rowing boats.

the same dull, hectic life made me part of my own routine.
i mean, it becomes a cycle that i have to start life how i do now all the times.
dull, bland, hectic, stressful.
not anymore words i can use to describe the life im leading now.

not much fun stuff happened today compared to ytd.
its always all the dull lessons that made me not myself.
sometimes, i couldn't keep up with some stuff;
other times, i just got rooted or i move too fast.

maybe today's one of the time killing days in the week.
have chem SPA which i consider to be quite interesting;
and then mr brady's SSP which was carefree and relaxed.
we can absorbed information easily in his lessons.

two tests tmr, eng and e maths.
not much confidence for the math part.
maybe one day i should really bury myself under a mountain of books for some time.
gonna start mugging later.
don't have the mood to do so,
but i have to force myself to it.

just found that im really very, very distant from my class.
and when i mean distant,
its more than how 2e3 dao me when i used to be in sec 1.
more like passer-by that me in the middle of orchard road;
we come and go with no interaction.
except for a few that sits beside me and my clique,
hardly i interact with the class.
and when they announce the winners of the class deco today,
i felt no sense of glory.
perhaps that feel of belonging have not develop,
or never it will develop.

was just thinking on many short term and long term things that are to come.
tests, FSD, RTC, Spec Course, O lvls.

life need a spark.
life needs some company.

yeah, but where i find them?