500th post

another day full of haste like yesterday.
got to pack stuff for OBS,
and then also try to complete my homework,
which i deem as impossible.
well, 5 days of adventure and enjoyment;
in return you get lesser time to do work.
it's a bit worthwhile,
after all, no pain no gain right?

got my feet to bishan library to do the geog project today.
and then i saw koh chin there. wow.
well, i really like the way my team members do things.
efficient, on the dot.
things just goes out well when people tend to work with one another.
hmm, today i saw a real life example. haha.

so now i'm spending my remaining hours towards OBS,
doing work, playing com, packing bag.
sometimes i tend to think of things when i'm alone.
in the midst of doing mathematics,
when you just want to stop and chill for a while;
having a cup of drink in your hand,
you tend to wonder much about life.

wonder positively, i must say.

perhaps it's all the times i spend alone make me strong.
no, it IS these times that make me strong.
certain times when you have to depend on yourself.
if not, everything fails.

i seem to be a bit more cheerful and happy during the holidays.
sad to say, it is because i'm seeing my classmates less often.
well, sometimes i just want to keep the upbeat feeling going on.
but at a certain point of time it got to stop.

even though i've got a pile of work undone,
sometimes it just never get onto my mind really.
giving the callous or the 'heck care' attitude towards it.
i find myself being callous with so much things in life nowadays.
when you just loss much passion for everything;
after seeing the ugly side of things and you're enlightened.
sometimes, when you tend to view things in another way,
a lot of problems are no more problems.
problems only arises when you treat them as problems.

nothing seems to keep me going on for life.
chasing the dreams that failed me,
chasing the targets i've yet to achieve,
chasing back the friends, mates, brothers that deserted me.

i find myself becoming more like a living machine,
which is switch on only for on purpose:
seeing the sunrise and sunset in each day.

sometimes when your existence is ignore,
you tend to feel less and less important in this world...
and tend to back out of everything;
because they don't really need you.

happily ever after, the fairytale says.
what about the orcs, imps and barbarians defeated?

i'll create my very own world.
my very own world to shelter these that has been defeated by the cruel reality.
i call it my world.
i call it our 'happily ever after'.