well i can't.

in fact today is consider...quite normal for me.

getting very restless suddenly;
and this symptom strikes me every morning.
i wouldn't have the mood to do anything,
and then i'm in quite a dizzy state.
i guess that's the after effect of all the shit that happen.
looks like i have to get a remedy soon.

i suddenly thought of another reason why people came over here,
to read my post and sort.
like what she said at the tagboard;
maybe some people are looking towards another side of me.
a lot of people told me before,
that they are puzzled by how the real life me strikes a difference with the blog me.
well, in fact it's just the matter of one person,
acting under two personality.
here is where all my charisma lies.

well, at least today i never screw up badly at the oral;
come on my tester is Mdm Zhang Hong!
unless she choose to guai lan me and gives me a F grade.
which is unlikely to happen.

days comes and go like this.
and soon it's going to be the holidays.
well, i'm just thinking of how to kill time over the hols after RTC.

oh by the way,
today something happen.
i saw her crying.
the tears rolled down her cheeks like never,
and then, i just have an urge to go up to her,
give her a piece of tissue paper,
and yell at her, 'stop crying!'.
but then, somehow i feel like my balls dropped off,
and i didn't get that done anyway.
somemore there's so many people around.
don't want them get wrong idea.
it reminds me of those days back in the lower sec...
how those tears washed the hell outta me then,
and made me so much better a person.

many a times i find myself a person with much fear.
i couldn't get to let my dreams fly,
and sometimes, i don't dare to express my feelings.
today's oral conversation topic was on 'BGR',
which i just get stuck and mute there.
i'm really a failure in relationships.

tomorrow's wednesday;
well, middle of the week.
i've been expecting a lot of stuff this week that i should not expect.
well, i have a hill of work today;
but who gives a shit anyway!
even if the deadline's here, i don't even give a hell.
i'll just use my six inches long tongue to save my ass.

想放慢脚步，来看看天，看看海，看看星，看看树.....
看看你。