shaped.

today's HCL paper was still within my standard.
well, deducting 10 mins for toilet and 30 mins for slacking,
it'll really be quite amazing if i get some colourful marks.

completed another good survey today.
surveying about the human psychology again.
well, guess who i've been surveying.

i just found out that this dear friend of mine,
have mild bipolar disorder.
mild, mild only.
but what is so amazing about this mental illness is that,
people who are diagnosed with it have great potential to do great stuff.
we have a few good cases here;
winston churchill, mozart, and even the kids' favourite hans chiristian anderson.

but what that really brought these people to success isn't the illness.
but is one of the major consequence that this mental illness will give them.
and this consequence is known as loneliness.

many said that people who have gone through hard times,
and suffered well to earn good experience,
will make it great in life, because they understand more things than others.
but i think there's more besides all these.
circumstances do shape a man, and loneliness,
is in fact one of the worst, yet most effective way to shape someone.

being alone just means pretty much, the same thing.
walking alone, doing work alone, making decisions alone, solving problems alone...
but it is being alone that taught many lifeskills that would thank everyone,
from god to satan, for.
the great skill of independence and self reliance shaped strong personalities,
and also great wisdom and knowledge for a lonely one who is eager to go ahead of those that are in cliques and groups.

loneliness is also a state that makes one often feel helpless,
and also a state that one would always be left alone whenever anything happen.
under such circumstances, lonely people tend to pull themselves up at a much faster rate than most people-
they only have themselves to help them.

loneliness, being a one of those trauma that many would have,
often motivates the patient in a way that he or she is so eager to rid him or herself of the empty feeling that is unexplainable.
under such cases, the rate of self understanding and meditation is so strong,
until one could attain a level whereby the mental will is so developed and strong,
that he or she is able to do extraordinary things.

successful historical figures such as isaac newton,
winston churchill, and also french emperor napoleon,
was stated that they gone through loneliness before when diagnosed with bipolar disorder.

maybe those that study physics will study about the newton's third law.
circumstances and the people in it have the same theory.
"the harder a circumstances pushes a man, the harder a man is when he accelerates forward".

once again i emphasize,
the lessons of today are experiences of tomorrow,
the hatred of today are motivation for the future.
one day you find a lonely kid being outcast by all-
you never know if he would be the next stresemann, hitler, churchill....
or even bigger than that!