thursday.

dumbfolded, rooted, nothing else.
wad you said, left me with no words.

i read fel's blog.
and she address everything regarding ytd's incident.
okay, btw, we settled everything b4 10pm ytd nite.
so, im here just to say some of my feelings.

well, at first i took the comment so seriously,
was firstly, we're in the public,
and secondly, i dun take it as a joke as i tot we aint that close.

but then, wad she wrote at her blog,
left me with no words.
nothing but remorse, shame, guilt.
"...But I was a little disappointed though.

I thought we were close enough for you to take my words like my steads.

But I was wrong I guess. All those phone calls just accumulated to nothing."

to think that she still rmb those few calls,
those things that were ages back.
to think she still rmb this friendship.
so that's why she took it as a joke.
(sorry i didnt mean to copy things from ur blog..but..)

i rmb those calls.
talking abt hw, and some other stuff. stupid but fun.
maybe that was how our frenship started. and built on those calls.
for once i thought u forgotten those calls.
but yet, u rmb, u rmb this frenship. i have nothing to say.

i treasured you very much as one of my best frens,
and once i thought its game over for this frenship,
until ytd nite. well, still, very sorry for all the stuff ytd.
and when i knew that u still view me as a fren,
and rmb those calls, there's a kind of pierce in the heart chambers.
because, i still have such a gd fren lyk you.
still, must apologise for all that attitude,
i think....it will not sabotage our frenship, rite?

oh, and btw,
read abt another thing in her blog.
"...Sometimes, you make a joke that you think is a joke.

But what did my stead think? It’s not a joke, you did it deliberately.

Did you apologise?..."

seriously,
maybe i should be much, much more discreet in my words all the time.
or just shut up for a moment.
maybe its all this unintention words that cause all misunderstand.
perhaps that was the reason that made me lost a fren.
well, also want to apologise to the class,
if any of my jokes and words had offended you,
it was purely of unintention.

well, i think i will end here for today,
and get starting for some relaxing stuff.
erm, orange juice and comics?
let's end this with a quote:

To get out of a difficulty, one usually must go through it
- Samuel Easton