sense it.

and the second day of CNY passed by, without much joy.

i was just thinking of something i caught on TV last night,
200 pound beauty. hey i know it sounds kinda lame,
and then it's an old show,
but then, a scene of the movie left me a food for thought.
it was a scene where the female protagonist, which i forgot the name,
revealed to her fans at her concert that she actually went for liposuction,
and then cosmetics surgery, turning from a fat gal into a beauty.
then many of those at her concert were shocked,
but soon many shouted out together, 'it's alrite!', and cheered her on.

i burst out in laughter,
and then ask myself,
'would how many say it's alrite everytime you commit a mistake,
by accident or purpose?'
i couldn't hold to link it with ZHNCC,
which hardly ever gave me a chance,
except jinchun;
and i couldn't hold linking that scene with 2e3'09,
which gave me so many chances.

okay, back to the story about today.
you know, i was just thinking about many many stuff of life.
at a point you lost what you have,
and things don't seem to be very nice for you;
all you need is some cheer and those 'jiayou jiayou',
to carry on with whatever shit you met in life.

never did any encouragement come.

i was just thinking of how much i, no, others screwed me up badly in life.
class, cca, many many things.
thinking back again, i realised this time i grew up a lot.
i don't just think like a 41 year old guy anymore;
i think more like a 51 year old guy.
hopefully every shit people give me make me think 10 years more ahead and mature;
maybe one day i can think like god.

i was just wondering about now,
since things are pretty much screwed by some dunno what idiots,
maybe i should go find a better purpose in life to replace what i've lost.
i guess i found it, to stay happy and bring happiness.
be more of a remi gaillard. prankster, joker.

one life, live it.

days ago, i just realise all along with have to face with reality.
reality's cruelty, reality's harshness.
i was wondering, if reality was there, with its human nature,
and its selfishness, greed, everything,
why does morals stand for thousands of years?

then i found out,
because the good and righteous never falls.

正气长存，天下为公.