bgr kind of thing.

well, today has been too much of peaceful.
just hope tht its a better day tmr.

Reform. Revolute. Change.

sunday.

and ytd was a fun filled day with a nakama.

okay,
so it was a cycling session with darren.
darren's a long term fren of mine,
who i noe since p1.
we have a strong bond within us,
which until now, it could be broken.

and went all the way from pasir ris west to east.
from my void deck,
we travelled to pasir ris park.
u noe, its a sunday,
and u do expect some cuties and chio bu to be present.
so, we went around look at the 'scenery',
and darren was whistling and smiling all the way.
we even stalk two gals. wtf -.-
and then go interact with the gals around.
and they did gave response.

and after tht we decide to ride up to loyang point(pasir ris east).
and of course, went thr, and brought some 'supplies'.
and then rode back to pasir ris west.
quite tiring larh. hahas.
but its fun when u spend time with a fren of such a strong bond.

and today.
gonna finish the remaning wk.
and prepare for tmr.
and first time see aaron tag in my blog.
welcome aaron. and there's some response to my previous post.

well, life's tough,
but i believe i can endure through impel down.
even if im down to one person in zhss,
i believe i have tons of nakama supporting me outside,
giving me the utmost concern.

my mind is feeling with mixed feeligns now,
somehow i really want to thank those ppl who treat me as a fren.
and, somehow i began to see through this thick fog that impel down gives me,
and perhaps this way, my dreams are much more clearer.
hopefully, impel down time might end as fast as possible.

i have a small crew with me,
with around five ppl.
now, im gathering nakama, to the firetank crew,
offering their services to the captain and the crew.

Even a liar must be honourable! I lied to them that pirates are coming, so that has to remain a lie! -Usopp

and the blogger problem is still there...
and i cant upload the Ouka Shichibukai pic...
and also the videos and pics daosong take..
cant just those admin be a bit more efficient?

okay,
today is saturday.
wad a ncie day to wind off from all the stress.
and im going for a cycling session with my brothers from mps ltr.
really miss those days we shared in the fields.
and gonna enjoy it ltr.

okay, let me tell you a little something.
i guess everyone had cried at least once in ur youth rite?
for love, for despair, for guilt...
the last time i cried was erm, last yr.
it was to get myself out of trouble so tht i could keep my future.
and it did work. im still one of those supernovas-turning-sun ppl.

but it was all different ytd.
okay, it was a liitle convo with an old fren over msn.
dun guess liao, she's a female.
and we're lyk talking stuff lyk 'how r u', 'hows life'..
u cant really expect tht much from frens u nvr met for a long time rite.
and, have u ever notice tht i hardly use my own foto as dp in facebk or msn?
i did it ytd. so i ask for her opinion.
'man shuai de mah.' she said.

maybe might of u ppl might react with 'thanks for ur compliment' or stuff lyk tht.
but i said, 'really arh? dun bluff liao.'
and she went on to explain all the stuffs, and said i look quite gd in tht pic, esp in no 4.

and, tht was a soft, slight touch on the heart.

the last time i ever hear any compliment was 3 yrs back.
i have nvr ever get any second compliment from a lady of my same age.
i have nvr ever looked gd to any lady of my same age this yr.
or in other words, its a long time since i ever get any concern from a lady of my same age. or nvr before.

she's the second youth i met who said i looked gd.
the first was another lady of an age older.
u noe, wad im trying to say isnt tht im happy tht ppl said i look gd.
but, finally i felt some concern, ever since the first day i enter impel down.
and she's the only woman i met so far who treated me really, really, like a gentleman.
i have nvr met such big concerns from any other young ladies these two yrs.
but she, and another one, have been cheering me up when im down.

i shed tears.
it was not the crocodile tear i had been shedding for yrs.
tey're warm, not cold lyk thos croc tears.
i cried not because she compliment on my looks.
but, she gave me the concern as a fren, tht i nvr had before. from a third lady.

those days at impel down toughen me, and matured me.
those days at impel down taught me that i could live life without women.
those days at impel down taught me that i could fight individually.
those days at impel down taught me that i am alone.
those days at impel down taught me that they're against me.
those days, i have nvr ever felt real concern from a female fren before. or i dun even have a female fren in impel down.

perhaps such care and concern from a fren of other gender,
is too much of a common to you.
but, for me, i have nvr experience before.
it was all despair and hardships i toll in impel down,
tht my tears dried up and my heart frozen.
but she show me tht im not alone in this world.
i still have nakama.

and, if u guys dunno wad's impel down,
i can refer it to my class,
and impel down is a prison mentioned in one piece.
but zhncc was sky island, though.

thinking of impel down days,
and thinking of the nakama i gathered in the past,
i...i...believed i should continue to thrive in impel down.
and this was the first time i shed tears without a sad feeling,
and it was the first time they felt warm.

and, an advise to ms 2,
it doesnt really pays to cry for such small matters u meet,
cuz i have met tons in impel down. u noe it urself.


One could stray from the path of a man, one could stray from a path of a woman, but one could never stray from a path of a human! -Mr 2 Bon Kurei, One Piece.

friday.

and today seems so peaceful.

okay, so things started off with my usual timetable,
HCL and digiart.
and she didnt come today; they say that she's sick.
and tht of course, had lesser insults for me,
but i hope she's alrite.

and dronwy and long lessons occupied today.
got headache since morning...
and i cant find any panadol or painkillers.
so try to massage the acupoints, and it worked.
and mrs kok taught us map reading today.
tht's no kick for an adventurer cum survivor lyk me. lol.

lunchtime; 'coincidentially' met koh chin in the canteen,
and ate tgt with him and kah chee. ltr daryl came to join us,
and we had a bon time.
went to change, and it really feels gd to don the no 4 again,
and the feeling was lyk, 'im one honourable cadet.' lol.
and my mohawk looks great with the no 4. hahas.

and the trng was lyk cock up...
cuz its the same old situation that no ones turns up.
this really angered the specs, and needless to say,
we took the punishment. yea, that's wad mates are for.
we die for one another.

aftera quick prof test we nid to go for ndp trng.
and grp up with sjab and npcc.
i can only say that kah chee is equivilant to ye peng.
buck up, guys.
and luckily nvr screw up in the rehearsal.
did properly, and i believe its a gd experience for the first timers.

and then was some interactive stuff,
and everything ended in a simple manner.

so, today was quite simple...
and it seems to be quite peaceful.
i really enjoy the time i spend in my cca,
and somehow, it has always been leisure periods.
we are made up of ppl of so many diff personality...
despite the diff kind of attitude towards the cca,
somehow, we manage to made it as one.
needless to say, esprit de corps is present.

this wk is full of turbulence, i say.
and somehow, i wonder whether fame is a fixed target,
or simplicity is a blessing.
i lack of too much of things,
sports, academics, talents, looks...
perhaps its a will that i must enjoy the blessing of simplicity.

but before this,
i shall take the inherited will,
to pursue my targets, ambitions and aspirations! hashiridase!

thursday.

and it didnt really went quite well too.

okay, as usual, art, which we did some painting.
and english, which we learn french words. lol.
and some lowdown said "ask yitian larh!" when the word lingerie is mention.
i drew my wadou ichimonji, but did not strike.

and ltr at hcl, mdm zhang took away my wadou ichimonji.
and the whole class was lyk cheering while insulting me.
in fact i didnt mind. i could get another one at 5 bucks.
morever mdm zhang said she would return me.
and, i was sadden, and disappointed.
sad, not because i lost my wadou ichimonji,
but i lost my honour. the class shame me when they boo at me.
and they even said i use my wadou to threaten that lowdown.
i feel no mistake in fighting over an insult to keep my honour.

and, suprisingly phy and chem lessons are still so interesting for me.
i really lyk Mr Tang's kind attitude and good temper,
and i really lyk Ms Tay's humour and her teaching method.
but not so for the hmwk, which she gave us with a sinister smile,
and saying, "I am friendly.". LMAO.

and then, somehow i manage to skip the class foto stuff,
which might arouse other's wrath or wad,
so that i could go for lunch with my dad.
well, you see, i didnt meet my dad often,
cuz when im awake he's sleeping, and when im aslp he's still working.
and he brought me for a decent haircut(the previous crewcut left a mess behind),
and it's really so damn decent, a mohawk. mohawk.

and life today seems so normal,
and i really had nth to say.
really look forward to trng tmr.

baris sedia!

wednesday.

and today was another boring day in sch.

was lyk loithering around the class cuz i realy had nth to do in the morning.
and then we had a double period geog.
kinda sian larh...much manage to crack some jokes,
which didnt lift any spirits.

wad comes up next were plain dry lessons.
except phy. got to test the volt and ammeter today.
and my wadou ichimonji came into use today when i help kenneth to cut the string tying the newspaper,
though it wasnt the first cut made(eugene cut his finger while playing with it ytd).

and there's sth i really wanna voice.
well, it happens in CE period,
when the gals wanna get ppl to dress up and take foto for the RHD foto comp.
and the rest of the class will form the shape of our cresent moon and stars.
and so, the whole class has to stay back tmr for it.
needless to say, i rejected it.

gave some kind of lame excuses lyk "i nid to polish my boots", "i nid to chiong wk".
but the fact is, i dun even wan to go. and this stir up some argument.
and i wonder if she had cry over this matter, thinking that im nt cooperative.

but the fact remains that, i dun see myself as part of the class.
it does really hurt when ur existence seems to matter nth in the class.
and when u're grp with ur classmates in a grp, their reaction is lyk "wtf...".
but she told me, its just that u're rehecting urself, hate urself(cant rmb wad she say clearly).
okay, the class might not hate me, but they do despise me.
this can be proved when they siam me as much as possible,
whe they "shoot" me when i voice sth...
2 yrs and it feels lyk u're at the top level of impel down,
cuff up by seastone handcuffs.

i just lost the sense of belonging to the class,
ans their words and actions tells me that my existence does not bother them.
so, wads the point of going for class stuff?
if u tell me we're having a part b or 6B'07 chalet i'll fork wadever i can.
but for impel down which i suffer badly? no.

i dunno whether the fault is on me or wad.
maybe im not cooperative, maybe i just think too mucyh of the class.
but the fact remains clearly: most of them despise me, and even those close ones view me as the lowerdown.

everyday, i come to class just for studying.
and it seems lyk im a social outcast, i cause all the fault that makes me being isolated.
in fact, i dun.
and to her,
pls, i will only act lyk part of the class, when they treat me lyk one.
okay, they might treat me lyk one, but they despise me as an unwanted classmate?
noe the reason why i brought wadou ichimonji?
its just to stop all the mocking from u ppl.

wait, my reasoning begans to sound more and more lyk my tuition tcher.
maybe cuz the academics-social fun i had was tuition.
clarence, xavier, christine. i can really call them classmates.

mah, wadever might occurs,
i just hope that this yr pass by fast.
and hope that the next two yrs is not impel down again.

and, ms wah(ex ce tcher) and mr ivan(counsellor),
sry that things did not improve for me.
and ms suba, ur efforts to help me to get tgt with the class,
might be wasted. sry.

"So, we just have to kick his ass right?" -Monkey D. Luffy.

tuesday.

okay, i admit cuz i have really nth to do.
and btw, today was erm...somewad nice.

PE was vball again.
in fact it was just some exercise.
and then hcl.
talk abt confucius.
the only thing i lyk abt confucius is that,
he's an illegimate son, which this status force him tom strive,
and become one of the famous histroical figure.
yeah, the will to do it, the will to change.

and joel's order arrive,
and i named it wadou ichimonji,
so i guess u guys knew wad i order.
looks a bit old,
but the t-shaped, steady hilt(white in color), and its tip and edge made it a gd offer at its price.

and life was just pretty...simple today.
and there's early dismissal tmr.
oh, and things were in fact, quite gd today.
hopes that it will keeps this way.
and trng is resume on fri. cant wait for it!
really miss the specs and mates bk there.

somehow, i began to have a kind of feeling.
and today, esp the confucius story,
made me feel all the more that i should strive towards my dreams.
as a ordinary person of ordinary origins,
i wanna be like all those heroes,
who rose from normal to the height of fame.
like confucius, i wanna be a person,
who rise from poor origins,
and become a great man,
and i shall leave my name in history!

those onme piece soundtracks i have been listening to,
somehow let me feel the definition of its lyrics,
even though i dun understand the lyrics.

There's a saying, 'If you're hungry, you eat.' -Monkey D. Luffy.

monday.

and it's a new, fresh start of a week.

well, sch's aint really that gd today.
and joel said that the order has to be dragged.
and class isnt too gd also.

okay,
so, some memorable parts of today was like erm...
oh, hcl lesson. well, almost got that argument hot.
sth lyk ms 2 seems to be emo(is it? sry if i use the wrong word),
and i was lyk chatting to eugene, and the tcher was lyk getting us to get ready.
well, i admit it was my fault thaqt im still chatting,
but there's no way that she could blew her top at me over such small matters.
well, its fine when during all times u're quiet and law abiding,
but when u're not, i dun think there's any reason for u to do so.

and yes, home econs.
typically screw it up.
and eugene was lyk saying "oh god u do fail at everything u do",
and i somehow really wanna do a gomu gomu no bazooka(although im not rubber) at him,
telling him that "hey, at least my haki is stronger than u guys."
and i USED to think that im really useless last time, due to the fact that i have no abilities, no looks and figure;
but this kind of perception changed when i recognised myself as a marksman and some high analyser.
well, god gave everyone a gift; and mine's ambition.

and CE.
the thcer was lyk discussing over BGR, and the class just go gaga over it;
well, and i just said "when i acquire the world, i can acquire women easily",
and dav was lyk "be a virgin for ur whole life.", with the class laughing down at me.
well, i noe that they view me as a failure and somewad worse than dav they all(though they're more horny, sick, lazy, etc.),
but i made an oath one day that im going to acquire something big. get prepared to lick my boots, david.

and english.
some kids were screaming near the sch.
and david was lyk "cuz they see ur foto larh",
and this sends the class laughing hard.
i went "i think they saw urs lorh" and added a "cb kia" to add effect.

another day that i gets humiliated and laughed at.
seriously, for a normal person, this is really very hard to digest,
esp at the start.
but slowly, u tends to change perspective over it,
and take this as some kind of motion that push u even further.
and those sad post of the past;
the class critisizes me that im lyk low self esteem,
but its a fact that they despise me and humiliate me daily!

perhpas u viewers, after reading this might say,
"this guys siao one arh. social outcast still want kpkb...".
but i vow, as long as i perservere, i will prove that i can do it.
perhaps these 38 ppl are going to "spread" my name as a "bad" person,
and tarnish my sec sch life.
but i swear, one day im going to prove to them that they're wrong,
and viewing dave they all as someone better than me is a wrong perspective,
and even stereotyping me is an absolute wrong thing.
david, pei shan, zheng da, ms 2, im going to make u guys regret next time!

on the cold, harsh path, i walk alone;
the longer i walk, the stronger i am;
the tougher the road, more powerful i shall be.
though lonesome, physically and emotionally is though,
but till the day i succeed, no obstacles shall stop me.

set sail, LET'S GO!!!

sunday.

"You want to keep people from dying? That's naive. It's a war, people die". - Luffy's words to Vivi on the liberation on Arabasta.

okay, so have life have been quite hectic these days.
gotta finish up some work,
and study for geog test.
and there's art to do,
well, at least have to give some respect by handing up something.

and just got the kind of "busy busy busy" mood nowadays,
and trying to rush all the work,
which seems neverending.
somehow i nvr feel tired or angry of the workload;
instead i feel that its a good sign.
the bigger the challenge, the stronger i am.

and the geog test is just tmr,
and there's also home econs test tmr too.
seriously i dun really bother much about home econs;
i believe that i dun belong to the kitchen.
i belong to the command centre, and on the throne itself.

and yeah, sch's tmr...
the two days of wkends just went pass like a breeze of wind,
all dedicated to work.
and back in sch have to face all troubles and obstacles cause by classmates;
i dun really get along with them. in fact they hate me, and so do i.
and i take it as doing time for two yrs;
it doesnt really feels good went u get "shoot" by ur classmates daily,
and face nails created by them, just to make sure u get into trouble.
now i knew why joel change class;
it not only benefit his academics, and also his mood in sch.

but i dun really feel like the odd one out or down in sch.
and just wanna tell weibin,
dun be emo, pls, u have so many ppl supporting u,
unlike me, everyone wants me to perish!
and i just want to survive for them to see!

and had been thinking of doflamingo these few days.
doflamingo, previous bounty amount of 340,000,000.
somehow i do hope i really can be like him- he can controls people's movement.

and here's a little picture of him:

and let's end this post with some quotes by this flamboyant dress gentleman:
Whether or not... Sky Island exists... Whether the city of gold is a legend... Or a reality... Those things do not interest me. Before you acted on such foolish dreams... You should have listened to the opinions of others!!

-Doflamingo on why Bellamy lost to Luffy.

and life, was somewad weird today.

its a good thing that i did not blow my top today,
unlike the past few days when i blew my top for being dishonoured.
i have taken down the class on my "yours truly",
just a realistic prove that i dun really belong to the class in reality.

today was gd, and lessons came out nice.
really enjoyed HCL and science lessons today;
for a particular reason, i use to drone on subjects like these.
but today, i seem to enjoy the analysis during HCL,
and even found chem a sort of coffee for maths test ltr.

and as particular,
things werent very gd with most of the classmates,
except for that fact that a few boys didnt really ignore me.
somehow now i began to find the reason towards their lj attitude;
they seems to have strong first impression and stereotype on ppl.
and sorry, but,
the person ms 2 sabo-ed during chem has shown that the class have sort of stereotype towards diff ppl.
and im just suay to be stereotype badly, thats all.

somehow i began to feel alot like Luffy,
and even there's ppl telling me that I have the same personality as strawhat,
except for the fact that im not simple minded.
perhaps there's something i can link myself with this fictionous character-
we're both easily angered, always looking for fights and dangers, and keep chasing after goals.

despite the fact that I pursue my goals like how strawhat does,
but unlike Luffy, i have no nakama.
and the lj attitude from the class simply tells me that i have to fight alone,
and i believe that im tons stronger than strawhat.

oh, and there's commotion over stuffs on my tagboard.
well, u judge it urself, but from that u might already see how bad and i with the class.
somehow i really wanna join the sch counselling grp, as i believe there are ppl put there like me, who really nids a helping hand.
and i just wan them to know that things aint totally their fault,
and its just of human nature that screw things up.

perhaps for the next few mths i can tolerate the class,
and i really hope that next yr would be better than now,
or its like serving time for 4 yrs.
and, just stop giving me attitude,
scarely i become Nightmare Luffy(pic above).

Just go over to that ship. If they're enemies we just have to beat them up. -Luffy's words on his first siting on Phoenix's flagship.

Monkey D. Luffy,
an anime character that keeps me constantly glued to anime.

Luffy, or Strawhat, is one of the much popular anime character in the world,
that comes after Dragonball's Goku.
as the main protoganist of One Piece,
Luffy has been given a very special personality,
which is so different from many other anime's main protoganist,
such as Kurosaki Ichigo and Naruto.

Luffy is presented as a very straightforward person,
and also very simple-minded, literally dumb.
however, his apparent lack of intelligence was his brave attitude towards life.
having no common knowledge, his actions sometmes invite laughters.
but due to his straightforward manner, he is able to see past(not through) things,
and realize true goals which he is pursuing.

despite his fun loving and adventure thristy personality,
Luffy is very loyal to his crewmates, and never questioned about their past.
he often holds grudge for a long time,
and gets angry easily when his mates are in danger or he is trifled with.
Luffy frequently mentions meaningful quotes despite his simple minded personality,
but that always happen unintetionally.

presented in a risk loving and fun loving person,
Luffy seldoms get serious, and even plays around when he is fighting.
having no fear for death, Luffy is always ready for a battle.

as i was always thinking,
perhaps we should learn to be like Luffy.
the 'ignorance is bliss' concepts has always brought along laughter and fun through life for Luffy.
also being humble of his achievements, Luffy's personality is a kind of rare species in the world nowadays.
being a captain without much talents and abilities, Luffy always rely on his crewmates, such as Nami as the navigator, Chopper as the doctor, etc.
and he sets his dreams firmly- unable to change forever, till he achieved it.

if we can live life like Luffy do,
maybe one would enjoy more fun, and experience less troubles.
learn to be like Luffy- humble of his achievements, his ignorance, his fun loving personality.

I have all along been fascinated by Luffy- though simple minded, yet he was able to behave like one that no one would able be like. Luffy was the reason that kept me to One Piece.

perhaps if one could learn to be like Luffy,
one would have lesser trouble.
and take a close look;
real leadership is potrayed by Luffy, a fictionous character, but no actual human can achieve that real leadership.

Master Rayleigh, I was really surprised!! Over in the East Blue...! There was a kid who said the same things as Captain Roger...! Those words, that the captain once said...!

— Shanks to Rayleigh, talking about Luffy.

tuesday.

okay, i deleted one week of blog entries.
dun really wanna keep those hard, bitter memories.
and will keep the tags on, just for ppl to judge it.

just finally realise that i have went beyond my principles.
i agreed not to be tempted by earthly temptations,
i agreed not to arise jealosuity on talent slaves that will serve me in the near future.
i agreed not to lower my status to care so much of the class.
i agreed to retrieve honour when i lose it.
i agreed...

it was all a big mistake.
other than glorified, confident, bellicosity, i went beyond to sadness.
and now the asura feeling is back!
i almost went up to slap chloe and qhan went they interupt me.
and the fighting spirit, is back.
the once full filled with honor and bellicosity BOSS, is back.

i vow not to be jealous of ppl with mere talent,
because i vow to lord over them next time;
i vow not to go into deep sadness anymore,
because i will lose my world;
i vow not to lose confidence anymore,
because this will make me lose wad i have, even more.

and i vow to throw back a chair,
whenever someone tries to be funny with me!

take it as a lesson learnt,
the more i go beyond bellicosity to sadness,
i will lose even more,
just like how the class make me lose honor and jeer when they knew i was acting as romeo.
since i have retrieve back the hot-headed spirit,
the more i should do with it!
now, i have finally seen through the class, as well as life;
hardly anyone lives up to their words.
take these two yrs as a jungle survival course,
if there another two yrs lyk this cming,
i'll take it as a advance jungle survival course.

and i vow that from now onwards,
i shall never go into negative emotions,
except for wrath and bellicosity.
and, human just view ppl on first look, by their appearance!

clean my katana with some sake, im back to fight.

running continously; even faster, even further.

friday.

and life started today with a cup of tea.

okay, so reach sch, and went to meet up with leo and yikdong.
then went bk to class, slack time.
and had digital arts.
the trainers are quite nice ppl.
and had so many double periods today. sian.

and fall in at 1300hrs.
wanted to have proficiency test.
but so many ppl either turn up l8 or went MIA.
fk, couldnt do test today.
so we practise our arm drills.

and 3SG Martin took me, ck ng, changjun and mk for a long time.
well, his teaching is really very gd, and i really understand well.
and manage to master the techniques very fast.
now noe why part A got tremendous improvement.
and we rusoff rusoff rusoff, turun turun turun. senjatah.
and it was quite fun. beside drills we also had interaction.

and ltr the USM and S4 took us for a short while.
and the USM gave us some sort of mock test.
well, just nid to horn up a bit more to reach perfection.
and he treat us and the S4 to drinks. which add up to $5.10.
well, he's a nice guy and he's generous. and he noes when to work and play.

and today, i think that our performance was a disappointment, as well as attendance.
perhaps i shall talk more to tingwei and brandon.
and maybe martin should take brandon and tingwei for some time.

well,
i await for the next trng session.
homat senjatah!

thursday

题菊花

飒飒西风满院栽，
蕊寒香冷蝶难来。
他年我若为青帝，
报与桃花一处开。

well, perhaps fairness isnt so obvious among many things.
and yet, fairness is emphasize everytime, but to no avail.
maybe everyone should be given a fair chance?
a second chance, maybe.

those of high potential and quality are born of worst circumstances,
those that shines like supernovas for a few seconds yet enjoy eternal glory.
just like the chrysanthemum, its of a high medical purpose, and other gd purpose.
but it only blooms in late autumn, and attract no butterflies to it.
the peach blossom blooms in early autumn, but only for a short period. yet it attracted more people and butterflies to it.

perhaps, sometime we might want to look around,
as we are so careless, so careless that we might misunderstand a supernova as the sun.

maybe, equality is something too hard to achieve.