A Role To Play.

and something sparks another thought from my mind again.

went to tuition again.
yea, the same old tutor and those friends.
besides xavier, clarence, christine and amanda,
there's newcomer. oh and patrick.
the joker that always seen tag team with chye kian during lower pri days.

and so, after tuition, it was 1930hrs, quite late.
at the bus stop one of those friends said this to me,
'can you be like your blog personality? i wonder if u even write ur own blog not...'

DISCLAIMER: yes i write this blog myself.
all by that guy on killing spree on the parade sq,
all by that guy who seems so beng in class,
all by that very authentic yitian.

yea, her words send me into deep thoughts.

i believe each and every of us have a role to play in life.
and my role here, is to play something i am not.
being that loud, rude and arrogant person that im not.
maybe many would ask why im doing all these, torturing myself.
i'll give the same ans i gave in those psot i wrote centuries ago:
this, is to satisfy of others stereotype and impression towards me.

many said they look at myface at first glance,
the words that popped out of their head is,
for guys,
those weaklings: a threat
those normal ones: one leader.
those strong willed: formidable foe.

and for gals:
fierce, beng, rebellious, and many of the other words you can think of.

to think back,
if i were to be myself like how i should be in this blog,
things were pretty much different.
some weakling(ah yes, him.) would write a letter to HQ for a redrawal,
some jokers wouldnt be able to joke anymore when i outshine them;
some gays wouldnt be able to be mr goody in the class anymore,
some kiddo would just lose his stereotype as the handsome guy of the class.

if you're able to spot yitian as a gentleman,
jaws will drop.

'don't judge a book by its cover.'
precisely when many doesn't heed this,
i can't be myself.

i wonder if i were to bring this real personality out of the virtual world,
and bring the fake personality out of the real world,
i wonder how many ppl would lie on the ground and cry.