I still have Me

acknowledgment to http://www.brianrwright.com for the picture.

well, today i'm going to tell of you who come across here something funny.
it's about me, about myself, about one of my habits.

well, if you're a frequent reader of this site,
then you must have realised that the writer here,
is one person who come across obstacles and problems all the time.
and if you are also a frequent reader of the posts,
then you must have know that the writer is somewhat being outcast.

well, it's not a very good feeling to be outcast all the times;
for your existence is not worth mentioning about,
for everyone treats your existence like something that doesn't matter,
for almost every word you speak, no one hears,
and for almost every action you do, no one gives a damn.
going through such situations, when everytime i'm on myself;
i would not fall to the ground and cry,
but i will give my right arm a tap, my left arm another tap,
and my head a touch, and i will say,
"haha! at least i still have you guys accompanying me in this struggle."

for you might think that i am insane to do this,
but actually, that is the first step towards self reliance and independence.
to do things, solve problems that are yours by yourself.
in my life, there are always times that i am stranded alone,
forgotten by the others, or leave behind by others purposely.
no cure would crying and shouting at others do anything,
but standing up strong at your feet will surely help.
because at the end of the day,
you are the only person who can help yourself.

today, like the many times i spent in the last two years;
i am, again, stranded alone, left behind, forgotten.
but i do not get super emo over things,
i do not hide in a corner and cry,
and of course, i do not make a fuss over everything.
instead, i depend on myself to do things;
i do alone a six-man group work,
i asked my teachers about work, instead of asking classmates,
i kheng the canteen auntie when i have no money, instead of borrowing from others.

i always thought that what that have happen to me is a disaster.
but now, i finally see the way of how fate arrange my life.
it is to make me strong. strong until i could bury a 1 000 000 strong army alive.

people out there, when you guys are on the verge of giving up,
and there is no one to motivate you, no one to help you,
it doesn't matter at all!
just give your right arm a tap, your left arm another tap,
and your head a touch, and tell them,
"haha! at least i still have you guys accompanying me in this struggle."