wednesday.

The day before the last stand.

well, its another peaceful day again,
none other than lessons and more lessons.
surprisingly i manage to go through geog w/o being tired,
and also for the later part of the day.

time flies,
and tmr is the start of eoy.
well, somehow i cant feel the tension,
as you can see that im still blogging daily.
perhaps im addicted to blogging;
sometimes it teaches me how to show my thoughts and feelings in the right manner.

misunderstandings....they get deeper and deeper as time goes on, without clearing. i wonder if for once i could talk to you again, see the usual smile you had, and talk out everything nicely, understand wad both parties wants. playing....it seems much more diff as before. you kept quiet. but i feel the detest and hatred. the kind of feeling that 'i-dun-wanna-get-close-you'. im nvr mean that ur targeting...but deep in, you view me differently. that's all. wad i want is how things were like as before- smiles, laughter, joy. not misunderstanding that evolves into detest as they are not cleared.

dedicated to someone;
i dun think the person might read this.
well, sometimes, keeping quiet aint a good thing-
instead, misunderstandings gets deeper. for both parties.

well, time flies...
and soon, im gonna get banded away into another class. in less than a mth?
well, perhaps for once i should leave everything behind as i go...
but i cant bear to part.

Have a sake, put away all negative feelings; let's have another glass.

tuesday,

Fushicho rage: even mythical animals are still animals.

of course, my first line already tells you,
im not in a very good mood today.
well, im just fking pissed;
not gonna elaborate any further.
doesnt mean that i dun say anything means im wrong,
doesnt mean that no one tell you means you have no wrong.
on behalf of Justice and morals,
i'll teach you a lesson. at all cost.

had the lessons were drone drone drone all the way...
and things aint well as someone pissed me for the wrong perception.
had a kinda headache...and thinks im really gonna teach ehr a lesson.
not say i cant bear with it or wad, but, if i dun do anything, im just a coward!

and tuesday is wasted cuz of all this stuff.
well, gonna spent the whole afternoon studying ltr.

oh, and i met a bunch of pri sch kids at the interchange.
p5, and they were talking abt porn and sorta shyt.
i took the effort to lecture them for 15 mins,
and warn them the consequences(lawfully and morally).
these are the future dependants of the nation;
things will go wrong if they take a wrong step.

and then...time is going away bit by bit.
really nidda study hard. lyk mugging straight for 1/4 day.

well, kept thinking of the class stuff.
many diff cliques...and many diff personality.
perhaps at the end the tuesday incident will leave a patch on a cloth.
well, just hope that i can spend the rest of the days happily.
and thought of getting something for my class at the last day of school. lol.
some presents, or chocolates. lol.

These beautiful memories...all the cries, smiles, fun and frown.

monday.

well, this might be the last few moments i can spend with the blog,
before going onto recluse for eoys.

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today has been another okay day,
erm, well, lessons has been quite slack,
and then things were going all fine.

and home econs.
this is the very first time that i did it so successful;
even tcher was impress by the texture and colour of the mixture.
although ltr the cake sticks to the paper for a moment,
which was due to the hotness of the cake;
i later cooled it and it did not stick to the paper anymore.
so, gals, next time i will make it a better one...
you wouldnt have to complain of it sticking to the paper liao.
And i promise to make a chocolate cake for you, rite?

so, maybe i would wan to patent the recipe,
and then franchise with those huat kueh suppliers.
10 yrs down the road huat kueh will be choco flavour liao;
kids wun mind helping to clean the altar then!

then, all it turns well for today.
just have to chiong the last bit of tuition then i can rest.

I noe im kinda stupid, trying to pull your hair;
I noe im kinda idiotic, using such stupid tricks to get closer to you.
Erm, i dunno wad i can do....
But, can i be ur fren?

lol, dedicated to a person that i've been disiaoing these days.
hmm, find her an interesting person. lol.

and then, adventure again awaits me...
u nvr noe wad might happen the next second!

sunday.

hmm, seems lyk today is another boring day.
well, nids to get more runs,
as im not been exercising often and nids to build bakc that stamina;
plus all those pure dark chocolates vare killing me.
should not have mug those chocolates.
and 10.52, watch out hung ying, i will defeat that timing!

okay, dunno wad life has in stall for me today,
but plans are real simple.
gonna make huat kueh and then do some wk,
as well as prepare for tmr.
its the damn home ec test tmr,
well, cant just they let us cook something lyk steak or fish and chips?

spend the night sms-ing away,
while watching the tv.
hmm, its one of my old fren;
i really admire her,
she's pretty, she's physical fit, she's mulit talented,
and somemore, she's rich and she has a nice personailty.
hell where could u find someone lyk that in earth now?

well, had been thinking much of the class,
academics and then some social problems.
well, sometimes its a bit bad to see the class quarreling when everything's ending,
and then brings the hatred for the rest of ur life.
well, i wan a class chalet;
wanted to help samantha in a bit of organising,
or perhaps could get a parent who's an army officer to get us the officer's chalet.

well, its the same old things when i return to class tmr;
jeers, noise, a bit of quarrels, a bit of fun.
i still rmb the time when mr ron announced that i was outta fac;
i think only a few claps barhs.
well, maybe the class spirit is cmi in these two yrs one,
dunno whether the classmates will miss any of the class when they get promoted.

now the biggest problem with the class is down with only tuesday.
well, big problems, not small lyk last time.
well if i cant make things nice for her before the term ends,
i think i will bring a regret for my whole life. hmm.
i guess i just maybe have to cater to all her demands barh.
well, in a quarrel, usually one have to surrender first, isnt it?
i think perhaps catering to all her demands will makes things better.
well, i noe its hard to hate someone, dunno why things turn lyk this.
hmm, how i wish we can be frens lyk last time,
but now, if u can stop all the hatred, its enough.
maybe i'll just stop talking for some moment,
and then keep quiet when she pick bones outta eggs.
well, its still up to peception.

maybe gonna spent the rest of today slacking,
or chionging wk.
but i noe definitely tmr wun be too much nicer.
hope for the best barh.

saturday.

If people are going to make you bear the consequences of your dreams, then prove to them, and make them bear the consequences of their words.

its a pretty simple saturday for me,
without any events going on,
and just spending all the time at home.
i guess i have to really get into 100% ready position,
if not i will be KIA in eoy.

was thinking back on some memories.
erm, tuition days, when my family was much better then,
me and my bro had a private tutor.
perhaps i must really thank three person for my dialectical skils:
my mom, my p6 hcl tcher, and my tutor.
yea, those days were young and cheeky;
i had a real good cl tutor who taught me all her skills.
she even brought books back from china for my bro and i.
i think somehow part of my cl standard and debate skills are from her.

and thought of many many other stuffs.
and thinking of nowadays.
hmm, thinking of how the hell im gonna stop all the sit in the class.
things aint too good when a ***** is trying to kp u abt everything u do.
maybe sometimes we must bring out the old laws,
of 'shut ur trap and eat ur shit' then give her a good beating.
well, no more bloodshed, after six gd yrs at mps.

somehow, i really hope for the yr to end soon;
on the other hand, i dun.
i hope that it will end soon,
so all the shit i get will come to an end,
and no more ***** kp me all the day,
no more fking stereotypes,
no more oil tank.
but i wished that the yr dun end;
i cant bear to part with my clique,
well, perhaps i think...
i'll miss fighting with ECMT over the urinal,
i'll miss dav-san trying to open all our bags searching for wk to copy;
i'll miss jx-kun showing his sacarsm,
i'll miss ken's unique blurness.
i'll also miss onee-sama frequent pats on the shoulder,
i'll miss those men talks with RAR.

maybe after this show has end,
i have to go back to being the gentleman i am in reality.
taking off the costumes of a joker and bragger,
back to the gentleman with an extreme coolness.
but,
我洗去胭脂，何去何从？

two yrs...seriously, i learn too much.
i met true frens, i met true foes.
i dunno wad am i exactly lingering over,
i dunno wad am i exactly giving up on.
but, it was all this bitter sweet memories we had,
that makes life interesting.

friday.

"I've always love eating chocolates.
Not Kit Kat or Timeout,
but those dark, black, chocolates.
Those bitter bitter ones,
with a little bit of sweetness in it.
You might ask me why I love bitter chocolates,
because, eating bitter chocolates is just like life.
Life is much more of bitter when you face up with troubles,
but learn to see things another way,
you will surely feel a little bit of sweetness.
It's more about learning in life;
Going through all these bitter stuff,
will not only make you used to its bitter taste,
but also giving you experience from all incidents.
Soon, you'll learn to experience life,
and appreciate the bitterness out of it,
learning, savouring, and thinking."

- Fushicho(Boss).

ok, back to the main story.
so today i finally got hold of the Ye Peng huat kueh recipe.
and gonna make things outta it.
hope it wun makes my HE stays at the C and B grades anymore.

and all along the whole day had been quite peaceful and boring.
quite. except for some parts there's a nit of fire with someone.
nah, not gonna elaborate on that. let her be.

and somehow, RAR was in a 40% mood today.
perhaps its cuz of the intelligence i gave him.
and then, he told me,
'im a person with a heart make of muscles.'

kao, this send me into deep thinking.
had i gone numb with bgr thingys,
or have i seen through and went beyond hito hito no mi?
i dunno. sometimes, it hard for me to smile, to get angry, to get sad.
troubles comes, i dunno how the hell i can stay put and fight it off, calmly.
and i dun get panic easily. i dun get agitated easily.
i view things easily. when it screws, i fixed.
when i lost, i fight it back. simple.

maybe all those experience from last yr made me too strong.
too cool, till the point im sosphicated.
all those alone days made me strong, made me calm;
i could easily fight off troubles.
i analyse better than many. i gained leadership.

perhaps things always comes with a price.
gaining high EQ means losing all the primitive moods and feelings of human.
maybe that's a price too high to pay.
but then, its worth it.

well, i really lyk my clique somehow.
with ppl lyk dav-san, ECMT, jx-kun. and ken.
ppl who had the same common interest.
but yet, portray diff thinkings and personality.
perhaps getting to noe them is one of the best things in my life.
all the weals and woes, the fights and parties,
all those jokes and sacarsm..unforgettable memories.

till today, i have to wear a mask to school,
and force myself to be angry and sad when its time to do so.
well, sometimes it just seems weird,
when you see yitian being too strong and calm,
too cool to the point that he can do a soru run, a tekai block,
and then a shigan at his foes.
well, if yitian is of wad he is actually, things would be too weird.
i guess nobody would lyk me to be,
link with the words gentleman, dashing, strength and wits.

well, exams are coming soon.
which means the yr's ending soon.
and 2e3's affinity ending soon.
well, thanks peeps,
for all you gave me.

thursday.

dumbfolded, rooted, nothing else.
wad you said, left me with no words.

i read fel's blog.
and she address everything regarding ytd's incident.
okay, btw, we settled everything b4 10pm ytd nite.
so, im here just to say some of my feelings.

well, at first i took the comment so seriously,
was firstly, we're in the public,
and secondly, i dun take it as a joke as i tot we aint that close.

but then, wad she wrote at her blog,
left me with no words.
nothing but remorse, shame, guilt.
"...But I was a little disappointed though.

I thought we were close enough for you to take my words like my steads.

But I was wrong I guess. All those phone calls just accumulated to nothing."

to think that she still rmb those few calls,
those things that were ages back.
to think she still rmb this friendship.
so that's why she took it as a joke.
(sorry i didnt mean to copy things from ur blog..but..)

i rmb those calls.
talking abt hw, and some other stuff. stupid but fun.
maybe that was how our frenship started. and built on those calls.
for once i thought u forgotten those calls.
but yet, u rmb, u rmb this frenship. i have nothing to say.

i treasured you very much as one of my best frens,
and once i thought its game over for this frenship,
until ytd nite. well, still, very sorry for all the stuff ytd.
and when i knew that u still view me as a fren,
and rmb those calls, there's a kind of pierce in the heart chambers.
because, i still have such a gd fren lyk you.
still, must apologise for all that attitude,
i think....it will not sabotage our frenship, rite?

oh, and btw,
read abt another thing in her blog.
"...Sometimes, you make a joke that you think is a joke.

But what did my stead think? It’s not a joke, you did it deliberately.

Did you apologise?..."

seriously,
maybe i should be much, much more discreet in my words all the time.
or just shut up for a moment.
maybe its all this unintention words that cause all misunderstand.
perhaps that was the reason that made me lost a fren.
well, also want to apologise to the class,
if any of my jokes and words had offended you,
it was purely of unintention.

well, i think i will end here for today,
and get starting for some relaxing stuff.
erm, orange juice and comics?
let's end this with a quote:

To get out of a difficulty, one usually must go through it
- Samuel Easton