wednesday.

yeah, im in for the mood of blogging.

okay, so basically i slack the whole of ytd doing nth,
cuz its hcl paper today.
its more lyk a 50-50 gamble: you win or you lose.
the hcl paper depends on ur standard,
and there's nth much u can do by studying or reading notes.

so, suprisingly the paper came out to be quite okay;
and the passages in the paper are lyk so damn meaningful.
on was on the art of success, another on the 'savings' of life,
such as friendships and kinships.
yea, perhaps its gonna be the open ended that kill or saves me.

and gonna spend the rest of today mugging chem and physics,
and after tmr...its party time!
well, just dunno wad else can i do after the exams,
perhaps i should go back to the hardcore trng i neglected due to the exams.
start jogging, abs trng, strength and endurance trng. they nid a lot of time.

just hope for the best tmr;
hope verything will turnh out well.
and jiayou everyone!
its just one last paper!

tuesday.

A problem shall always never be a problem; it'll only be a problem only when you view it as one.

ooh, joanne ur rite.
damn me and my time.
yeah i can post everyday,
cuz i got super good time management =.=
jkjk. i just happen to be free to post only.

okay, so maths paper went by lyk another breeze.
not to mention that i have not much confidence for it,
but wad's over is over liao.
and sci is on thurs,
and tmr's hcl.
so can slow down a bit go lim kopi.

everyday is lyk the same these few days,
study, then slack a bit;
not much play time and interaction with any frens.
somehow exams is always something that i didnt lyk in my life;
i dun study for it, and i score a or b.
anw, who in this earth lyks exams?
its just a procedure of life to go through barh.

anw these few days cant blog any good or inspiration post.
just cant do that when ur mind is full of exam notes and sort of stuff.
maybe after exams those post exam activites will make life better for me.

When you're grumbling that life is too harsh or bad for you, just turn back; you'll see tons of ppl worse than you. You feel that life is tough because you think and feel so; if hardships and toughness are definite as daily procedure to you, life isnt any tougher.

well, use to grumble a lot of life.
used to compare myself with other ppl.

life is nvr perfect; its all the imperfect that always makes this lfie journey perfect.

u feel that you're worse off because you compared yourself to someone thats better than you.

take it and go through it; u'll find all these hardships, a training for situations tmr.

i've been through, experience through; life, has nvr been anymore sad and tough,
because all these hardships, are customise to make me stronger day by day.

Run run run! Chase chase chase! People, run towards your ambitions, chase after those dreams! Though tears are still rolling down your cheeks, but soon they will not show anymore!

monday.

The art of punches don't lie in the amount of strength; the lie in the amount of willpower.

finally i manage to clear lit exam.
and tmr is maths, not to mention that i've not been doing much revision.

somehow got a bit of enrage.
haha, long time nvr got into a rage that i got the feel to ask for a fight.
oh, its considering the pic i pose with mt katana.
haha, there's a long convo over it ytd,
and then today u meet one dickhead trying to tell u,
'u think u look hot arh?'

obviously that pic isnt out up thr to look hot.
and obviously im not flaunting off that i've got a katana.
i got a daisho pair at home, less not a katana.

and then someone is trying to give you shit stuff.
obviously wad wad my frens said for the earlier comments for the foto came quite true,
'lol O.O they blind lah'.

ppl always view things from wad they want to see.
all thanks to some fkers,
i pretty screw my life in zhss.
wonder if thats going to affect anything next yr.
for once fel told me that violence wouldnt solve anything.
how abt giving that dickhead a sanjyu roku pondo hou,
teaching him not to blabber anyhow for the rest of his life?

im not here to protest or wad,
but here to give an example.
after all, i look tons better than that dickhead(thats only to ppl not in zhss),
and i dun feel the need to get real fed up.
its a kind of rage-
i have subdue it,
and here to teach you all one thing:
祸从口出，病从口入.
troubles come by blabbering anyhow,
and sickness come by unhealthy diets.
today im giving him, as a classmate, his last face;
if it were the past i've not only brought the katana to sch,
but along with a wakistari and a nodachi.
to do wad? hack ppl!

always to rmb,
when giving comments, not to give from the point of ur own-
u nvr noe how much ur bias views are going to land you in trouble.
view things from a clear situation, taking into assumption that ur not part of it-
only then, u'll solve things fairly.

because that there's too much bias view in this world,
that's wad that makes many resent and hatred;
and yet, give willpower to those,
that are view with bias and stereotype,
to climb to the highest and conquer all.

sunday.

The day before the last stand: part II

much of ytd was spent mugging away.
i think it's the same old thing for today.
its lit tmr, and i still dun feel the intense feeling.
somemore, im not into the exam mood.
hope everything will go real well.

had been thinking a lot.
thinking through so much stuff from friday to ytd nite.
well, wad else can i think abt?
so u guys who read my blog often noe wad im thinking abt.

sometimes, i feel so stupid.
lingering over something that isnt meant to be.
and yet, sometimes, i feel so foolish.
yearning over someone who might have already forgotten me,
who might deleted me in her memory space.

i've always told myself to put it down, forget it.
but i cant bear to do it, much less deceive myself of my own feelings.
but this time, i guess i really have to put everything down.
for this is something, that has no results;
after all, im the only one suffering.
till today,
perhaps it isnt a slight hatred in her anymore;
its much of a detest, a much of a dun-come-to-me.
but yet, why am i still yearning for her,
for someone that seems not meant to be,
for something that seems not to be?

i really dun wan everything to end.
i really dun wan.
maybe life without u isnt a torture to me anymore,
loving someone who just treat me as a passerby with a bad umpression.
well, i just cant put it down.

anw, enough of this emo stuff.
okay, tmr's the big thing liao,
so we're gonna make a big killing.
four more days and we shall own them.
chiong arh!

saturday.

Will triumphs destiny.

okay, today's saturday.
and lit exam is on mon.
wwhich means im left with less than 46 hrs to finish the mugging.
well, gonna give myself a boost and chiong all the way froma fternoon to night.

haha, saw my uncle on news ytd.
he's the guy who donated a kidney to hsi wife.
and this news is reported cuz,
the medical team finds it an achievement,
to make a kidney transplant between two ppl of diff blood grps.
despite the fact of the antibiotics and sort of stuff,
NUH did it. a new chpt in Singapore's medical history.

im here not to praise how zai the medical team is.
nor how advance the medical technology is.
im here to comment on my uncle.

somehow since the day he took the operation for the transplant,
i found him to be extraordinary.
he did not mind living the next 30-40 yrs of his life with one kidney.
think abt wad else you can only do with one kidney.
you cant do much things, neither sports.
somemore donating to his wife,
a person of a diff blood grp.
if the transplant fails means a waste of his effort, and kidney.
he must have extraordinary courage to do such thing.

another thing that somehow makes him extraordinary,
is also due to the fact that he donated a kidney to his wife.
haha, being a close relative of theirs,
i've seen the couple trying to overcome difficult times together.
its reported that my aunt has been on dialysis for 7 yrs.
well, my uncle has nvr ever abandon her,
and even went to the far extent to donate his kidney,
in order for her to live.

all along i see how he gave time and money to my aunt.
he dedicated his life to look after my aunt.
and now he donated a kidney to his closest partner.
he now live life with one kidney,
somehow as the sole breadwinner of his family,
he didnt earn much.
one kidney means a huge advantage for him.
but, he did not mind all the hardships and troubles after the transplant.
he did not mind the risk of the operation.
he went on for it. for my aunt.

我现在不是要你为爱而亡，而是为爱生不如死。你肯吗？

he made such a big sacrifice for something that many did not value,
or many that violate, or many that mis-uses.
he did it, not for the survival of his mate,
but for the love of them.

thinking back,
asking me to eat a bullet and die for her is too easy.
perhaps, love for one person,
is to the extent that u're willing to give anything to her,
not for the love u have for her,
but just you want her to lead life happily.

It's not the talents or abilities one has that makes one extraordinary; its the deeds that one person has done to make a difference in him or her.

a price that seems so big to pay,
but my uncle did it, for love.

are you even willing to live life the harshest way,
just for the one you love to be happy?

thinking back,
if you ask me to not jut lose a kidney,
but to lose everything, physical and material in this world, just for her,
i'll gladly agree to that.

EXTRAORDINARY. because he did something extraordinary, not that he is extraordinary.

friday.

well, how time flies. very soon its all my main papers.
and must thank the support of readers for patronising my blog.
and feels happy that the unique reader counters increase day by day.

and today is another kind of slack day in sch.
first is hcl lesson.
wad is so important this time is,
wad mdm zhang said sounds lyk arrows piercing my heart.
well, not gonna elaborate,
e3 peeps go recall wad she said in class;
maybe u'll noe why.

and soon after recess is the discussion for the jumble sale.
wow to think that the idea of busking that i tell ms suba actually works.
lol and i feel so good *three claps for oyabun* .
and obviously im in the logistics crew,
so i think things are pretty much simple for me.

and maths lesson all the way till last period,
and we had geog.
gonna try creating a fb page for mrs kok.
ppl u must support me arh!

每次看到你与其他男生谈天时，
心里总有一种酸酸的感觉。
算是因为十分吃醋，十分嫉妒。
但是，也有一种快乐的感觉；
看到你与他们谈天时露出那快乐的笑容，笑得合不拢嘴；
看到你能快快乐乐的自己心里也自然快乐起来。
你快乐，所以我快乐。

过不久后，将分班了。
知道你不可能记得我，想念我；
但知道自己一定会惦记你。
以后的日子，
记得要快快乐乐的度过。
因为。。。
你快乐，所以我快乐。

thursday.

and overall, today has been another peaceful day. lol.

and things were lyk going much much smoothly than before today,
and art lesson aint as tiring as before,
cuz we are doing theory for art. lol.

and today is lyk..erm, fun larh.
trying to disiao mrs kok,
by squeezing the kiwi(who gives out a sound).
and she just dao me and continue,
but i can see ppl take fun in this process. zzz.

and so, as time flies,
the main exams are around the corner.
and things are gonna get real busy soon.
and really, sometimes i get sian of the sch timetable.
luckily, not before long, it'll come to an end.

ooh, btw ms suba mention of this junble sale after eoy,
for the sec 2 to raise money for old folks home.
maybe should suggest something lyk singing and playing musical instruments for the cash to come in.

well, as today is just as normal as it can go,
so not much things are in for today.
and perhaps this gonna be one of the sian sian post that run-the-road have.

你快乐，所以我快乐。
恨我也好，厌我也好，
我只要做那远远看护的月光。
对不起，我忘不了你。