today's 31 dec 2009, the eve of 1 jan 2010.
have this kind of feeling, that all these are finally ending,
and yet, for some stuff i didnt want it to end. like 2e3.
however, we should all look forward. there's a lot more adventures for me in 2010.
i would like to just sum up this year,
and it's more like a conclusion of impt stuff i've done.
achieved 2009 new yr resolution:
(x)stamina increased
(x)v shape body figure
(x)slim down
(x)better results, more than top 25%
(x)Corporal Rank
(x)FSD Course 2009 Badge
(x)participated in at least 2 NCC courses
(x)Gold for NAPFA
(x)better ties with class and CCA
important events of 2009
-class activities
-CCA activities
-Team Bonding sessions
-CCA courses
i spend a good year improving almost everything about myself.
and i spend a good year with good memories and times.
so now, im gonna list out next yr's new yr resolutions:
2010 new yr resolution:
( )Gold for NAPFA
( )SGT Rank and ARMY-NCC Badge
( )more better ties with class and CCA
( )2E3'09 Bonding
( )make name for ZHSS in FSD
( )good results, top 12.5% of level
( )train six packs
( )participate in at least 2 NCC course(excluding Specialist Course)
( )participate in more CIP and charity events
( )participate in more Anti-Communism and Anti-Socialism events
that should round up for next yr's target.
after a good year of memories, sweet and sour,
im ready for a brand new adventure.
ppl, have a great year ahead!
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Stauffenburg's secret Germany, my desired Singapore.
well i believe some of you have watched before the movie,
"Valkyrie" by Tom Cruise, or at least heard of this Operation Valkyrie.
it was then back in the WW2 when a group of people wanted to assassinate Hitler,
and achieve their 'secret Germany' by destroying the Fascist dictatorship.
though they failed in the end and Stauffenburg, the main conspirator got killed,
but this incident remains a heroic legend that many would never have done.
to go onto such a dangerous act to assassinate Hitler,
that must have requires not just a lot of bravery and courage,
but also a lot of planning and plotting.
but all we can see here, is not just about Stauffenburg's courage,
but his strong desire for his country, the patriotic feeling.
he wanted a non-racist Germany, no Fascist dictators, peace.
i used to compared what i wanted for my country to be with him.
i compared my courage and patriotic feelings with Stauffenburg.
i used to compare how much im willing to give in for my country to him.
today i think how i want Singapore to be like.
i want a Singapore...
without starvation,
without poor folks,
with good living conditions,
with absolute justice and equality,
with everyone rich enough to spend heavily on the local economy,
with our own weapon and industrial production plants,
with our own farms and agriculture movements,
with everyone healthy and fit.
i want Singaporeans...
to be all educated properly,
to know all virtues and morals and carry out them,
and they'll never starve, never worry about money,
they'll have their rights to protest against whats wrong,
and they will be educated and train to be more superior than those up north in China,
those west in US, those east in Japan, those south in Australia.
i know i sound more like crapping.
but this is my desired Singapore.
i want a strong and independent Singapore,
and i'm going to work towards that.
maybe my effort alone is not enough for my country.
but as long as we Singaporeans untied together,
we'll find our way out,
and become one of those that go onto the international stages.
Onward Singapore.
"Valkyrie" by Tom Cruise, or at least heard of this Operation Valkyrie.
it was then back in the WW2 when a group of people wanted to assassinate Hitler,
and achieve their 'secret Germany' by destroying the Fascist dictatorship.
though they failed in the end and Stauffenburg, the main conspirator got killed,
but this incident remains a heroic legend that many would never have done.
to go onto such a dangerous act to assassinate Hitler,
that must have requires not just a lot of bravery and courage,
but also a lot of planning and plotting.
but all we can see here, is not just about Stauffenburg's courage,
but his strong desire for his country, the patriotic feeling.
he wanted a non-racist Germany, no Fascist dictators, peace.
i used to compared what i wanted for my country to be with him.
i compared my courage and patriotic feelings with Stauffenburg.
i used to compare how much im willing to give in for my country to him.
today i think how i want Singapore to be like.
i want a Singapore...
without starvation,
without poor folks,
with good living conditions,
with absolute justice and equality,
with everyone rich enough to spend heavily on the local economy,
with our own weapon and industrial production plants,
with our own farms and agriculture movements,
with everyone healthy and fit.
i want Singaporeans...
to be all educated properly,
to know all virtues and morals and carry out them,
and they'll never starve, never worry about money,
they'll have their rights to protest against whats wrong,
and they will be educated and train to be more superior than those up north in China,
those west in US, those east in Japan, those south in Australia.
i know i sound more like crapping.
but this is my desired Singapore.
i want a strong and independent Singapore,
and i'm going to work towards that.
maybe my effort alone is not enough for my country.
but as long as we Singaporeans untied together,
we'll find our way out,
and become one of those that go onto the international stages.
Onward Singapore.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Dull skies, Bland life.
nothing much to do today.
except for remedy my boots, and iron my uniform a bit.
training tomorrow.
compared to the past, now what that makes me turn up for training,
is all those innocent smiles on my junior's face,
the strong brotherly bond between me and some of my mates, some i say.
and those laughter that we shared together, those jokes we laugh at when it's cracked.
somehow, i've been thinking a lot on something.
on the topic of 'hero'. yes, hero.
i was all wondering about what makes one person a hero,
and what makes one a coward.
then i just found out that this is very simple;
a hero is selfless, a coward is selfish.
i used to judge ppl by the outer shell.
how's their studies, how they behave, how they treat others,
how they settle things, how they speak and react.
but this time round, i judge ppl differently.
it actually never takes so much to differentiate people after all.
it's more of a yes or no.
once again i must say,
it's by doing whatever that you become whoever.
today, i judge ppl by looking at what they have done,
to make them who they are.
it takes a lifetime of experience to understand the nature of Man.
but it only takes one moment to understand the character of Man.
days are going one by one towards start of school.
i guess i have to really work hard.
except for remedy my boots, and iron my uniform a bit.
training tomorrow.
compared to the past, now what that makes me turn up for training,
is all those innocent smiles on my junior's face,
the strong brotherly bond between me and some of my mates, some i say.
and those laughter that we shared together, those jokes we laugh at when it's cracked.
somehow, i've been thinking a lot on something.
on the topic of 'hero'. yes, hero.
i was all wondering about what makes one person a hero,
and what makes one a coward.
then i just found out that this is very simple;
a hero is selfless, a coward is selfish.
i used to judge ppl by the outer shell.
how's their studies, how they behave, how they treat others,
how they settle things, how they speak and react.
but this time round, i judge ppl differently.
it actually never takes so much to differentiate people after all.
it's more of a yes or no.
once again i must say,
it's by doing whatever that you become whoever.
today, i judge ppl by looking at what they have done,
to make them who they are.
it takes a lifetime of experience to understand the nature of Man.
but it only takes one moment to understand the character of Man.
days are going one by one towards start of school.
i guess i have to really work hard.
Monday, December 28, 2009
Absolute Justice.
suddenly i rmb something that mdm zhang hong told me:
"ppl will treat you the way you treat them."
and all came the rebuttal and how that time i used to change,
and then the class still despise me a lot.
yea, so just be a bit more gentleman, then talk a bit nicer,
help ppl more a bit, gradually ppl will find you okay.
and i began to think of what she says.
"ppl will treat you the way you treat them."
i began to wonder about what comes around goes around,
and the recent ervin incident.
now i began to understand why some ppl have followers or frens who are willing to die for them.
this is due to the fact that they are willing to die for their followers and frens.
now i know why some ppl remains a bastard no matter how high they climb.
because fact remains that they treat ppl like bastards.
what comes around goes around.
i believe in the weighing scale. everything's equal.
you'll get back how much you give out in the end after all.
including misdeeds. retribution will come.
today i want to play the role of a messenger.
to help my silent brothers and those with grieve,
to answer this call for Absolute Justice.
i believe in equality.
do you?
"ppl will treat you the way you treat them."
and all came the rebuttal and how that time i used to change,
and then the class still despise me a lot.
yea, so just be a bit more gentleman, then talk a bit nicer,
help ppl more a bit, gradually ppl will find you okay.
and i began to think of what she says.
"ppl will treat you the way you treat them."
i began to wonder about what comes around goes around,
and the recent ervin incident.
now i began to understand why some ppl have followers or frens who are willing to die for them.
this is due to the fact that they are willing to die for their followers and frens.
now i know why some ppl remains a bastard no matter how high they climb.
because fact remains that they treat ppl like bastards.
what comes around goes around.
i believe in the weighing scale. everything's equal.
you'll get back how much you give out in the end after all.
including misdeeds. retribution will come.
today i want to play the role of a messenger.
to help my silent brothers and those with grieve,
to answer this call for Absolute Justice.
i believe in equality.
do you?
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Realistically-Evil.
so, i have another one week left before school reopens;
much for me to do on the schedule list.
haircut, hmwk, pack my bag, and all sort of stuff.
maybe its gonna get hectic for a while.
Realistically-Evil.
i think so far this is something i can think to comment on my blog.
well, why do i say this?
because often times, i wrote stuff that criticize ppl to the end;
and often, this is with reasons of reality.
thats why i call my blog realistically evil.
all the post about heroes and treacherous men,
and then all sorts of obstacles i face in my life;
many kinds of ppl i came across, all sorts of opponents.
troubles i faced, chances i fought for, which never one did come to me automactically.
i think is the realistic in my blog that often invite ppl.
critics, but commends and praises are more than critics.
often, my true personality is let out during blogging.
this is to ensure that my post are of quality content that wouldn't waste ppl's time.
often you see me criticizing a bastard,
or you see me praising one hero,
as if like im canonizing him or her.
i believe that everyone should stand up for the right values,
and fight against the wrong ones.
i led my life by these words: Absolute Justice.
to an extent of sacrificing life,
i have to make sure that Justice is served.
i think many would say im sucking up to one person when i praise him or her,
or say that im raging war when i criticize another.
often times, i must say this is no;
i wrote things with link with facts,
one who do good, we must praise; one who do bad, we must criticize.
some might see me as a philosopher, some a propaganda guy.
whatever you all might say, im just writing what i feel the world should know.
after this post, i will still continue my practise;
praising and criticizing, ideas and thoughts, comments and words.
all along this have been my blogging style,
and i believe this style brought me at least one or two fans.
out of that 2000+ at the counter ._.
last but not least,
Absolute Justice!
much for me to do on the schedule list.
haircut, hmwk, pack my bag, and all sort of stuff.
maybe its gonna get hectic for a while.
Realistically-Evil.
i think so far this is something i can think to comment on my blog.
well, why do i say this?
because often times, i wrote stuff that criticize ppl to the end;
and often, this is with reasons of reality.
thats why i call my blog realistically evil.
all the post about heroes and treacherous men,
and then all sorts of obstacles i face in my life;
many kinds of ppl i came across, all sorts of opponents.
troubles i faced, chances i fought for, which never one did come to me automactically.
i think is the realistic in my blog that often invite ppl.
critics, but commends and praises are more than critics.
often, my true personality is let out during blogging.
this is to ensure that my post are of quality content that wouldn't waste ppl's time.
often you see me criticizing a bastard,
or you see me praising one hero,
as if like im canonizing him or her.
i believe that everyone should stand up for the right values,
and fight against the wrong ones.
i led my life by these words: Absolute Justice.
to an extent of sacrificing life,
i have to make sure that Justice is served.
i think many would say im sucking up to one person when i praise him or her,
or say that im raging war when i criticize another.
often times, i must say this is no;
i wrote things with link with facts,
one who do good, we must praise; one who do bad, we must criticize.
some might see me as a philosopher, some a propaganda guy.
whatever you all might say, im just writing what i feel the world should know.
after this post, i will still continue my practise;
praising and criticizing, ideas and thoughts, comments and words.
all along this have been my blogging style,
and i believe this style brought me at least one or two fans.
out of that 2000+ at the counter ._.
last but not least,
Absolute Justice!
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Hero.
Dedicated to CPL Ervin, a man who earn my respect.
I would like to talk about something on NCC today.
I don't care whether if any Specialist or Officers are going to see this;
but I have to commend Ervin on his heroic act.
It was not long ago that Joel recruited Kenneth into the FSD Team,
without a selection, without our approvals,
under the pretext of 'member of the past competition team'.
OIC Leo was furious and fire was burning on his eyebrows,
but in the end, who choose to let the matter go and not to pursue,
despite that it was a broken military vow towards our team members.
And we even put Kenneth as second in reserved, behind Kah Chee.
Soon, Joel gave me a suggestion that he wanted to replace Kenneth with someone in the team.
First name he mentioned was Ervin. I was fed up.
A broken military vow, now another injustice action.
I advise him not to go along with it,
but he insisted that 'Ken was better in drills and have more experience'.
That happen when SM NCC confirmed the time and amount of people days later.
I received a SMS from Ervin,
saying that he is willing to get replaced for Kenneth.
I asked him why. he just casually said,
"Aiya, I don't want Joel to stir trouble and you guys to quarrel again."
Though Ervin shoed no enthusiasm in the trainings,
but I can see his desire to join the Team!
I called Joel asking for an explanation.
He said, "No, I called Ken cause I scared not enough people,
and people like Ervin and Kah Chee not enthu, so call Kenneth."
Even if he wants a replacement,
he needs a valid reason.
Somemore, we still have Kah Chee as the first reserved, not Ken.
Even if Ervin is to quit, which is impossible,
Kah Chee should go first!
I was touched. I felt a kind of remorse in my heart.
Touched by what Ervin did.
he could even give up his desire and hopes,
just because that he didn't want Joel to be facing Sir and getting punishment,
he doesn't want anymore quarrels in NCC, he didn't want any troubles.
A man who could give up his desires for the goodwill of all...
Worthy! A worthy man!
I couldn't give up as much as Ervin did if I were him.
I couldn't sacrifice as much as Ervin did.
Just because he is willing to give up this amount,
he should be repaid with a bigger amount!
Another time that trouble arises in NCC again.
But, this is another time that I spot a worthy man,
who could stand proud and tall in the amidst of troubles.
This time, the respect and friendship grew stronger in my heart.
Today, Ervin is no more the happy-go-lucky, the easy going Ervin.
He is a hero, a hero who is willing to give in, for the goodwill of many.
It's by doing whatever that you become whoever.
Ervin did something that made him a hero.
CPL Ervin, I salute you!
I would like to talk about something on NCC today.
I don't care whether if any Specialist or Officers are going to see this;
but I have to commend Ervin on his heroic act.
It was not long ago that Joel recruited Kenneth into the FSD Team,
without a selection, without our approvals,
under the pretext of 'member of the past competition team'.
OIC Leo was furious and fire was burning on his eyebrows,
but in the end, who choose to let the matter go and not to pursue,
despite that it was a broken military vow towards our team members.
And we even put Kenneth as second in reserved, behind Kah Chee.
Soon, Joel gave me a suggestion that he wanted to replace Kenneth with someone in the team.
First name he mentioned was Ervin. I was fed up.
A broken military vow, now another injustice action.
I advise him not to go along with it,
but he insisted that 'Ken was better in drills and have more experience'.
That happen when SM NCC confirmed the time and amount of people days later.
I received a SMS from Ervin,
saying that he is willing to get replaced for Kenneth.
I asked him why. he just casually said,
"Aiya, I don't want Joel to stir trouble and you guys to quarrel again."
Though Ervin shoed no enthusiasm in the trainings,
but I can see his desire to join the Team!
I called Joel asking for an explanation.
He said, "No, I called Ken cause I scared not enough people,
and people like Ervin and Kah Chee not enthu, so call Kenneth."
Even if he wants a replacement,
he needs a valid reason.
Somemore, we still have Kah Chee as the first reserved, not Ken.
Even if Ervin is to quit, which is impossible,
Kah Chee should go first!
I was touched. I felt a kind of remorse in my heart.
Touched by what Ervin did.
he could even give up his desire and hopes,
just because that he didn't want Joel to be facing Sir and getting punishment,
he doesn't want anymore quarrels in NCC, he didn't want any troubles.
A man who could give up his desires for the goodwill of all...
Worthy! A worthy man!
I couldn't give up as much as Ervin did if I were him.
I couldn't sacrifice as much as Ervin did.
Just because he is willing to give up this amount,
he should be repaid with a bigger amount!
Another time that trouble arises in NCC again.
But, this is another time that I spot a worthy man,
who could stand proud and tall in the amidst of troubles.
This time, the respect and friendship grew stronger in my heart.
Today, Ervin is no more the happy-go-lucky, the easy going Ervin.
He is a hero, a hero who is willing to give in, for the goodwill of many.
It's by doing whatever that you become whoever.
Ervin did something that made him a hero.
CPL Ervin, I salute you!
Friday, December 25, 2009
Christmas.
i dun celebrate christmas cuz im not a christian.
and i dun celebrate for the parties now.
like any other christmas i spend over the last few years.
alone at home, with my com, and some music.
but today, the feeling is different.
you dun have the kind of 'its a special day' feeling.
maybe because i've grow up.
days are differentiate by what happen, not what it is.
no presents, no parties, nothing much.
no christmas resolution.
well, no christmas wish too.
in fact, if you were to ask what presents i want,
i would just say, 'world peace'.
the end of communism, the fall of PRC, the revival of ROC;
no more terrorism, lesser wars and conflicts.
as long as the world do good, i'll do good too =D
What that makes a day, wasn't with the fact that what day it is, but the fact that what really happen to make that day a special one.
holidays coming to an end, hmwk not yet done.
getting unfit at home, and a bit of obese.
without any targets now, life's a lost.
i would want a new fren for new year,
one that can really understand me.
then i'll have another that i can really chat to.
well, feeling very random now.
merry xmas~!
and i dun celebrate for the parties now.
like any other christmas i spend over the last few years.
alone at home, with my com, and some music.
but today, the feeling is different.
you dun have the kind of 'its a special day' feeling.
maybe because i've grow up.
days are differentiate by what happen, not what it is.
no presents, no parties, nothing much.
no christmas resolution.
well, no christmas wish too.
in fact, if you were to ask what presents i want,
i would just say, 'world peace'.
the end of communism, the fall of PRC, the revival of ROC;
no more terrorism, lesser wars and conflicts.
as long as the world do good, i'll do good too =D
What that makes a day, wasn't with the fact that what day it is, but the fact that what really happen to make that day a special one.
holidays coming to an end, hmwk not yet done.
getting unfit at home, and a bit of obese.
without any targets now, life's a lost.
i would want a new fren for new year,
one that can really understand me.
then i'll have another that i can really chat to.
well, feeling very random now.
merry xmas~!
Thursday, December 24, 2009
It's by doing whatever that you become whoever.
Remi Gaillard, French prankster.
famous for showing his prank movies over his youtube channel,
and doing acts that seem foolish and funny.
It's by doing whatever that you become whoever.
i believe, how a person will portray himself or herself,
isn't by how the person actually is or how the person is deep in heart,
but how the person actually show himself or herself to the others.
we call this impression.
by doing something, we form an impression towards others according to the impact of our actions.
same theory, you do something good, you'll be hailed as a saint;
you do something bad, you'll be condemned.
how others view us,
are not by what we are actually; but how we portray ourselves to them.
so what's the point even if you're a uber nice person,
when you actually let others view the wrong side of you?
be aware of your actions and words.
not all human beings are smart enough to know how a person is like deep in the heart.
misunderstandings, comes from our actions and words.
enjoy the video.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
遗失的美好.
to think back, sometimes, or perhaps all the times,
i missed out a lot, a lot on life that i should be enjoying now.
these two years, as i recounted the days i spent;
i can only say, i paid a huge price, a huge amount of time to buy a lesson.
lesson of how life is, the lesson to see through everything.
but yet because i've seen through everything these days, all the more i felt,
i should not be going through all these.
isolation, hatred, power struggle...
a teen should not be going through all these!
what im suppose to taste now,
is the bitter-sweet of puppy love, the rashness of a teen;
the stress only towards academic, the passion for enjoyment.
i spent two years of my teenage life handling adult matters.
i've lost too much.
if now those ppl who fought with me laugh at me again,
i would just merely brush their comments off.
after all, if i'm going to dedicate teenage to hatred, power struggles...
how much of teenage would i miss out?
thanks to ervin, and his " duo yi shi bu ru shao yi shi ".
sometimes, perhaps the greatest happiness in this world,
is not to be at the top, is not to gain control over all;
but to slowly enjoy everything in life, without woes.
i used to laugh at those who spend their days aimlessly;
but perhaps, now i understand the key to happiness: simplicity.
i want to regain those valour of a teen,
the way how a teen should be like.
我要找回那少年的冲动，
那少年的清纯；
青春那无比的力量，
那淡淡，苦中带甘的青涩恋情。
少年那无忧无虑的日子，
少年那知足常乐的思想。
我要找回那遗失的美好。
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Tuesday.
dusk ends, dawn arrives.
its another day.
life hadn't been any better as the days goes by.
it's still the way it is,
as dull as ever, and getting even more plain than before.
it's like drinking a cup of tea-
brew from the same leaves over and over again,
until that the scent and taste is no longer there;
but this drinking had became a habit of life.
getting pretty slack at home nowadays.
started the habit of cycling at least 10 km everyday;
just for a little bit of leisure.
and there isn't much for me to do daily;
not more than homework, computer, and sleeping.
a kind of feeling filled me.
hollow. yes, an empty feeling filled me.
ironically, something empty actually filled me up.
it's that kind of hollow-
that you can't unleash yourself,
you cannot seek your grievances,
and others actually don't understand how you think.
and all my life, it didn't get any better.
that kind of...you never get a chance to lead,
and all the times, your fate is decided by others.
much of a sour and bitter taste.
things didn't goes your way, fine;
and when the bastard screws things up,
your the one in trouble instead.
all these days throughout these 14 years,
never a day i felt i was the one in control.
all along, it was either a reform under the cloak of "Constitutional Monarchy",
or something that you've expected.
my presence was meant to bring fear and threat.
fear and threat to those who are ordinaries.
god didn't gave me much.
he didn't gave me good looks or talents.
but he gave me a perfect figure and willpower.
but what's the point when you cannot use them?
Destiny, something that god bestowed upon you.
like a car, it may be a Benz, or a Hyundai, or a Toyota.
what matters isn't the car brand r quality, but the driver of the car.
we, are the one that controls our own destiny.
sometimes, giving in might means peace.
at the great price of your honour.
many cut their bowels for the sake of honour.
"to be shattered jade than a full piece of brick."
looks like i have to be the shattered jade this time.
I prove your ideas wrong, like how the world prove Communism wrong.
its another day.
life hadn't been any better as the days goes by.
it's still the way it is,
as dull as ever, and getting even more plain than before.
it's like drinking a cup of tea-
brew from the same leaves over and over again,
until that the scent and taste is no longer there;
but this drinking had became a habit of life.
getting pretty slack at home nowadays.
started the habit of cycling at least 10 km everyday;
just for a little bit of leisure.
and there isn't much for me to do daily;
not more than homework, computer, and sleeping.
a kind of feeling filled me.
hollow. yes, an empty feeling filled me.
ironically, something empty actually filled me up.
it's that kind of hollow-
that you can't unleash yourself,
you cannot seek your grievances,
and others actually don't understand how you think.
and all my life, it didn't get any better.
that kind of...you never get a chance to lead,
and all the times, your fate is decided by others.
much of a sour and bitter taste.
things didn't goes your way, fine;
and when the bastard screws things up,
your the one in trouble instead.
all these days throughout these 14 years,
never a day i felt i was the one in control.
all along, it was either a reform under the cloak of "Constitutional Monarchy",
or something that you've expected.
my presence was meant to bring fear and threat.
fear and threat to those who are ordinaries.
god didn't gave me much.
he didn't gave me good looks or talents.
but he gave me a perfect figure and willpower.
but what's the point when you cannot use them?
Destiny, something that god bestowed upon you.
like a car, it may be a Benz, or a Hyundai, or a Toyota.
what matters isn't the car brand r quality, but the driver of the car.
we, are the one that controls our own destiny.
sometimes, giving in might means peace.
at the great price of your honour.
many cut their bowels for the sake of honour.
"to be shattered jade than a full piece of brick."
looks like i have to be the shattered jade this time.
I prove your ideas wrong, like how the world prove Communism wrong.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Top 5 Incidents of the Year.
and its another sunday.
hmm, i wouldn't want to save this for New Year's Eve,
so im saying it now,
as part of the new year resolution.
1) Situation in Part B
The hottest topic of the year throughout.
from how the part B trusted me till most of them dislike me.
and today, we found out the reason to all these misunderstanding.
and when i sat we, i gained support of linemen, mates, juniors and seniors.
we also gained large amount of information:
Joel: 'eh yitian say arh...'
Eric: 'wah he really say that abt me? damn!'
CK Ng: 'huh? i brainless?'
basically one of my mates played the game and told me who was the culprit.
hot topic, and the damn guy gonna get his ass burn next yr.
i see you in Hell.
2) 2E3'09
i can say that this is one of my best achievement this year.
from a state where everyone hates you in the class, 38 of them,
until when everyone goes along well with you,
and could become great friends with you.
as this was one my my last Christmas' resolution,
so this means that i've completed things nicely.
not only this is a success in human relationship,
these bunch of fun ppl indeed let me learn a lot a lot from them.
i rmb tuesday once told me,
'eh, since now your yearning over your primary school class,
then you will yearn over this class in future.
so why not treasure it now?'
even though i began to understand this after i wasted one year,
but yet, it brought the greatest joy and enlightenment to my life.
2 year, but i learn 20 years of enlightenment, and 200 years of joy.
3) FAC
never have i been admitted into such things in my life.
until this year.
i was admitted due to the reason that im a bodybuilder,
but one good thing i gained from FAC is their training.
the steps climbling trained my stamina,
and was the ultimate reason that got a gold for my NAPFA.
great fitness and strength, it brought me.
i rmb how mr heng gave me a 3 kg or 5 kg bag,
and i ran around 30 rounds.
4) HQ Courses
course like FSD and Survival,
indeed taught me a lot of skills,
and most importantly,
made me a lot of friends in HQ NCC.
would go explaining any further,
or else i would go talking 3day 3night about the joy then i had there.
5) Chair Throwing Incident
my first and only violence done on a gal in ZHSS so far.
indeed a lot i wanna confess.
i didnt went on rage to threw it.
i did it on purpose.
and after i threw it.
i was shivering. for a particular reason i dun wanna mention.
~~~
and, thats all for today.
one fine day im gonna post on the new year resolution.
hmm, i wouldn't want to save this for New Year's Eve,
so im saying it now,
as part of the new year resolution.
1) Situation in Part B
The hottest topic of the year throughout.
from how the part B trusted me till most of them dislike me.
and today, we found out the reason to all these misunderstanding.
and when i sat we, i gained support of linemen, mates, juniors and seniors.
we also gained large amount of information:
Joel: 'eh yitian say arh...'
Eric: 'wah he really say that abt me? damn!'
CK Ng: 'huh? i brainless?'
basically one of my mates played the game and told me who was the culprit.
hot topic, and the damn guy gonna get his ass burn next yr.
i see you in Hell.
2) 2E3'09
i can say that this is one of my best achievement this year.
from a state where everyone hates you in the class, 38 of them,
until when everyone goes along well with you,
and could become great friends with you.
as this was one my my last Christmas' resolution,
so this means that i've completed things nicely.
not only this is a success in human relationship,
these bunch of fun ppl indeed let me learn a lot a lot from them.
i rmb tuesday once told me,
'eh, since now your yearning over your primary school class,
then you will yearn over this class in future.
so why not treasure it now?'
even though i began to understand this after i wasted one year,
but yet, it brought the greatest joy and enlightenment to my life.
2 year, but i learn 20 years of enlightenment, and 200 years of joy.
3) FAC
never have i been admitted into such things in my life.
until this year.
i was admitted due to the reason that im a bodybuilder,
but one good thing i gained from FAC is their training.
the steps climbling trained my stamina,
and was the ultimate reason that got a gold for my NAPFA.
great fitness and strength, it brought me.
i rmb how mr heng gave me a 3 kg or 5 kg bag,
and i ran around 30 rounds.
4) HQ Courses
course like FSD and Survival,
indeed taught me a lot of skills,
and most importantly,
made me a lot of friends in HQ NCC.
would go explaining any further,
or else i would go talking 3day 3night about the joy then i had there.
5) Chair Throwing Incident
my first and only violence done on a gal in ZHSS so far.
indeed a lot i wanna confess.
i didnt went on rage to threw it.
i did it on purpose.
and after i threw it.
i was shivering. for a particular reason i dun wanna mention.
~~~
and, thats all for today.
one fine day im gonna post on the new year resolution.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Another Stay-Home Saturday.
well, its another day that you find adventures at home.
you wouldn't want to mess up your kitchen when you got sick of your com,
and you wouldn't want to charge your psp thrice a day.
and mediacorp's shows are gettting real below standard.
and you've read the book on your shelves countless times.
and there's no reason for you to do homework during weekends.
okay, im rotting at home today.
well, im thinking of changing a blogskin,
but i can't find a real good one.
those that are suited for my style of writing.
so, i would like to find someone to help me design.
but i dunno anyone who design blogskins.
and have been trying to spot the top three stalkers of my blog.
and blogger dun have something for you to check the visitor's IP address.
so, rendered a useless idea.
and the rest of the holidays might stay this way.
dull and bland. dun really have any activities,
and coop all day at home, rotting with my com.
i just found out that i'm able to use the CS radio system better than before.
next time i no need to shout across venus lerhs. haha.
i think my life is way too different from many other teens.
and i think the way i think is way too different from many other teens.
and i think the way i handled things is also very different from other teens.
sometimes, when i did something in NCC and got a couple of complains;
its just like how kids are unhappy with their teachers,
or those warrants are getting sick of the recruits in BMTC.
and i feel there's not a need to change;
i'm waiting for them to grow up.
hmm, sometimes, i thought i was the one at fault.
but in the end, i wasn't.
no one's at fault.
its just that ppl committed the mistakes.
those mistakes that i long committed in primary sch,
or i dun even get a chance to commit.
you cant say that i've grown up, and you cant say that i'm matured;
i'm only 14 at a height of 165, i barely have facial hair.
only you can say is, i went through real though times,
though times that even helen keller never ever went through.
and through these times, i've seen all sorts of stuff;
today, i dun think like a human. i think way above human.
if any ppl wanna contradict that, LOOK AT MY POST BELOW.
i've always believe these two yrs served a purpose in my life.
they horned me from nothing into a man with supreme leadership.
it's something like OCS produces officer, school produces student.
just that mine is much more harder, mentally and emotionally.
I'm waiting for that time to come, for a chance to strike.
you wouldn't want to mess up your kitchen when you got sick of your com,
and you wouldn't want to charge your psp thrice a day.
and mediacorp's shows are gettting real below standard.
and you've read the book on your shelves countless times.
and there's no reason for you to do homework during weekends.
okay, im rotting at home today.
well, im thinking of changing a blogskin,
but i can't find a real good one.
those that are suited for my style of writing.
so, i would like to find someone to help me design.
but i dunno anyone who design blogskins.
and have been trying to spot the top three stalkers of my blog.
and blogger dun have something for you to check the visitor's IP address.
so, rendered a useless idea.
and the rest of the holidays might stay this way.
dull and bland. dun really have any activities,
and coop all day at home, rotting with my com.
i just found out that i'm able to use the CS radio system better than before.
next time i no need to shout across venus lerhs. haha.
i think my life is way too different from many other teens.
and i think the way i think is way too different from many other teens.
and i think the way i handled things is also very different from other teens.
sometimes, when i did something in NCC and got a couple of complains;
its just like how kids are unhappy with their teachers,
or those warrants are getting sick of the recruits in BMTC.
and i feel there's not a need to change;
i'm waiting for them to grow up.
hmm, sometimes, i thought i was the one at fault.
but in the end, i wasn't.
no one's at fault.
its just that ppl committed the mistakes.
those mistakes that i long committed in primary sch,
or i dun even get a chance to commit.
you cant say that i've grown up, and you cant say that i'm matured;
i'm only 14 at a height of 165, i barely have facial hair.
only you can say is, i went through real though times,
though times that even helen keller never ever went through.
and through these times, i've seen all sorts of stuff;
today, i dun think like a human. i think way above human.
if any ppl wanna contradict that, LOOK AT MY POST BELOW.
i've always believe these two yrs served a purpose in my life.
they horned me from nothing into a man with supreme leadership.
it's something like OCS produces officer, school produces student.
just that mine is much more harder, mentally and emotionally.
I'm waiting for that time to come, for a chance to strike.
Friday, December 18, 2009
Friday, another mini weekend.
yes, and for today i should stop crapping a lot on philosophy first.
hmm, let's talk about how i collected my sch uniform today :D
yea, and i went to that damn, old upper serangoon shopping centre.
and then i think its time we ask the sch uniform supplier to change address,
plus upgrade their quality. we wan dry fit for pe shirts LOL.
and then i went in. and got this teenage gal attend to me.
and she asked, 'long pants huh, is it?'
c'mon, i dun look lyk long pants guy meh?
and then look the just right fitting size.
the top just make my v-shape more visible. lol.
and then went home ._.
have been sitting down and thinking a bit on how to spend life for the rest of holidays.
seriously i've not been putting much effort into my work.
left a bit of maths and my hcl bk review cover page.
so perhaps gonna spend some time doing it.
and NCC. those freestyle kids. and brandon's idea of next yr.
yes yes yes, such a Commonwealth and untraditional way,
so we're gonna have '8-men Republican Consulate of ZHNCC '10-'11 ',
which i think will end up pretty same like the Roman Republic 0_0
and haven really talked much to 2e3 ppl nowadays.
maybe one fine day should meet some of them.
hmm. that's all for today, for the time being.
hmm, let's talk about how i collected my sch uniform today :D
yea, and i went to that damn, old upper serangoon shopping centre.
and then i think its time we ask the sch uniform supplier to change address,
plus upgrade their quality. we wan dry fit for pe shirts LOL.
and then i went in. and got this teenage gal attend to me.
and she asked, 'long pants huh, is it?'
c'mon, i dun look lyk long pants guy meh?
and then look the just right fitting size.
the top just make my v-shape more visible. lol.
and then went home ._.
have been sitting down and thinking a bit on how to spend life for the rest of holidays.
seriously i've not been putting much effort into my work.
left a bit of maths and my hcl bk review cover page.
so perhaps gonna spend some time doing it.
and NCC. those freestyle kids. and brandon's idea of next yr.
yes yes yes, such a Commonwealth and untraditional way,
so we're gonna have '8-men Republican Consulate of ZHNCC '10-'11 ',
which i think will end up pretty same like the Roman Republic 0_0
and haven really talked much to 2e3 ppl nowadays.
maybe one fine day should meet some of them.
hmm. that's all for today, for the time being.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Karma.
yay, got a bit of inspirations to write.
actually got a lot derh,
just now wanted to write, but sian sian just off com.
so now, at least got a bit of inspiration left to write.
Karma.
i believe many ppl would know what am i trying to say.
karma simply means that 'what goes around comes around'.
or to put it in more layman's term,
'you bear what you grow'.
all along, i've always believe that the world is fair.
and things are just, so that everything will be balance.
doing something, in return one day you'll get the same results back.
this, is Karma.
do something bad, and retribution will come.
do something good, and reward is for sure.
i lived my life by this principles.
sometimes, when i meet up with unfair or unjust,
i've always choose not to take actions.
because retribution will come for those that harms me.
always i've watched those charity shows by SPD, or NKF.
the first thought i have on those patients,
is not just pity and symphatise,
but a thought of 'what had they done wrong to be punished?'
Justice. a word that is highly linked with Karma.
both needs a balance, and good to be rewarded, bad to be punished.
ever done something bad to someone else,
the same thing will happen on you.
(yah ah tan stop shivering.)
everytime i watched those charity shows,
i've always remind myself,
"Not to do anything bad, because the same will befall on us.
If I ever done anything evil my past life that I have to bear retribution today,
I'll gladly oblige, only to do good today and till I die,
for I will not bear the fruits of evil when I reincarnate."
the world's all about Cycle.
things come and go, in the same way.
many often go against morals and virtues for selfish desires,
unknowing that God is waiting them at the next corner,
preparing to return them what they have given.
the rules of Karma is very simple.
good begets good, evil results in evil.
harm one person, others will help you;
help one person, heaven will return that deed for sure.
also remember in Absolute Justice.
Justice is absolute, once you done something evil,
the swords of Justice will sure be cutting you in moments.
help to promote Justice, and even though there's no benefit,
but at least you are not afraid of coming retribution.
A king or a road sweeper, all dances with the Grim Reaper.
whether if we are dancing with pride and honour,
or timidness and fear,
it depends on what we've done in our lives.
the legends on Hell and Hades might be something fiction;
but this does teach us that we do have to answer for our actions.
things goes in a cycle.
be aware, the same thing you did to others,
might cycle back to you in no time!
What goes around comes around.
A Role To Play.
and something sparks another thought from my mind again.
went to tuition again.
yea, the same old tutor and those friends.
besides xavier, clarence, christine and amanda,
there's newcomer. oh and patrick.
the joker that always seen tag team with chye kian during lower pri days.
and so, after tuition, it was 1930hrs, quite late.
at the bus stop one of those friends said this to me,
'can you be like your blog personality? i wonder if u even write ur own blog not...'
DISCLAIMER: yes i write this blog myself.
all by that guy on killing spree on the parade sq,
all by that guy who seems so beng in class,
all by that very authentic yitian.
yea, her words send me into deep thoughts.
i believe each and every of us have a role to play in life.
and my role here, is to play something i am not.
being that loud, rude and arrogant person that im not.
maybe many would ask why im doing all these, torturing myself.
i'll give the same ans i gave in those psot i wrote centuries ago:
this, is to satisfy of others stereotype and impression towards me.
many said they look at myface at first glance,
the words that popped out of their head is,
for guys,
those weaklings: a threat
those normal ones: one leader.
those strong willed: formidable foe.
and for gals:
fierce, beng, rebellious, and many of the other words you can think of.
to think back,
if i were to be myself like how i should be in this blog,
things were pretty much different.
some weakling(ah yes, him.) would write a letter to HQ for a redrawal,
some jokers wouldnt be able to joke anymore when i outshine them;
some gays wouldnt be able to be mr goody in the class anymore,
some kiddo would just lose his stereotype as the handsome guy of the class.
if you're able to spot yitian as a gentleman,
jaws will drop.
'don't judge a book by its cover.'
precisely when many doesn't heed this,
i can't be myself.
i wonder if i were to bring this real personality out of the virtual world,
and bring the fake personality out of the real world,
i wonder how many ppl would lie on the ground and cry.
went to tuition again.
yea, the same old tutor and those friends.
besides xavier, clarence, christine and amanda,
there's newcomer. oh and patrick.
the joker that always seen tag team with chye kian during lower pri days.
and so, after tuition, it was 1930hrs, quite late.
at the bus stop one of those friends said this to me,
'can you be like your blog personality? i wonder if u even write ur own blog not...'
DISCLAIMER: yes i write this blog myself.
all by that guy on killing spree on the parade sq,
all by that guy who seems so beng in class,
all by that very authentic yitian.
yea, her words send me into deep thoughts.
i believe each and every of us have a role to play in life.
and my role here, is to play something i am not.
being that loud, rude and arrogant person that im not.
maybe many would ask why im doing all these, torturing myself.
i'll give the same ans i gave in those psot i wrote centuries ago:
this, is to satisfy of others stereotype and impression towards me.
many said they look at myface at first glance,
the words that popped out of their head is,
for guys,
those weaklings: a threat
those normal ones: one leader.
those strong willed: formidable foe.
and for gals:
fierce, beng, rebellious, and many of the other words you can think of.
to think back,
if i were to be myself like how i should be in this blog,
things were pretty much different.
some weakling(ah yes, him.) would write a letter to HQ for a redrawal,
some jokers wouldnt be able to joke anymore when i outshine them;
some gays wouldnt be able to be mr goody in the class anymore,
some kiddo would just lose his stereotype as the handsome guy of the class.
if you're able to spot yitian as a gentleman,
jaws will drop.
'don't judge a book by its cover.'
precisely when many doesn't heed this,
i can't be myself.
i wonder if i were to bring this real personality out of the virtual world,
and bring the fake personality out of the real world,
i wonder how many ppl would lie on the ground and cry.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
The Art Of Utility.
i rmb the first time brandon came to my house,
the stuff i used to entertain him,
wasnt my com or those technology stuff in my house,
but was the set of mahjong and deck of poker i have.
poker. i rmb for once i had a hand of good cards.
three 2, two Ace, and some full house set.
and this seems lyk im winning the game,
and even ervin gets shocked and predicted that im on the winning hand.
but results turns out that i've lost.
somehow im able to gain something out of this gambling session.
'being able to fully utilise what you have.'
at that time, i have three 2 with me and double Ace,
but yet i lost the game.
this is due to the reason that i didnt noe how to use my cards properly.
i think the same theory also goes to any other thing else.
no matter whether are we given the best items or not,
in life, we must learn to utilise with what we have in our hands.
utilise not only items, but chances, opportunities, and even circumstances.
learning how to utilise is usually what that makes you the ultimate winner.
learning how to utilise, is a skill that many have yet to learn.
learning how to utilise, is always what that decides how the results will be.
for utilising, this is very simple.
just learn to make good use of the good of something,
and avoid or destroy the bad of it.
in this way, you have learn how to utilise.
the art of utility often lies in how we are going to use it,
and also when to use, where to use, what to use.
a small example is like using a kitchen knife to cut meat,
in the kitchen, to prepare for a meal.
as we can see, utilising is based one doing the right things,
at the right time for the right reason.
many were given chances to strive and change.
but things failed when they failed to make good use.
learn to cherish. only when we cherish things and chances around us,
then we can utilise it fully,
to make a difference in our lives.
the stuff i used to entertain him,
wasnt my com or those technology stuff in my house,
but was the set of mahjong and deck of poker i have.
poker. i rmb for once i had a hand of good cards.
three 2, two Ace, and some full house set.
and this seems lyk im winning the game,
and even ervin gets shocked and predicted that im on the winning hand.
but results turns out that i've lost.
somehow im able to gain something out of this gambling session.
'being able to fully utilise what you have.'
at that time, i have three 2 with me and double Ace,
but yet i lost the game.
this is due to the reason that i didnt noe how to use my cards properly.
i think the same theory also goes to any other thing else.
no matter whether are we given the best items or not,
in life, we must learn to utilise with what we have in our hands.
utilise not only items, but chances, opportunities, and even circumstances.
learning how to utilise is usually what that makes you the ultimate winner.
learning how to utilise, is a skill that many have yet to learn.
learning how to utilise, is always what that decides how the results will be.
for utilising, this is very simple.
just learn to make good use of the good of something,
and avoid or destroy the bad of it.
in this way, you have learn how to utilise.
the art of utility often lies in how we are going to use it,
and also when to use, where to use, what to use.
a small example is like using a kitchen knife to cut meat,
in the kitchen, to prepare for a meal.
as we can see, utilising is based one doing the right things,
at the right time for the right reason.
many were given chances to strive and change.
but things failed when they failed to make good use.
learn to cherish. only when we cherish things and chances around us,
then we can utilise it fully,
to make a difference in our lives.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Dreams.
would like to talk about something that I've been talking umpteen times before.
dreams. or aspirations you might want to call it.
i believe all of us in this world have dreams.
or you can say, aspirations.
we dream of being someone who's a big shot,
we aspire to be somebody famous.
each and every one of us have our very own directions that we want to go,
the very own path we want to create.
but however, many failed to complete walking this path of dreams.
perhaps they find it too tough to walk on,
or perhaps they lost the interest to see what's on the other end.
and just simply forgot their very own dreams,
or worse still, got forgotten by their dreams.
things might seem hard to attain now.
conditions might be harsh and cold now.
everything might just seem to be an illusion.
because this is only the start of everything.
turn your dreams into reality.
turn that little burning flame in your heart,
into a fire that engulfs the world.
let many understand your aspirations,
let many feel your dreams.
let your dreams be realised,
and let the wings of aspirations soar.
we don't only have dreams for no reason.
we are motivated, aspired by someone or something,
to drive us to realise such dreams.
an interest in a certain industry,
a change we want for the dying world,
a childhood memory that strikes hard in life...
all sorts of reason.
but we know, they are drives that caused dreams to turn into reality.
but yet,
many didnt have faith in themselves.
many think that they couldnt fulfill such lofty aspirations.
many think that they didnt have what it takes to complete their dreams.
but look, it doesnt matter!
as long as we persevere for our dreams, work hard for it,
nothing will be an obstacle after all!
many once failed when they tried realising their dreams,
and then gave up for later chances.
persevere. grit your teeth through all these challenges.
go through these obstacles and prove that you can do it.
dreams. they seem to be so near, and yet seem to be so far.
they seem to be near, cuz we had a vision in them;
they seem to be far, cuz we have not taken the step to fulfill them.
dreamers, set sail,
and steer the rudder of aspirations towards your dreams!
One day, when you kena big fame as a celeb, dont forget to come support my book signing sessions.
dreams. or aspirations you might want to call it.
i believe all of us in this world have dreams.
or you can say, aspirations.
we dream of being someone who's a big shot,
we aspire to be somebody famous.
each and every one of us have our very own directions that we want to go,
the very own path we want to create.
but however, many failed to complete walking this path of dreams.
perhaps they find it too tough to walk on,
or perhaps they lost the interest to see what's on the other end.
and just simply forgot their very own dreams,
or worse still, got forgotten by their dreams.
things might seem hard to attain now.
conditions might be harsh and cold now.
everything might just seem to be an illusion.
because this is only the start of everything.
turn your dreams into reality.
turn that little burning flame in your heart,
into a fire that engulfs the world.
let many understand your aspirations,
let many feel your dreams.
let your dreams be realised,
and let the wings of aspirations soar.
we don't only have dreams for no reason.
we are motivated, aspired by someone or something,
to drive us to realise such dreams.
an interest in a certain industry,
a change we want for the dying world,
a childhood memory that strikes hard in life...
all sorts of reason.
but we know, they are drives that caused dreams to turn into reality.
but yet,
many didnt have faith in themselves.
many think that they couldnt fulfill such lofty aspirations.
many think that they didnt have what it takes to complete their dreams.
but look, it doesnt matter!
as long as we persevere for our dreams, work hard for it,
nothing will be an obstacle after all!
many once failed when they tried realising their dreams,
and then gave up for later chances.
persevere. grit your teeth through all these challenges.
go through these obstacles and prove that you can do it.
dreams. they seem to be so near, and yet seem to be so far.
they seem to be near, cuz we had a vision in them;
they seem to be far, cuz we have not taken the step to fulfill them.
dreamers, set sail,
and steer the rudder of aspirations towards your dreams!
One day, when you kena big fame as a celeb, dont forget to come support my book signing sessions.
Monday, December 14, 2009
A Day's Experience.
hmm, had a long, yet fun day with part b and leo today.
went to sch earlier, and had breakfast with ervin, ck ng and kah chee.
and then went for bball with tingwei and the rest in sch ltr on :D
then, had our first Part C'10 meeting today.
though few ppl turn up,
but the few of us manage to structure how things are going to be.
at least i've cleared a lot of misunderstandings with these closer mates.
and we really had a great time during this meeting.
and then was another team bonding on marksmanship fundamentals.
this time, we're shooting the undead.
just L4D2 alone manage to let me understand the importance of teamwork;
how we plan to set traps, how we protect one another,
how we saved one another, and how we sacrifice for one another.
and ltr on leo, ervin and brandon came over to my hse.
i taught brandon how to play mahjong. haha.
now he can have another activity for bonding and socializing.
and after dinner we had rounds of poker and cards.
somehow, i finally understand how teamwork completely is all about.
is not just about suiting each other to our various working styles,
but also to understand reasons of each of our actions,
and also to cover up each other's flaws through our own talents and skills.
that, is what that makes a team perfect.
ME and WE are both two letter word; but the latter is able to sound more powerful and stronger, and more impactful. Reason being? Unity, is strength.
went to sch earlier, and had breakfast with ervin, ck ng and kah chee.
and then went for bball with tingwei and the rest in sch ltr on :D
then, had our first Part C'10 meeting today.
though few ppl turn up,
but the few of us manage to structure how things are going to be.
at least i've cleared a lot of misunderstandings with these closer mates.
and we really had a great time during this meeting.
and then was another team bonding on marksmanship fundamentals.
this time, we're shooting the undead.
just L4D2 alone manage to let me understand the importance of teamwork;
how we plan to set traps, how we protect one another,
how we saved one another, and how we sacrifice for one another.
and ltr on leo, ervin and brandon came over to my hse.
i taught brandon how to play mahjong. haha.
now he can have another activity for bonding and socializing.
and after dinner we had rounds of poker and cards.
somehow, i finally understand how teamwork completely is all about.
is not just about suiting each other to our various working styles,
but also to understand reasons of each of our actions,
and also to cover up each other's flaws through our own talents and skills.
that, is what that makes a team perfect.
ME and WE are both two letter word; but the latter is able to sound more powerful and stronger, and more impactful. Reason being? Unity, is strength.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
14 to 41.
mirai koukai. an one piece ending.
all along i've never got bored of this song over the years.
reason being? go google check out the lyrics yourself.
hmm, i sat down peacefully yesterday,
over a cup of tea in the middle of the night.
i began to wonder and think,
and track down my memory lane, looking at those past events,
assuming what might happen in the future.
somehow, 2 yrs of power struggle,
2 yrs of quarrels, 2 yrs of stereotypes,
made me a very different man.
i can still recall back to the first day i enter secondary school-
a childish looking freak, arrogant and useless;
to today, a bodybuilder of formidable strength,
a man of solemn.
i used to talked a lot when i was younger,
and now, i prefer silence to noise.
i used to quarrel over little things last time;
now i either leave the person in a pool of blood,
or i just walk away.
time passed, things changed.
i've always wonder why i seem so different with the kids beside me.
they're going gaga over celebrities, doing the usual teen stuff.
as they get older, they get more materialistic.
and yet today, i only sat down here in front of the com,
writing critics and commentaries,
and finding peace in my heart, rather than physical body.
i began to wonder whether i was thinking like 14 or 41.
sometimes, it was hard.
it was hard to act like a 14 yr old kid.
i have to force myself to laugh at the funniest jokes,
force myself to follow the lamest prank,
and force myself to do the hippest thing.
all you seen outside, as all a mask.
a mask of deception.
a friend of mine said i've change drastically.
i became solemn, matured; not the kind i used to be.
another of mine told me that i dun think like a 14 yr old.
perhaps the reason is that i've gone through too much.
who the **** in the world wants to go through power struggles,
social relationship, financial problems at this age?
hmm, it was all that made me a teenage looking adult.
i used to think that holding the pacestick was a nice sight.
i used to think that a lanyard was fashionable.
i used to think that good looking ppl and talented ppl are elites.
now, i prefer passing my experiences to my juniors.
i prefer a neat no.4 without any badges.
i was amazed at how zai leonard is.
while teens are thinking of celebs, homework, and friends;
im thinking of the society, the govt, and the environment.
weird enough, but that's my life.
i rmb once ck ng quote something from his friend to me,
'this guy will forever wun be a leader.'
and joel laughing at my 'stupidity' of the power struggle (ironic huh?),
brandon complaining me of holding too much power and being the one in charge (more ironic),
and many of my peers calling me 'childish'.
yes, call me childish again,
yes, quarrel with me for thing we've never seen and experience;
because i went through harsh and cold conditions,
i lost the rights to see them again.
i've grown up.
i wonder if everything is coming too quick at one time.
i could talk to divorced ppl telling them the reason they divorced.
i could hush an emo person within 3 minutes.
it seems lyk when a teenage is complaining about how bad things were,
i tried my Destiny to change things.
many things in my life now doesnt seem tempting and appealing to me.
whats the point of a USM post when u cant exercise full control?
whats the point of 'chasing' over celebs?
whats the point of many other things that teens goes after?
i think i've reach the destination earlier than many.
i think, im a very serious and disciplined person.
hell, thats what you get after going through shit.
i dunno if writing this post is something right.
but all i know is,
going by how im thinking all the time,
i shouldnt be 14.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Peace.
To be prepared for war is one of the most effectual means of preserving peace. - George Washington
hmm, does this sounds a bit weird to you?
we are actually promoting peace,
and yet, we are fighting, through a non-peaceful manner,
to keep peace.
recently the US President, Barack Obama,
got the 2009 Nobel Peace Prize.
and what many people find very contradicting is,
while on this side he is receiving the peace prize,
and the other hand, he is increasing his troops in the middle east.
many find this 'not a peaceful way' to settle wars.
some even find that Mr Obama don't deserve the prize at all.
what thinking of it, what Mr Obama doing is right.
he, is fighting not for wars,
but for a cause. a cause call peace.
because of this cause, he have to fight those ppl that are fighting,
so that this cause will be achieve.
以暴制暴； 以其人之道，还治其人之身。
somehow i believe Mr Obama is doing something like i mention above.
using the means that those that have caused troubles,
to end troubles. using a no-so-peaceful manner to end wars(non-peaceful),
so that he can achieve peace.
in this circumstance, e cannot totally say that he is sacrificing for peace;
he is, instead, using the ways how things started off to end things.
all along we've seen many peaceful demonstrations,
trying to end wars, conflicts, etc.
we've seen many ppl peacefully begging for peace.
but what has things become of? do those conflicts end?
my answer is no.
we have to take action- to end things that are an action.
in this case, fighting a war to end a war;
thats how things are usually like.
preparing to fight a war to keep peace,
not because one is eager for supremacy or hegemony,
but one has to fight, the same way how others invaded,
to keep something that he is fighting for,
which is also something others is fighting against.
look around. we dun have enough time and effort to talk nicely to terrorist.
we dun have negotiations with dictators.
if they are doing things in a non-peaceful manner, we use a non-peaceful way,
in order to subdue them.
this is because everything started in a non-peaceful manner,
thats why, like we uproot a tree from its roots,
we settle things non peacefully.
many thinks that during war times,
a lot of ppl are picking up arms,
and fighting the invaders.
many tried to stop this,
many talk about negotiations,
many talk about peaceful demonstrations.
but if we do these, are they going to help the situation? no.
we are fighting for peace, a cause that is worth fighting for.
to an extent, when we fight for peace,
we are sacrificing this generation's blood,
in exchange for the prosperity of the next generations that have to come.
fighting isn't something violent,
we have are fighting for something that is worth the sacrifice.
to be prepared for war,
is the best way to keep peace;
because it has always been conflicts and wars that disturbs peace.
hmm, does this sounds a bit weird to you?
we are actually promoting peace,
and yet, we are fighting, through a non-peaceful manner,
to keep peace.
recently the US President, Barack Obama,
got the 2009 Nobel Peace Prize.
and what many people find very contradicting is,
while on this side he is receiving the peace prize,
and the other hand, he is increasing his troops in the middle east.
many find this 'not a peaceful way' to settle wars.
some even find that Mr Obama don't deserve the prize at all.
what thinking of it, what Mr Obama doing is right.
he, is fighting not for wars,
but for a cause. a cause call peace.
because of this cause, he have to fight those ppl that are fighting,
so that this cause will be achieve.
以暴制暴； 以其人之道，还治其人之身。
somehow i believe Mr Obama is doing something like i mention above.
using the means that those that have caused troubles,
to end troubles. using a no-so-peaceful manner to end wars(non-peaceful),
so that he can achieve peace.
in this circumstance, e cannot totally say that he is sacrificing for peace;
he is, instead, using the ways how things started off to end things.
all along we've seen many peaceful demonstrations,
trying to end wars, conflicts, etc.
we've seen many ppl peacefully begging for peace.
but what has things become of? do those conflicts end?
my answer is no.
we have to take action- to end things that are an action.
in this case, fighting a war to end a war;
thats how things are usually like.
preparing to fight a war to keep peace,
not because one is eager for supremacy or hegemony,
but one has to fight, the same way how others invaded,
to keep something that he is fighting for,
which is also something others is fighting against.
look around. we dun have enough time and effort to talk nicely to terrorist.
we dun have negotiations with dictators.
if they are doing things in a non-peaceful manner, we use a non-peaceful way,
in order to subdue them.
this is because everything started in a non-peaceful manner,
thats why, like we uproot a tree from its roots,
we settle things non peacefully.
many thinks that during war times,
a lot of ppl are picking up arms,
and fighting the invaders.
many tried to stop this,
many talk about negotiations,
many talk about peaceful demonstrations.
but if we do these, are they going to help the situation? no.
we are fighting for peace, a cause that is worth fighting for.
to an extent, when we fight for peace,
we are sacrificing this generation's blood,
in exchange for the prosperity of the next generations that have to come.
fighting isn't something violent,
we have are fighting for something that is worth the sacrifice.
to be prepared for war,
is the best way to keep peace;
because it has always been conflicts and wars that disturbs peace.
Friday, December 11, 2009
PERSPECTIVE.
* credits to wikipedia.org for the picture.
okay, suddenly got the hirameki to blog about a topic,
so i might just as well blog.
so, let me start off with an incident.
i have been trying to take a perfect shot of myself nowadays,
so as to put up as a display pic on my fb or msn.
and a few days back, i manage to find a nice angle in my toilet,
so i took a shot of myself from head to shoulder topless.
and the next thing i did was to put that pic as my dp.
not more than a few hrs, that picture invited many comments.
there were comments lyk,
"ur face seems smaller"
"eh wtf LOL damn cute" (credits to koh chin)
"doesnt looks lyk yitian" (credits to huixia)
"eh not bad but why topless?" (credits to aaron)
"cute" (credits to daryl ang)
and then, there are also some other comments from some other ppl too.
then i began to study more on camera angles,
something i have came across in p4-p6 when i was in infocomm.
how a certain camera angle can make a person looks nicer,
looks slimmer, looks more natural, or even elegant.
so, i began to try out different angles,
and the results turn out that,
the one inside the foto was so much, much nicer than the real life me.
i guess the way of looking at things goes the same with camera angles.
viewing things from a certain way results it in certain manners.
just lyk how a camera shoots from an angle,
the effect always create great contrast.
perspective, something i want to talk about on.
viewing things from certain perspective.
sometimes, things seem to be too hard or trouble,
not because one person cant remedy it,
or the situation is hopeless.
it is because that ppl are viewing from a wrong perspective.
looking at things in a way that they should be,
has always been something that remedy situations.
when a mistake occur in a situation,
ppl cannot use the perspective they used at the start.
it was because of such perspective, thing went wrong.
the only way to remedy the situation is to change the point of view.
once change, things would become so much clearer.
also, one could not view things with tinted glasses,
or from a short-sighted view.
this will only cause misunderstanding between the protagonist and the situation,
and soon trouble will arise.
when one choose to view things with tinted glasses,
or only looking at short-sighted benefits,
causalities will soon come to let one lose even the starting capital.
perspective, goes along hand in hand with impression.
ppl always judge a book by its cover,
which have been the reason that causes the loss of talents,
or even a causality that makes one lose even more than one have given out.
first impression, was something many use to judge a person all the time;
which has always been something that causes many lost.
looking things at different point of view,
then finding the correct one;
this is something that all should do.
unfortunately, may view things wrongly,
and even stereotype ppl;
these actions soon causes many misunderstandings,
or even unwanted quarrels.
human beings, indeed are selfish and stubborn at point of times;
they do stick to something they firmly believe.
but many did not understand a reason-
a reason of when one is always sticking to a point of view,
they are view things in a narrow view.
in this way, one could never understand the feelings and reasons of others,
and soon misunderstanding will arrive.
sometimes, we have to learn to view things in many perspective,
and to remove stereotypes and get to know one person,
as if knowing him or her from the start;
however, this has always been something near to impossible for mortals to achieve.
learn to look at things differently,
then you will understand things from different point of view.
slowly, you will be able to understand things right from the start.
Days to the End.
and so, the days are going off one by one.
today's 11 dec 2009, which simply means,
i have little time to complete my work,
and prepare all my schooling stuff,
before school reopens.
have been trying to train my CS skills these few days,
trying to train my reaction with the magnum sniper,
trying to train my tactical movement.
hmm, my CS skills are still below average,
so i just nid to shoot more expert bots. haha.
have been thinking of something.
hmm, call it talent barh.
i watch those shows on tv,
and those videos my frens introduce;
looking at those actors and dancers,
looking at those bands and groups.
and i just realise something weird about profession.
when you work as a journalist, doctor, politician, or even a driver,
the older you get, the more useful you're in your profession.
reason why is because that when you've spend enough time in that profession,
you've seen through and experience many many things,
so that you how how to deal with certain problems.
and having that experience will help you to be more 'valuable' in that profession.
so, this simply means that,
the older you get, the better you are.
but for one profession, it just turn out to be in contrast,
with the many professions i mentioned above.
hmm, call them artistes.
yes, artistes. those that are either talented or good looking,
and earn many recognition and support,
with their talents and looks.
but then, years passed,
many artistes grew old.
the role for them to act are lesser,
their looks are never like how it was in the past,
their dancing and singing talents then disappear with the passing of youth.
hmm, my objective here with comparing porfessions,
is not to let ppl see the obvious contrast.
its to let you ppl know,
many things are done differently,
and the results usually begs differ.
some kind of things,
we make sacrifices- its about whether is it worth it or not.
being an artiste, we give up our youth,
for the moment of enjoyment of the audience,
for the moment of fame.
soon as you grow old, you wither like a flower,
becoming fertilisers for the next generation of artiste.
and being a politician, doctor, journalist;
you sacrifice your youth, earning experiences,
and meanwhile helping the society.
things, must always been done with sacrifices many times- at a great cost, but to be worthy.
today's 11 dec 2009, which simply means,
i have little time to complete my work,
and prepare all my schooling stuff,
before school reopens.
have been trying to train my CS skills these few days,
trying to train my reaction with the magnum sniper,
trying to train my tactical movement.
hmm, my CS skills are still below average,
so i just nid to shoot more expert bots. haha.
have been thinking of something.
hmm, call it talent barh.
i watch those shows on tv,
and those videos my frens introduce;
looking at those actors and dancers,
looking at those bands and groups.
and i just realise something weird about profession.
when you work as a journalist, doctor, politician, or even a driver,
the older you get, the more useful you're in your profession.
reason why is because that when you've spend enough time in that profession,
you've seen through and experience many many things,
so that you how how to deal with certain problems.
and having that experience will help you to be more 'valuable' in that profession.
so, this simply means that,
the older you get, the better you are.
but for one profession, it just turn out to be in contrast,
with the many professions i mentioned above.
hmm, call them artistes.
yes, artistes. those that are either talented or good looking,
and earn many recognition and support,
with their talents and looks.
but then, years passed,
many artistes grew old.
the role for them to act are lesser,
their looks are never like how it was in the past,
their dancing and singing talents then disappear with the passing of youth.
hmm, my objective here with comparing porfessions,
is not to let ppl see the obvious contrast.
its to let you ppl know,
many things are done differently,
and the results usually begs differ.
some kind of things,
we make sacrifices- its about whether is it worth it or not.
being an artiste, we give up our youth,
for the moment of enjoyment of the audience,
for the moment of fame.
soon as you grow old, you wither like a flower,
becoming fertilisers for the next generation of artiste.
and being a politician, doctor, journalist;
you sacrifice your youth, earning experiences,
and meanwhile helping the society.
things, must always been done with sacrifices many times- at a great cost, but to be worthy.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Another Life.
hmm, im in the mood of lecturing today.
lemme talk abt something barh.
ok, so the scenario goes like this.
brandon was talking to me how much the part b detest me,
and how much he wants me to change my style of doing things in NCC,
and how much fun they want,
and how can i help to cooperate with him.
some kind of thoughts rushed into my head.
firstly was that im glad that brandon,
he didnt mind those probs earlier,
and was willing to to help.
secondly, was the kind of life we should have in NCC.
all i knew is,
when we don the no 4 uniform,
our lives belong to the nation,
our spirits are with the company.
in a military organisation,
it is very important for us to have discipline, order, obedience,
and most importantly, teamwork.
to an extent, im glad that brandon could rmb about the last virtue.
but what about the first 3?
sometimes, they didnt like me for doing things the traditional way.
they hate the old boring schedule.
they didnt like my serious demeanour i have in NCC.
they want fun and joke. they want enjoyment.
i've read a passage somewhere before,
and it goes like this:
"In certain points of life,
when you've choose something that will cause a change in your life,
it is very crucial that you should also change how you are,
to suit that life."
take for an instance,
marriage. when you choose a partner,
means that you've choose to lead a life different from before.
same goes for NCC, the moment we swear in,
we had choosen a different path to walk.
what that is disappointing is that many couldn't understand this.
when many ppl choose to lead their old life in a different situation,
this always brought about unhappiness.
and this, is the very reason that leads to divorce most of the times.
same for NCC.
when we choose to swear in,
means that we've choosen a life of discipline, a life of order,
during all those training sessions.
what is disappointing is,
many of my mate didn't heed this,
and the company seems to be falling, due to this reason.
perhaps mr ng would blame me for the power struggle.
but all i did is, im protecting the virtues,
the very virtues that will make sure that the company's foundation wouldn't crumble.
when an IC is being humiliated in front of his men,
how is he going to command the respect of his men in the future?
bringing another kind of lifestyle into NCC,
replacing the old one.
this is not liberation, this is not new age,
this is towards decline.
what's a military organisation gonna be,
without those order and discipline?
"I dreamed of a unified Japan. Of a country strong and independent and modern... Now we have railroads and cannon and Western clothing. But we cannot forget who we are. Or where we come from. - The Last Samurai, Emperor Meiji."
same goes for NCC.
we can change, we can have fun,
we can add in soccer during PT,
we can change the system of some things used to be.
but we cannot deny the fact that this is NCC.
we cannot deny the fact that we're in a military rganisation.
we cannot deny the life that has to be lead this way.
When you've choosen to take a certain path in your life, certain sacrifices has to be made.
lemme talk abt something barh.
ok, so the scenario goes like this.
brandon was talking to me how much the part b detest me,
and how much he wants me to change my style of doing things in NCC,
and how much fun they want,
and how can i help to cooperate with him.
some kind of thoughts rushed into my head.
firstly was that im glad that brandon,
he didnt mind those probs earlier,
and was willing to to help.
secondly, was the kind of life we should have in NCC.
all i knew is,
when we don the no 4 uniform,
our lives belong to the nation,
our spirits are with the company.
in a military organisation,
it is very important for us to have discipline, order, obedience,
and most importantly, teamwork.
to an extent, im glad that brandon could rmb about the last virtue.
but what about the first 3?
sometimes, they didnt like me for doing things the traditional way.
they hate the old boring schedule.
they didnt like my serious demeanour i have in NCC.
they want fun and joke. they want enjoyment.
i've read a passage somewhere before,
and it goes like this:
"In certain points of life,
when you've choose something that will cause a change in your life,
it is very crucial that you should also change how you are,
to suit that life."
take for an instance,
marriage. when you choose a partner,
means that you've choose to lead a life different from before.
same goes for NCC, the moment we swear in,
we had choosen a different path to walk.
what that is disappointing is that many couldn't understand this.
when many ppl choose to lead their old life in a different situation,
this always brought about unhappiness.
and this, is the very reason that leads to divorce most of the times.
same for NCC.
when we choose to swear in,
means that we've choosen a life of discipline, a life of order,
during all those training sessions.
what is disappointing is,
many of my mate didn't heed this,
and the company seems to be falling, due to this reason.
perhaps mr ng would blame me for the power struggle.
but all i did is, im protecting the virtues,
the very virtues that will make sure that the company's foundation wouldn't crumble.
when an IC is being humiliated in front of his men,
how is he going to command the respect of his men in the future?
bringing another kind of lifestyle into NCC,
replacing the old one.
this is not liberation, this is not new age,
this is towards decline.
what's a military organisation gonna be,
without those order and discipline?
"I dreamed of a unified Japan. Of a country strong and independent and modern... Now we have railroads and cannon and Western clothing. But we cannot forget who we are. Or where we come from. - The Last Samurai, Emperor Meiji."
same goes for NCC.
we can change, we can have fun,
we can add in soccer during PT,
we can change the system of some things used to be.
but we cannot deny the fact that this is NCC.
we cannot deny the fact that we're in a military rganisation.
we cannot deny the life that has to be lead this way.
When you've choosen to take a certain path in your life, certain sacrifices has to be made.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Wednesday.
hmm, today is wednesday.
means today got FSD.
so means today i drill them.
so means today got team bonding.
so means i burn a hole in my pocket ._.
and my cs still sucks.
so i nid to train more.
then i nid team bonding more often.
and then, life's been quite fun today.
and i think, its time for us to remix a song of our own.
hero+dota+dunno wad.
yeah, nidda start planning for routine.
hmm, after today,
im gonna rot at home,
trying to do my hmwk,
then forcing myself to read my sec 3 textbks.
and i nid more $ to go out.
haiz. who got good lobang intro to me?
[edited]
ok, leo and ervin came to my hse,
and help to horned my cs skills.
courtesy to them for the installation of cs in my com :D
and then, maybe tmr gonna go leo hse. dunno.
but im sure im gonna spam cs all day long!
and, tuesday, get well soon XD
means today got FSD.
so means today i drill them.
so means today got team bonding.
so means i burn a hole in my pocket ._.
and my cs still sucks.
so i nid to train more.
then i nid team bonding more often.
and then, life's been quite fun today.
and i think, its time for us to remix a song of our own.
hero+dota+dunno wad.
yeah, nidda start planning for routine.
hmm, after today,
im gonna rot at home,
trying to do my hmwk,
then forcing myself to read my sec 3 textbks.
and i nid more $ to go out.
haiz. who got good lobang intro to me?
[edited]
ok, leo and ervin came to my hse,
and help to horned my cs skills.
courtesy to them for the installation of cs in my com :D
and then, maybe tmr gonna go leo hse. dunno.
but im sure im gonna spam cs all day long!
and, tuesday, get well soon XD
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
hmm.
the second post of the day. *claps*
just now platoon mate called again.
is like that he's been calling me almost at least once per day.
and im getting sick of it,
so i just pick up the phone,
shouted a bit, and hung up.
looks like there's another war again.
suddenly, a kind of emptiness filled me.
a kind of rage conquered me.
a certain thought ran through my mind.
it sends my heart thumping,
and my blood rate increases.
never had i felt like this for a long time.
told myself that its time to end this feeling.
even though it never act up for a long time,
but it's still there.
that, which left me with sour and bitter taste,
tormenting me for a long period of time.
thinking back now,
i felt so much lyk a failure.
being back-stabbed and rejected countless times by many ppl,
and it left me with uncountable scars and wound.
i had no choice, but to stand up myself,
and walk on alone.
all along, i've never ever felt the feeling of being helped.
i've never felt the feeling of being loved.
i've never felt the feeling of being supported by the masses.
i've hardly ever felt a hand pulling me up from distress.
this makes me feel that i need to help others more.
this makes me feel that i need to love others more than ever.
this makes me feel that i need to support great ideas.
this makes me feel that i need to lend a helping hand whenever i can.
i've tasted the bitter that many taste in adulthood now;
i've felt the distress that many felt at a matured age;
i've seen the most heartless events that many have yet to see;
i've came across the obstacles that many have yet to cross.
i've learn to turn bitterness into sweetness,
i've learn to find opportunities in distress;
i've learn to kill and plunder heartless people,
i've learn to strike down obstacles blocking my way.
all i knew is that,
today, i have a higher amount of willpower;
a formidable level of strength.
i've came across stages that no one ever helped me.
so i knew,
all the more i must help others when they need help.
just now platoon mate called again.
is like that he's been calling me almost at least once per day.
and im getting sick of it,
so i just pick up the phone,
shouted a bit, and hung up.
looks like there's another war again.
suddenly, a kind of emptiness filled me.
a kind of rage conquered me.
a certain thought ran through my mind.
it sends my heart thumping,
and my blood rate increases.
never had i felt like this for a long time.
told myself that its time to end this feeling.
even though it never act up for a long time,
but it's still there.
that, which left me with sour and bitter taste,
tormenting me for a long period of time.
thinking back now,
i felt so much lyk a failure.
being back-stabbed and rejected countless times by many ppl,
and it left me with uncountable scars and wound.
i had no choice, but to stand up myself,
and walk on alone.
all along, i've never ever felt the feeling of being helped.
i've never felt the feeling of being loved.
i've never felt the feeling of being supported by the masses.
i've hardly ever felt a hand pulling me up from distress.
this makes me feel that i need to help others more.
this makes me feel that i need to love others more than ever.
this makes me feel that i need to support great ideas.
this makes me feel that i need to lend a helping hand whenever i can.
i've tasted the bitter that many taste in adulthood now;
i've felt the distress that many felt at a matured age;
i've seen the most heartless events that many have yet to see;
i've came across the obstacles that many have yet to cross.
i've learn to turn bitterness into sweetness,
i've learn to find opportunities in distress;
i've learn to kill and plunder heartless people,
i've learn to strike down obstacles blocking my way.
all i knew is that,
today, i have a higher amount of willpower;
a formidable level of strength.
i've came across stages that no one ever helped me.
so i knew,
all the more i must help others when they need help.
Tuesday.
LOL. the above pic is abt martin helping a foreigner to use the machine.
or dunno whether is he a foreigner not,
but martin is helping him.
yay! we should learn to be like him! helpful!
and sorry martin for taking this pic :X
went to watch new moon ytd.
quite okay larh the show,
but i dun really lyk the ending.
edward ask the bella to marry herthen the show just ended.
i tot they ran out of film ._.
and ltr went to venus for another "bonding session".
manage to get a lot of headshots with the krieg commando.
so, gonna train for for marksmanship! hahas.
and today gonna spend some time completing some work at home.
and tmr gonna have FSD trng again.
wads good abt it is there's another bonding session after that!
senza esitazione. senza confini. senza paura.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Important Issues.
Before you read, pls scroll to the end of this post to read the Disclaimer.
I think before I could go on with anything,
I need to settle some important issues here.
I just had some kind of debate on Facebook,
about the issue of joel.
And this debate was also joined in by Zufar,
who all along supported me, which I guess is that we have the same aim:
we don't really like what joel's been doing.
All along, this guy have been sabotaging me,
and have been spreading rumours about how bad I am.
Today, I think I need to settle once and for all,
about some issues:
1) Orienteering Issues
I've received countless intelligence from my lineman,
that once joel spreads that how jealous am I when I did not enter the Orient. Team.
Here, I am to clear this rumour,
that I am not jealous of this, and neither do I want to enter the Team.
Even though this passed by a long time,
but I feel appropriate to clear the rumour.
2) Koh Chin Issues
Recently I've received intelligence from another lineman,
plus how joel spoke in Facebook,
I can guarantee that joel has been talking bad about me.
Today I am here, to apologise to this brother of mine,
that for I explain,
whatever rumours you hear from Brandon and joel,
are all nothing but crap talk.
All I did all along was only pin pointing your bad points,
but I dunno how the hell others make it like I don't like you.
3) Brandon Issues
Many of my linemen told me that you've not been happy with me this year.
Nevertheless, I want you to know that I still treat you like a brother.
Even though our way of working might clash,
but I hope that we can solve things out,
and also hope that you don't trust the words of dishonourable men.
I know i put great trust and faith into you,
and I never ever let that trust down,
even when intelligence came about that you took men to complain about me.
For all things you hear,
I hope you can think through carefully-
are they words use to mislead you for someone else's goodwill,
or words that can help you?
4) Part B Issues
Many linemen told me about how much of you guys are unhappy towards me.
I know, this kind of unhappiness, is the kind,
the kind of how you guys hate Ming Kang slack,
the kind of how you hate those blur people.
But if some son of a hole-less ***** tells you about my shortcomings,
and exaggerate them, I hope that you can justify between right and wrong.
I hope all these can clear everything once and for all.
And something I wanna tell those that have been sabotaging me all along,
Eh pls lah. even if u can shoot me, down but think about it,
holding the kind of power for less than a year,
plus you have sirs above you that you cant do everything,
plus you still have to work with your mates.
pls lah, grow up.
Disclaimer: this is not mean to be a hate post. all words are of personal comments. if any intelligence are worng someway, it must be the mistake of the linemen.
I think before I could go on with anything,
I need to settle some important issues here.
I just had some kind of debate on Facebook,
about the issue of joel.
And this debate was also joined in by Zufar,
who all along supported me, which I guess is that we have the same aim:
we don't really like what joel's been doing.
All along, this guy have been sabotaging me,
and have been spreading rumours about how bad I am.
Today, I think I need to settle once and for all,
about some issues:
1) Orienteering Issues
I've received countless intelligence from my lineman,
that once joel spreads that how jealous am I when I did not enter the Orient. Team.
Here, I am to clear this rumour,
that I am not jealous of this, and neither do I want to enter the Team.
Even though this passed by a long time,
but I feel appropriate to clear the rumour.
2) Koh Chin Issues
Recently I've received intelligence from another lineman,
plus how joel spoke in Facebook,
I can guarantee that joel has been talking bad about me.
Today I am here, to apologise to this brother of mine,
that for I explain,
whatever rumours you hear from Brandon and joel,
are all nothing but crap talk.
All I did all along was only pin pointing your bad points,
but I dunno how the hell others make it like I don't like you.
3) Brandon Issues
Many of my linemen told me that you've not been happy with me this year.
Nevertheless, I want you to know that I still treat you like a brother.
Even though our way of working might clash,
but I hope that we can solve things out,
and also hope that you don't trust the words of dishonourable men.
I know i put great trust and faith into you,
and I never ever let that trust down,
even when intelligence came about that you took men to complain about me.
For all things you hear,
I hope you can think through carefully-
are they words use to mislead you for someone else's goodwill,
or words that can help you?
4) Part B Issues
Many linemen told me about how much of you guys are unhappy towards me.
I know, this kind of unhappiness, is the kind,
the kind of how you guys hate Ming Kang slack,
the kind of how you hate those blur people.
But if some son of a hole-less ***** tells you about my shortcomings,
and exaggerate them, I hope that you can justify between right and wrong.
I hope all these can clear everything once and for all.
And something I wanna tell those that have been sabotaging me all along,
Eh pls lah. even if u can shoot me, down but think about it,
holding the kind of power for less than a year,
plus you have sirs above you that you cant do everything,
plus you still have to work with your mates.
pls lah, grow up.
Disclaimer: this is not mean to be a hate post. all words are of personal comments. if any intelligence are worng someway, it must be the mistake of the linemen.
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Halfway through.
its another pretty slowpaced sunday morning,
and i dun really have much things to do,
except the uncompleted homework.
getting lazier and slack at home doing nothing,
maybe once tuition starts a while ltr,
i must start reading a bit on sec 3 stuff.
dun really have inspirations to write good post nowadays,
all you can see nowadays are all crapping,
or post abt personal life.
well, you cant get much inspiration when you're slacking at home.
sometimes, i began to wonder,
if things are moving too fast at a pace.
look, its already december with more than half of the holidays gone.
to me, sometimes, earth rotates at too fast a speed,
that i cant stop to enjoy everything.
time flies fast.
it was as if yesterday was just the end of sch,
and i was looking forward to class chalet, annual camp, FSD.
but today, all these events passed;
i've spend good time over them.
sometimes i do really wanna find some meaningful stuff to do during holidays.
the dull and boring holiday lifestyle is killing me bit by bit.
for some moments,
i began to sit down and wonder;
wondering abt next yr.
getting into a class full of ppl i dunno,
and getting ready for spec course next yr;
and all sorts of things, i wonder.
life to me now,
seems lyk im living for the sake of living.
wake up to get past the dull routine,
and then, slp to prepare for the routine next day.
there isnt much spice in life nowadays.
last time i used to whine abt how dull sch is.
looks like life is even more dull without sch.
think of taking a short break from typing post,
until i can get some inspiration.
well, perhaps gonna post videos and pics for the time being.
I need a break, I need a release.
Saturday, December 5, 2009
set sail!
and yesterday have been quite a boring day;
i spent much time listening to jazz,
and reading the anti-communism and anti-socialism articles.
see that picture above?
haha, yes , its a ship! a sailing ship!
i've always wanted to join the maritime industry,
sailing around the world,
to every corner of earth.
see the different cultures,
eat the many assortment of food,
and for adventure at every port i stop at.
well, i think, maritime is something suitable for me.
to ensure that goods arrive on time,
keeping this important world trade going on.
and if i shall become a maritime captain,
im gonna write all my adventures into a book! haha.
i want to go to rotterdam,
i wanna sail to greenland,
i've always wanted to visit the cape of good hope.
to steer by the stars, communicating with morse code.
a life of a man sailing.
Set sail, men! Steer that rudder of fate, towards your dreams!
Friday, December 4, 2009
haha, and he was born to lead!
so, i did a little bit of quiz of blogthings(the one on the post below),
and then, ninja tan then remind me of something on my facebook.
'the least bit of arrogance'. he diao at me.
maybe today i'll just wanna talk a bit on my good and bad points.
like wad the results at blogthings said,
"You have an extreme amount of willpower. You are an naturally tough and self-reliant person.
You are very independent, and you have many original thoughts. You are good at taking initiative and leading others"
i can say, they do hit the point on the dot.
i dunno if others view me this way or not,
but so far what i noe is,
many of the ppl i noe,
THIS is the yitian that they noe.
a man of high willpower and toughness,
thus was self-conferred the title of 'Fushicho'.
also, because of my original thoughts,
it invites jealousy and hatred of many others,
like...that person who kp me at fb.
of course, as a human being, i do have my own bad points.
wad blogthings said, and wad ninja kp abt,
are correct. arrogance.
arrogance.
a bad point that makes me confident,
not even blinking an eye in front of death.
arrogance,
a bad point that encourages me to take on risk.
arrogance,
that clear my stage fright, and make my audiences enjoyed my performance.
arrogance,
that gives me will to conquer everything i want, and all obstacles.
arrogance,
that taught me not to believe in failing,
and got me up all times when i fall.
arrogance,
i started everything, all my qualities, with arrogance.
all the ppl i meet,
they will basically say the same thing:
"you're funny, initiative, strong willed, creative...and arrogant."
i didnt mind what have others told me,
because i knew, i started all with arrogance.
but, i wasnt born to be arrogance.
i forced myself to be one at p2 or p3,
just to stop ppl from picking on me.
wad a stupid reason.
and soon as time passed,
this arrogance earn me hatred from dishonourable men,
but yet at the same time, earn me respect from many others.
i guess the same reason goes for 2e3.
they didnt hated me to the core, they didnt dislike me to the max.
for a reason, most of them respect me,
respect me for my arrogance, respect me for how i fully utilize this arrogance.
but it was arrogance that fails me times after another,
that again, taught me something.
not to believe in susceptible praises, and appreciate criticism.
and it taught me to give way to others sometimes.
for that, it was 2e3 who given me all these.
they, are the one, who taught me to use the good of my arrogance,
and throw away the bad.
even if today, i walk down in the streets,
and ppl just fking say im an arrogant fellow,
i dun mind.
because i noe i owe my life to being arrogant.
All human being are born with shortcomings. It is not the end yet if one person couldn't get rid of one's shortcoming; one should then learn to utilize the good parts of one's shortcoming.
and then, ninja tan then remind me of something on my facebook.
'the least bit of arrogance'. he diao at me.
maybe today i'll just wanna talk a bit on my good and bad points.
like wad the results at blogthings said,
"You have an extreme amount of willpower. You are an naturally tough and self-reliant person.
You are very independent, and you have many original thoughts. You are good at taking initiative and leading others"
i can say, they do hit the point on the dot.
i dunno if others view me this way or not,
but so far what i noe is,
many of the ppl i noe,
THIS is the yitian that they noe.
a man of high willpower and toughness,
thus was self-conferred the title of 'Fushicho'.
also, because of my original thoughts,
it invites jealousy and hatred of many others,
like...that person who kp me at fb.
of course, as a human being, i do have my own bad points.
wad blogthings said, and wad ninja kp abt,
are correct. arrogance.
arrogance.
a bad point that makes me confident,
not even blinking an eye in front of death.
arrogance,
a bad point that encourages me to take on risk.
arrogance,
that clear my stage fright, and make my audiences enjoyed my performance.
arrogance,
that gives me will to conquer everything i want, and all obstacles.
arrogance,
that taught me not to believe in failing,
and got me up all times when i fall.
arrogance,
i started everything, all my qualities, with arrogance.
all the ppl i meet,
they will basically say the same thing:
"you're funny, initiative, strong willed, creative...and arrogant."
i didnt mind what have others told me,
because i knew, i started all with arrogance.
but, i wasnt born to be arrogance.
i forced myself to be one at p2 or p3,
just to stop ppl from picking on me.
wad a stupid reason.
and soon as time passed,
this arrogance earn me hatred from dishonourable men,
but yet at the same time, earn me respect from many others.
i guess the same reason goes for 2e3.
they didnt hated me to the core, they didnt dislike me to the max.
for a reason, most of them respect me,
respect me for my arrogance, respect me for how i fully utilize this arrogance.
but it was arrogance that fails me times after another,
that again, taught me something.
not to believe in susceptible praises, and appreciate criticism.
and it taught me to give way to others sometimes.
for that, it was 2e3 who given me all these.
they, are the one, who taught me to use the good of my arrogance,
and throw away the bad.
even if today, i walk down in the streets,
and ppl just fking say im an arrogant fellow,
i dun mind.
because i noe i owe my life to being arrogant.
All human being are born with shortcomings. It is not the end yet if one person couldn't get rid of one's shortcoming; one should then learn to utilize the good parts of one's shortcoming.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
hmm.
Your Strength: Courage. Your Weakness: Arrogance. |
 You have an extreme amount of willpower. You are an naturally tough and self-reliant person. You are very independent, and you have many original thoughts. You are good at taking initiative and leading others. Understandably, you are also very stubborn. You have a big ego and always insist on doing things your way. It is sometimes hard to see where you are wrong. You don't appreciate criticism, and you are susceptible to false pride. |
some kind of thursday.
ok, so i finally finished reading 'The Alchemist',
and decides to do my HCL bk review some day ltr.
meanwhile, let me play a bit and enjoy my holiday.
went to collect textbks in sch today.
well, this means i gotta wake up early,
then change into my pe attire,
and then take bus down to sch.
somemore, its collecting textbk. very sian one,
have to carry loads of books back home.
and you'll look weird carry so much books.
and so, i arrived in sch,
and went to collect those books.
yea, 2n1 classrm. filled with books and all sorts of academic materials.
wad a rare sight!
haha, wad makes this journey not-so-sian is that,
im attended by this very very very very very uber cute gal.
lol. and she quite blur, and screw up here and there.
and really wonder why would she return to sch to serve ppl,
somemore if the job doesnt pay or pay very little?
hmm, i admire the way she work.
spending one morning in sch selling textbks,
instead of going out with frens or slping at home.
and ltr gonna go out with aaron for cycling.
everytime go out with him is lyk going out with ppl u dun really noe.
nevertheless, i'll never say no to fun and enjoyment.
so why not? i agree to turn up.
~Daily Memories
zhiwei: ****** knock it down!
(and the whole part A 2008 lay their hands on the ground in pumping position)
zhiwei: wah, ask him to knock it down only, why u all are on the ground?
Part A 2008: we move as one, we pump as one. we cant leave our man behind.
The earlier days in Part A 2008, under SSG zhiwei,
was the start towards the growing of a decisive platoon.
and decides to do my HCL bk review some day ltr.
meanwhile, let me play a bit and enjoy my holiday.
went to collect textbks in sch today.
well, this means i gotta wake up early,
then change into my pe attire,
and then take bus down to sch.
somemore, its collecting textbk. very sian one,
have to carry loads of books back home.
and you'll look weird carry so much books.
and so, i arrived in sch,
and went to collect those books.
yea, 2n1 classrm. filled with books and all sorts of academic materials.
wad a rare sight!
haha, wad makes this journey not-so-sian is that,
im attended by this very very very very very uber cute gal.
lol. and she quite blur, and screw up here and there.
and really wonder why would she return to sch to serve ppl,
somemore if the job doesnt pay or pay very little?
hmm, i admire the way she work.
spending one morning in sch selling textbks,
instead of going out with frens or slping at home.
and ltr gonna go out with aaron for cycling.
everytime go out with him is lyk going out with ppl u dun really noe.
nevertheless, i'll never say no to fun and enjoyment.
so why not? i agree to turn up.
~Daily Memories
zhiwei: ****** knock it down!
(and the whole part A 2008 lay their hands on the ground in pumping position)
zhiwei: wah, ask him to knock it down only, why u all are on the ground?
Part A 2008: we move as one, we pump as one. we cant leave our man behind.
The earlier days in Part A 2008, under SSG zhiwei,
was the start towards the growing of a decisive platoon.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
ZHNCC FSD '10 Selection!
and so, woke up early today,
to go to sch for FSD selection.
wads so different this time round,
is that i'm the one selecting ppl,
not others selecting me! hahas.
and met ck ng, leo and martin for breakfast.
then went into sch,
and start screwing ppl and getting screwed for the latecomers and AWOL ppl.
and after awhile, i start my SAF drills selection.
and after that, i pick out 8 part A that are quite the elites.
then from them pick out another 5 for FSD, 3 as reserves.
haha, they're all fast learners.
and then had 'platoon bonding' session at mac and venus.
after a long day under the sun(or rain), we had a hardcore time,
screwing the terrorist and zombies hard at venus.
and then, nidda improve on my shooting,
cuz im only fourth on the list ._.
ltr gonna chiong a bit of work,
and then, try to find some music for FSD.
uh, k-pop. yah, k-pop.
and start a bit of planning.
i nid some inspiration.
~Daily Memories
"I still rmb how u said that I have split personality,
for being the 'romantic romatic',
plus the 'fierce fierce',
plus the 'happy happy',
and the 'pervert pervert' kind.
Split personality,
a term that etched in my mind forever."
to go to sch for FSD selection.
wads so different this time round,
is that i'm the one selecting ppl,
not others selecting me! hahas.
and met ck ng, leo and martin for breakfast.
then went into sch,
and start screwing ppl and getting screwed for the latecomers and AWOL ppl.
and after awhile, i start my SAF drills selection.
and after that, i pick out 8 part A that are quite the elites.
then from them pick out another 5 for FSD, 3 as reserves.
haha, they're all fast learners.
and then had 'platoon bonding' session at mac and venus.
after a long day under the sun(or rain), we had a hardcore time,
screwing the terrorist and zombies hard at venus.
and then, nidda improve on my shooting,
cuz im only fourth on the list ._.
ltr gonna chiong a bit of work,
and then, try to find some music for FSD.
uh, k-pop. yah, k-pop.
and start a bit of planning.
i nid some inspiration.
~Daily Memories
"I still rmb how u said that I have split personality,
for being the 'romantic romatic',
plus the 'fierce fierce',
plus the 'happy happy',
and the 'pervert pervert' kind.
Split personality,
a term that etched in my mind forever."
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
1 Dec 2009!
LOL, its now already 1 Dec 2009!
and this means,
i've only got one month left, to:
complete my hmwk,
to train back my stamina,
to push my weight below 60kg,
and to train my 2.4km timing to be below 10.52.
and i officially declare,
Operation 'rush the mountain' starts today!
today gonna be a slack day at home,
but from noon onwards im gonna start chionging my hmwk liao.
by reading the damn hcl storybook.
and also to start jogging everyday,
and to watch my diet even stricter.
last time i got the record of losing 500g a day,
im gonna rush for 800g a day!
and here's my christmas resolution:
to get half of my Operation Emperor of the Black Winged Steeds done,
and to complete my Operation 'rush the mountain' before new yr,
and make sure there's at least one outing with Sparkz,
and also to make sure by 5 Jan 2010 i can do at least 8-10 pull up a day.
and so,
im gonna start of this stuff,
with the same kind of passion i used before,
that helps me to move forward in 2e3 and NCC,
and that which help me to own in FAC.
Hot yeah.
and this means,
i've only got one month left, to:
complete my hmwk,
to train back my stamina,
to push my weight below 60kg,
and to train my 2.4km timing to be below 10.52.
and i officially declare,
Operation 'rush the mountain' starts today!
today gonna be a slack day at home,
but from noon onwards im gonna start chionging my hmwk liao.
by reading the damn hcl storybook.
and also to start jogging everyday,
and to watch my diet even stricter.
last time i got the record of losing 500g a day,
im gonna rush for 800g a day!
and here's my christmas resolution:
to get half of my Operation Emperor of the Black Winged Steeds done,
and to complete my Operation 'rush the mountain' before new yr,
and make sure there's at least one outing with Sparkz,
and also to make sure by 5 Jan 2010 i can do at least 8-10 pull up a day.
and so,
im gonna start of this stuff,
with the same kind of passion i used before,
that helps me to move forward in 2e3 and NCC,
and that which help me to own in FAC.
Hot yeah.
Monday, November 30, 2009
parody.
SSG leo 'receiving' the 'Trim and Fit Award (Gold)' from SSG junli.
the epic guailan of the day.
'leo receiving the trim and fit award (gold) from junli.'
and look at their 'happy faces' when lro 'receive' the award from junli.
best parody and ironical guai lan incident of the day.
monday.
and then, its another slack day before my plan for december arrives.
call this the eve of Operation 'rush the mountain'.
have been spending a lot of time listening to k-pop these days.
a lot of time i mean lyk i can on com for 8-10 hrs and blast k-pop all the way.
yar lorh, actually i'm just looking for k-pop and j-pop for my FSD.
then i went to 'consult' this gal cuz she lyk very the k-pop fan mah.
then she feed me with so much k-pop then i kena influence ._.
and now keep listening to k-pop and a bit of eurodance.
and then got this song call wasurenaide.
sang by the same bunch of ppl who sang share the world.
haha, quite nice. can try listening, ppl!
and perhaps there's a high possibility that im gonna go bk to sch ltr.
to renovate the ncc ops room ._.
actually junli says it aint compulsory,
but joel make it sound lyk its compulsory for me.
and he told koh chin he can dun come. wtf ._.
but since leo jio me to go, give face larh, i go.
and i nid more songs to feed my k-pop addiction.
who got some songs that can recommend to me?
call this the eve of Operation 'rush the mountain'.
have been spending a lot of time listening to k-pop these days.
a lot of time i mean lyk i can on com for 8-10 hrs and blast k-pop all the way.
yar lorh, actually i'm just looking for k-pop and j-pop for my FSD.
then i went to 'consult' this gal cuz she lyk very the k-pop fan mah.
then she feed me with so much k-pop then i kena influence ._.
and now keep listening to k-pop and a bit of eurodance.
and then got this song call wasurenaide.
sang by the same bunch of ppl who sang share the world.
haha, quite nice. can try listening, ppl!
and perhaps there's a high possibility that im gonna go bk to sch ltr.
to renovate the ncc ops room ._.
actually junli says it aint compulsory,
but joel make it sound lyk its compulsory for me.
and he told koh chin he can dun come. wtf ._.
but since leo jio me to go, give face larh, i go.
and i nid more songs to feed my k-pop addiction.
who got some songs that can recommend to me?
Sunday, November 29, 2009
sunday,
have been searching hard for korean hits ytd.
and thanks a lot to tuesday and ck ng who helped me with it.
and also, after being enlighten by my bro,
who taught me how to actually really modify dance steps into freestyle drills.
there's this sorry sorry, i'm coming, and then some steps from wedding dress.
okay, the idea is getting clearer and clearer.
really, i have my reasons for not using techno.
basically,
-techno has been used repeatedly by everyone after the success of anglican and hwa chung.
-techno, though provide the beat for drills steps, but the old soppy songs nid precise movements and exact timing to go with the beat. i doubt we novice can really do so sharp.
-SM is getting sick of techno after going through 2 competition and 3 courses.
-techno is wad everyone is using, in order to gain attention and stand out, we have to try something everyone wanna try but dun dare to.
and,
-kpop/jpop is widely accepted by the public, yet hardly seen in FSD,
-the unexact beats allows more movements.
-this will surely wins pts from the female judges.
-and 101 more reasons that u can get from me.
and just found out that actually techno, kpop/jpop and dance/party hits have a common thing:
they share a kind of beat, and that is the beat for ppl to dance with the song.
techno was out for dancing by the start,
so does dance hits. if they can be introduce into PDS and FSD, i believe so does kpop!
things will never be proven wrong unless they are done wrongly.
gimme a stage to act this idea out,
i'll get u guys the champion medals!
Saturday, November 28, 2009
LOL, more pics from FSD.
im the first(middle) guy in the first two pics.
haha, thanks audi for his lanyard.
and this is another boring weekend to pass by,
and i think perhaps i should start on my work.
okay, thats it, im starting on my HCL ltr.
well, i dunno why sch stills gives us hmwk during holidays.
i nid the time to attend courses and go to work. LOL.
well, have been discussing with leonard and joel over the ZHNCC FSD issues these days.
suddenly a though came to my mind: are we able to work as well as Sparkz has done in 3rd FSD?
i rmb abt my pulau ubin survival course.
though we were cadets of diff rank from diff district and backgrounds,
but yet, we were able to work well with each other,
helping one another through various obstacles.
and the 3rd FSD.
same, ppl of diff rank from diff districts and backgrounds.
but yet, we were able to work together in the end,
and perform well to graduated from the course.
both courses were the much more HQ related courses i attended this yr,
esp the survival course, which i went for the first batch.
even though we had little bonding time together,
we were yet able to work well and coordinate well.
these two courses shows me the 'nakama spirit' within each other.
but yet, many times, struggles, conflicts in ZHNCC,
nvr fails to upset many of us,
or hurt some of us.
i rmb once encik JM said to me abt something of working towards one goal.
well, are we working towards a same goal,
or just our own targets,
of holding military power and authority over diff areas?
towards winning, talents or heroism has nvr played a part.
wad matters, has always been teamwork.
It doesn't just mean giving way and enduring each other; it also sumbolize mutual trust and understand. If you wanna kill your own nakama for your own selfish ambitions, then you can **** from this world.
Friday, November 27, 2009
my 3rd FSD grp foto, Sparkz.
haha, im the one wearing the beret, beside audi.
suddenly life feels weird when there's no more FSD.
its like i've been going to HQ NCC as if im going to work,
and then, all it ended suddenly.
kinda miss the four days back there.
FSD left me with quite some stuff.
it left me with new knowledge,
it left me with a cert and badge,
and most importantly,
tanned skin that i look so much lyk a malay.
dun be shocked when u dun recognise me.
currently im looking for those japanese and korean dance hits,
to use them in the FDC next yr.
just wanna try something lyk ' Sorry Sorry ' with freestyle,
and it turns out to be quite some great ideas.
but i bet my sidekick will disagree of using korean dance hits in FSD.
but seriously, it sounds lyk a great idea.
im gonna learn how to remix korean dance hits for FSD!!!
then next yr we wun have some stupid techno that doesnt fits our movements,
but FSD with korean dance hits.
and perhaps soon with this idea,
ZHNCC FSD Team will be hotter than any boy bands.
haha, im too imaginative.
i rmb when i went for the FSD course,
i promise some ppl some stuff,
lyk i promised benjamin to meet him during next yr's FSD comp,
and i promised to meet jonathan at senior spec course or CLT course.
i promise some of my team members that we'll meet again.
so, im gonna work hard,
so that i can live to these promises!
Idea of remixing Korean/Japanese Dance Hits for FSD: Copyrighted.
well, and from today onwards,
im gonna start trng myself.
to beat my old NAPFA timing,
and also to become stronger and fitter.
and perhaps i should start doing my homework. LOL.
One day, when we guys can meet again at HQ NCC, it'll be the time that all of us have become stronger than before.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Graduation!
YAY! Sparkz, we graduated! YAY!!!
so, today finally we had our performance,
and then, graduated.
even though we didnt make it 100% real nice,
but we did it, and graduated! yay!
finally, everything ended with a happy ending.
and now, back to slack days at home,
jogging, training, playing com.
must start trng the company for next yr's competition,
and then, honed everyone till zai zai. harhar.
so now, im dedicating something to Sparkz:
My dear fellow team mates,
Though this course has been a four day course, but everything seem to move so fast. From the registration on day 1 till now, graduation, it seem lyk its just only a blinking of the eye. Though the time we're together was short, but yet, its wonderful, that ppl from different districts could actually get together and work towards a common goal. Its been nice being with you guys, all the drills under the hot sun, all the jokes we shared, and joking with benjamin's b-boxing, all were wonderful memories. And thanks a lot to Sir (or should i call him staff now) Audi, for guiding us and helping us throughout the course. Even though we did bickered at some times, but its good to see that we did everything nicely in the end and graduated together. Though we didnt get into finals, but in my heart, we, Sparkz, are already the champions!
All the best, for your Specialist Course, NCC life, and everything ahead!
so, today finally we had our performance,
and then, graduated.
even though we didnt make it 100% real nice,
but we did it, and graduated! yay!
finally, everything ended with a happy ending.
and now, back to slack days at home,
jogging, training, playing com.
must start trng the company for next yr's competition,
and then, honed everyone till zai zai. harhar.
so now, im dedicating something to Sparkz:
My dear fellow team mates,
Though this course has been a four day course, but everything seem to move so fast. From the registration on day 1 till now, graduation, it seem lyk its just only a blinking of the eye. Though the time we're together was short, but yet, its wonderful, that ppl from different districts could actually get together and work towards a common goal. Its been nice being with you guys, all the drills under the hot sun, all the jokes we shared, and joking with benjamin's b-boxing, all were wonderful memories. And thanks a lot to Sir (or should i call him staff now) Audi, for guiding us and helping us throughout the course. Even though we did bickered at some times, but its good to see that we did everything nicely in the end and graduated together. Though we didnt get into finals, but in my heart, we, Sparkz, are already the champions!
All the best, for your Specialist Course, NCC life, and everything ahead!
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
day 3 FDC.
so, basically this is the day that everything starts getting more serious.
and it was all drilling and rehearsing all day long.
under the hot sun, but the jockey cap keep the sun out,
my face nvr kena worser.
and then, the course is really getting more and more tiring.
ytd we SPARKZ are so zai.
today rehearse kena lan sai lyk that.
we must buck up, ppl!
at least must pass the course in glory,
go back sch maybe can yaya a bit(lol).
no larh, just wanna start the selection soon,
to better prepare for next yr FSD comp.
and today is much more of a joking day.
me, zi hua and joel kept singing 对面的女孩看过来 to jio this very very uber chio ma'am.
eh, nvr kena ooc heng liao arh!
and we had real fun doing our ripple line and formations.
haha, really wanna perform well tmr.
suddenly fantasize of using 'sorry sorry' or 'nobody' for my FSD.
lol, pass the course first barh!
SPARKZ, jiayous!
and it was all drilling and rehearsing all day long.
under the hot sun, but the jockey cap keep the sun out,
my face nvr kena worser.
and then, the course is really getting more and more tiring.
ytd we SPARKZ are so zai.
today rehearse kena lan sai lyk that.
we must buck up, ppl!
at least must pass the course in glory,
go back sch maybe can yaya a bit(lol).
no larh, just wanna start the selection soon,
to better prepare for next yr FSD comp.
and today is much more of a joking day.
me, zi hua and joel kept singing 对面的女孩看过来 to jio this very very uber chio ma'am.
eh, nvr kena ooc heng liao arh!
and we had real fun doing our ripple line and formations.
haha, really wanna perform well tmr.
suddenly fantasize of using 'sorry sorry' or 'nobody' for my FSD.
lol, pass the course first barh!
SPARKZ, jiayous!
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
day 2 FDC.
wah, this time, it went harder, but more fun.
finally we had a grp name today.
SPARK. nice name rite? i noe its nice. harhar.
and we started drilling in the morning,
and then marching, and marching.
and then the sun came out and all of us got sunburn.
ltr got choosen to be IC and norimah got AIC.
argh, nid memorise the reporting in and out.
and today we did a great job in the routine, SPARK!
harhar, we must keep up our good work, and march towards the best!
and today became closer with more team mates,
and started chatting a lot.
the benjamin from Gan Eng Seng kept doing b-boxing,
and we even joke abt having his b-box as our performance music.
and then, while there's time to slack a bit,
we'll suddenly start to joke abt the RGS gals. hmm.
and then some ppl went to the extent to insult them face to face.
yeah, next time dun be so harsh, ltr they cry ._.
gonna work double the effort of today when tmr arrives,
must make the best outta it!
finally we had a grp name today.
SPARK. nice name rite? i noe its nice. harhar.
and we started drilling in the morning,
and then marching, and marching.
and then the sun came out and all of us got sunburn.
ltr got choosen to be IC and norimah got AIC.
argh, nid memorise the reporting in and out.
and today we did a great job in the routine, SPARK!
harhar, we must keep up our good work, and march towards the best!
and today became closer with more team mates,
and started chatting a lot.
the benjamin from Gan Eng Seng kept doing b-boxing,
and we even joke abt having his b-box as our performance music.
and then, while there's time to slack a bit,
we'll suddenly start to joke abt the RGS gals. hmm.
and then some ppl went to the extent to insult them face to face.
yeah, next time dun be so harsh, ltr they cry ._.
gonna work double the effort of today when tmr arrives,
must make the best outta it!
Monday, November 23, 2009
back from FDC day 1.
tagbacks =D
Jackson: haha, welcome and i enjoyed the food =D
samantha: haha, i miss you peeps too. really hope can have another BBQ.
Leo: fun larh, but criteria strict. and my team no chio bu!!! and has onyl one gal!!! and thanks you part C for the bbq and pizza. haha.
okay, so im back from FDC day 1.
muahaha, its real fun.
met a random person from NCC air attending FDc,
so made quick frens with him.
and then met up with joel and proceed to fall in.
waited for 1 hr plus for SM NCC to settle admin stuff.
and ltr we had ice breaking with my team!
haha, though they were quiet ppl, but most of them were real fun.
and we could really get along well, like how it does when im back in survival course.
basically today is much more on eating and listening,
and we had a bit of drills at the end.
looking at the standard, nidda really improve my team's coordination,
and add more fancy styles.
oh btw, there's this gal who's real enthu in my team.
haha, got potential be senior spec.
ltr went back home with my bro and his fren,
ex-asm of ahsncc.
these few days are going to be real busy,
so pardon me if i didnt reply any sms u sent me.
looking forward to day 2 FDC. haha.
Jackson: haha, welcome and i enjoyed the food =D
samantha: haha, i miss you peeps too. really hope can have another BBQ.
Leo: fun larh, but criteria strict. and my team no chio bu!!! and has onyl one gal!!! and thanks you part C for the bbq and pizza. haha.
okay, so im back from FDC day 1.
muahaha, its real fun.
met a random person from NCC air attending FDc,
so made quick frens with him.
and then met up with joel and proceed to fall in.
waited for 1 hr plus for SM NCC to settle admin stuff.
and ltr we had ice breaking with my team!
haha, though they were quiet ppl, but most of them were real fun.
and we could really get along well, like how it does when im back in survival course.
basically today is much more on eating and listening,
and we had a bit of drills at the end.
looking at the standard, nidda really improve my team's coordination,
and add more fancy styles.
oh btw, there's this gal who's real enthu in my team.
haha, got potential be senior spec.
ltr went back home with my bro and his fren,
ex-asm of ahsncc.
these few days are going to be real busy,
so pardon me if i didnt reply any sms u sent me.
looking forward to day 2 FDC. haha.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
saturday,
woke up in the morning,
and found out that i just wasted one night's time.
must have been real shag from annual camp.
i began to think back of something i gained from the camp.
a series of words from the martial arts instructor, dave.
"People always said not to judge a book by its cover,
but everyone judge a BOOK by ITS COVER.
you see, this is life, the way it is.
well, this words have hard impressions in my mind.
perhaps, judging a book by its cover was what that given me,
a real hard life in sec 1.
being stereotyped, those hardcore days were hard to get by.
people always judge others wearing tinted glasses.
giving others harsh stereotypes, and having a bad impression.
well, this is the real reason that cause to the lost of talents.
many talented ones are buried along with their bad impressions.
then, i began to think of life next yr.
is it real possible for impossibilities to happen in life?
like the part B achieving a best unit award again,
and i push myself to triumph the chinese scholars,
all these, can it happen?
i always believe anything can happen.
as long as the tinted glasses, good or bad impressions are removed,
one then can see the real potential of others,
and witness the rise of impossibilities.
often, life sets many obstacles for us to clear.
it is onto our own will,
whether we want to cross it and absorb its experience,
or skip it and not learn something new?
we only get stronger and more experienced,
only when we can get pass life's obstacles.
and found out that i just wasted one night's time.
must have been real shag from annual camp.
i began to think back of something i gained from the camp.
a series of words from the martial arts instructor, dave.
"People always said not to judge a book by its cover,
but everyone judge a BOOK by ITS COVER.
you see, this is life, the way it is.
well, this words have hard impressions in my mind.
perhaps, judging a book by its cover was what that given me,
a real hard life in sec 1.
being stereotyped, those hardcore days were hard to get by.
people always judge others wearing tinted glasses.
giving others harsh stereotypes, and having a bad impression.
well, this is the real reason that cause to the lost of talents.
many talented ones are buried along with their bad impressions.
then, i began to think of life next yr.
is it real possible for impossibilities to happen in life?
like the part B achieving a best unit award again,
and i push myself to triumph the chinese scholars,
all these, can it happen?
i always believe anything can happen.
as long as the tinted glasses, good or bad impressions are removed,
one then can see the real potential of others,
and witness the rise of impossibilities.
often, life sets many obstacles for us to clear.
it is onto our own will,
whether we want to cross it and absorb its experience,
or skip it and not learn something new?
we only get stronger and more experienced,
only when we can get pass life's obstacles.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
the Corporal is back.
and finally, annual camp ended,
surprisingly in a joyous mood.
well, should i call it a camp or chalet..look..
Day 1
and we met in the canteen, fall in,
check bag, check hair.
CPT LYK came down and kan the whole company during bagcheck,
and he got lotsa brothers to go for haircut.
ltr on we had games, which is more of humping one another,
and screwing around. and some time after lunch, is games again.
and some time after games, is dinner, and we had field cooking at the amphitheatre,
and ltr on, bathe and all the self stuff, and had nightwalk.
hell yeah, and we had a not-so-scary horror film to boost the morale.
and nightwalk disappoint me cuz its aint scary.
Day 2
and we woke up so damn early in the morning,
because we are going to HQ NCC.
go HQ, paintball, archery, and food.
play play the whole morning at HQ NCC, and then,
we went back to sch to have drills.
after some time we started BBQ,
and we have a joint dinner with the council,
and we shared our BBQ and buffet. hmm.
was getting hot on the otah, and screws around for dinner.
and after some time we went back to sleep,
to find myself being recruited into the combo section.
4am fall in, no nid slp.
Day 3
fall in at around 4am for drills,
C&C, and some marching.
part B took turns to drill the section,
and i finally see the big loophole in part B.
we have some zai kia in C&C, and some other novices. take time to train barh.
drill drill until 6 plus,
and then had PT.
after an average PT, we had breakfast,
and not soon ltr, we had our martial art trng with the council.
and hell, we did spank a few asses.
after a pizza lunch,
wasted some time for waiting for an interview which,
in the end, my seniors cut it. cancel.
so went for POP, and came back here with a memento from camp: CPL insignia.
this yr sir lyk a bit generous arh, BBQ, then paintball, then promotion.
and my dear corporals, we play and slack well. give urself a round of applause.
Debrief
yeah, this time round, its more lyk a chalet than a camp.
wah, fun sia. but now, i have to rush to prepare for FDC.
wah, cant play yet. maintain maintain.
surprisingly in a joyous mood.
well, should i call it a camp or chalet..look..
Day 1
and we met in the canteen, fall in,
check bag, check hair.
CPT LYK came down and kan the whole company during bagcheck,
and he got lotsa brothers to go for haircut.
ltr on we had games, which is more of humping one another,
and screwing around. and some time after lunch, is games again.
and some time after games, is dinner, and we had field cooking at the amphitheatre,
and ltr on, bathe and all the self stuff, and had nightwalk.
hell yeah, and we had a not-so-scary horror film to boost the morale.
and nightwalk disappoint me cuz its aint scary.
Day 2
and we woke up so damn early in the morning,
because we are going to HQ NCC.
go HQ, paintball, archery, and food.
play play the whole morning at HQ NCC, and then,
we went back to sch to have drills.
after some time we started BBQ,
and we have a joint dinner with the council,
and we shared our BBQ and buffet. hmm.
was getting hot on the otah, and screws around for dinner.
and after some time we went back to sleep,
to find myself being recruited into the combo section.
4am fall in, no nid slp.
Day 3
fall in at around 4am for drills,
C&C, and some marching.
part B took turns to drill the section,
and i finally see the big loophole in part B.
we have some zai kia in C&C, and some other novices. take time to train barh.
drill drill until 6 plus,
and then had PT.
after an average PT, we had breakfast,
and not soon ltr, we had our martial art trng with the council.
and hell, we did spank a few asses.
after a pizza lunch,
wasted some time for waiting for an interview which,
in the end, my seniors cut it. cancel.
so went for POP, and came back here with a memento from camp: CPL insignia.
this yr sir lyk a bit generous arh, BBQ, then paintball, then promotion.
and my dear corporals, we play and slack well. give urself a round of applause.
Debrief
yeah, this time round, its more lyk a chalet than a camp.
wah, fun sia. but now, i have to rush to prepare for FDC.
wah, cant play yet. maintain maintain.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)