push forward.

and today, i really have to get my ass working on academics.
and then i was just wondering, would how many ppl,
actually read finish my post, or even read my post at all.

it's the same kind of before-going-back-to-school feeling.
somehow this time i dread going back to school.
back there i have so much trouble to settle that were caused by others,
and i have to see the cold faces of my classmates.
okay, not all larh, there are still some okay ones, and quite friendly.
worse still you have to see the faces of some unhonourable bastards,
who flashes their claws like tigers,
and open their jaws like wolves.

the long holiday did not energize me,
and also, things never seem to be better.
next week is a week full of test,
and then there's still quite some shit.
okay, maybe after this month,
things will brighten up a bit.
i'm just waiting for things to get better,
along with doing whatever i can.

somehow i felt kind of lost in this era, this society.
suddenly everything seem to be very dull.
i guess that is because for once,
i lost the purpose of current life,
and then, my human relationships ain't well.

don't really like going back to school.
you have no one to talk to,
you do all kinds of shit work from your teacher and you can't complain.
this time, i really getting very tired.
tired of all the human hypocrisy,
tired of all the struggles.

nevertheless,
i have to push myself forward.
'cuz no one else cares if you fall or stand.

these few days come and go like nothing.
i felt that its a bit of wasted.
i have no mood to do work,
and no mood for many things.
things got out of hand,
and now i'm looking at the after effects.

still, i have to go on.

tomorrow's the reopening of school.
what that keeps me going there is,
FAC, and perhaps, nothing else.

life don't really seem nice when you have no hopes for it.
but still, the clock never stops,
and life goes on.

fight on. push forward.