tuesday.

Awfully. Awaken.

alot of things happened.
and really dun wan to elaborate on them.
but still, one thing i must say. pe lesson.
mr ron told the class i was outta fac.
and ask them for their support and applause.
only around less than 6 ppl clapped.
i heard six. and saw one.
she's showed me, for all along, she treated me as a classmate.
arigato, onee-sama.

perhaps. after so long,
i must say, i have really awakened.
its kind of painful, its kind of upset.
still, i wake up. from dillusion.
i've lost.

that very moment, the asura in me conquered me lyk nvr before.
rage and bellicosity took over me.
it tore my heart. it tore my feelings.
and yet, it tore my honour.
i vented it all on the notice board.
i vented it shouting.
i vented, i cried.

nvr ever had gave a damn.
nvr ever turn back and look.
okay, i accept that reality and walk on with life.
but im just pathetically, stronger. stronger.

ever since the very day i wanted this dillusion,
i gave up fame, power, wealth for this dillusion.
ever since i gave them up, i gained back the primitive feelings.
okay, life goes on, you killed them. but, whr else can i go.

was having a drink with martin in the canteen.
three voices suddenly spoke in my head,
'A: it seems lyk u're utterly defeated.
B: u lost, my fren. to something that have despise you.
C: aha, you're desserted, and ur heart is torn!
B: but nvr to forget all the timesd we spent last yr.
A: but nvr to forget how u perservere for us.
C: but nvr to give up, life goes on, show that u can do better, ouka-sama!
A, B, C: the world might give up on you, but not us!!! '

their names were ambition, aspirations, and...dream.

no choice, but to give up.
life goes on.
i might sounds friggin pathetic,
but im really that.
daijoubu minna, im alrite!
even if im down to one man,
but i still have them: ambition, aspiration, dream.
its time...i've seen it all.
arigato.

A great fall, but not to worry.
Life goes on, just like before.
Take a rest, take a breathe,
Cry when sad, laugh when glad.
Lost it, then shall it be,
Because life goes on,
no matter what.
Give yourself a tap, pull yourself up;
More adventure awaits you,
In the near future.

It's a past, it's a tragedy;
Forget them, life goes on!
The sun still shine, the time still goes.
Bear in your mind,
Be strong, be strong.

Live the best, after a rest,
A short break, for a longer walk.
Life goes on, as usual,
Be yourself, smile and walk.

Life goes on, life goes on,
Pathetically, life goes on!
It's your life, walk it on,
Life goes on, till deathbed.
No more tears, no more joy,
It's a fresh, brand new day.

Cry no more, laugh no more,
No matter what, till eternal.
World's betrayal, peers desertion,
But still, you still have yourself.

Set sail, steer the rudder;
I take over the helm,
I sail the seas.
Today, its another big setback,
But let's hold through it,
To watch the sunrise tomorrow.