any other day

"on any other day I'm blue I was crying,
I could tell the world at least I'm trying..."

just another day had gone in life;
like any other day.

weren't really upbeat with some of my tests results;
well, i believe a happy-go-lucky person like me gives no shit about all these.
and i always don't;
there's more meaningful stuff in life for us to care about.
education for the soul and spirit, instead of physical?

well, had another NDP rehearsal in school today.
though i screwed up quite a lot;
but at least i improve compared to the last time.
well, it doesn't really matter anymore when people mocked at me for a bad job done;
a tremendous improvement is already considered a good job!

I caught you looking downwards at us;
but in a split second, you're gone.

and so, after a long day school;
full of jokes and crap,
i'm here back at home,
trying to get a break and to see the next sunrise.

well, sometimes i really wonder how lucky you mortals are,
yet you wouldn't know how to cherish things beside you.
you all whine when you get Bs for your results,
you all grumble when the food in the canteen ain't delicious;
you all cried hard way your crush tells you "let us just be friends",
you all sigh when he or she wasn't close to you.

i really wonder do you see what that is around you.

you all have friends around you,
spending a recess with you nosily;
yet i only have a book, and myself! (:

you all at the minimum, pass your test;
i failed with grey colours!

you all have delicacies of various assortment;
i only have vegetable and rice. with a bit of curry.

you all cried when friends cannot proceed to be lovers.
i never shed a tear when friends weren't anymore!

yet, when i compare myself to 7 years old kids who have to wake up every morning,
loading a AK-47, fighting off terrorist scavenging their homes;
and those ones that suffer from malnutrition and starvation;
and worse still, those illiterates who couldn't find jobs...

and one more, whenever you all feel emo or sad;
you have either a suave hunk or a pretty lass beside you,
who understands everything about you, and consoles you.

i have none, but myself!

i thank everyone for whatever i'm having now.

i used to be very pessimistic about my life...
until i got used to it, and then,
realised that there are people who are worse off than me...

i woke up every morning, grateful and thankful,
and carry on with life optimistically.

i don't have friends that would willingly lend me a listening ear;
i don't have buddies that would sincerely lend me a helping hand;
and of course, unlike you all, i lacked romance, i lacked friendships.

but compared to those third world citizens,
who woke up, only thinking how to survive to the next day...

i do felt that life was fair, to a certain extent.

at least i get education, at least i get three meals a day;
at least i got the ability to pull myself out of shit.

"yesterday's a memory, another page in history..."
true, yesterday's over, and today's ending soon...

but everyday will be like any other day;

when i'm blue, i'm crying;

in a split second i will understand how fortunate i am.

:D