nite falls.

and so.
as the nite fell.
the high spirits i have in the morning goes down.
life's getting more and more bored,
and there's nth for me.

life seems to be no motivation for me.
currently i dunno wad i am living for.
except for the fact that i wan to go to senior spec course.

and so.
while i read through other ppl blog.
somehow i find big differences between me and them.
they're in the sweetness of courtship and the joy of merrymaking.
while my life is dull and dark.

ever since i was demoralized at annual camp.
i dunno wad should i do eveytime i wake up.
it just about hw, com, and lan or movies on monday mornings.
somehow i wonder wad has always beens in for me in life.
but i dun see any results.
maybe i was born and bred differenlt from the other ppl.
well.
i suppose life to be lyk this:
born, study, army, job, retirement, sickness, death.
is my life going to be so dull?

and den.
when other ask u,
"wad talents u have" or sth lyk that.
i cant answer any.
well my only "talent" is to "kheng", or malinger.

and so.
a 13 yr old youngster.
yet my life is so different from the others.
and its screwed badly.
i dunno wad's wrong wif me.

maybe it was too late to repent.
or too close to the ending.
but wad i wish.
is just three things.
NCC, academic results, and...merrymaking?