hikari

i just need a light or something to brighten up life now.
or, maybe a little lighthouse to guide me to the shores.

feeling very lost in life.
lost all the motivation that keeps me running in the long run,
lost all those friends that once shared the same jokes with me;
lost the legendary spirit that got a broken one back on his feet,
lost the will to go on with the faraway dreams.

maybe in the past, i don't need one.
but now, yes. i need one to guide me.
maybe i'm worn out and rusty after all the waves and storms.

i wonder if i could have another chance to choose in life.
to choose to do the things that i did wrong.
choosing to cheer those hearts that i broken.
choosing to stop those mistakes that landed me in troubles.
yet thinking again, i would choose to commit them once more.
because, they and those, are what that makes me grow.

the MYEs are on the way to me.
not getting ready yet, but soon, i'll be ready.
i really wonder, if i have lost all the power to fight like how i fought years back.

they say that it is time,
that changes a man, shapes a man, prove a man.
but time taught me many things.
it taught me that it would never be with me.
i have to run after it.

so, people, don't waste good time doing things meaningless.
do something that's worthwhile.
do something that's beneficial.

5 items test tmr.
and then, HCL test, then, MYEs.
following will be spec course, and then a lot of things.
life never stops for us to take a break.
we have to find time ourselves to take a breather from the haste.

running out of inspirations.
the dull life left me with nothing to write.