saturday

well, zihua my brother, your tag there reminds me of another song the Sparkz share.
i guess you'll remember this right?
the time where we were at the lower parade square,
singing this song, trying to jio the ma'am.
again, it was another beautiful memory.
one of the fun times i had with people that i met.
again, i wonder how are my mates doing.

well, at first i came to my blog early in the morning,
and was thinking of blogging to kill some boredom.
but after reading one of my friends tag on the tagboard,
(there there that one that tell me not to be so pessimistic)
i think i got some inspiration to write.
finally that feel is back people.
so let's cut the crap and get into the topic.

and like what she say, there will be people in this world,
i would learn to appreciate for.
i would appreciate for their existence,
appreciate them for what they have done,
all those care and concern they gave me.

yes definitely there are people who i appreciate.
people like my parents, my mates, and some of my old friends.
well xavier if you happen to read this,
i would want to tell you you're one of them.

but i'm just concern about whether if there's people who appreciate me.

to say pessimistic thing in an early saturday morning isn't a good thing to do.
yesterday left me with a good mood for chiong swa today,
and i don't really wish to say pessimistic things that will spoil the mood.
but then, sometimes things really need to be released.
i just wonder if there's anyone who appreciate me.
sometimes, having your existence made zero in many places,
makes you feel like you are not needed by others.

certain times, whenever i'm leaving somewhere,
nobody will note that.
i said goodbye, no one said that back.

a smile from your face,
a reply made to my comment.
sometimes, it's enough to brighten me up for a week.

after going through times where people stood with you,
and you suddenly got abandoned by them.
it doesn't really feels that good.

but i'm glad i'm able to get all that feel back.
that haki, i would say.
that feel that stunned my juniors and shocked my mates.
it was what that took me to the top of the honours last year.

after five months of cold feeling,
i'll just woder if,
next time somebody say's hello or goodbye to me,
will i reply to them?
because living in a class without someone to say hello,
without someone to say goodbye, without someone to reply to your questions,
i'll just wonder if i'll lose that ability to reply.

people i don't want to lose that.

no matter how much you hate or despise me,
next time whenever you see me,
just have that little greeting that will brightens everyone's day.
because i don't want to lose the ability to reply.