New Era.

sunday morning, before everything starts afresh again.

thinking back, i just realised that a lot of incidents had took place.
the powder incident, my HCL tcher, the FSD incident, the CIP incident.
so much things took place, and almost each of it i ended in defeat.

i was just wondering why i had to give way all the time.
i didn't choose to, but i had to.
take a look,
i rmb how brandon sabo me last time, cuz things never went his way.
this time, perhaps i had to let go a bit on FSD,
if not there will be a lot of trouble.
for the sake of peace barh, i had to give up my aspirations,
of making ZHNCC the champion of FSD.

after reflecting through so many incidents,
i realised, in fact, i have not lost my true self.
in fact, i'm still like what i used to be.
i want to see a start of a New Era, a new start of this society.
and i want to be one that start all these things.
like Simon Bolivar, George Washington, Sun Yat-sen, Lenin(though his a communist),
i want to be like them, starting a New Era.

always in the past,
i told myself, i would be the one getting the ball rolling.
and whenever i can peacefully get the ball rolling,
some selfish ppl, who want things their way,
would snatch the ball from me.

always, i been looking for a stage of my own.
i had many in the past, but selfish ppl stole it.
looking at the situation now,
i really want to take things back;
but for the sake of peace, for the sake of unification,
i can't bear to do so.

it's like, they're doing everything which everyone suppose to be sharing.
and when i did this in the past,
i got condemned. i got a death sentence. i was never used anymore.
and yet when they did it, nothing happened.
because now, me, as the opposition,
have never took the chance to stir trouble.

after going through so much in these two months,
i even believe more firmly in Absolute Justice.
it's very different from the Moral Justice you get;
Absolute, means everything have to balance.

everytime things happen,
i don't think that they took place for no purpose.
they have a meaning, and a aim behind them.
perhaps for me, going through so much is to shape me for the best.

oh by the way, **** the censorship in this post.

sometimes, things have to really take place.
Absolute Justice. it's more or less, human means.
thinking back, by doing so actually cuts down the punishment on the evil-doer.
we don't want to see retribution of ten times happen naturally, right?

yeah.
in conclusion, perhaps, really, i'm not down yet.