today

as a burning match, I light the fire in the hearts of many.

i would say today is one of the better days i had this month.
school's kinda happy for me today.
i really like how it is going. well, if tomorrow stays this way too,
then it will be good. haha.

suddenly a bit of that spirit is brought back into me.
the feeling of that force, that force that pushes me high last year.
all the motivation for life, all the encouragement.
i dunno how all these came about;
maybe since my classmates started talking that little bit to me,
maybe since i have another perspective of life;
but i felt it. that force that pull me up before.
i dunno how long it's gonna stay with me;
but i know it's gonna be of good use when it is around.

and soon, after all these exams,
it's gonna be spec course, OBS, and many more.
then, we'll be real specialists. the ones leading.
i don't really care about what post i'm going to get;
but i know that i'm going to do something big.
i will light the fire in the hearts of my junior;
the fire, the craze, the passion for this cca, and for themselves.
not only i want to teach them things that is useful in NCC-
i'll teach them things that's gonna stay with them for life.
like how NCC taught me so much.

while i'm trying to prepare for my exams and my specialist course,
now i'm also planning for something bigger.
and finally, much of the idea is done.
with morals and perception mentioned in this blog,
i'll try to write a story;
a story of a romance between a woman and trans-woman.
for this, i need support from big capitalist,
and also one good co-director,
and also those actors and actress that are good but no one discovers their talents.
and i think my ideal scriptwriter would be Mr Cheow.
a shoe shop, NS Naval Lieutenant, and this movie-
that's my life's biggest target.