再来一杯

hmm, life is pretty much okay today.
i can consider peaceful, and quite slack.
at least i get to go home early,
and then play a few rounds of CS :D

received my a maths paper;
manage to struggle through the whole thing.
well, there's a reason that i always score low in maths.
because i'm not a calculative person!
oh, and also received back the geog paper.
did okay for the paper. at least i nvr flunk.

and the rest of today,
it's pretty much slack.
well, have to get my arse working on the assignments,
and then also get my head thinking of FSD.
things are pretty screwed,
but it's alrite!
tougher things always gives us more challenges to train ourselves, right?

well, after a series of events that taken place recently,
i just realise, i haven't lost that willpower that keeps me fighting.
that will, that makes me survived the toughest of hell.
that fire, isn't extinguish.

sometimes, i really wonder how are things going to take place.
the soon-to-come FSD competition, pretty screwed by someone;
and then my academics, have to really buck up on various subjects;
and then, many things that are going to happen this year.
great, i can't just take things as they come.

i was just wondering that how devastated i am yesterday,
and then, how happy am i today.
then i just realised,
what i went through in 2e3 and NCC are not just for the sake of going through;
it really turn me into a real man.
enduring hardships, fighting for your stand..
these are things that many couldn't take it.
and i wonder, why do i have the will to subdue all these.
and i just realise, it'd all about the effect those hard times left me.

today i can sit down, and think a bit again.
i remember those hard times in the past two years;
hated by a whole 39 people,
deserted by your company,
seem to be the one that will fail.
two years past,
i manage to make frens with these 39 ppl,
and i'm still surviving in my company.
that's what that makes you a veteran.
tears and sweat, until they dry up.

today, looking at my various frens and classmates,
committing the same mistakes that i've gone through two years back.
i couldn't bear to stop laughing;
laughing at their stupidity,
laughing at their rashfulness,
laughing at their immaturity,
laughing at their greed.

and laughing at myself,
for once i had been someone like them.