thursday.

well,
got nth much to do,
and tmr's labour day.
nidda chiong studying liaos.
MYE is super super near!

well,
these few days had been into much turmoil.
and the class.
i cant forget those scenes that they stamp hard on me.
aw, why am i such a war lover?

had been browsing the mrbrownshow.com
well,
i believe that he's one rare talents that voices the ppl's true feelings,
are those ppl who commented there are REAL INSIGHTFUL PPL,
unlike those in my class,
who always tell you to shaddup at the wrong moment,
and talk on bo liao topics that has nth to do with the society.

and a happy labour day to all those baglas(excluding those who cant be seen at the night, those who imposed threats to our morally upright society, those who bring their troubles all the way from south asia to s'pore).
tell them to do a better job in painting our flats!

tuesday.

wad a boring day,
and lessons were so bored somehow.
did some 5 items and floorball during pe.

and then.
afternoon was the NAPFA test.
well, at least i manage to get some good results.
erm...something like:
40 inclined pull ups(quite lousy liao)
shuttle run 10.5s(i noe its slow)
46 sit ups(still average)
standing broad jump 210cm(quite shitty)
sit and reach 44cm(okay lurhs)

well,
just got 2.4km run to go,
and i'll get my gold.
finally.

after all,
its determination that determines you.

sunday.

忍一时，风平浪静； 退一步，海阔天空。

可能有的时候， 当自己已无法前进时，
那就忍一忍， 退一退；
省下不要的麻烦。
虎落平阳， 等待他日，
在东山再起。

老师， 你教了我一年的名言警句，
我唯一只有上面那句，
记得最深， 记得最好。

saturday.

it seems like im truly awaken.
i truly found wad i want.

well,
having dreams is a good thing.
they motivate you forward,
and when you fail,
your greed for fame, wealth, power increase.

i found out one big difference btwn me and the class.
we all have dreams-
theirs the happy dreamy to be dreamt;
mine is the hardcore serious that change my life.
maybe because of this,
we feel and react differently.
perhaps of this,
i matured mentally faster than all of them,
which might be the rise to communication problems.

im a person who's not very content wiht my life.
you go to sch everyday and do wad you're suppose to do.
of course, when i reach 21,
im not going to lead this kind of ordinary life anymore.
i want to shine; i want to soar.
i want WEALTH, FAME, POWER.

adorning the flag high up in the sky;
lets chase it!

friday.

well,
its a whole tiring day after all.
too much things going on at the same time.
lessons are too carefree today larhs.
nth much up.

spent the whole afternoon having orienteering prelimary selections.
well,
after lunch with leonard and daosong,
was orienteering warm up lerhs.
warm up consist of,
a 3.6 KM RUN,
30 STANDARD PUMPINGS,
20 WIDE ARMS,
10 DIAMONDS,
1 CLOSE ARM,
60 SIT UPS.
followed by RUNNING UP AND DOWN the FIRST to THIRD storey 10 TIMES.
is that a warm up?

of course larh,
after which is quite hell.
we have a ACROSS THE FIELD shuttle run(10 comes and backs),
ACROSS the CARPARK 5 times,
the clockwise-anticlockwise nakama run.
the had a tresure hunt,
which is to find a berry.
then tingwei join us,
1 more round of nakama run.
and it turns out that all of us passed;
surprisingly?

well,
i expect more to come.
nakama,
brothers in arms,
for the honour and glory of Zhonghua NCC.

in sch.

well,
feels that life is going much on a slower pace.

MYE are coming soon,
but it doesnt seems to put any effect on me.
compared to the common tests,
i think those CTs had put a larger stress on me.
well,
numbed by my lifestyle?

going on and on with a same routine everyday.
is like listening to the same song over and over.
you'll get sick of it.
life is getting a bit of dry these days.
cant expect much when exams are coming.

sick of those sarcasm from the class.
sick of idling after hw in the evening.

yea,
there's orienteering selection.
but do you agree by giving first pirioty(sp?) to those who enter the orienteering.
in terms of posts, ranks, future.
i just hope that tmr those selected for orienteering are good leaders.
and i hope im selected.
cuz i just wanna do good to the company.

well,
have a nice day.

wednesday.

wednesday, seems to be a long day after all.
two days passed, and two more to go.
to saturday, of course.

well,
today in sch,
mdm ng called me and david out.
we two wonder wad was happening.
and it turn out that she saw us laughing during national anthem,
when mdm lau walked past us to make sure we sing.

and during maths,
when i nvr say anything,
mr tham told me to SHUT UP if not i'll be out of the class.
i wasnt doing anything, and this angered me.
then those bitches at the back was cheering for it.
and when i ask mr tham questions,
he replied me with words hidden with sacarsm.

i went on to reflect abt these events.
first one.
u guys noe that the govt ask us to sing national anthem everyday,
just to keep as as "loyal subjects" to the "republic".
however,
instead of nuturing patriot feelings,
we were numbed by this activity of singing the national anthem.
and us singaporeans treat it like nth.

second event.
just to make sure his lessons goes well,
he scold me before anything happen.
and targeted those who once made mistakes in his class.

PS:
is the standard of singaporean dropping so low nowadays?
us, as citizens,
see the national anthem as nothing.
him, a teacher,
using a not-so-common way to treat his student;
they, classmates not supporting their own classmate.
the patriot feeling,
common and mutual respect;
things so basic and common overseas,
and yet singaporeans does not have?

how are we going to settle these problems?
we are improving our "standards":
lifestyle, fashion, health.
and we are also dropping back on our standards:
culture appreciation, respect, patriotism.

well,
is the country progressing,
or are we looking at the right target,
yet walking in the wrong direction?